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Leaning against the wall of the gym, tears falling freely down my face,
my knees began to give out. I slid down the wall wrapping my arms
around my knees. I had to hold my knees to my chest as tight as I could.
If I didn't, it felt as if my chest was going to split wide open. I know I'm
leaving, and maybe I'm being selfish, but I would give anything for
Dimitri to walk back through the door and take me in his arms.
Watching him leave and knowing he was walking out of my life was
tearing me apart. I hate thinking about how much this is going to hurt
him. I just hope one day he can find it in his heart to forgive me. As a
sob escaped my chest, I heard the doors to the gym open. I lifted my
head, not being able to see through the tears, I began to wipe them from
my eyes. Hoping it was him, I said "Dimitri, Is that you?" When I heard
her say my name my heart broke more, if that was even possible! "Are
you okay Rose? Lissa asked." She ran to me, kneeling next to me I
could sense the pain she was feeling for me through the bond. All I
could say is, "He's gone Lissa!" " Rose, What do you mean he's gone?"
Lissa said anxiously! Before I could answer her, she continued asking
me more questions. "Did you tell him Rose? Did he get mad and
leave?" I had to stop her, my head was spinning from all the questions
or maybe it was from all the crying. I'm not sure what it was; I just
know it was making me nauseous. My voice was cracking as I spoke.
"Lissa, I will explain everything to you if you promise to quit asking me
questions." Lissa leaned in and hugged me "I'm sorry Rose!" her voice
sounding sincere. I took a few deep breaths and cleared my throat. I was
trying to muster up the energy to explain everything to her. "Lissa I met
with Kirova this morning," I explained. "All the arrangements have been
taken care of." Not only could I sense her anguish through the bond, I
could see it on her face. " When will you be leaving?" she asked. I
reached for her hand, "Lissa you know that I love you. You're my best
friend, you're practically my sister." I was saying when she interrupted
me. "Rose I know you love me and I already told you I understand why
you have to do this. So will you please quit stalling and tell me when
you're leaving!" she said sounding a little impatient. "In two days, but I
talked to Kirova and she's agreed to allow me to come back to St.
Vladimir's to graduate." I replied. "Wow, two days that was quick. I
didn't expect you to leave so soon! Where are you transferring to?" she
asked. "I would rather not tell you Lissa, that way I don't put you in a
awkward situation with Dimitri." I construed. "Rose, how would that put
me in an awkward situation with Dimitri? You said he was gone. What
happened between you two? Was he mad when you told him?" she
interrogated. "Lissa enough with the twenty question." I was becoming
irritated. "He had to go to court for a couple days. The Queen needed an
extra guardian. See Lissa, when Dimitri comes back in two days, he's
going to want answers, and because of our bond and our friendship he's
going to come to you looking for those answers." I explained. Looking
even more confused she said," I still don't understand Rose!" I dropped
my head, not being able to face her. "Lissa, Dimitri doesn't know that
I'm leaving, I didn't tell him!" She gasped, "Rose, how could you not
tell him! This is going to kill him!" she shouted at me. Did she think I
didn't know all of this all ready? Did she really think that the guilt
wasn't going to eat me alive! "Lissa, he would never let me leave. He
would never allow me to do this for him. Think about it Lissa, Dimitri
loves me, but he's not sure it's enough. What kind of person would I be
if I let him give up everything for a love that might not be enough? I
love him so mush, it would hurt me more if one day he woke up and
resented me. I have to remove the complication from his life and the
complication is me." Lissa sat there just processing all the information I
was throwing at her. "Rose," she said. I think if you talk to Dimitri and
tell him you over heard his conversation with Alberta, you two could
work all this out. You wouldn't have to leave, and you could continue
your relationship. I just sighed and shook my head. "Did you not just
hear what I said to you Lissa? I'm not enough for him! He deserves so
much more." I said almost shouting. It stayed silent for a while. "Can I
confess something to you?" I said breaking the silence. "I think another
reason I'm leaving is I'm afraid. I'm terrified that Dimitri might finally
realize my love is not enough for him. I would rather us be over because
I thought I was protecting him. Not because our love wasn't worth it. I
don't think my heart could take that kind of rejection. You probably
think I'm a coward, don't you." Lissa lightly punched my arm. "Are
you kidding me Rose, coward is a word that will never be used along
with your name. I think you are brave and unselfish. I just hope your not
making a mistake, that's all." She said. "I would never consider
protecting Dimitri a mistake." I declared. Lissa stood up; she reached her
hand out to me and said. "Enough sitting here in this gym, it will only
make you feel worse. Your leaving in two days so let's go pack your
things." I grabbed her hand, letting her help me up. Before I walked out
the door, I turned around taking in all the surroundings, remembering all
my training, all the memories of Dimitri and I. Another tear escaped the
corner of my eye as I whispered, "I will always love you Dimitri!" Lissa
wrapped her arm around my shoulder and we walked out of the gym.
DPOV
Walking across the Quad towards the plane, I wanted to run back to
Rose. I couldn't believe how she just kissed me. She has never kissed
me like that before. It was almost like she was saying goodbye to me
forever. Did she think I wasn't going to come back to her? Rose has
been keeping something from me. And when I get back from court, I'm
definitely going to have a talk with her. There's something going on and
I'm not letting it go until she tells me what it is. I was almost to the
plane, when I heard him. "Guardian Belikov, it's about time you got
here." Adrian said. He had a smirk on his face as I approached him. I
didn't say anything to him. I just gave him one of my do not piss with
me looks as I passed him and walked onto the plane. Once on the plane I
sat towards the rear. I needed to keep a safe distance from Adrian,
mainly for his own safety. I was still furious and committed to killing
him for the comment he made to Rose before he left the gym. We were
about to take off when my cell phone rang. "Belikov" I answered.
"Hello Dimka" she said. I'm pretty sure I had a smile on my face when
I said. "Hello Mama, kak dela (how are you)?" "I'm fine Dimka, but I
need to talk to you about Viktoria." She replied. I was always so busy
with my job, that I rarely had time to contact my family. I did manage
to write them letters as often as I could. I told them about Rose and I in
my letters. They were all very happy for us; I couldn't wait for Rose to
meet my family. "What did she do now, Mama?" I asked. Viktoria was
my younger sister; she attended an academy about three hours from
home. "She has been getting into some trouble at the academy." She
started to say. "The Headmistress has informed me that if there is one
more incident with her, that she will be transferred. I was hoping that
maybe you could call her." she asked. Viktoria reminded me of Rose a
little. Especially when it came to their self-control. "I'm on my way to
court, the Queen needed an extra guardian for two days. I will call her as
soon as I get a chance. Try not to worry Mama." I told her. I could here
her sigh as if something else was bothering her. " Mama is something
else wrong?" I asked. "Dimka, are you and Rose doing okay? Yeva
seems to think there is something wrong." She said sounded concerned.
So my grandmother saw something in my future with Rose, now I was a
little nervous. I knew that Rose was keeping something from me, and
with Yeva seeing something in our future, I was becoming more
apprehensive. This was going to be the longest two days ever. Not
wanting my mother to worry I replied, " Everything is fine with me and
Rose Mama, tell babushka not to be so concerned. "I will tell her
Dimka," she answered. "I have to go run some errands in town, I will
talk to you soon. Please be safe Dimka, I love you!" she said. "I love
you too Mama!" I said as I hung up the phone. Leaning back in my seat
to relax, I closed my eyes and let out a groan. I began to daydream
about Rose when I heard him sit down in the seat across from me. I
peeked out of the corner of my eye and with an exasperated sigh I said.
"What the hell do you want Ivashkov?" Sounding so presumptuous he
said, "I just thought you should know that I love Rose, and I plan on
telling her when I visit her tonight in her dreams." I sat straight up in
my seat, my hands clenched into fist. The deadliest growl escaped my
chest. If I scared Adrian he wasn't showing it, in fact he had a smile
plastered across his face. "Ivashkov are you a fucking moron," I
shouted. "Rose told you she doesn't, nor will she ever have those
feelings for you. You need to back the hell off and stay out of her
dreams!" I said with so much indignation. He still just sat there with this
stupid grin on his face. He was really pushing me past my breaking
point. If I could just hit him one time, I thought! Just wipe that god
damn smile right of his face. Adrian relaxed more in his seat. Clearing
his throat, he let out a slight laugh. "What's wrong Belikov, afraid of
some competition?" he said. I began to laugh at him. "Ivashkov do you
seriously consider yourself competition? You are nothing more than a
drunken royal asshole!" I said. I saw him flinch a little at my words.
Adrian stood up like he was going back to his seat, but instead he looked
me straight in the eye and said, "I doubt Rose will be saying that tonight
when I have my lips all over her!" Well that did it! I jumped out of my
seat and had him by the collar of his shirt. Holding him off the ground
so his feet were just dangling off the floor, I brought our faces close so
he could see the danger in my eyes. Sounding as deadly as possible I
said, "Ivashkov leave Rose alone. I swear with everything I hold dear in
my life. If you hit on her one more time, I'm going to become your
worst fucking nightmare." As I released my grip on him, he fell on his
ass. Standing above him, he looked up at me with fear in his eyes. I
pointed my finger straight at him, conveying my message completely I
said. "This is not a threat Ivashkov, this is a fucking promise. Adrian got
off the floor, and without saying a word went to his seat. I have to admit
I felt a lot better having my chat with Adrian. Hopefully he will listen
so I don't have to screw up his face. Well the pilot just announced we
are getting ready to land. I started to think about Rose again. Once I get
settled I'm going to call her. I need to know what is going on!