She read the letter over and over again. She wondered what else he wanted to say that he wouldn't say on paper. She folded it up and put it in her purse. Martha and Alexis looked even more upset after reading theirs, but it was a different kind of upset. Kate couldn't quite put her finger on what had changed in their crying.

It had been two hours before the doctor came in. He looked stressed. They all stood up to go talk to him.

"We did our best to clean out his system but with not knowing what exactly was injected all we can do is wait and hope. We are pretty sure that when he was injected with it the direction of flow was wrong which could be beneficial. He also had severe head trauma. We don't know if he will wake up after all of this. There's an 86% chance he won't. I can take two people at a time to see him but I must tell you he isn't looking good."

Nobody really spoke. They all just nodded. Martha and Alexis followed the doctor down the hall. Lanie sat down by Kate.

She seemed like she was trying to find the right thing to say. There really was no right thing though. Nothing could take away the aching feeling in her chest.

"He's tough, he'll pull through this."

"14%. He only has a 14% chance of waking up." She said letting another tear fall down her cheek.

Lanie didn't know what to say to that so she just grabbed Kate's hand and gave it a squeeze.

When Martha came back Alexis wasn't with her. Kate gave her a questioning look.

"She had to go back to her room."

"How… how does he look?" Ryan asked.

"Not… good." She said trying to hold herself together. "Two more people can go see him."

Kate slowly stood up and looked to see who was going with her. Lanie stood up and they quietly left the room.

The first thing she noticed when she saw him was that he had a machine breathing for him. Then she noticed all the wires hooked up to him and the bandage wrapped around his head. This image would certainly give her nightmares. Tears started to pour down her face again.

She sat down next to him and put her hand in his. Lanie was standing behind her a hand on her shoulder.

"Don't die. Don't die. Don't die." She whispered to him. "You have to just wake up. You're Rick Castle. You don't give up. You can't give up here. I need you to just pull through this. I can't live a life without you in it. I know you think I'm invincible sometimes but right now I'm not. I need you. I'll break without you. I love you, Castle. I need you to stay alive for me." She stopped realizing the truth in what she was saying.

She sat in silence for a long time, just looking at him.

"I'm going to go let someone else come, are you staying here?" Lanie asked with a shaky voice.

Kate just looked at her and nodded. "I'll be out in a minute."

"Okay." Lanie said and walked off.

Kate stood up not letting her eyes leave his face. She bent down and kissed his forehead.

"I'm so sorry." She said softly then let go of his hand and turned to leave.

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