Never Do Without You
Morgan and Garcia
Chapter Five
May 2009
Her eyes came open because the sun was shining right on her face. It was just after dawn. Penelope dragged herself off the couch, where she had been indecently wrapped around Derek's nude body, and quietly found her clothes and glasses. She crept upstairs to the bathroom.
After she was dressed she went to his home office, found paper, jotted him a note and left it on his coffee table before slipping out the door.
Her body was sore but it was in the most delicious way.
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Derek was flopped on his stomach when he woke up. His mouth dry as the desert. Clooney licked his hand, wanting to go out. It took a moment for Derek to register he was naked and why.
Rolling over he looked around the room for signs of Penelope. His eyes fell on a piece of paper on the coffee table.
Groaning he snatched it up and read:
Going home to get some more sleep. Making love was awesome. Don't let this mess up our friendship. Nothing has to change if you don't want it to change. I still love and need you so don't be all weird about this. This tech kitten would love another night but I don't expect anything except that we stay friends. I need this friendship! Hope you slept well. Have a good day off and do something fun. Like me! Honestly though I will be okay if we don't make love again. Just know I do love you as much today as yesterday and I want things to stay cool. Love, a tech kitten who is sore, sore, sore but is not complaining about it.
Several times he read it, trying to read between the lines, hear what she hadn't wrote, and know what she really wanted. Her message seemed pretty clear though. The ball was in his court now.
Derek lay back and let out another groan. He was hard as fuck right then and Penelope was all the way across town now. What a hard headed woman!
He smiled slightly as he closed his eyes and relived in his mind making love with her the night before. Clooney interrupted him by nuzzling Derek's arm with his wet, dog nose.
"Okay, boy, lets go out."
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Penelope spent the day trying to be mature about the whole thing. She had loved being with Derek but she wanted to shield her heart from longing for too much. That way if they never made love again she could accept it and move on with a smile on her face.
She hadn't wanted to be there when he woke up cause it might get awkward. Leaving gave him time to think and when they spoke or saw each other again then he could act the way he truly felt and not just out of a quick response to a heated situation.
That day she treated the idea of making love with Derek in a very "I could take it or leave it," way because that was all her heart could handle. She did not want to delve too deep into her feelings because if she admitted how deeply being with Derek affected her, how the rightness of it all touched her soul, then she was putting her heart on the line. If he didn't feel the same things would for sure get tense between them.
That's the last thing she wanted. Whatever happens in the future Penelope wanted her and Derek to remain on great terms with each other. Making love should not ruin anything. It had been a great release of emotion and tension. They both needed it. And today they both needed to be adult about the whole thing.
So that's what she was intent to do.
Penelope spent her day cleaning her apartment, wearing sweats and playing music, and also running updates on her home computers. Sometimes memories would float through her mind of the night before. She didn't try to push them away but she did try to see it as only sex. Not make it into a big love affair when she had no idea what Derek was feeling right about now.
If she had stayed at his place she might know but a part of her didn't want to find out quite yet. She wanted to stay in her bubble of being the mature, I'm fine with whatever, adult that she was pretending to be.
When her phone rang late that afternoon she ran to the kitchen to grab it off the counter and breathlessly, heart pounding fast, read the name. A huge smile came to her face when she saw it was Derek. In that moment she wasn't nervous he would say it was a mistake.
That day she had pushed down deep all those fears and covered them up with a feigned air of being indifferent to what happened next. Since she told herself she was not expecting anything from him then she wouldn't be upset if he was cool staying just buddies.
As long as he didn't push her away. She could not deny that it would break a piece of her if he did that.
She answered the phone by saying "It's the man who puts the Oh my God, yes in orgasmic."
He chuckled. "Happy to be of service."
"You very much were. How's those scratches on your back doing today?"
"I could have used someone here to put ointment on them."
"Your living room is too bright to sleep in past dawn."
"Excuses, excuses. Girl, there are shades. Next time use them or just crawl in my big bed and wait for me to come find you for a wake up call."
"So does that mean my Mr. Amazing isn't mad at his Baby Girl?"
Derek chuckled. "Oh, I'm mad. Running out on me like that. I'm seriously offended but last night was so damn good," his voice turned silkily smooth "that I will forgive you. This time. Next time you better keep your cute ass put."
She heated up and waved a hand in front of her face. "So, tell me, handsome, should I come back over tonight for this next time that you mentioned? Or is this next time more of a maybe someday sort of thing?"
"Mmmm, I would love to see you again tonight. I want to be with you again very, very much, Penelope."
"Ohhh, you do tempt me so. Did I ever tell you that every time I hear your voice over a phone line I go completely wet in an instant? Little known fact. Completely true. Spread the word."
"Woman," he rumbled "do not make me come over there and bend you over a table."
"To spank me?"
"Maybe afterwards."
"Ohh! Derek, you do know what to say to get my blood up. What time should I be at your place? I'm going to drive very carefully over there so I don't get pulled over because all I'm going to wear is a trench coat, spike heels and a smile."
"Mmmmm, stop it! You're making it so hard to concentrate right now. Its bad enough I can still hear you moaning in my head. But you keep talking like that and I will be left speechless...and Mr. Amazing will be locked, loaded and ready for action. That ain't what I'm looking to have happen till you are within arm's reach again, baby girl."
"You're very lucky that last night left me wanting more so you can get your wish of being with this tech Goddess another time. At least for tonight you will be a very lucky super hero. How about I come by around eight and we eat dinner very, very late? Like midnight. Or tomorrow morning, depending on how long it takes you to make it so I want food more than I want to suck dry your chocolate pudding pop. What do you say, baby? Sound good to you?"
"Actually I was thinking I'd swing by and pick you up to go out."
"Oh, Morgan, you know mama does not like to be exposed. Sex in public is a no no for me. You'll have to move on to fantasy number two. But I promise to make it well worth the disappointment."
"Silly girl. I wanna pick you up to take you to dinner. Not to get arrested for indecent exposure. Besides I don't like the idea of anybody having the chance to see all your beautiful Goddess curves but Derek Morgan."
"Derek Morgan can see them all he wants tonight when I come over. I wanna eat in bed, with your sexy chest as my dinner table."
He laughed. "That fantasy is a little different but I'm game. Just not tonight. Tonight there's a restaurant I wanna check out. Prentiss said there's a new Thai place in downtown DC that's awesome and I know how you love Thai, sweetheart."
"Tell me the name of it. I'll get take out on my way to your place."
"Penelope," Derek said sternly "I don't want to invite you over just to have hot sex. I want to take you out on the town first and then, and only then, will we come back here for the hottest sex of your life."
"I'm just not in the mood to go out. Sorry, baby. But I do wanna come over if you still want me to. Remember: trench coat, spike heels, pearl necklace, that perfume you love and absolutely nothing else on me when I walk through your door."
"You've just made that my newest, hottest fantasy. It even tops you on my desk in the bullpen at 3 am."
"You know that someone is always in that building and the cameras never turn off."
"Derek Morgan has no problem with the possibility of being exposed and the hot part about it is you want me so much that either do you."
"Mmmm, that does sound smoking hot. Wanna set a date to try that out?"
He laughed. "No thank you! I wanna keep my job. Not all fantasies should be acted out."
"Have you ever had a fantasy about me, you and another girl? And if so, who? And don't say anyone who is my friend cause I don't want to take my best friend off the grid but if you force my hand..."
Derek grinned. "Sweetness, I do not share you with anyone else. Not even in a fantasy. Now how about that dinner? What do you say? I know you're not in the mood for anything but ravishing me but I'm in the mood for taking my sweet lady out so can you just give me this one and I'll give you anything you want in return."
"I'd have to get dressed up and I don't feel like it."
"Its casual. You know I love you in your sexy dresses but I got a thing for that booty in a pair of jeans too. So throw some on and be ready at twenty after seven to try the hottest new Thai joint in DC."
"Some other time. Tonight I just want to ravish you repeatedly."
"Penelope...are you trying to tell me something? Like all you want from me is smoking sex and no thanks to anything else?"
"Would that be so wrong?"
"For two other people, maybe not. For us, hell yes, it would be all sorts of wrong. And I'm sorry, baby girl, I do love you and respect you and want to give you all you want but I will not be part of something like that. Not with you. So, one minute to decide, all in or nothing at all. Are we dating or was last night a one time thing that we'll both have to use for fantasy material because its not happening again? Clock is ticking...what's your answer, hard head?"