Lexi walked from the bathroom. She'd had all of 5 minutes sleep. Well probably more than that but it felt like 5 minutes when she was suddenly awake and running to the bathroom.
Her mum was giving Amie a bottle at the kitchen table. Well Amie was on her mums knee while she held her bottle.
"Another month and then you go on the sippy cup Ames." Alice said stroking her short black hair.
"Mum I think I need to change my medication. This new one is making me sick." she said.
"Ok sweet I'll sort it our next check up."
"Thanks." she walked towards Liv's bedroom.
After she heard a muffled come in she walked in and sat down.
"Are you bothered that Thabo leaves you behind to go boxing with Ethan all the time?" Lexi asked without preamble.
"Yeah of course but he isn't gone long and he makes time for us when he gets back." Liv replied.
Lexi nodded.
"Me and Ethan argued. Again. I told him we were over. Again. I just feel sick and tired and weepy and just lethargic you know. Stupid medication!" she muttered. Lay on Lexi's bed holding wrapped her arms around her stomach.
"Yeah maybe Lexi!" Liv said sarcastically.
"What?" Lexi asked frowning.
"Well what was your mum like with your dad with Amie?"
Lexi thought back. Clingy emotional. Shattered. Being sick. Her hand clapped over her mouth.
She shot up from lying on the bed. "Nooooooo." she drew the word out.
"Well have you two been careful?"
"Sort of." she said uncomfortably.
"Lexi!" Liv said.
"Well I'm on the pill. The doctors didn't tell me whether my medication would affect it. I sorta lured him to a hut and seduced him. He didn't have a condom. We thought we'd be fine. Plus it was only once…well twice, and the doctors told me I might have problems conceiving as chemo can damage fertility!"
"Did they give you a definite you will not be able to have kids."
"Well no." Lexi said.
Liv shook her head. Went in her drawer pulled out a test.
"Me and Thabo had a scare. Here!"
She took it. "I know I'm fine. it's the medication!" she said defiantly. "I know I'm not…." she couldn't even say the word.
"Well then Lex, you have nothing to worry about!"
"You think I should wait till he gets back or do it now?" Lexi asked.
"Whatever you want!"
"I'll do it now. Be back in 10."
10 minutes later Lexi walked into Liv's room. Pale. And she felt sick. At least she knew why!
"I guess congratulations are in order." Liv said softly.
"I'm…I'm…" she stuttered. She looked at her friend. "I'm in big trouble Liv."
She sat on the bed. Clutching the box. "I can't be pre…pre…pregnant!" she forced herself to say it. "I mean it's not possible is it?"
"Well seeing as you are I'd say it's pretty possible.
"I can't bring a child into this relationship. We argue all the time and I'm in college. He boxes for a living for Gods sake. And I work at Fatani's with you."
"You've got some money saved right?"
"Yeah but that's for university."
"Well." Liv said.
"But it's for medical school in Jo'burg Liv. You know I wanna be a paramedic. That will never happen if I'm…."
"There's no if Lex. You ARE pregnant deal with it." Liv quieted. "There's always one other option." she added .
Abortion. Lexi winced. "I couldn't do that to his…to my…to our child. He'd never let me anyway."
"Technically he has no rights till after it is born." Liv told her. "I'm not condoning this mind just giving you all the facts."
"I couldn't do that to him. It would break his heart he'd hate me and I'd hate myself."
"You just made your decision then."
"Liv I don't think I'm ready though."
"It's here now. You have no choice. And next on the to do list tell daddy!"
Her head dropped and she looked at her stomach. Her and Ethan's child was nestled there safe and warm.
"I'll get on of your mums old pregnancy books they're in Dupe's office."
Liv walked from the room and into the office was looking through the books. She just picked the one she needed when Alice walked in.
"Hey Liv." Liv sound around and his the book behind her back.
"Hey Alice."
"Lex do you know where dupe keeps his invoices. Since he and Caroline moved in Mr Okotto's place I can't find anything!" Alice muttered looking drawers.
"Me, um no sorry." she walked backwards away from her. Hiding the book from sight.
Alice looked up. "Liv you ok sweetheart?" Alice asked.
Liv nodded vigorously.
As she walked backwards she walked straight into Danny and dropped the floor.
"Sorry Liv." he said and picked the book up. Noticed the title.
Danny looked at Alice. Alice looked at Liv. Liv smiled apprehensively.
"Look that's…." Liv nearly said the book wasn't for her but then she realised who she was talking to.
"Are you?" Alice asked. "It's fine you know. We'll help you out if you are." Alice said softly. Taking a step towards her.
Lexi owed her for this! "I dunno. I'm gonna do a test when Thabo gets back. I wanted to read up on some of the lesser known symptoms. I know the obvious ones but…"
Alice nodded. "You can come to me if you need help you know. I mean I know your mum isn't here but I know what's it like…"
"I know Alice. And thank you. O and PLEASE don't tell gran. She already hates Thabo!"
She hurried from the room with the book letting them think it was her was definitely the lesser of two evils. At least for the time being.
She closed the door to her room. Saw Lexi frowning at her stomach. Like she was trying to figure it out.
"Am I doing the right thing? Do you think?" she added.
"I'm with you on the no abortion bit but I can say that since it's here you got no choice. The way I see it you have 2 choices. Adoption or bring it up together."
An image filled her head. Ethan holding their baby. A perfect mix of him and her. Him smiling at her lovingly. More images quickly followed. Him holding their child's hands as it took their first step. First mama and dada. Birthdays. The 3 of them happy together. A family she smiled widely she wanted that family!
"C'mon then gimmie a look at that book."
"How long you late? Then we'll be able to read the right chapter!" Liv said.
Lexi thought. She hadn't even realised she hadn't had a period this month. She calculated. "A week."
They flicked to week 5. And read.
"Aw Liv it's only slightly bigger than a millimetre!"
As she read on she grew more worried. It had mentioned speaking to doctors about any medication they were taking. She flicked to back and checked the index to search for cancer. She found the page and read quickly.
"O god Lex it says woman with leukaemia have a higher risk of premature labour! And I have to discuss with my doctor medication coz it could harm it!"
"Makes sense." Liv said. "Just make an appointment to see your specialist and carry on taking your meds."
"No. I'm stopping the tablets now. It's heart and spine are developing. I can't risk it!" Lexi said. Her hand resting on her stomach. Protecting the baby.
"But you'll risk your cancer returning? C'mon Lex that could kill you both!" Liv hissed.
"I'd live long enough to give birth to it. It would have Ethan.. Plus what would you do Liv?"
"I would have been more freaking careful for one thing! I knew I was wrong lying to your mum!"
"What?"
"She saw me getting the book. I knew her and your dad would flip so I told them I might be pregnant. I think I should go and tell them. Especially since your being so stupid and reckless with your health!"
"Do that and I'll tell Evan Thabo has hit you. A few times. Got you convinced no one else will have you!"
"But he hasn't." Liv said.
"He doesn't know that!" Lexi blackmailed. "Look Liv this is my body and my baby. Let me deal with it my way! I know what I'm doing."
"Your being an idiot!" Liv said.
"Thanks for your support!" Lexi spat and walked from the room.
A/N there we are so cloloveswah u were exactly right. keep readin this story gets more complicated as it goes on x