Melissa walked in Lexi's room. Saw her lay on the bed curled in a ball.

"Oh God Lexi!"

"Liv….shut…door!" Lexi demanded.

"Screw that get Shauna and her Lexi's nana!" Missy said heatedly.

"NO only you!" Lexi said. "Or no one comes near me!"

She was shuddering. Shaking. Breathing heavily. Her arm covered her eyes.

"Lex we gotta get you to a doctor. I don't know what's wrong!"

"Withdrawal." Lexi said softly. "Shakes. Chills. Sweating Stomach cramps.…" Lexi said.

She gasped as more shudders wracked through her. And her stomach cramped painfully.

"Withdrawal from what?"

Lexi lay silently.

"She's stopped taking her remission medicine!" Liv spoke up.

"You freaking idiot Lex." Missy shouted at her. "Are you stupid?"

Missy walked over to Liv. "On the quiet get me tablets and water. And a cold flannel.

Missy went back to Lex.

"Can't take it!" Lexi shuddered.

Liv left the room.

"There's no can't Lex! You've got to take it!"

Liv returned.

Missy got up. "Anyone see you?"

She shook her head. "She won't take it!" Liv said.

"We'll see." she said to Liv then looked at Lexi. "Lex honey take the tablet!" Missy said.

"NO!" she replied forcefully.

"Last chance sweetheart take it!" she warned.

She shook her head.

Missy turned back to Liv and whispered.

Liv climbed on the bed beside Lexi. "What you doing?" Lexi asked.

Liv lay on the bed beside her. Wrapped her legs around Lexi's tightly. One arm around hers and one around her head. "Sorry Lex but this is for your own good!" Liv whispered.

Missy held her tablet. Lexi clamped her jaw shut. Shook her head.

Missy held her nose. She held her breath as long as she could. Then gasped. With Liv holding her head she couldn't turn and Missy put the tablet in her mouth. Liv covered her mouth with her hand.

"Swallow Lexi!" Melissa said.

She glared and swallowed theatrically.

"Yeah right Lex!" Missy said seriously.

They lay there for 30 minutes. Tears streamed from Lexi's eyes.

"Let her go Liv." Missy said.

Liv released her.

She was still having symptoms but they should subside as the pill worked.

"I hate you both!" she said softly. And you!" she spat at Liv. "YOU KNEW!" she shouted at Liv.

"Lex it's for your own good!" Liv replied. "I don't wanna lose my best friend."

Missy looked between them.

"There's more than one person to think about!" she yelled.

"What am I missing?" Missy asked worried.

Lexi curled up in a tight ball. Hid her face.

"She's pregnant." Liv said.

"You what?" Missy gasped. "And I just… why didn't you tell me?"

"Coz you'd tell her mum." Liv said.

"Why didn't you tell me? I wouldn't have forced the medication on her if I knew!"

"I didn't tell you for that reason. Pregnant or not she needs that medication and she stopped cold turkey. Hasn't had a tablet in 3 days!"

"That stuff can cause deformities. It's her decision! Its her body and her child!" Missy said angrily.

"What so she can chose to kill herself over someone who left her. Cheated on her?"

Lexi shot up. "What did you just say?"

"Nothing Lex." Liv backtracked.

She stood and wobbled. "Tell me Liv now!"

Liv exhaled. "Thabo mentioned that Ethan returned from the bar with a woman. She left the hotel the next morning."

Lexi bit her lip. Tears filled her eyes. "Leave me alone both of you!"

"Awww Lexi!" Missy said gathered into her arms.

She was going to fight but then crumbled. "He said he loved me!" Lex said as Missy hugged her. "How could he do that to me?"

"I'll be outside huh. Leave you in private." Liv said.

"Aw sweetie he's not worth the tears if he'll do that to you!"

But I love him!" Lexi told her through tears.

"I know sweetie I've been there too. But a cheater is a cheater baby. You'll never be able to trust him again." She murmured rubbing her back. "Does he know?"

"No he would have stayed. I tried to tell him before he left but he just drove off. The worst thing is what if he was going to Bristol? My baby might not have a father now!"

"We'll all help you. You know that." Missy said softly.

"But I need HIM Missy." Lexi hugged Missy tightly as she cried. Her tears soon subsided. Sat on her bed.

"I'm sorry about the way I gave you medication, I thought you were being a bit daft coz of what happened to your dad. Even if I knew about the baby I still would have advised you to take it."

"I can't risk it Missy." Lexi told her.

"Your no good to the baby if your leukaemia comes back and your gone too. Your mum has lost your dad. Possibly Ethan. If you get ill again she might snap. You've got your brother and sister to think about too."

"But what can I do?"

"I'll take you to the doctors tomorrow. On the quiet since you don't want your mum knowing yet. But ONLY if you take your tablet. They are a lower dosage you know. It might be fine."

"I'm 18 I don't need an adult there."

"But you DO need support Lex." Missy said. "One tablet is all I ask."

Lexi nodded reluctantly. Missy smiled.

"How long you here for?" Lexi asked.

"I'm debating on leaving tomorrow night. I was leaving when Liv told me you were ill and grabbed me."

Lexi frowned. "Why?"

"Me and your mum. I love her but she said something that I can hear. It hurt really hurt you know. We've been through a lot and she got me on one of my hang-ups. See I play the stupidly happy, insane person but inside I'm different. There is a dark place inside me and she hit me there deliberately. Best friends don't do that!"

"But she just lost my dad Miss."

"And I'm trying to help Lexi but you can't help someone who won't help themselves. And I can't take part in target practice if she's gonna say stuff like that. It took a long time to get past all that stuff. And what makes it worse is that your mum was the one who noticed I was different and helped me. At the same time helped me to hide it from Shauna and her mum."

Lexi had a feeling. "Who and how old?" she asked softly. "Only if you want though."

"Uncle. 12." she said simply. "She noticed I was different. I wasn't as loud then. But I turned severely introverted. Shauna noticed too. But she easily believed I was fine when I said so. Your mum though she knew something was wrong. Threatened to tell her mum if I didn't tell her. So I told her, it was really emotional." Missy remembered telling Alice. How she was scared that her uncle would do something to her younger sister if she stopped him. "Later we told my parents. What she said was similar to what he would say before he would…." Tears filled Missy's eyes and she breathed heavily. Dropped her head so Lexi couldn't see her tears. "It brought it back. I can't hear her say stuff to me like that Lex so I'm going!" she practically ran from the room and into her own bedroom.

Lexi stood up. Walked to her mothers room. Banged on the door.

"Go away Melissa I already told you to get out of my life!" Alice yelled.

"Let me in mum!" Lexi shouted angry.

The lock clicked. "You ok Lex?" Alice said as she opened the door.

Lexi walked inside and slammed the door.

"How dare you treat Missy like that!"

"O that, I don't care." Alice said sitting on the bed. Arms folded.

"Where do you get off? Treating friends who love you like that? Friends who help you. Friends you helped!"

Alice shrugged. Lexi hoped saying that would be enough. Less subtle hint time. "Think about what you said to Miss. The words you said!"

"I said she couldn't love anyone like I loved your dad and no one would love her like he loved me!" Alice said in a bored voice.

Lexi nodded. "Let's see. You called her unlovable. Worthless. Ugly horrible. Disgusting."

"I didn't say any of them!" Alice told Lexi.

"Someone else did. Although with that sentence you told her!"

Alice jaw dropped as realisation dawned. "Oh NO!" ran from her room into the kitchen. Empty. Living room. Her mum and Shauna sat at the table. "Where's Miss?"

"Dunno!" they said. She checked her room and saw her sat on the bed.

"Missy." Alice started.

Missy walked over to her. "Go away!" she pushed forcefully from the room. Locked the door.

"Miss talk to me!" Alice said through the door.

"WE have NOTHING to say to each other!" Missy yelled upset.

"About what I said."

"Didn't bother me. You know me happy go lucky. Fly by the seat of my pants. Everything slides right off my back!"

"I didn't mean it Miss. I'm sorry I didn't think. You gotta know I'd never say that and mean it!"

The door opened. Alice was grabbed by the collar and pulled inside. "You just keep going don't you! Is it your job to make me crack up?" she asked angrily. They were face to face. Missy's eyes which usually sparkled with humour were black with anger. "He didn't me it either did he? Didn't stop him doing it. Like it didn't stop you saying it!" she let go of Alice's collar and breathed calming herself.

"Miss ignore me please. I'd never wanna hurt you. I love you. We're like Siamese triplets the 3 of us!"

"Yeah well this triplet is gonna be surgically removed for good!" Missy grabbed her case. "You know Alice you and my parents are the only ones who knew what happened to me. And you know what else? I would have literally died for you after the way you helped me." a tear trickled. "I love you as much as my brothers and sister. More even. But I can't hear stuff like that. Not from you. Especially from you. Goodbye!"

"Miss please, we'll talk this though I don't wanna lose my best friend!" Alice pleaded.

Shauna appeared along with Mrs Elliott. A car drove up.

"Miss where you going?" Shauna asked.

"I'm gone Shauna. Alice will tell you why!" she walked from the house. Climbed in the car and was soon speeding away from Leopards Den.

Alice scrubbed her face with her hands. God she had been a complete bitch to Missy. No matter what happened to her she should have known not to say that to Miss. She could handle anything except that. It always got her. Problem was she hadn't even realised she said it. There had been a boy who had said a similar thing to her after it happened. Her first boyfriend and it had depressed Missy for weeks. Like Alice said. She can take anything you say to her except references to her abuse. She picked up her mobile and rang Missy. It went to voicemail.

Hey Miss here sorry if I missed ya. Busy doing important stuff. Shopping ha-ha. Everyone except Alice Trevanion leave a message after the…."

God she had already changed her voicemail!

"What's up Alice?" Shauna asked. Alice looked and they were alone in the hallway.

"The 3 musketeers are now 2." Alice said simply. "Missy hates me."

"Missy? Yeah right. She loves you. You can say and do anything to her. Call her every name under the sun and she'd laugh in your face. Probably agree to a degree."

"Not this time Shauna. I went too far. There's something you don't know about Miss. We kept it quiet only because she didn't want everyone finding out and feeling sorry for her, and I sorta inadvertently threw it in her face. I didn't mean to and didn't realise!"

"Ok Alice. If it's made her this mad it must be a doozy!" Shauna said.

"Like you wouldn't believe Shay! C'mon I gotta see to my babies."

Shauna smiled. Whatever lad been said missy had done it. Distracted Alice enough that her mind was off Danny and firmly on her kids.

Shauna text Miss.

You did it Miss, I'll phone you l8a. Please pick up yeh!

Missy text back. TBH I dnt car. im glad the kids hav their mum tho

"Wot Ali say?"

So she hasn't told u? I dnt wanna tlk bowt it shay me n u cn still b m8s bt I cnt tlk 2 ali atm. Am jst bein flooded by memories and they rnt nice!

U know am always ya m8 miss jst tke care of yaself k I'll fone ya l8a mke sure ya ok!

Fanx shay x

Nb miss x

Shauna walked into the living room. Alice looked up.

"You upset her bad Alice!"

Alice nodded. "Tell her I'm sorry."

Shauna text her.

"Easily said like everything else is the reply." Shauna told Alice.

Shauna shrugged at Alice. Who nodded sadly.

A/N so now u know y miss reacted so bady and now shehas gone mayb neva 2 speak 2 alice agen :(