Broken
I sit on the floor broken, how could this be happening? My life is shattering in pieces around me and I seem to have no control over it. The Dark Lord's behavior lately has been good for no one. We've hit a slump, and nobody can seem to complete their missions except for me. I don't mean to sound conceited, but it seems whenever I get back from a mission there is always someone being tortured.
Last night it was Lucius who was punished only instead of him being tortured it was Narcissa. That's the problem the Dark Lord knows us too well now for any of us to get around anything.
"Feel the pain, Lucius" he had said as he tortured Narcissa. I remember Lucius trying his best not to cry as he watched her weep. The Dark Lord gave him warning that if he failed again there would be more consequences, and we both knew what he meant. I myself have no problem completing tasks for the Dark Lord. When he says kill I kill, when he says torture I torture, and when he says bring them to me I bring them to him. I don't understand why he must punish me. It seems that over the past couple of months I've squirmed underneath him trying to pull away, but somehow I never can. I suffered a broken collarbone from one of our sessions as he calls them. He quickly healed it, but somehow I will always have an internal scar there, something no one else can see, but something that will leave an impression on me forever.
Then there is Rodolphus. Rodolphus who has always loved me even when sometimes I don't give that love back. I will admit I've slept around and it was definitely uncalled for, but I never thought he would hit me. One slap across the face and I slid to the ground partly from shock and partly from the force he had used. He'd said he was sorry, but it was too late. I don't think I'll ever be able to look at him the same way.
Today was what broke me all the way, today was the day Narcissa told me she was pregnant. This normally wouldn't break someone, but considering the war right now this is the worst time possible for her to become pregnant. Lucius just couldn't keep it in his pants I guess. It was the things that happened afterwards that drove me overboard though. Narcissa of course announced that she was having the baby, her and Lucius were smiling the entire time that was of course until the Dark Lord shared his feelings.
"Why did you do this now? Couldn't you have waited until this war was over and we were in full control?" I saw Lucius eyes filled with pride have the life flow out of them quickly. Soon enough he was under the cruciatus curse, and Narcissa was rushing to his side. As the Dark Lord turned to Cissy I did something I never thought I could do I spoke up.
"Stop!" All the faces in the room turned to me, and the Dark Lord stared at me quite surprised.
"Bellatrix my chambers now!" I stood there for a minute looking at my sister, and I realized her eyes were full of yearning, a yearning for gratitude and forgiveness.
"NOW BELLATRIX!" I followed the Dark Lord into his bed chambers, and I looked at everyone around me. I could see the fear in there face and it scared me. As I entered the bed chamber the Dark Lord started to beat on me, and told me how worthless I was. I don't even want to recount what happened.
So here I lye on the floor of his bed chambers covered in blood, as Rodolphus picks me up I curl into his body. Everything is a haze as he carries me back to our home, and as the tears pour from his cheeks I know what he's thinking. How did she get this broken?