Sometimes, you get the feeling that something is going to happen. That a change is coming. It's like the sun coming over the horizon: you see the vague and blurry light filling up the sky, but you still don't see the sun until it's risen. I just knew that my sun was rising, and the light was all around me. But the sun was still behind a hill.
I had to get out of the house. It made me really lonely to be in there with all of the…couples. Everyone found a soul mate except me. I was hoping sickly that Edward wouldn't fall in love, so I wouldn't be the only one alone, but of course not. He found Bella, and I was sure that even he knew it wasn't a healthy relationship. I mean really, she was pregnant with a monster! I thought of it as a monster because I thought of myself as a monster. A cold, dead monster that would always be alone. In that moment I desperately hated my family. I hated them in all of their lovey-dovey gooiness. I hated Edward and Bella, Alice and Jasper, Emmett and Bree…
I was hunting to pass the time. Deer kept running past me, terrified, but I ignored them. I wanted something big and strong, something that would put up a fight. I ran and bounced off trees. For once, I was glad that I was a vampire. I was strong, violent. I was absolutely lethal, and I was proud of it. Suddenly, I tensed. I could sense something in the trees. Something huge. I pounced and missed. A tall, dark-skinned boy was standing in front of me. I recognized Jacob. He stared at me as I stood up and brushed myself off, his arms folded. I stared back. It wasn't a mean stare, a hateful stare, just…a stare. Just looking into his eyes. We were like that for a while, and then he simply ran away. I didn't follow him. I was frozen in place. I had the feeling that my sun was coming over the hill.