Belladonna Chapter 13 Cold As You, a twilight fanfic

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR THE CHARACTER THOSE RIGHTS FULLY BELONG TO STEPHANIE MEYER.

Chapter 13: Cold as You

Bella POV

I laid in my bed emotionally shutdown, I didn't breath, I didn't more, I didn't talk (though the only one who tried was Dad and Jake), I didn't hunt, all I felt like doing was dying. Finally after two months I had to get up, I had to hunt, I had a concert tonight and I couldn't disappoint my fans. So I got up, went on a quick hunt, called my dad who was shocked, then called Jake and let him know what was going on. I packed what I needed. I put on my Belladonna outfit, black skinny jeans, black combat boots, and a black corset made up my outfit. I walked out just as my dad was pulling in, he parked the cruiser and we jumped in my car and were on our way.

We arrived in Hollywood four hours before the show started. I had already changed my hair color on the way here it was slightly curled and went down to my waist. I colored it solid black to match my outfit. I was in a very depressed mood and my look proved it. I still couldn't believe Jasper wouldn't talk to me or let me explain.

Rehearsal only took us an hour then they were already letting people in. I couldn't believe all these people keep coming to my concerts. I hope that I am helping them somehow. "Five minutes," my dad said from beside me. "Bells, are you okay?"

"Dad, we are here, I can do this. I'm sorry I worried you but when we get back to Forks I think I need to leave for a while. Not far but I can't be there any more. Maybe Jake will allow me to move in with him for a while. I can't stay in Forks." I said about drowning in my misery again.

"Bells, what happened?" He asked, I was so shut down that I couldn't even tell him what happened.

"I will tell you on the way home dad," I said, I couldn't explain it now I would probably just shut down again. I can't allow that yet.

"Showtime Bells." My dad said breaking me out of my thoughts. So I put on a fake smile and went to get out on the stage.

When I ran on stage I grabbed my mic and the crowd started to cheer. "Thank you," I said and waited for them to settle down. "Hope everyone is ready for this concert, but first I have a few words I would like to say to clear some things up. The pictures that were posted up on the internet and in magazines of me they were over two years old. He was my boyfriend when I first got the record deal, I don't know who had the photo's or how they got out but they are not recent. I just wanted to clear that up. Thank you all and now on with the show. My first song will be 'That's What You Get' (AN:BY PARAMORE)."

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.

It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.

And why do we like to hurt, so much?

I can't decide

You have made it harder just to go on

And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I drowned out all my sense away, with the sound of its beating.

And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.

'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.

I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.

Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I drowned out all my sense away, with the sound of its beating. (beating)

And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Pain make your way to me, to me.

And I'll always be just so inviting.

If I ever start to think straight,

This heart will start a riot in me,

Let's start, start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?

Oh why do we like to hurt so much?

Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,

And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

The crowd cheered harder for me than they have in a long time. "Thank you so much my next song is called 'Who Knew' (AN: BY PINK)."

You took my hand

You showed me how

You promised me you'd be around

Uh huh

That's right

I took your words

And I believed

In everything

You said to me

Yeah huh

That's right

If someone said three years from now

You'd be long gone

I'd stand up and punch them up

Cause they're all wrong

I know better

Cause you said forever

And ever

Who knew

Remember when we were such fools

And so convinced and just too cool

Oh no

No no

I wish I could touch you again

I wish I could still call you friend

I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now

For they're long gone

I guess I just didn't know how

I was all wrong

They knew better

Still you said forever

And ever

Who knew

Yeah yeah

I'll keep you locked in my head

Until we meet again

Until we

Until we meet again

And I won't forget you my friend

What happened

If someone said three years from now

You'd be long gone

I'd stand up and punch them out

Cause they're all wrong and

That last kiss

I'll cherish

Until we meet again

And time makes

It harder

I wish I could remember

But I keep

Your memory

You visit me in my sleep

My darling

Who knew

My darling

Who knew

My darling

I miss you

My darling

Who knew

The cheers tonight was slowly helping me feel better with what happened with Jasper. "Thank you all I have one final song for you and then I will bid you a good and happy weekend. My final song tonight will be 'Cold as You' (AN: BY TAYLOR SWIFT)."

You have a way of coming easily to me

And when you take, you take the very best of me

So I start a fight cause I need to feel something

And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

[Chorus:]

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending give to a perfect day

Just walk away, ain't no use defending words that you will never say

And now that I'm sitting here thinking it thinking it through

I've never been anywhere cold as you

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray

And I stood there loving you and wished them all away

And you come away with a great little story

Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

[Repeat Chorus]

You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you

And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

Every smile you fake is so condescending

Counting all the scars you made

And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through

I've never been anywhere cold as you

By the time I finished singing my last song I felt much better about everything that had happened. Walking off stage I felt lighter than I had in two months and with the fact I will be moving soon I felt much better.

The car ride home was fun. Me and my dad sang along to the radio and just laughed. "Baby girl I'm glad that your feeling better but can I ask what happened? And are you still moving?"

"Did you see the magazine article from when me and Brad were dating?" Yea well Jasper saw them and long story short Jasper dumped me before I could even explain. Daddy he broke me, and I don't know that I will ever be whole again."

"Oh baby girl, we will get through this, I promise. Are you still going to cal Jacob about staying with him?" He asked me again.

"Yes Dad, I think Jacob can help me heal again. He is still my best friend, I need him. Plus when I am there you can still come see me but I don't have to fear any others coming around." I said, I could see the understanding in his eyes.

"Okay baby girl, make sure you call me everyday and let me know your okay. And please be careful around those younger wolves. Plus, you be careful of the Cullens." my dad said.

"Thanks dad, and if they ask tell them after my last concert I packed up everything and left. If you want to tell Jasper off for breaking me again you can.' I said with a smile, that last comment got a smile out of him too."

"Okay baby girl." with that we settled back in for a long drive of singing to the radio and acting like fools. When we got back to Forks it was a little after ten since we didn't drive nearly as fast as we usually do.

"Okay Bells, I got to drop you off at home then I am heading down to the station. Please call me and let me know what Jake says."

"Okay dad," I said getting out of the car and heading inside while my dad got in his cruiser and headed to the station. I headed upstairs to pack what I would need, my clothes, bath products, computer, and a couple books. My father was going to call the school and tell them I moved to live with other family for personal reasons. I knew there would be rumors flying but I didn't care.

After packing everything I called Jake. "Hello."

"Hey Jake it's Bella, can I come over and talk to you for a second?" I asked. I figured that this talk would go better in person.

"Sure sure. I'm off today so come on over whenever." He said.

"Okay Jake be there in a little while I just got one thing to do first then I will be there." I said. I grabbed my school books to take back before I head to La Push.

"Okay Bells, see you in a little bit." Jake said then hung up the phone. The drive to the school took no time, and dropping my books off was no problem. I didn't see any of the Cullens around but I knew they were there because their cars were in the parking lot. When I got in my car I gave one last look towards the school giving my last goodbye, I didn't know if I would ever come back here. I have been hurt twice in this town. I had one last goodbye to say and I left a note for him that I wrote earlier in his truck. Then walked away and headed towards Jacob's.

My life as it is, is over. I give up on love and I give up on Forks, at least my dad can come see me but I will never step foot in Forks again.