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Chapter 4: Olivers' Pain

For ages after Lillys' death, I just kept wishing that it was a dream. That I would wake up the next day and I would be in shock but then slowly come to realise that it was just a dream. But slowly the reality steeped in and I realised that Lilly wasn't alive. That it wasn't all a dream. That Lilly had indeed decided to kill herself. The letter helped me realise that. It was a painful reminder that Lilly had indeed decided to take her own life away. This very thought always brings tears to my eyes.

I looked back at the letter. At the reasons Lilly stated.

Oliver. The word echoed around my brain. Oliver was one of the reasons that Lilly had to end it. Oliver and Lilly both had said it was complicated but Lilly had said that Oliver had rejected her and that he had pushed her over the edge.

I had to talk to him. I had to find out what this whole mess is about. I sprinted to his house. I stopped to take a breath and rang the door bell. Mrs Oken answered it almost immediately. Everyone was on edge at the moment. Can you blame them? Looking at her I received a small shock. She didn't have the same energy she once had; it gone. The shell of an empty woman stood there. At least she wasn't as destroyed as the Truscotts though. But as soon as she saw me, she forced a smile. I hadn't seen anyone smile in ages so I smiled back.

"Hey, Mrs Oken, is Oliver here?" I panted.

She shook her head.

"He went out about 20 minutes ago." She answered.

"Did he say where?"

"I think he mumbled something about going to the beach but I don't know."

"Thanks, I'll try there." I said running off and waving goodbye at Mrs Oken.

I could hear my heart pounding in my ears as I sprinted off to the beach. I had to get to the bottom of this. I reached the beach in good time. No one was there so I ran down to the ocean and looked around. I couldn't see him. Slowly I wandered back to Rico's but then I had a thought.

I remember Lilly telling me about a small part of the beach that she and Oliver liked to go and watch the sunset together and talk. It was their special spot.

I had to find it.

I ran down to the end of the beach. Nothing. I was about to give up when I saw a nick in the rocks, just left to me. It was big enough for a person to get through. I squeezed through it. And there he was. Skimming rocks on the clear blue water.

I walked towards him.

"Go away Miley!" He said sternly.

"How did you know it was me?" I asked standing next to him with my arms crossed.

He didn't answer instead he bent down, picked up another rock and skimmed it across the waves.

I just stood there looking at him. After a while he finally spoke.

"Because she would have told you."

It seemed impossible to mention her name now. Even now I find it difficult to mention her name too. Every time someone mentions her name, the image of her in her bed comes to mind every time and so I break down in despair.

I nodded and skimmed a rock myself. It skimmed only once before it sunk.

"She wrote us all notes you know." I said skimming another.

He looked at me with shock and surprised etched all over his face.

"Really? Probably goodbye notes." He said angrily skimming another.

"Yeah." I muttered.

"What did yours say?" He asked.

"She talked about our time together (the ups and downs), why she did it and she asked me to forgive her."

"How can she ask that? After what she did?!" Oliver exclaimed.

"You didn't read the letter." I said simply.

"Must have been one heck of a letter." He muttered.

"It was." I stated.

Oliver just skimmed another rock not bothering to answer. I decided to get to the main reason I was here.
"Did you reject Lillys' feelings for you?" I asked looking straight at him.

Oliver froze.

"How did you know that?" He whispered angrily.

I pulled out Lillys' letter.

"She wrote it in here."

Oliver slowly took the letter and scanned it. He let out a long, low gasp.

"No, no, NO!" He said smacking himself on the head.

"What?" I asked looking lost.

"This wasn't supposed to happen."

"What?" I asked again looking more lost.

"I can't believe this!" Oliver cried.

"Oliver, what is going on?"

Oliver paused; the letter was still in his hand.

"Well, it happened about 3 weeks ago." He finally said.

-Flashback-

I was in my room doing my English essay when my phone rang. I checked the caller ID and it turned out to be Lilly.

"Hey Lill-ay! What's up?" I said into the phone.

"Hey Oliver can you meet us at our spot in 10?"

"Sure." I hanged up the phone and headed out.

I saw Lilly pacing up and down the beach, muttering to herself. As I got closer, she looked up and had this smile playing around her mouth.

"Oliver." She said walking towards me.

"Hey." I said smiling at her.

Lilly let out a small giggle and then sat down on the beach.

"So what's all this about?" I asked taking a seat on the sand next to Lilly.

"I need to tell you something." She said.

"What?"

"I……I……I can't do this!" She buried her head in her knees.

"Lills," I said placing an arm around her. "You know you can tell me anything right?"

She nodded.

'So what's the problem?"

She looked at me.

"Promise you won't laugh." She said.

"I promise I won't laugh." I responded.

Lilly took a deep breath before continuing.

"I think I'm in love with you." She said looking at me in the eyes.

I was in shock. My best friend has just proclaimed her love to me. I had no idea what to do. I had never been in this situation before.

"Lilly, I……" I began but she stood up.

"You don't like me back." She said tears forming in her eyes. "Don't worry, I get it. See you around Oliver."

And with that she ran off into the distance.

"No, Lilly, it's not like that!" I shouted at her but she didn't hear me.

Angrily I kicked the sands.

"Stupid Oliver." I muttered "Why didn't you tell her that you liked her? Why did you have to go and break her heart?"

I wandered back to the main beach to try and find her but she was long gone.

I felt so heartbroken and cruel. My best friend told me that she loved me but I couldn't say it back. Something was telling me that we were better off friends. I shook my head.

"Stupid Oliver." I muttered one more time before heading back to my house.

-End-

I had my mouth open in shock.

"You did reject her!"

"Miley, it wasn't like that!" Oliver said trying to backtrack.

"And after she proclaimed her love to you. Oh that's low!" I said giving him a dirty glare.

"Miley, it wasn't like that."

"Oh yeah? Please explain!"

"I thought it would be too weird to date her. You know like Joey and Rachel off friends? I thought it would turn out like that. I did like her but I pretended not too. Oh man if only I had told her how I really felt!"

"Bit late for that now buddy boy!" I said giving him another evil look.

"Miley, do you know cruel and vicious I feel? Knowing that I was part of the reason that she decided to end it?"

"You're not the only one pal!"

He looked at me confused.

"She also said that I was also part of the reason that she took her life away." I admitted.

"What?!"

"She said that I was forgetting her and that I didn't listen to her etc, etc." I said waving my hands on the last part.

Oliver stood in thought.

"She's right." He said at last.

"I know." I muttered.

"We didn't exactly spend much time with her, maybe a day a week." Oliver kicked the sand with his hands in his pockets.

"Yeah." I said under my breath.

"I guess we weren't the best friends we thought we were."

I nodded.

"You right. Man that thought is so depressing."

Oliver nodded.

There was this awkward silence. Neither of us dared to speak.

"So," Oliver said finally breaking it. "Who else did she write letters for?" He said tapping mine.

"Like everyone."
"Let's go gather everyone and deliver them. That way they will all know Lillys' last message to them."

"I agree." I said nodding.

We casually walked back to the house before Oliver stopped and gasped.

"What?" I asked looking at him.

"OH, MY, GOD." He said under his breath.

"What?" I said again.

"We killed her." He whispered.

A/N: SO SAD!!!! =( Anyway I hoped you liked this chappie!!! Hopefully the next one will be up soon! Gotta update my other stories first but I'll probably write the next one this weekend.

HAPPY WEEKEND EVERYONE!!!