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Chapter 9: I Can't Be Hannah Without Lola
My limo rode up in front of my concert stadium. Paparazzi were everywhere. Cameras flashed, people asking me all kinds of crazy questions while my Dad was shouting stuff like 'Clear the way.'
Finally I got to my dressing room. I opened the door and was surprised to see two people in there.
"Hey Oliver, hey Jake." I said smiling.
"Hey." Jake said kissing my check. "Glad you've made it."
"Yeah me too." I said. "But you better not do anything because otherwise….."
"Gotcha." He said nodding and winking.
I looked at Oliver in his Mike Stanley III costume. I then realised it was Lilly who had disguised Oliver when he wanted to be backstage with us. I looked down, avoiding peoples' gaze. I didn't want to discuss Lilly today.
I had this feeling that something was missing. I knew what was missing as soon as that thought crossed my mind. Lola. Lola was always backstage with me, supporting me. How will I cope without her? How will I cope without Hannahs' sidekick? I guess I'll have to go on just like I did before Lilly found out my little secret. But of course, that was easier said than done.
"Well, I guess we'll just take our spots backstage and leave you to….to….get ready." Jake said breaking the long awkward silence at last.
"Aha." I said nodding. That was all I could at the moment.
Jake and Oliver left, leaving me standing alone in the middle of my dressing room. As soon as they left I broke down. I couldn't hold it in anymore. It was too much. I started to cry and I held my head in pain.
"Stop it Miley! You've got a performance to do in a 20 minutes." I said wiping my eyes with the back of my hand.
"Hannah!" Said an irritating voice behind me. I didn't even need to look behind me to see who it was. I would recognise that voice anywhere.
"Hey Traci!" I said in a fake happy voice as I air kissed her.
"Hey Hannah, where's your friend Lola? Ditched her?" Traci said with a smile.
"Ah, of course not!" I snapped. "She…..she….." I tried to think of a really good excuse to why she wasn't here. I couldn't tell her the truth could I? "Her family moved back to New Zealand. So she won't be with me all the time."
I guess my plans of not talking about Lilly was ruined.
"Oh." Traci said. "Pity." I knew what she really was thinking. She was glad she didn't have to see Lilly anymore. That very thought made me burn up inside. Oh if she only knew the truth maybe she wouldn't be so mean.
"Yeah, so um, better go get ready for my show. Big night!" I said trying to change the subject. I really didn't want to talk about Lilly at the moment.
"Alright." Traci said brightening up. "Oh Hannah, you are coming to Taylor Swifts' party this Saturday?"
"Of…of course." I stammered.
"Super, well ttyl." She said walking off.
I ran into my bathroom and stood over the sink. I clutched the basin as I looked into the mirror.
"Breath Miley. Breath." I told myself as took in deep breaths.
I heard my dressing room door open and the sound of footsteps.
"Show time darling." I heard my Dad say.
"Okay." I turned around.
"Inhale, exhale." I told myself over and over again as my Dad led me to the stage.
"So you're going to open with Super Girl right and end it with Best of Both Worlds?" My Dad said.
"Change of plans Dad." I said.
I had arranged this with my band earlier. This time we were going to do something a little different.
"I had a little change to the line up." I continued.
I grabbed a mic and headed up onto stage to people applauding. I looked over my shoulder expecting to see Lola but I didn't. My heart sank as soon as I realised she wasn't there of course. But at least Oliver and Jake were grinning and giving me the thumbs up. Their faces gave me new energy as I faced the crowd. I could hear the music to Super Girl starting up and I got ready to perform it. Without Lilly here tonight made me lose the fire I once had. I guess her death affects me in more ways that one.
Finally it came to the end of the show. I had just finished Best Of Both Worlds. Usually I would be ready to finish but I had other plans. I was not going to waste this opportunity. I breathed in as I got ready.
"I would like to delicate this next song and concert to a very special friend who sadly cannot be here tonight. She is the best friend ever and I love you. I only wish you could be here to see this. Thank you for your awesome friendship. I really appreciate it and everything you've done" I said. The very words I spoke brought tears to my eyes.
The crowd went nuts as I turned to the band and gave them the nod. I then launched into my next song:
We sign our cards and letters BFF
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
You're lookin' out for me, you've got my back
So good to have you around
You know the secrets I could never tell
And when I'm quiet you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell
'Cause you keep my feet on the ground
You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend
You don't get angry when I change the plans
Somehow you're never out of second chances
Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again
I'm so lucky that I've found
A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
True friends will go to the ends of the earth
Till they find the things you need
Friends hang on through the ups and the downs
Cause they've got someone to believe in
A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
No need to pretend
You're a true friend
You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside when something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend
You're a true friend
You're a true friend
I finished my last note and looked to the crowd. They were cheering and yelling their heads off. I looked over to Oliver, Dad and Jake. They were crying but smiling. Dad was looking pleased and proud. That made me smile. For real.
"Thank you Los Angles, you rock!" I yelled and blew a kiss to the crowd. I ran off stage and got ready to leave.
"Good show darling." My Dad said putting his hand on my back.
"Thanks Daddy." I said getting ready to go out the dressing room door.
"Oh and Miles?"
I turned around and faced him.
"Yeah?"
"Nice end to the show. Lilly would've liked it."
"Thanks." I whispered.
I left my dressing room to find Oliver and Jake had gone. I remember Oliver on the phone just as the concert ended. He had mouthed something like 'Gotta go.'
Suddenly someone came up from behind me. I recognised his voice. It was Jake. I turned around to see him smiling. As I looked closer I could see tears in his eyes. Just seeing him about to cry made me start to cry as well.
"Nice ending." He said before giving me a quick peck on the cheek before running off to catch his ride.
I turned around and got a shock to see Oliver standing there. I thought he had gone home. I noticed he was crying just like me. He shuffled his feet awkwardly.
"Thank you." He whispered.
"You're welcome." I whispered back.
I nodded. I knew what he was talking about. Oliver looked at me for a second before turning on his heel and left. I just stood there in tears. Then I realised what I was supposed to be doing. I raced outside and dodged the paparazzi.
I got into the limo with my Dad and it drove us home. I quickly changed from Hannah to Miley and got ready for bed. As I lay in my bed my thoughts came back to Lilly.
"I still miss you." I said turning over in my bed.
Sleep was willing to drown me in it as I had one last thought before sleep washed over me like a wave.
My only wish is that Lilly could have seen this.
***
Way above her, a girl looked down onto the scene below her. She saw the brown hair girl turn off the light of her room and say those last few words before the brown hair girl closed her eyes. She wiped a tear from her eye and smiled.
"Thank you Miley! I miss you too." She said before turning away.
A/N: The ending is sooooo sad! It was so sad writing this chappie! I hope you enjoyed it =)