Alright everybody! thank you so much for giving me time to rethink my story and a few other things. I'm crazy busy with college this semester so i probably wont update as often as you (or I) would like, but be patient because I WILL update. *bows* Thank you everyone! your encouragement pushes me forward.

Reviews welcomed!

Yours Truly- Blossoming Nightshade

Harry quickly walked up to the dorm room and tried to sleep off his anger, though finding that he couldn't sleep when he was this angry, he made his way to the astronomy tower. Weaving his way through the castles stone walls he replayed the previous argument through his head, the part that really bothered him.

"Suicidal ideation is just something I learned to deal with. I grew up with it, I adapted, adjusted."

"You don't just learn to deal with those things, you are not supposed to."

Harry wondered; was he really truly entitled to happiness? Yes he was happy with Severus, but was he allowed to be happy every day, like Hermione and Ron? Even if he was, how would he even begin to achieve something that seemed so…monumental?

Harry pushed his way into the highest room of the astronomy tower and looked around to find the room empty. He stood near the window, putting his hand on the sides and leaning forward, looking at the green grass, slightly rolling hills, the forbidden forest, the blue sky and the clouds slowly moving across. He closed his eyes and began to sing:

"Let me fall
Let me climb
There's a moment when fear
And dreams must collide

Someone I am
Is waiting for courage
The one I want
The one I will become
Will catch me

So let me fall
If I must fall
I won't heed your warnings
I won't hear them

Let me fall
If I fall
Though the phoenix may
Or may not rise

I will dance so freely
Holding on to no one
You can hold me only
If you too will fall
Away from all these
Useless fears and chains

Someone I am
Is waiting for my courage
The one I want
The one I will become
Will catch me

So let me fall
If I must fall
I won't heed your warnings
I won't hear

Let me fall
If I fall
There's no reason
To miss this one chance
This perfect moment
Just let me fall"

Harry let a stray tear fall down his cheek to the grass below; he sat down exhausted and pulled his knees to his chin, running his hands through his short shaggy hair.

Malfoy stood under the safety of his Disillusionment Spell. He wondered what Potter was doing up here alone, but if it was Potter, than he assumed that it couldn't be good. He waited for him to set up a trap or have something hiding under his robe, but he just watched in shocked silence as the small boy leaned toward the window and starred at the scenery, singing. Malfoy was at a loss of what to do, but simply settled on staying hidden beneath the safety of his charm; at the very least he could use Harry crying alone in the tower as blackmail or something to taunt him with. Malfoy was relieved that Harry headed off to lunch less than fifteen minutes later, not failing to notice the fresh tears falling down his cheeks.

Harry made his way down the castle, stopping by a lavatory to wash his face with cold water, freshening up a bit. He looked in the mirror noticing that the fresh face effectively hid the confusion and overwhelming anger still bubbling inside of him. He walked through the doors and noticed that most of the castle was there. He walked in and sat between Hermione and Ginny and across from Ron.

"Hey, mate. How ya feeling?" Ron asked with a mouthful of chicken leg

"Relieved that I don't have to spend another night in the Infirmary." Everyone around chuckled "But I feel fine. Can I get those notes you two took for my classes later this evening?"

"Of course, Harry. They are all ready and organized." Hermione stated proudly.

"Great! Thanks you two, you're life savers!" Harry said being interrupted from talking about Quidditch by a cough from Ginny.

"Harry, there is a Hogsmeade trip in two weeks, and I was wondering if you would like to go Madam Puddifoot's Tea Shop?" Ginny asked confidently already believing the answer was yes

"That'd be nice. Were you planning on joining us, Ron? Herms?" Harry noticed Ron and Hermione glace at each other, exchanging worried looks.

"Actually Harry, I was hoping that it would be a date, just the two of us."

"Oh." Harry said realizing his mistake. "I don't know Gin; I don't think that would be the best idea." Harry stated pushing the small potatoes around on his plate nervously.

"Why not?" Ginny asked curiously

"Well…ummm…why don't you ask Vincent Hoggert from your Transfiguration class? He's nice." Harry said trying to waylay the conversation since he didn't really want to have it to begin with.

"Ask Vincent Hoggert? What are you trying to say Harry?" Ginny said standing up in rage

Harry stood up trying to calm her down, feeling all the eyes in the Great Hall on them "Ginny, you're not really…my type" Harry said softly trying to break it to her lightly, hoping that they could later continue this in the common room.

"Not your type? I've liked you for years and now I find out that I'm not your type! You lead me on and then reject me in front of everyone?" Ginny screamed

"I NEVER lead you on!" Harry replied

"Then what were all of those games of Exploding Snap at Christmas? And the one on one practice for the Quidditch games? What about the time we spent together after Dean and I broke up?"

"It was all friendly-" Harry tried to say before he was interrupted by a screaming red head

"Friends? Friends? Is that all?" Ginny screamed

"Ginny, that's all we'll ever be, friends." Harry tried to explain

"Surely you can't mean that?" Ginny yelled looking on the verge of tears.

"Ginny, there is nothing between us. There never was, and there can't ever be. I'm sorry." Harry said going to put his hand on her shoulder in comfort upon the spoken apology, only to find it slapped away.

"YOU ARE THE MOST CRUEL, HORRID MAN I'VE EVER MET!" Ginny screamed before running out of the Great Hall. Harry stood there in shock, and then slowly sat down, resting his head in his hands and groaning his displeasure.

"Well, I thought that went rather well, all things considered." Ron said before taking a bite of pasta.

"Ron, how could you? Ginny's really hurt, she got rejected in front of the whole school. How could you Harry? You couldn't have been a bit nicer?" Hermione chided

"You think I really wanted to have that conversation in front of the whole school, let alone, to begin with? I didn't even know that she had feeling for me! I feel awful, but I didn't know what else to say, I couldn't let my secrets out in front of the whole school. The Daily Prophet would have a new printing out in under an hour. I'd have reporters knocking down my door asking who I'm dating." Harry whispered.

"You're right Harry, I'm sorry. I'll go talk to Ginny and see if I can't clear things up yea?"

"Alright, but don't tell her. I'll break it to her later tonight, it's the least I can do." Harry said

"Alright, Harry. I'll see you in class later Ron. Harry, take it easy on your last day off." Hermione said before leaving.

"Ron, do you ever stop eating?" Harry asked

"What?" Ron asked with a mouthful of food "I'm Starving." Harry just sighed and walked out of the Great Hall, only to meet a smug looking Malfoy.

"I never thought I'd congratulate you Potter. One less Weasley to ruin my appetite always brightens up my day." The blonde spoke.

Harry wanted to hit him with a hex, but was stopped by a voice in his head, a memory…

"Lucius, his wife and Draco are like family to me…Try and get along with my Godson… He could use someone outside of Slytherin to befriend"

Harry hesitantly held out his hand, entire body looking stiff.

"What are you doing, Potter?" Malfoy asked

"I was hoping that your offer still stood." Harry said

"What offer?"

"In our first year, you held your hand out in offer of friendship. I would like to take you up on that offer, if it still stands that is." Harry spoke, not knowing whether this was the bravery that McGonnagall always talked about or the 'Gryffindor stupidity' that Severus used to always infer upon his house. Harry grew nervous as Malfoy eyed him up and down, not bothering to hide his hesitation and suspicion.

"Alright, Potter. But be forewarned, if this is some trick, you will be very very sorry." Malfoy said before taking Harry's hand tightly and shaking.

"No tricks, Malfoy." Harry spoke before he watched Malfoy walk away. Harry was startled by a hand landing upon his shoulder, but was relieved when he looked up to see his lover's face, but that relief was soon replaced with an unexplainable worry.

"You saw what happened in the Great Hall didn't you?" Harry asked

"Indeed, but perhaps we should discuss this in my chambers." Severus said quickly walking in front of Harry and leading the way down into the dungeons.

After several minutes of agonizing silence, Harry stepped through the portrait hole with his head hung low, and closed the door behind him before he was spun around and a hand was under his chin, lips crashing against his in rather possessive manner. After several moments of swirling tongues and Snape pulling Harry impossibly close, they pulled apart.

"What was that for?" Harry asked short of breath.

"You belong to me." Severus growled in his ear.

"I didn't know that you were so possessive, Sev." Harry said chuckling

"Is that a problem?" Severus asked as he kissed Harry on the neck and sucked at the flesh there as Harry moaned.

"No, I'm actually quite liking this." Harry moaned harder and pulled the Potions master closer by his hair, as Severus rocked his hips against Harry's.

'Gods, his hair is not greasy at all, in fact it's very silky' Harry thought

Harry felt his pants tighten as Severus ground his hard member into the young man beneath him. Severus smirked as he heard a loud moan come from his lover, soon followed by a loud "pop". Both men looked over to see a large-eared house elf.

"Dobby! What are you doing here?"

"Dobby is sorry to bother you Harry Potter, but I was cleaning in your room and…"

"What is it?" Harry asked pushing Severus away slightly

"Someone is going through your school trunk, sir." Dobby looked at him with large eyes

"What! Who?"

"Dobby is not sure Dobby should say, sir."

"Dobby, I need to know. Please?" Harry could see the elf's resolve breaking

"Ms. Weasley, Harry Potter, sir."

"Shit!" Harry cried out "Sev, I'll be right back." Harry said before running out of the room…

Yay! hope you like it. ill try to get the heat between Harry and Sev cranked up a notch here soon. :D