AN: Ok this chapter is quite short but I kinda have the impression you're gonna like it! :P It's dedicated to Clai cause she came out to her parents a couple of days ago. Congratulations honey!
I haven't much to say about this chapter, so enjoy it and please, review.
DISCLAIMER: I'm basically putting the disclaimer just cause I have fun saying that I wish I owned Kate Walsh! lol
CHAPTER 15 – Can you feel this magic in the air?
"MEREDITH GREY!" Addison's tone was so authoritary that Meredith jumped and hurried herself hiding something under the covers. "Please tell me that what I've heard isn't true!"
"It isn't true!" replied Meredith simply. She could easily imagine what pissed Addison off and her tactic was denial.
"Oh really?" said Addison sarcastically. She wasn't mad for real, she just wanted to play with Meredith. "So why don't you show me what you have under the covers."
"You wish..." smirked Meredith teasing the redhead.
Addison blushed. It was two days after Meredith's accident and they hadn't talked about the kiss and their feelings yet. So she changed the subject because she knew it wasn't the right time and the right place to talk about it.
"You have a patient chart hidden under the covers." stated the attending. "A chart that Cristina stole for you."
"Well, at least I don't get up and sneak into a patient's room like Cristina did after her miscarriage." pouted the intern. "I'm bored, Addison!"
Addison sighed. "I know, Mer...but you know we can't discharge you yet. A couple of more days, I promise. Besides, you know I'm trying to stay here with you every time I have a free moment, and when I'm not here your friends come to visit you. So please, just rest and be good. Ok? And give me back the chart."
"Fine." snorted Meredith, handing the chart to Addison. "It's just...there's nothing to do here. Now I understand why our patients always complain. There's not even cable tv here. You are so changing that when you're Chief."
"Meredith...I don't think I'll ever be Chief." said Addison sadly.
Meredith looked at her confused. "Why? What happened?"
"When you drowned..." started Addison, shivering at the memory. "Richard worked hard to bring you back. He was there and he acted as a doctor and as a Chief. But I...I broke down, Meredith...I had a panic attack, I cried and screamed and they had to take me out the room cause I was a mess. A good Chief would be professional all the time, not a feelings-driven mess. I don't think I will ever get that job. Not after what happened."
"This is bullshit!" shouted Meredith, making the nurse who was walking outside the room jump. "Come on Addie, you can't really think that. Of course you were upset, you saw me almost dying. The Chief and Bailey and Burke care about me but we're not that close. What do you think the Chief would do if it was his wife in there? He would have been shocked just like you were. So don't worry, I'm sure Dr Webber won't hold it against you."
"I hope so." sighed Addison. "I have to go now, I have to check on Jane Doe. See you later...and be good!"
The redhead leaned in to kiss Meredith on the cheek and then left the room. Meredith sighed. Addison was acting exactely like she used to before the kiss, before the accident. Meredith was starting to think that the words she heard in her "afterlife" were only just a dream. She knew they needed to talk but it never seemed the right moment. There was always someone around. Guess she had to wait until she was discharged.
Thank god Cristina arrived to save Meredith from her thoughts and boredom.
"So? What do you think about the chart I gave you?" asked.
"Addison found out and took it away from me." pouted Meredith. "Now I'm here with just this crappy TV. I'm bored."
"Why isn't your girlfriend here to entertain you? smirked the dark haired intern.
"She's..." stuttered Meredith. "She's not my girlfriend."
"What?" shouted Cristina. "Come on, Meredith, be serious."
"I am serious Cristina. She's not my girlfriend." said Meredith disappointed.
"Ok, so...what do you call her? Partner, lesbian lover, the Bette to your Tina...cause let's face it, she's way bossier than you so she's definitely Bette." went on Cristina, laughing a little cause she didn't know why she just came up with a "The L Word" reference.
But Meredith shook her head.
"Are you seriously saying that you two aren't together yet?"
Meredith shook her head again. "No. Just friends."
"Are you two stupid?" asked Cristina. "Meredith, you kissed her, you've been pining over her for months...and she kissed you back and she loves you, for god's sake. She told you she loves you."
"While I was unconscious. It doesn't count." added Meredith.
"Whatever, she loves you anyway so why don't you just get it over with?" sighed Cristina exasperated. "You two are driving the whole hospital crazy, you know that? Everyone knows, everyone's ok with this so why don't you two stop be chickens and finally become a couple?"
"Everyone's know? Derek...Mark...they know?" asked Meredith terrified. She couldn't imagine how they would react.
Cristina nodded. "It was impossible not to know, considering Satan's reaction. She was a mess, Meredith, she lost it...she started screaming and crying and she broke down on the floor sobbing and it was Shepherd who was there for her. And Sloan, but mostly Derek."
"Oh my god!" panted Meredith. "They're gonna kill me. Well, Mark's gonna kill me, Derek...Derek will probably kill her. This is so messed up...we can't...this is so wrong! And I don't even know what this is, we're not together, we're not just friends...and her exes know and..."
"MEREDITH!" Cristina interrupted her. "Stop rambling. God, I didn't know you were suck a coward. So what if McDreamy and McSteamy know? What if they're mad? This is not your problem. Just get it over with. Unless you want to join their club."
"What club?" asked Meredith.
"The club with the people who were stupid enough to let Addison go."
"Wow Cristina." said Meredith. "I never thought you liked Addison."
"Yeah well...she's cool. She was the one who convinced me to come back here and stay with you while you were dead. So yes, I guess I like her. We're not friends, I just...I think she's a great person, Meredith, and you're too and you deserve to be happy." Cristina got up from the chair, about to leave the room to go back to work. "Now I'm done with this emotional crap, I'm a surgeon, I have lives to save."
Meredith laughed and waved her goodbye. Before she left the room, Cristina turned around. "Seriously, Meredith...don't let her go."
-o-
Meanwhile Addison was having a very similar conversation with Callie, who approached her at the nurse station.
"So, how's your girlfriend doing?" asked the resident, only to receive a raised eyebrow as reply.
"She's not my girlfriend. She's fine, though, bored, but fine."
"Come on, Addison, do you seriously think I'm believe that after everything that happened between the two of you, you're not together by now?"
Addison shrugged. "We're not."
"I...god Addison, what's wrong with you? The girl loves you, she told you she came back from the dead for you. And you love her, so what are you waiting for?"
"Well, first of all, that she's not in an hospital bed. And...I don't know, Callie. What if we're wrong? What if we're just confused and alone and we find comfort in each other but we're not in love? I..." sighed Addison.
"You are just scared, honey." interrupted Callie. "You're scared she will hurt you like Derek and Mark did. But she's not Derek and Mark. She's Meredith. And ok, from what I've heard she has some commitment issues, but give her a chance. Tell me something...how many guys she slept with since you two started to become this close?"
"I don't know...I think none. Or at least she never told me about anyone." replied Addison.
"See? She loves you, and she's been faithful to you since she started feeling something for you, even if you're not together, so please, stop worrying and get it over with."
"Callie...it's not so easy..." sighed Addison.
"No, Addison, you are making it complicated. It's pretty easy from my point of view. You love her, she loves you, so please, stop dancing around each other and driving us crazy!"
Addison didn't reply. She remained quiet, lost in her thoughts. "I have to talk to Derek." she said suddently. "And to Mark. I...I...they're gonna kill us."
Callie rolled her eyes. "Whatever Addie, as long as you talk to Meredith too. I'm tired of your lesbian drama!"
Addison gave her friend her best "Satan's gaze" and left, looking for Mark and Derek.
In that moment, Cristina approached Callie. "How can we manage to be best friends with those two idiots?" asked the intern.
"I have no idea." sighed Callie, then she went back to work.
-o-
Addison had managed to find Mark and Derek in the cafeteria and she was a little surprised to see them talking and laughing together.
"What's going on?" she asked approaching them.
"We're just having lunch." stated Derek, pointing at the food.
"Together? What...when?" Addison was confused. A couple of days before they were barely talking to each other, only for work-related stuff and now they were having lunch together? So weird.
"While you were busy worrying for Meredith and taking care of your Jane Doe, Derek decided that I can be his best friend again." explained Mark.
"I said friends, Mark, not best friends. Remember?" Derek corrected him.
"Like you have someone else as a best friend." teased Mark.
"Ok, enough!" Addison interrupted them. "You two sound like an old gay couple!"
"Hey!" they both exclaimed and then the three of the started laughing.
It was nice to see that they could go back to how they were before the whole affair thing happened. And even before the marriage happened. They felt like they were back in Med School. Just three friends, having fun together.
"Speaking of couple." said Mark when they stopped laughing. "How's it going with Meredith?"
Addison's eyes went wide. "You...you know?"
Mark and Derek both nodded. "How?" asked Addison.
"Addie, it was impossible not to know, considering how you reacted when you saw her lying there."
Addison blushed and felt like she was starting to panic.
"It's okay, Addie, we're both okay with this." said Derek to calm her down, because she knew Addison and she knew she was worried they were going to react badly.
"You are?" asked the redhead in disbelief.
"Yeah...I mean, it's hard, you know? It's hard for me to think that you and I will never had another chance...but I want you to be happy, Addie, and if Meredith makes you happy then it's fine by me." said Mark, putting an hand on Addison's shoulder.
Addison smiled gratefully and turned to Derek. "What about you? Aren't you upset that Meredith and I could end up together? You're in love with her..."
Derek shook his head. "No Addie, I'm not. I thought I was, but I realized it was just some sort of crush...I met her when I needed some fresh air, because I was mad and hurt and she was that fresh air. But this is not love. And as Mark said, I just want you two to be happy because I deeply care about both of you, so yes, I'm okay."
Addison couldn't be happier. One of the things holding her back was the fear of losing her renewed friendship with the two most important men of her life and now they were there, telling her that they were perfectly fine with her and Meredith being together.
It was time to get a grip and act on her feelings. But not now, not while Meredith was still in the hospital. "When she's discharged" thought Addison. "I will talk to her as soon as she's home."
-o-
They were lying under the covers together, as usual. It was the first night Meredith spent away from the hospital since the accident and they decided to sleep in Addison's room. Meredith still had a couple of days off and Addison asked the Chief to give her some time off as well to make sure Meredith was fully recovering, so the hotel seemed to be the better choice: room service and no one going around the house at 5 am because they had to go to work.
So they were lying in Addison's king size bed, their bodies entwined and their hands soflty caressing each other's body. In the dark, they could only see each other's profiles. None of them was saying a word.
Even if she would never admit it, Addison was still scared to death. Scared that she could lose Meredith anytime, just like it happened a few days before. So she wanted to remain in silence, listening to Meredith's heartbeat to be sure she was still alive. The moment was so perfect, she didn't want to think about those painful minutes in which she had thought she had lost Meredith forever. She pressed her body closer to the intern's, who hold her tight.
They both couldn't sleep. Meredith was so intoxicated by Addison's parfume, she couldn't bring herself to fall asleep. She didn't want to fall asleep, she just wanted to stay there, caressing Addison's perfect body.
Despite all the pushing coming from their friends, they hadn't talked about their conversation at the hospital yet, nor about the kiss they shared the previous week. They were both afraid something could break if they did talk about it. It was so perfect that way. Just Meredith and Addison, no labels, no complications. They both were aware of their feelings toward the other, but they couldn't bring themselves to confess them. Even if, after the events of that fateful day, those feelings were pretty clear. But talking about them, giving them a name...it was too complicated. Meredith was still recovering from her near death experience, her almost suicide attempt, when for a moment she stopped fighting and let the water bring her down. It was too soon to think about anything else.
So there they were, in Addison's hotel room, in the dark, in silence. Their hands never stopped caressing each other, maybe both hoping that that sweet gesture could make the other fall asleep.
Addison's hand wandered along Meredith's arm and for a brief moment, it touched softly Meredith's breast. The younger woman shivered. That simple touch had been enough to awake all Meredith's feelings for the redhead. She let her hand slip on Addison's tummy, touching in painfully slowly. Now it was Addison's turn to shiver.
They both knew they couldn't resist much longer. The tension between them was too thick. They were breathing heavily and their heartbeats increased. It was too much for them to bear.
As their hands never stopped moving, and finally their heads leaned in to each other till their lips touched. It was soft at first, just a small peck, but then their lips met again and this time the kiss was hungrier, full of passion.
Addison's tongue ran over Meredith's bottom lips, to ask for access. Meredith parted her lips and Addison's tongue entered her mouth. As their tongues were dancing together, Meredith climbed on top of Addison and suddenly she remembered the conversation she had with Cristina a few months before, when the dark haired intern said that she had always pictured Addison to be the one on top. Meredith smirked. The feeling of having Addison's body under her turned Meredith on even more. She wasn't sure she was doing the right thing, she wasn't sure Addison wanted the same thing she wanted, but now she couldn't stop. She wanted Addison, she wanted her so badly it almost hurt. So, she grabbed Addison's top and slowly removed it, exposing the attending's perfect breasts. Addison gulped for a second, but she kept on kissing Meredith.
The young intern broke the kiss and put her mouth on Addison's right breast, kissing and licking it. Addison let out a soft moan and Meredith thought she could die. Hearing Addison's pleasure was without any doubt the most beautiful sound in the world. It was magical, it was like a poem or a song. Just one moan, and Meredith thought she would never be able to hear something else ever again. "Addison must be a goddess" thought Meredith, cause that sound could only be something divine. She licked Addison's nipple, till the red head stopped her, cupped her face and kissed her hard. Then Addison removed Meredith's t-shirt, throwing it somewhere in the room, and started giving Meredith's breast the same treatment she had just received. Meredith panted as she felt Addison's tongue on her nipple. Never, in all her life, someone had touched her and licked her in that way. It seemed like Addison was born to give her pleasure.
When Meredith felt she couldn't hold on any longer, she removed Addison's pants and string and Addison did the same with Meredith's panties. There was no going back now.
Their hands moved in synch, reaching each other's wetness. They started to massage their clits slowly and hey both moaned loudly. Addison was the first one to slip two fingers in Meredith. The younger woman almost screamed. She felt like she had been incomplete for all her life and now finally, with Addison inside of her, she was becoming a whole. Addison's fingers pumped into Meredith, as Meredith kept on drawing circles around Addison's clit.
Not a word was spoken between them, all that could be heard in the room was their loud moans and the rumor of Addison's finger going in and out of Meredith.
Meredith was closing to the edge, so she slid her finger into Addison's wetness. The redhead moaned loudly.
They kissed hungrly, their tongues were battling as they were close to the increased the pace and soon they came together loudly, almost screaming.
The room smelled like sex, sweat and their parfumes mixed together. Their bodies were shaking as they were coming down from their high.
They both wanted to say something, but they didn't want to break the magic of that moment, so they remained in silence and after a few minutes they both fell asleep, naked, in each other's arms.
-o-
When Addison woke up, she felt Meredith's naked body pressed against her and the memories of the previous night started to come in her mind. She blushed. It had been the most amazing experience of her life and even if she was scared of what would happen that morning between them, she felt happier than she had ever been. She managed to free herself from Meredith's grip and she went to the bathroom.
A few minutes later, she heard Meredith's voice calling her name. Addison entered the room and found Meredith awake, sitting on the bed, the covers around her chest.
"Come here." ordered the intern and Addison slid under the covers, immediatly captured by Meredith's arms.
"I woke up and you weren't here...and it was so awful...I can't explain...I felt lost..." murmured Meredith, stroking soflty Addison's hair.
Addison smiled. "Sorry, I needed to use the bathroom."
Meredith nodded and they stayed there in silence, hugging each other.
"Meredith...was it a dream?" asked Addison and Meredith felt like she could cry because of the sweetness in Addison's voice.
"If you were dreaming..." whispered Meredith in Addison's ear. "We were having the same dream."
Addison's face lit up in a beautiful smile. So it was true. And from the look on Meredith's face, Addison could tell that the intern was as happy as she was.
Addison leaned in to kiss Meredith and shortly they were making love again. Well, if it was a dream, neither of them ever wanted to wake up.
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AN2: That's it. It was about time! I hope you liked it. Just so you know, I practically wrote down my first time, so if you didn't like it…well blame it on my first girlfriend! :P review!