Cure my tragedy

by TheComet13

They were supposed to hate each other. Or at least, they weren't supposed to like each other. But they did. They really did. I suck at summaries. It's a Mer/Addie femslash. Give it a shot.

16. You're the love I wanna be in

AN: Sorry it took me longer than usual to update this time. I guess I wasn't really inspired, but here I am now.
I'm not really sure about this chapter…now that all the tension is gone and they are finally together, I find it harder to write. I'm not good in writing happy and fluffy stuff, I'm more of a tragedy kind of girl :P
Anyway, let me know what you, think, as usual. Reviews make me happy and inspire me to write faster.

DISCLAIMER: Sadly, I still do not own anything.

CHAPTER 16 – You're the love I wanna be in

Meredith was trying hard to catch her breath. Everything around her was blurry and she could only hear her heart pounding in her chest.
She never thought it was possible to come so many times in just one morning. She never thought it was possible to come THAT hard. She had never, in her entire life, experienced something like that. Addison was a sex machine. She never stopped. She could go on for hours without stopping, making Meredith come six, seven times in a row. The younger woman was seeing fireworks. The things that Addison was doing to her with her fingers and tongue...Meredith wasn't able to describe them.
Their first time had been slow and sweet and gentle, but now everything was different. Not that Meredith was complaining.
She came for what she believed it was the seventh time that morning, when finally Addison removed her fingers and her mouth from Meredith's center and came up, kissing Meredith softly on her lips.
"Breathe, Meredith." she whispered, laughing a little.
The intern smiled and took a couple of deep breaths, her heart was finally starting to slow down.
"That..." she panted. "That was amazing! You are a sex goddess, Addison!"
"Oh, trust me, I can do so much better!" smirked the redhead.
They remained silent for a couple of minutes, allowing Meredith to regain her strength. It was Addison who broke the silence. "I think we should talk now."
Meredith nodded, worried. She had feared that moment since the previous night. "But before you say anything, before you say that you had a good time but this was just a one time thing and that we should go back being friends, I need to tell you something...something that I should have told you a long time before...I love you, Addison! I'm in love with you, and maybe you don't want all of this, but I need you to know and I need you in my life, so please Addison, please...don't leave me, keep on being my friend..."
Addison didn't know what to say. It was so typically Meredith, rambling without allowing her to say something first. "Meredith..." she sighed."I don't want to be your friend." When she saw the look on Meredith's face, she added "I don't wanna be JUST friends. I wanna be with you. I love you, Meredith. I told you when you were unconscious but I know you heard it, but I'm telling you again. I love you. I'm in love with you. I'm in love like a teenager, but also like I've never been in my whole life. That thing with Mark...I was still a little shocked for the whole toxic patient case...and things between us were complicated...I was confused, I didn't know how I felt about you and how you felt about me...and Mark told me he loved me, and..."
"Addison!" Meredith interrupted her. "You don't have to apologize. I am the one who should apologize once again for what I said to you that night. I was jealous, I saw you with Mark and I freaked out because I love you, but you did nothing wrong. We weren't together, so you did nothing wrong."
"But we are now, right?" asked Addison. "Together, I mean..."
Meredith smiled. "You tell me. Addison Montgomery, do you wanna be my girlfriend?"
"Yes!" exclaimed Addison, throwing herself on Meredith, pushing her down on the mattress again and kissing her. "Yes, yes, yes, yes!"
They kissed hungrily then Meredith pulled away. "My turn now!" she whispered, flipping them over so that she was on top.
Meredith kissed Addison's neck and went down until her mouth was on the attending's left breast. Addison moaned when she felt Meredith's mouth taking in her nipple. "Oh, God!"
"I want to taste you..." said Meredith while her mouth was moving down Addison's body.
"Then taste me..." moaned the redhead.
Meredith smiled and continued her journey along Addison's body. She kissed around her belly and on her thighs, stopping for a few moments to stare at Addison's perfect legs. "You are so beautiful, Addison." she whispered, placing another kiss on the inside of the redhead's thigh.
"Mer...please..." beg Addison. She wasn't one to beg, but she needed to feel Meredith's mouth licking her, she needed to come.
Meredith didn't waste any more time, she placed herself between Addison's legs and she licked slowly Addison's wet core, making the other woman moan loudly.
"Mmm...you taste so good..." said the intern, pushing her tongue inside Addison.
It was true, Addison taste was amazing...so much better than any guy she ever had. She wondered why she wasted so many years with guys when it was obvious that a girl was so much better.
She took Addison's clit in her mouth, sucking it and slipping a finger inside Addison, who groaned.
"Meredith...more...please...fuck me harder...faster..." panted Addison, so Meredith added two more fingers and started pushing harder inside the other woman.
Meredith never thought Addison could be that loud. She was almost screaming and she was getting louder as she was approaching to the orgasm. Meredith increased the pace of her fingers, curling them inside Addison and soon the redhead was screaming Meredith's name, as she came. Meredith was sure the whole hotel had heard her, but she didn't care. In that moment, nothing was important...there was only Addison.

-o-

They didn't get much sleep that night. It seemed like it was impossible for them to keep their hands off each other.
A couple of days later, after Ellis's funeral, Meredith was finally allowed to go back to work, so the two women arrived at the hospital together, holding their hands.
"Do you think we should talk to our friends about us?" asked Meredith before entering the hospital.
"I think they already know. At least Callie, Mark and Derek do. And I believe Cristina knows too. Oh shit...Bailey and Richard where in the room when I declared my love for you...maybe we should talk to them...you know...we should tell them that we will be professional about this and all this kind of stuff..."
Meredith nodded. "I think I should tell Alex...he...he has a thing for you, I want to be sure he's ok with this."
"I know" sighed Addison. "Do you want me to tell him?"
"No." Meredith shook her head. "I'll do it. And I'll talk to Izzie and George too. Are you sure Mark and Derek are cool?"
"Yeah, we had an interesting conversation about this. Don't worry, they won't kill you!"
Meredith laughed and together the two women entered the hospital.
"Well, I should go, find Bailey and Richard before rounds. Take it easy today, ok? I'll see you at lunch if I can." said Addison, kissing softly Meredith when she reached her floor.
Meredith nodded and hurried herself to the interns' locker room. She knew her friends were going to ask her a lot of questions and she wanted to face them as soon as possible.

-o-

Addison found Bailey in the residents' locker room and asked to come with her to the Chief's office.
"So, what do you want to talk about, Addison?" asked Richard when they sat down in the office.
Addison was nervous. Sure, Miranda and Richard were in the room when Addison told an unconscious Meredith that she loved her, but telling them that they were together was a completely different thing. She sighed. "See...Meredith and I...we...we are together...like a couple...I thought...I thought you should know."
"Well…we kinda imagined it. After we saw you in that trauma room." said the Chief, and Bailey nodded. "I just didn't think it was this serious…because it is serious, isn't it, Addison? You wouldn't have come to us if it wasn't."
"It is." confirmed Addison. "It's very serious, Richard. I love her, she loves me. We're in this for the long run."
"I'm happy for you, Addie!" smiled Richard hugging her. "You know you're like a daughter to me…and she…well, she kinda is too, so…I couldn't be happier."
Addison hugged Richard and then turned to Miranda. "What do you think?"
Miranda sighed. "As your friend, I'm happy for you. As a resident, I'm a little disappointed to see that another one of my interns is having a relationship with her boss. But as long as you treat her like the others when you're here, I don't have anything to say."
"Don't worry, Miranda, you know I'm not that kind of person." Addison reassured her. "Besides, Meredith is not really interested in neo-natal, so I don't think we will have any problem."
Addison smiled and thanked them both, before leaving the office. Now she was ready to go through the day, hoping that Meredith's friends would be ok with their relationship. She saw how Izzie reacted to the news that George married Callie and she was giving the resident a hard time. She hoped the blond intern won't do the same to her.

-o-

Meredith caught Alex on her way to the locker room. "Hey Alex, can I talk to you for a sec?"
He nodded. "What's up?"
"Look, I wanted to say this to you before telling to the others because I know you have a thing for Addison…see, Addison and I have been having feelings for each other for a while and…after I drowned all these feelings came out and…we're together now. I'm sorry if this hurts you in any way, and I hope it won't change anything between us…or between you and her, cause she told me that you're friends now…but I really love her, Alex, I hope you understand that. I just want you to know that."
"Meredith, it's ok. I know she loves you." replied Alex. "When I asked her out she told me she had feelings for someone else and at first I thought it was Sloan but then I realized it was you. I'm fine with it, Addison and I are friends, she's a wonderful woman and I like hanging out with her. So don't worry about me. Just…make her happy, ok? She deserves it, after all the crap she got by Shepherd and Sloan…and you deserve it too."
"You're a great guy, Alex, you know that?" said Meredith with a smile.
Alex returned the smile and together walked into the locker room, where the other interns were already changing.
"Hey Mer." George greeted her. "How you doing?"
Meredith looked at her friends. "Ok, everybody, let's do this once. I'm fine. She's cremated, I picked out a beautiful urn and she's hanging out in the back of my closet. Any more questions about my dead mother?" The interns shook their heads. "Ok, moving on…Addison and I are a couple now, we're in love, it's serious, I'm happy, we're not planning to keep this a secret so you will hear a lot of nurse gossip about this. Anybody has a problem with that?" They shook their heads again. "Cool, let's get to work, then."
"Does anyone know who the new chief candidate is?" asked Cristina to change the subject.
"Chief's bringing in a ringer in case he doesn't want to give the job to either boyfriend." said George pointing to Cristina. "Or your girlfriend." continued looking at Meredith.
In that moment, Bailey entered the room. "O'Malley, you're with Shepherd today. Yang, Dr. Montgomery. Stevens, to the clinic. Karev, Jane Doe. Grey, scut."
"Once again, I'm fine." protested Meredith. She had been away from the OR for too long and she missed it.
"You can tell everybody your fine till your blue in the face. Your mom died and you almost joined her, you're taking it easy." said Bailey in her usual "Nazi tone".
Meredith pouted but she knew it was pointless to discuss with Bailey.
Being an orphan and almost drowning sucked!

-o-

Later that day, Meredith was walking down the hallway when Mark and Derek approached her.
"Dr. Grey!" said the two men simultaneously.
"Dr. Shepherd, Dr Sloan." replied Meredith amused by the fact that they called her Dr Grey and not Meredith, as they used to.
"Can we talk to you?" asked Mark. Meredith nodded and she followed the two doctors in an empty exam room.
"Look, there's no nice way to say that so let's just rip the band-aid off. You're with Addison now, she loves you, you love her and you're happy. But be careful, Meredith, don't break her heart, cause if you do, we don't care if you're a girl, we still kick your ass!" said Derek.
"Yeah, cause that makes sense." grinned Meredith sarcastically. "You two really have a say in this. You." she pointed at Derek. "You ignored her for years, you preferred being in surgeries than being with your wife and when she came here you pretended to be willing to fix your marriage but you treated her like crap. And you." her attention went to Mark. "You pushed her to cheat on her husband, your best friend, and then you cheated on her with a random peds-nurse cause you're a manwhore who can't keep it in his pants."
"Meredith." sighed Mark. "We made a lot of mistakes with Addison, and we know it. But we both love her and we know that she deserves to be happy. And we know that you could make her happy, so please, don't screw this up like we did...she's an amazing woman and she doesn't need any more pain."
"I know." smiled the intern. "I know she's amazing, that's why I love her. I really am in love with her, guys, and I'll do my best not to screw this up. I promise. So...friends?"
The two attendings nodded. "Friends."
Meanwhile Cristina must have had the same idea Mark and Derek had. She was at Addison's service that day and she caught the opportunity to talk to her.
"Meredith told me about you. I know that, even if we kind of bonded when Meredith drowned, we're not friends, but she's my person and I have to say this, I don't care if you're my boss. I'm not talking to Dr Montgomery, my boss, now…I'm talking to Addison, my person's girlfriend. You break her heart, I break your face. Got it?"
Addison nodded amused. Cristina could play tough as long as she wanted, but she knew the intern had a soft spot for Meredith. "Don't worry, Yang. I'm not planning to break her heart. On the contrary, I'm planning to take care of her heart for a very long time."
"Fine by me. As long as we're clear that I've got her back." said Cristina shrugging, ready to go back to work.

-o-

Meredith saw Addison coming out her office, so she hurried to reach her. She grabbed the redhead wrist and pushed her back inside the office, closing the door and kissing her hungrily.
"God, I needed that." she panted when their lips parted. "You have no idea what kind of day I'm having."
"Trust me, if it's half as bad as mine, I think I have." replied Addison, holding Meredith tight in her arms. "There's a new candidate chief. Richard brought here Colin Marlow. Colin freaking Marlow. I will never have that job."
"Addison, relax. Having him here doesn't mean you're off the game. The Chief is just…considering his options. And besides, even if you don't become chief, you will still be the greatest neo-natal surgeon in the world. Isn't it enough?"
Addison sighed. "I guess."
"Oh, by the way…Cristina slept with him." added Meredith amused.
"Cristina slept with who?" asked Addison confused.
"Marlow. He was her professor at Stanford and apparently, he was much more than that."
"No way!" laughed Addison. "Speaking of Cristina…she threatened me."
"She what?"
"I think her exact words were 'You break her heart, I break your face'." explained Addison.
Meredith laughed. "Oh, I had a similar conversation with Mark and Derek. They told me that if I break your heart, they would kick my ass, even if I'm a girl. Guess our friends are really looking after us."
"Guess so. Now, how come you're having a horrible day?" asked Addison, remembering her girlfriend words.
"Everyone is looking at me like I might start to freak out for my mother's death any moment. And I just agreed to have dinner at my father's house, tonight. My father and Susan are here, by the way. How can I have a meal at my father's house?" rambled Meredith in her usual way.
"Have dinner at your house." suggested Addison. "It's your place, you'll be more at ease. And I'll come, if you want. I'll be your wing woman and it will be fine."
Meredith nodded and kissed Addison. "Have I told you lately how amazing you are?"
"Uhm…a couple of times while we were doing dirty things last night, I believe." grinned Addison between her girlfriend's lips. "But it's nice to hear it again."
"In this case…" whispered Meredith, pushing Addison against the desk and sliding her hand under her scrubs top. "I might show you how amazing you are in the same way as last night."
Addison groaned and crashed her lips against Meredith's. "This is insane." said when they parted. "We're acting like horny teenagers who can't keep their hands off each other."
"Are you complaining?" asked Meredith, cupping Addison's breast and massaging it slowly.
The red head shook her head. She wasn't complaining at all. She took off her top and let Meredith unclasp her bra. The intern's mouth immediately found Addison's hard nipple, sucking it and making the older woman moan. In the meantime, Meredith's hands were busy finding their way in Addison's panties.
"Wow, what an honor Dr Montgomery, having you so wet for me." grinned Meredith, her finger tracing Addison's walls.
"Shut up and fuck me!" panted Addison, who had lost all control feeling Meredith touching her.
In a quick movement, Meredith freed Addison of both her scrubs pants and her underwear and now the attending was sitting completely naked on the desk.
"God, Addison, your body is amazing. It drives me crazy." whispered Meredith, trailing kisses along the attending's body.
Addison moaned loudly. "Shh baby, they can hear you outside." said Meredith, but Addison was now out of control, so Meredith came up and silenced her with her mouth.
"Meredith…" moaned the redhead and Meredith new exactly what she wanted, so she slipped two fingers inside her girlfriend, who gasped and started rocking her hips against Meredith's hand.
"Oh god…more, Meredith, please…" begged Addison.
"You're such an animal!" laughed Meredith, adding one more finger and pumping them inside Addison harder.
Addison tried hard not to scream, she cupped Meredith's face and kissed her harder to suffocate her loud moans. She was about to come, when her pager went off.
"Shit!" she groaned, feeling suddenly empty as Meredith's finger left her body. "Shit! I have to go."
Meredith licked her fingers clean, making Addison groan once again at the sight, and she passed the red head her bra. "I hate our job sometimes." she pouted. She had really wanted to make Addison come at least once. "Maybe we should quit. Leave Seattle and spend the rest of our days on a beach having sex. Being surgeons is not that great anyway. You have a trust fund and I have the money my mom left me. We don't need to work."
Addison laughed. "Nice plan, we will discuss it later…for now, I have to go. I'll see you later." She kissed Meredith once again.
"Well, I suppose I can wait until tonight then. You're worth it." said Meredith smiling.
"You bet your smoking hot ass I am!" grinned Addison and hurried herself out of her office.
Meredith sighed, aroused once again by her girlfriend's comment. How could she wait until that night to have Addison all for herself again? That woman was going to be her death.

-o-

Meredith and George were having lunch together and George was complaining about his recent discovery about his wife. "She's rich, totally rich. Boatloads of money."
"George, that's fantastic!" said Meredith, not really understanding why George seemed so upset by that. "Addison's totally rich too and I find it fantastic."
"No, it's...it's not fantastic." sighed George.
Izzie walked up and joined them. "Cristina did Colin Marlow!"
"Callie's rich." Replied Meredith, earning a death glare by George.
"Don't talk to her about it."
"Her? I'm sorry, I don't have a name anymore?" complained Izzie.
"Don't tell anyone, those were my words." continued George, ignoring Izzie.
"So? She's rich." shrugged the blonde. "Meredith's girlfriend's rich too. And I was rich before I gave all my money to Bailey's clinic."
"Just shut up about it. Do you think that's possible?" snapped George, getting up and leaving.
In that moment, Cristina reached the table and sat down.
"Colin Marlow! Was it good? Was he good? Did he make you a better lovah?" Izzie teased her.
Cristina gave her a dirty look. "Do you remember all the other times I've talked to you about my sex life?"
Izzie shook her head. "No."
"Exactly." stated Cristina.
"Did I miss anything about her doing the old guy?" asked Alex sitting down with them.
"She's not talking." said Izzie.
"Oh, she'll talk." replied Alex confidently.
"So, I was supposed to be back in the game today but instead I'm planning dinner for my father in my dead mother's house. I don't cook, how am I supposed to cook for them? Addison promised me to come, but she can't cook too." complained Meredith, not that interested in Cristina's past sex life.
"I will make your stupid dinner, so you and your girlfriend can relax." said Izzie and then turned once again her attention to Cristina. So, were there any little blue pills involved? Or, is he untouched by time?"
"Dude, that's just wrong, don't answer that." laughed Alex.
"Why you keep naming my girlfriend in your sentences? Is it a problem for you?" asked Meredith, having noticed that it was the second time in a few minutes that Izzie had said something about Addison. "Do you feel the need to point out that Addison's my girlfriend every five minutes? Or you just enjoy saying it?"
"You brought her up in the conversation. You said that she can't cook either." explained Izzie. Besides, you two are the new hospital gossip so deal with it. You, and Cristina doing Marlow. Come on, Cristina, he's not a young man. He wasn't getting a little help? Poppin' the pill? Dad's best friend? Come on, you're gonna give me nothing, after everything we've been through? Nothing?"
"It's a miracle drug." shrugged Cristina and then looked at Alex. "And someday it'll save your life."
"It's so good to be hospital gossip." sighed Meredith, giving Cristina a sympathetic look.

-o-

Meredith and Addison were having dinner with Thatcher and Susan. Meredith walked into the kitchen to grab the food.
"This is ready. Don't slosh it around, it's all about the presentation." Said Izzie handing the plate to Meredith.
"Come in and eat with us." begged Meredith. Even if Addison was there with her, she wasn't comfortable with her father and Susan and maybe one more person at the table would help the conversation. "I introduced Addison to them as my girlfriend and we talked about it. We talked hospital, we talked his research, we talked dead mother. I'm out."
"Ask about the baby, ask if it poos, people can go on about that for hours. Besides, Addison was Molly's doctor so I believe they can start a conversation." suggested Izzie.
Meredith sighed and went back to the dining room. "So, how's the baby?"
"Great!" answered Susan.
"She's smiling now sometimes." Added Thatcher. "Looks exactly like Molly when she smiles. I mean it's amazing. I've got this old picture of Molly and me when she was, I don't know, 5 and she's sitting on this red sled in the snow, this great big fir tree.
"You know, I'm not sure that that..." Susan tried to say, but Thatcher interrupted her.
"Yeah, no honey, it's a massive Douglas fir and in the picture couldn't look more like the baby. I mean, incredible."
"That's me. The red sled and the big fir tree and the park at the middle school and the ugly yellow wool coat. That's isn't Molly it's you and me." said Meredith. She and Thatcher looked in the eyes for a while and the silence fell in the room, till the lights went suddenly out.
"Crap! Sorry! I think I blew a fuse." Izzie's voice came from the kitchen.
"I'll get it." said Thatcher standing up.
"No, you know, I can get it, it's..." Meredith got up, looking for an excuse to leave the table.
"Laundry room." Thatcher interrupted her and left the room.
"I keep forgetting." sighed Meredith sitting back down.
"What?" asked Addison.
"It's his house." Addison looked at her girlfriend and reached out for her hand, squeezing it and smiling sweetly at her. She understood how hard it was all that for Meredith. After all, she had daddy's issues too.
That's why she caught the occasion to walk down the laundry room to bring Thatcher a flashlight and have a word with him. She found him relaxing in a rocking chair.
"Did you find the fuse box?" she asked.
"Yeah, yeah, I just needed to..." sighed Thatcher.
"Take a break?" Addison finished the sentence.
"I don't know...I don't know how to or what to talk to her about." Apparently Thatcher had the same problems Meredith was having.
"Work's a good place to start." suggested the redhead. "Yeah, she's proud of what she does. She's good at it too. I'd start with that."
"You get each other." stated Thatcher. "That's nice."
Addison smiled. "Yeah we do. Not always, though. We're both complicated, so we don't always find a way to each other. But mostly yeah, we do. She was nervous about tonight. You both were. It will get easier."
"She was nervous?" asked the man.
Addison nodded. "Yeah, she's tough, she tries to hide it. She's difficult but if you make an effort, she's worth it. She's worth the effort."
Thatcher thought about Addison's words for a while. "All right!" said getting up and together, he and Addison went back to the dinner.

-o-

Meredith came out of the bathroom and joined Addison in her bed.
"So?" asked Addison. "Was it that terrible?"
"It was ok." replied Meredith, lying down. "Maybe this family thing is not that bad."
"Maybe." said Addison, turning to face her girlfriend. "I would suggest continuing what we started in my office today, but you don't look like you're in the mood for it. What's wrong?"
"My mom is dead." whispered Meredith, as she was realizing it for the first time.
"Yeah, she is." sighed Addison, pulling Meredith in her arms.
"I love you, Addison." said Meredith, kissing her softly and then cuddling in her arms. "I am so glad you're here with me. I don't know if I would be able to get through this alone."
"I'll never leave you, Meredith. I love you too."
The two women closed their eyes and soon they feel asleep in each other arms.

-o-

AN2: Just so you know, most of this chapter is pretty useless. I just wanted to fit Addison in Meredith's life, make them start behaving like a real couple. I hope you liked it. R&R