Clare
I'm sitting in my room just staring at the walls, everything is confusing now, and at this moment I really hate my father, I don't know how he has the face too look at her and ask her for help and support. My mom and dad talked and I still can't believe this is happening but I know my mom must feel much worse. After today I realized how much my mother loves that man who's my father. He has AIDS, that's why his behavior changed so suddenly. He didn't know what to do, I mean how he could, he cheats on my mother with so many women, but god gave him what he deserved because today he is no longer my father.
I don't know what to do when my mother told me about my father's condition, she was in tears, she loves him so much, she didn't even ask about the other women. I wish I could be like my mother but I can't, first it was Darcy and now that man that I'm suppose to call dad. "He's going to die sweetheart, so we need to support your father through this, understand" she said trying to quit crying. I nodded and said "Of course mom" I couldn't tell her no, it was the least I could do for her.
My mom had a long talk with me about how things were going to possibly change, dad was probably soon going to be living in the hospital. His condition was advancing rapidly and the doctors had recommended for him to start staying in the hospital. I really didn't care, I know it sounds harsh, he's my father but he raised me to be a good person, to respect god and the ones you love. He hurt my mother he crushed her into a million pieces not caring at all and he comes seeking our help. She's granting him her support because she loves him too much.
I heard a quote that said "When you're in a relationship, try to be with a person who loves you more than you love them", I guess my mother should have followed that quote but right now it doesn't matter. I have to be here to support her, to let her know that when he's gone, she'll still have me.
He destroyed our family, or at least the little part that was left without Darcy.
What am I gonna do? I wouldn't have the nerves to tell Alli about this, she's my best friend but I don't want any pity from anyone and I can't dump all my problems on Eli.
What am I gonna do? I whisper to myself, I go under the covers of my bed and hope that my dreams can be an escape from this place that is crumbling all around me.