This is my first fan fiction. I hope you all enjoy it!

Chapter 2

I am looking forward to finishing my shift, it has been a very long night. Merlottes has been crowded all evening with the local men watching football games. They are being quite routy yelling and screaming at the TV. While sloshing beer on floor and throwing peanuts shells all over the place. One chicken basket was even thrown across the room, when the other team scored a touch down. It is taking all I have to keep my cool, with having to clean up 5 spilled beers in the past 30 minutes. I hope they don't act this way at home. At least with their minds distracted by football, their thoughts are much less vulgar. This makes it so much easier to block their thoughts. Just 10 more minutes to go and I get to go home. I am going to climb in to a nice hot bath to soak and then crawling in to my bed, hoping blissful sleep will take me.

I hear my name being called, so I shake myself out of my thoughts and turn around to see my brother Jason calling my name. He holds up his empty glass and requests another beer, while he slaps Hoyt on the back. Hoyt is Jason's best friend, although the way Jason acts, doesn't deserve a true friend like him. Jason is selfish; his only concerned is who he will bed tonight. He is known around town as a bit of a man whore. He is constantly taking Hoyt and everyone else for granted. When he goes out bar hopping with Hoyt, he often completely forgets about him. He sometimes leaves him at a bar with out a ride, so he can go off chasing the newest piece of tail. Then I have to drop everything to go and pick up Hoyt. This has happened on more one occasion. I can't believe he completely forgets his friend and leaves him stranded without a ride. But he is my brother and I love him. I hope one day he will get married and settle down. Although, I don't think it will happen anytime soon or to anyone I would like.

I hear the bell on the door ring and look up to see Megan, the new waitress that Sam hired last week. She just finished her wait staff training. This will be her first shift handling a section by herself. She is going to take over my tables, so I can finally go home. I give her an update on the status of the tables in my section, wave goodbye to Sam, Jason and Hoyt. Then I head to the office, grab my purse and coat.

I step out the back door of Merlottes and take a deep breath. I love the way the cool night air fills my lungs, it is almost cleansing. I look up to see a clear night sky and a few scattered stars. I feel a little more at peace, just being outside. I climb in to my car and start on my way home.

Bill has been missing for almost 3 weeks now. I stop by his house every few nights, hoping to see him there. As if he would just magically appear one night. But every time, everything was just as we left it, the night we left for dinner. Jessica has been staying with one of Eric's area vampires, since she is still such a young vampire and needs supervision. Eric claims to know nothing about Bills disappearance. I do not believe him for one second. The only information he has told me, is that it smelled only of vampires in the room, so only vampires could have taken him. He says it was not the Fellowship of the sun. The van used to take Bill, was found with his blood in it, a few miles away from the restaurant.

Eric is the Vampire Sheriff of area 5 and is quite devious. After all he tricked me into drinking his blood after the bomb attack by the Fellowship of the Sun and tortured my friend Lafayette for being a drainer. Now, thanks to Eric's blood, I am also plagued by the most erotic sexual dreams I have ever had. All of them featuring Eric, who looks like a Viking sex god. To say I have been feeling hot and bothered is a gross understatement. With Bill gone I have had no one to release all my sexual and emotional energy with. After waiting 25 years to have sex, it is hard to go back to a life without it. I finally drive on to Humming Bird road. I pull into my drive way and see Eric's red corvette parked in front of my house. Can't a girl get a break? I sigh to myself, and then gather my mental strength. I know I have to be at top form, when dealing with Eric. I grab my purse and then get out of the car. As I climb up the porch steps, I see Eric standing in front of the door blocking my way, with the ever present smirk on his face.

"Hello, Lover" Eric says with his voice dripping sex.

"Eric, I am not your lover. Now get out of my way! If you are here with information about Bill, then I should inform you, that they have these new fangled inventions called phones. You should try using one sometime. You could have just called and told me. I do not want to deal with you or any of your vampire shit right now. I have a date with a hot bath and then I am going to bed... alone" I say forcefully letting Eric know, I am not in the mood for any of his shenanigans tonight.

"Oh, Sookie you wound me. I just came by to check on you" Eric says with a fake wounded look.

I roll my eyes.

"Well as you can see, I am fine Eric. I think I made myself perfectly clear last time I saw you… I do not wish to see you again, ever! Didn't you understand that when I rescinded your invitation to my house. I am done with you and all this vampire shit."

"Sookie, I am glad to see you are just as entertaining as ever"

"Why are you here? Do you have any news about Bill or not? Why didn't you just call instead?" I am standing there with my arms crossed, looking him dead in the eyes.

"If I called, then I wouldn't get to see how sexy you look when you are arguing with me. It is quiet a sight, Lover." Eric raises his eye brow.

"For the last time Eric we are not Lovers! I would prefer flesh eating bacteria over you! You have not earned the right to call me that! Why can't you just answer me for once? You don't know anything new about Bill do you? If you just came by to annoy and antagonize me, then you have succeeded." I am now seething.

"Lover, the Queen has tasked me with informing you about Bill and Lorena."

"She tasked you, did she, well good for her. Isn't that wonderful. So out with it, I don't have all night" I hate that word Tasked. Who uses that word? Apparently Eric does.

"Wait the Queen? What Queen? We don't have a Queen in this country."

"I can tell you all about the Queen some other time. I have important information for you about Bill. Do you wish to hear it or not?"

"Fine! Go ahead and tell me this "important information"." I say important information in as sarcastic a tone, while make quotes in the air with my hands.

"The Queen has known Lorena for a long time and she has been causing problems for centuries. She has no respect for vampire law or vampire rulers. One time in Seattle in the 1940's while one of the Queen's children was Sheriff, Lorena and Bill caused a massacre, they failed to clean it up properly and it almost exposed us. The local Sheriff spent weeks on cleaning up the mess and to order the hunting down of all the witness to have them glamoured. It resulted in the death of many of our kind, since they were ready and waiting for us with stakes. The Queen lost a child in the clean up. She has never forgiven Lorena. Then add her behavior at Godric house attacking you, the Queens prized telepath, it was decided that she was too much of a liability. She wanted to send Lorena's to her final death. However Lorena's maker is a very old and powerful Vampire on the council of elders. He would likely punish the Queen and seek a painful revenge for Lorena's death."

"Bill caused a massacre. As if I am going to believe that. That sounds more like what you would do."

Eric growls at me, suddenly inches away from my face with glowing eyes. "Sookie, I have never participated in a massacre. Any Vampire caught having a massacre is punished and sent to their final death. There is to big a risk, killing that many people in one place, at one time. It causes to many lose ends and increases the chances for witness or survivors. That is how Vampires get hunted and killed. It is very unwise."

"Ok"

"Can I finish now?" Eric states not really asking.

"Lorena was caught trespassing in Louisiana, a day after we returned from our trip. During her punishment for the death of the Queen's child, the Queen discovered Lorena's plan. As Bills Maker she used her maker status over Bill and ordered him, to ask you to marry him. Then he was to kill you on your wedding night, in the most horrible and painful way he could think of, so he would have to watch you die, knowing he did it to you. He was also ordered to never turn you, no matter how badly he wanted to, on pain of final death. She came up with this plan because, she was furious at Bills disrespect towards her in Dallas and jealous of your relationship with Bill. She wanted Bill to love her, the way he loved you. Since she could not have his love, she decided to punish you for stealing Bill's affection, while at the same time punishing Bill. Luckily the Queen caught wind of the plan before it was carried out. The Queen has sentenced Lorena and Bill move to vampire prison in Africa for a period of one hundred years, in hopes that in that lawless prison someone will kill Lorena before the 100 years is over. If they reenter the US or contact you in any way the penalty is final death. Lorena and Bill were also sentenced to 5 years in a silver coffin." Eric explains.

"What? Are you serious? This is not funny Eric. How can Lorena order Bill to do something like that? Couldn't he just not follow her orders? This is absurd." I say full of shock as I slowly lowers myself to sit on the steps, while trembling slowly.

"The call and order of a maker is very strong. It can not be fought. Once Bill received the order, he never had a chance against it. Even the strongest of vampires can't with stand the order of their maker. The only way an order can be canceled is either by the maker or by the maker's final death. He would have killed you, no matter how badly he did not want to."

"Ok, Lorena planned to kill and torture me by forcing Bill to carry out her wishes? I say trying to make sure I understand, in a shaky voice.

"Yes" States Eric in a serious manner.

"This is just crazy. See this is why I don't want to be involved your Vampire shit." I say looking exasperated.

"Sookie, you are in my and the Queens revenue. So you will always be as you say "involved in Vampire shit" There are much worse vampires out there who won't tolerate that mouth of yours."

I look at Eric bewildered.

"The Queen has allowed for Bill to write you a final letter before beginning his punishment. She tasked me with giving it to give it to you. Would you like to have it now?"

"Bill wrote me a letter after planning my torture and death?" This whole thing is just completely unbelievable.

"Yes."

"Let me see this letter."

Eric hands her the letter. I take the letter and walk in the house and shuts the door forgetting that Eric was still standing outside on the porch. Then I walks to the couch sits down and slowly opens the letter, afraid of what she will find.

Sookie,

I hope this letter finds you well. I hate that I left you alone in that restaurant. It was unavoidable, since I was taken against my will by the Queen. It was for the best, however. I will forever be grateful that I never had the chance to carry out Lorena's plan to kill you. Per the Queen, Eric is tasked to inform you of what has happened in as much detail as allowed. I hope my sudden disappearance didn't cause you too much pain.

I have to inform you, that I am no longer able to be engaged to you or be with you. Lorena has ordered me to kill you. I can not fight the order of my maker, no matter how I feel about you. I never want to hurt you or kill you. Do not look for me. If you ever see me, run quickly as you can to safety and call Eric. Please keep the ring to remember me by.

I will be selling the old Compton house. Take anything you may like from the house. Give Eric the pictures of my family and the family Bible; he will have them sent to me. I hope you are able to move on and find some happiness in your life. I will always love you, even though I can never be near you again. I don't trust Eric, but he is the only one that will be able to keep you safe from other vampires. Trust his judgment when it comes to safety or vampire politics. Eric is known to be a wise and fair as Sheriff. I would not trust him with your heart or anything else. Remember that Pam is his child and must do what her Master orders. Be careful and watch your back. I am sorry I can no longer keep you safe from his attentions.

Bill

I looked at the letter in disbelief. I take off the ring look at it with tears in my eyes and then throw it across the room. This can't be right, this is not happening. I once again look at the letter. It is definitely Bills hand writing.

How did this happen? Eric. He called Lorena to keep Bill away from me in Dallas. I am so angry, hurt and sad all at the same time, how can one person feel so much and live. I feel like I am being sucked into a black hole. I take the letter, ball it up and throw it across the room. I fall to the floor and sob uncontrollably. I just lost my first love. My first everything. How do I go on? I feel a dull ache in my heart. How does someone get over this? How will I survive the loss of someone else I love?

I decide to take a shower and go to bed. Not caring in the least that I left Eric standing outside on the front porch. It serves him right, for calling Lorena to interfere in the first place.

I gather my things and get into the bath. No matter how hot I make the water, I still feel chilled to the bone. Once I am done soaking, I get out, dry off and look at myself in the mirror. My eyes looked aged, pained and hollow. Will I, can I ever be whole again? How will I ever be able to love or trust someone again? Will I ever want too? I put on my PJ's and climb into bed and cry myself into a dreamless sleep.