Hello my loves. Thank you for my first few reviews I am very glad you enjoy the story. This chapter will be a little bit exciting but you will hate me for something by the end. Keep reading the story though because if things go the way I want them to we should have an ending some of you will like in like 15 chapters.
The pain was killing me. I lay on the cold alley ground and curled into a ball. I could tell just by moving I had a few broken ribs. I just wanted to sit there all day. I was tired and really hung over from the night before. I could see the sun rising. Rose and Alice are probably worried about me. I have to get home soon. I slowly and painfully pull myself off the floor. I walk on the sidewalk. The dorms are only about 10 minutes away. The pain that shoots through my body every step I take reminds me of the people I love. Alice and Rose, Emmett and even Jasper. At this point I love Felix for holding my dear Rose back last night. It seems like he understands what I have to do and encourages me to be strong. I like him.
I have no idea what I look like but I must look like garbage. Everyone stares at me as they pass in there cars, on there way to live normal lives. No one stops to see if I am okay but thats okay because I don't want to tell them I am. Because insdide I am broken in many pieces. I keep walking down the street until the dormatories are in sight. I stop and lean against a building to rest. I look at my watch and see that it is only 7 am. On a normal day Rose would be at the gym and Alice would be shopping. Around 10 on saturday's they wake me up to go somewhere and eventually I do go with them. If I am lucky I will have until 10. That's when they will be back.
I push away from the wall and began to walk again. I take the time as I walk to look myself over. There is a little bit of blood on my shirt I should be able to get it off before Rose see's it. My ankle hurts a little bit. It appears brused, I am sure I just bumped it. My back hurts whenever I try to stand straight, from my expirience that should go away in about a week. I have a slight pain in my face but I am not sure where exactly. I hope whatever Edward did I can cover it up before someone see's it.
I finally make it to my dorm room. I open the door that must have been unlocked all night and walk inside. Rose is asleep on the couch in her outfit from last night. Emmett has fallen asleep in the recliner that has been turned to face the doorway. They must have been waiting for me. I quietly close the door and walk to my room. I grab a pair of jeans and a t shirt and walk to the bathroom across the hallway. I take a long and hot shower that burns on my back. It feels good though. After about 30 minutes in there I wash up and get out. I dry myself off and finally look in the mirror. I have a black eye that I won't be able to hide. My nose was bleeding but isn't broken. the think that worries me the most is the bruses that look like his hands that wrap around my arms and my neck. Those are always there for 2 weeks. I will use makeup to cover them up as well as I can but most of the time you can still see them.
I get dressed and take my dirty clothes to the washer. I get the blood off the shirt before I put it into the washer with everything else. I go into my room and lay down. I won't fall asleep but it's nice to just lay. I hear a door open and close. I get out of bed because everyone is waking up. I quickly put on some makeup where it is needed and walk out of my room. No one is in the hallway but I can here the shower running. I walk to the living room and find Rose sitting up on the couch watching the news. I go and sit next to her. She doesn't say a word but she hugs me and doesn't let me go. I lean into her and relax for the first time this morning.
"When did you get home? I sat and waited all night." She said.
"You and Emmett were both asleep when I came in. I didn't want to wake you." I said to her.
"Where were you all night? Are you okay?" She asked.
"I'm fine and I'm right here. That's all that matters. I should go call Edward." I said. I began to get up to find my phone but she pulls me back down.
"No. I'm not putting up with this anymore. Bella don't make me call Charlie. You know he would make you come home and go to a community college and that isn't what you want. This needs to end." She said.
"I know Rose. But I love him." I said to her. It was true, I don't know how to live without him.
"Bella no you don't! He is making you think that you love him. Your not thinking clearly!" She yelled at me.
"Rose please just let me handle this on my own!" I yelled back. I wasn't ready to deal with this yet. I got up and grabbed my purse and phone off the table and walked out the door. I walked as fast as I could to my car. When I got there I didn't know where to go. I started the car and pulled out. I went to a book store that was close by. It was big and I could stay there for hours. I bought nearly 20 books. I left and went to the cafe next door. I ordered some tea and a blueberry muffin. I sat there and read 2 books. When I looked at the clock it was 4 pm. They must be worried. I don't want to go home though. I payed my bill and left. When I got into my car I sent Rose a text message.
Let's have dinner. Meet me at the new Italian place around the corner in 15 minutes.
-bella
I got an answer right away.
can everyone else come? They are worried. 8(
-Rosie
I felt bad for leaving everyone else in the dark all day so I agreed.
I guess. I just wanted some company for dinner.
-Bella
I began to drive to the Italian place. I got a table and sat down. Everyone else came not to long after. I didn't realized when she said everyone else that she mean EVERYONE else. I figured she would just bring Emmett and Alice and maybe Jasper would tag along. But she invited Felix and one of my friends Jacob. They all sat down and we ordered dinner. No one was talking so I began the conversation.
"So this is really awkward. I guess I wasn't expecting everyone to be here. How are you guys doing?" I asked.
"Bella we are worried." Jacob said. He sat right next to me and Emmett was on the other side. Jacob has been trying to make a move on me for a while but I always say I just want to be friends which is true because it just wouldn't work out.
"Okay guys there is nothing to worry about. I'm fine. I'm alive aren't I?" I asked. I looked down at my salad and took a bite.
"This time. Bella you don't know what will happen next time." Alice said. She was sitting across from me and next to Rose. She reached her hand across the table and grabbed mine. I looked up at her.
"Alice I'm not worried about it. I do know what will happen. I know exactly what will happen. Nothing, because as long as I behave and do as he says I'm fine." I told her.
"Bella that's not how you should be living your life! You're living in fear of him!" Rose inturrupted.
"I am not afraid of him. I love him!" I said to her.
"Bella please. You can't love him. That's not love." Jasper said.
"That is the only love I know!" I said back to Jasper.
"That's not true Bella. Look around, we all love you and we don't beat you up everyday." Emmett said. I looked into his eyes and say the saddness. I want to make him happy. I want to make everyone else happy too.
"I just don't know how to live without him." I said.
"Bella that is what we are here for." Jasper said. I looked at him. He was studying to be a therapist. I should take his advice. I have to talk to him later about maybe him helping me out with my mental state.
"Okay, I'll do it. But it's going to take a long time for me to get over him." I said to them. They all nodded there heads in encouragement.
"We will all support you." Rosie said.
"Thanks." I said. Our food came and we talked about normal things. Everything felt right, I felt like that was the way my life was supposed to be. When all was over I saw Emmett pay the bill. I would have to yell at him later for that. We all got up and left. Rose and Felix were going to the movies, Alice and Jasper were going back to Jaspers. So left Jacob, Emmett, and I. While everyone was saying goodbyes I pulled Jasper over to the side for a minute.
"Hey I wanted to talk to you about maybe helping me with my mental state because you are studying it and all." I said to him.
"Bella that would awesome. I would love to help. If you don't mind I would like to tell Alice though. She would get jealous and suspisious and that is never good." He said.
"That's absolutly fine with me. I actually perfer that she knows. Thanks Jasper." I said. We exchanged numbers and they left.
Jake, Emmett, and I met outside.
"So I've got to go finish up a paper for Monday. I'll see you guys soon." Jake said to Em and I. I nodded and gave him a hug and thanked him for coming. Once he was gone Em started our conversation.
"So you want to go for a walk?" He asked. I nodded and we began to walk down the sidewalk.
"So Emmett, has a big guy like you found a girl yet?" I asked. I knew I kind of like him but right now I am still in a relationship.
"Well I have my eyes on a girl, but you see shes with another guy right now." He said. He glanced at me. I could see a smirk on his face.
"Oh is that right? She must be something special." I said. He slid his fingers through mine and held my hand.
"Yeah, she is." He said. I stopped walking. He was talking about me. I had to set him straight, I loved Emmett but I would mess his life up.
"Emmett, I am not worth it. If you really loved me you would go find another girl and we would remain friends. I can mess a life up with the snap of my fingers. I AM a mess. I can't go into a relationship right now, and I need you with me as a friend. Please Emmett." I begged him.
"Bella you need time, I understand. I will give you time and space. Just don't hesitate to let me know when your ready." He said.
"Emmett I need you to move on right now. It's going to take a long time for me to heal not just physically but emotionally too. Please, just promise me you will find another girl." I said.
"Bella I will wait for you forever, If you want me to find someone in the mean time I can but I wouldn't be happy." He said.
"Emmett I want you to be happy. If you find a girl that makes you happy please go for her." I said to him.
"I will. But I very highly doubt I will find someone. Now lets get you back because it's getting chilly out here." He said. I nodded. We still held hands the way back to our cars but know it was just a friendly gesture. I am a mess and I can't ruin his life right now.
Okay that's it. Please tell me what you think. I'm almost positive I know which way this story is going. Please review! Thanks I Love you all.
-C