Sorry It's been a little while since I've updated but I'm trying to catch up on my school work and it's becoming a little overwhelming.
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"Okay Bella your next." Rose said when she finally calmed down from her fit of giggles. I smiled at her for a second.
"I never cheated during a fight with someone I personally know." I said. I laughed at Alice and Victoria as they took there shots. I looked over at Victoria.
"Story?" I asked. She laughed slightly.
"Okay so when I was in high school I was dating this really popular guy and all. He was a total douche but I still continued to put up with it. I got into a fight with him one night and went off to a party by myself. There were a lot of guys that wanted what I had so I let a few of them have it." She said. She shuddered at the memory. I brushed it off and then it was Rose's turn.
"I never had a three-some." She said with a proud smile. I laughed at her. No one took a shot we all began to laugh.
"Well we are boring. Who wants to do it?" Alice asked. I laughed at her.
"Alice I would have to be drunk and passed out for me to have sex with you and another person." I said with a laugh.
"That can be arranged Bella, don't doubt my powers." She said with an evil grin on her face. I was actually scared at that moment.
"okay that was awkward. Moving on to Victoria." I said.
The game continued for a good 3 hours before we were all to drunk to think of anything else. That's when the real fun began.
"Alice let's put on some good music and dance!" Rose said to Alice who was sitting on the floor.
"YES!" Alice said suddenly excited. They jumped up and went to get Rose's Ipod. Emmett and Victoria disappeared into Alice's bedroom about an hour ago. That left Jasper and I sitting alone in the living room.
"My god it's already 2 am. Mind if I crash on your couch?" He asked.
"Go right ahead but you wont be able to fall asleep when they start dancing." I told him. He chuckled. Both of us were slurring our words and we were close to becoming completely wasted soon. I tried to get up from the couch. Once I was on my feet I began to slowly tip over and fell to the floor. Jasper and I started to laugh. I think I had more to drink then I first assumed. Alice and Rose came back with the Ipod and hooked it up to our docking station. They began to dance to some Ke$ha song. I recognized it from the radio. With the support of the couch I got to my feet and clumsily made my way over to them. I began dancing with them.
I don't remember much after that. It was all kind of a blur. I woke up in the morning on the front porch. It was slightly chilly outside so I ran back into the house. In the kitchen the clock said 1 pm. Well I did sleep. I grabbed some aspirin from the cabinet and took them with a glass of water. It was about to be a long day. I walked into the living room to find Jasper still asleep on the couch. I laughed slightly at the position he was in and then walked down the hallway. In my bedroom Rose was beginning to wake up so I got her some aspirin and brought it to her.
"Thanks" She whispered as she took the pills.
"Anytime Rosie. Where's Alice?" I asked.
"I think she fell asleep in my room. Emmett and Victoria are still in her room." Rose said with a smile. We knew they would hit it off. I left so Rose could get dressed and walked the short distance across the hallway to Rose's room. Sure enough Alice was fast asleep on the bed. I laughed and left the room. I decided she could sleep some more because I don't like a cranky Alice. Rose was emerging from the bathroom when I stepped out into the hallway.
"That was one wild night. Do you remember how I ended up sleeping on the front porch?" I asked her. She looked at me and laughed.
"You slept on the front porch?" She asked me while holding back giggles.
"Well that's where I woke up so yeah." I said.
"Well that will be in our next game of I never." She said as she continued to laugh. We walked to the kitchen. Jasper was in there starting a pot of coffee. I looked at him gratefully.
"Jasper I love you right now. I am in some serious need of coffee." I said to him as I walked to the cabinet to pull out mugs for everyone.
"I think we could all use it." Jasper replied.
"So do you remember how I ended up sleeping on the front porch?" I asked him.
"Yeah I remember you saying you felt nauseous and then you needed some air. I saw you walk outside but I guess you fell asleep out there." He said.
"Wow, I am a major loser." I said out loud. Rose giggled at me. Alice came into the kitchen when she heard the coffee pot beep, indicating it was done.
"Coffee!" She said with a huge smile.
The rest of the morning went by slowly. We all went to lunch at our favorite diner. Lunch was very interesting. I have to say I enjoyed making fun of Emmett.
"So Em, have fun last night?" I asked as I was eating my sandwich. I planned it at a great time because he was taking a big drink of his coffee. Next thing I saw was his coffee all over Jasper. Alice, Rose, and I began cracking up. Who wouldn't?
"Bella, that was mean." Jasper said.
"Oh shut it, it was hysterical, you would have been laughing if you didn't get Emmett's coffee spit on your face." I told him. He began wiping himself off with a towel.
"Bella you just made my day." Victoria told me. I laughed a little. I looked over at Emmett, he was glaring at me.
"Oh lighten up Em, we all knew you two would hook up." I said. This earned giggles from Alice.
"You jealous?" He asked.
"Not one bit Em, You kind of like my older brother. That would just be wrong." I said. Rose agreed with me.
"Anyway, Bella and I should get going." Jasper said. I looked over at him with a questioning look.
"What?" I asked.
"We have something to do today, at exactly 3 o'clock. Do you remember now?" He asked. Realization came to me. I didn't want Emmett to know that I needed help with everything. Truthfully I had been doing a good job just living the moment and forgetting about Edward. But I knew that someday it would come back to haunt me. I frowned at him.
"I remember." I said in a gloomy voice. He chuckled at my sudden mood change and stood up as I did. I threw down a 15 on the table for my food and part of the tip.
"Bye Bells." Alice said.
"Bye you guys, I'll see y'all later." I said as Jasper lead me out of the diner. We walked over to his car and I got into the passenger seat. As he started the car, he started the therapy session.
"So Bells, how have you been holding up lately? You seem almost care free." He observed.
"I was until you reminded me of this stupid therapy session that will now bring the vivid nightmare named Edward back into my life." I said to him.
"I'm sorry Bella but you can't just keep pushing him out of your mind. You have to confront this conflict and get rid of it." Jasper told me.
"I know, I'm just scared of what might happen." I told him truthfully.
"I know you are and that is to be expected. In fact I would be worried if you weren't scared." He said.
"So how am I going to get rid of this problem?" I asked him.
"First we have to find out what the initial fear is. You could be afraid of Edward or you could be afraid of being beaten. You could also have a fear of loneliness and abandonment from not having Edward there like he always was. You could also have a fear of being in control of what you do." Jasper told me.
"I truthfully don't know what I am afraid of." I told him.
"I know that, so we are going down the list and testing each and everyone of those possibilities. First is a fear of Edward." He said. I looked at him.
"How do you suggest we test that one?" I asked. I wasn't sure that I was going to like this.
"Well the only way to do it is to see Edward, so were going to jail." He said. I looked at him in shock.
"Are you kidding me! Jasper I don't know if I can do this right now, the wound is still so fresh." I told him.
"Well while it's fresh we should clean it and it's to late because we are already here." He said. I turned my head and looked out the window. Jasper was pulling into a parking spot at the jailhouse. I looked at him in horror.
"Jasper I don't think I can do this." I told him again.
"Bella would you just trust me? I'm going to be right there." He said. He was right, I had to clean this situation up and clean the wound. I nodded my head and got out of the car. Jasper did the same. I sighed as I walked with him on the side walk. I was nervous to see Edward again. We walked in and I went blank. I was there physically but not mentally. I wasn't thinking anything. I was blank. I remember going to a room and sitting in a chair. Jasper stood beside me. I felt safer that way. There were two police officers in the room with us. I sighed as I looked up at Jasper. He looked slightly angry and sad himself. I wondered why.
I heard the door open and looked over. A policeman was escorting Edward in. He was in an orange jumpsuit and his hands were handcuffed in front of him. He made a point to glare at me as he sat down. Two of the three police officers left the room. Now all I had was Jasper and one single police officer. I was looking down at the table when Edward began to talk.
"What are you doing here?" He asked. I was surprised at the coldness of his voice. I looked up at him.
"I'm confronting you and overcoming a fear, a fear that you gave me. I didn't know how to be independent before and my friends have finally begun to show me. I didn't know what it was like to live when you ruled my life. I wanted to say that I am no longer afraid of you and you will no longer haunt my dreams. I am erasing any trace of you from my memory. Sure my high school life and some of my college life will be a blur but it will be a lot better than seeing you in my past." I said. He was silent for a moment and then he spoke.
"Look bitch, you don't have a life without me! I own you and you will always know that! I will always be there Bella, I will always haunt you." He said. I took a deep breath.
"No. You have no hold over me anymore. I am done with you." I said. I stood up and looked at Jasper. I motioned for us to leave and he nodded. He had a slight smirk on his face. As we began to walk towards the door Edward got in his last words.
"I see how it is, you just move on to another guy that can tell you what to do. I will always be in your mind even with your new pimp over there." Edward said. Jasper turned around and before I could reach for him he punched Edward square in the nose. He fell to the floor in his chair. I could see the blood ooze from his nose.
"Jasper," I whispered. He was full of pure rage right now. He turned and looked at me. His features instantly softened and walked over to me. He was struggling inside whether to come help me or go beat Edward. I reached out and grabbed his hand. Before I reached it though another officer rushed in and grabbed Jasper. He threw him up against the wall and handcuffed him. All Jasper did was look at me. I felt bad that he was being arrested at my expense. They began to take Jasper out of the room. The other officer helped Edward up and escorted him out as well. I was left alone in the room. I leaned against the nearest wall and slid down it. I took deep breaths but I couldn't help the tears from escaping my eyes.
Well there it is, I know it's like uneventful in the beginning but I needed some inspiration and it took me weeks to find it. Sorry I took so long and I will try to keep up from now on... Love you all for everything...
-C