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"Bella! Oh my god are you okay?" I looked up to see Rosalie standing in the doorway. I took a deep breath.
"I don't really know." I whispered. I was in a state where things were blank again. No light, and no dark. I was numb for the moment but soon the pain would hit and the darkness will surround my thought and actions. I will deal with the pain all over again.
Rose walked slowly over to me and sat next to me. I felt her wrap her arms around me. I leaned into her. I was never the first one to show I was upset or angry about something before, but now I just can't help it. I can't control my emotions anymore and it's confusing to me. The wall I had built so many years before was slowly being torn down brick by brick. With each one taken away I am more vulnerable. I am easily woundable and I don't like that.
"Alice is posting Jasper's bail. I thought we could go back to the dorm and just relax the rest of the day." She said. I nodded and we stood up. How long had I been sitting in this room? Why didn't someone come get me and tell me to leave yet? I knew I wouldn't get any answers so I just let the thoughts float away from my mind.
Rose led me down the hallway Jasper and I had come down earlier in the day. All I wanted to do was erase this day. I wasn't sure how I felt about this whole situation. I just don't know anymore. As we arrived in the lobby Alice came into my sight. Once she saw me she ran over and gave me a hug.
"Oh Bella, You just can't seem to get away from all of the drama can you?" She asked. I chuckled and pulled away from our hug.
"I guess not. I wish I could though." I remarked.
"They are bringing Jasper out right now, do you want to stay and see him?" Rose asked.
"Not right now, I kind of want to just go home and take a nap." I said. They both chuckled.
"I can take you home while Rose yells at Jasper." Alice said. I chuckled and turned to Rose. I gave her a quick hug.
"Be easy on him. He was upset about what Edward said to me." I told her. She nodded her head. Alice and I walked out of the police station and to her car. As she pulled out of the parking lot I decided I didn't want to go home just yet.
"Hey Alice, can we go do something? I don't really want to go home anymore." I asked her.
"Yeah that's fine with me. What do you want to go do?" She asked.
"I'm not sure, how about the mall?" I asked her. That was a stupid question. Alice always wants to go to the mall. I laughed as I saw Alice's face light up.
"Of course I will take you to the mall! You have to promise me that I can buy you an outfit though." She said. I laughed at her again.
"Okay Alice, whatever makes you happy." I said to her. She squealed in delight. No matter what mood you are in you can always count on Alice to be with you nagging you about something or other. It's just the way she loves people.
The car ride to the mall was filled with meaningless talk. She was trying her hardest to get my mind off of what happened today. As we pulled into the parking lot of a gigantic mall my phone rang. I looked at it to see that Rose was calling me. I sighed and answered.
"Hello?" I asked as I picked the phone up.
"Where are you Bells? I thought Alice was bringing you back to the dorm." Rose said.
"I decided I didn't want to go home just yet, so we are at the mall." I told her. Alice chuckled beside me as we walked into the entrence of the mall.
"Okay then, Jasper wanted to talk to you though." She told me. I sighed heavily.
"Tell him that we can talk tomorrow because the rest of my day is going to be about me clearing my mind of all this shit." I siad. Again I got a giggle out of Alice.
"Okay, I'll let him know then. Call me when your on your way home." She said. I agreed to that. We said our goodbyes and hung up.
Alice and I walked through the whole mall that afternoon. We hit all of her favorite stores and I acctually enjoyed this time. I ended up spending a good amount of money but it was worth it concidering what I had been through. I needed to do something to clear my mind and it turns out that shopping and spending money is the best way to do it. I got several cute outfits that I really couldn't wait to wear. I also got some more clothes for the club that I knew I would end up at this weekend.
I looked at the time when we were making our way back to the car. It was nearly 9. We would have been in the mall longer if it hadn't closed. We got into the car and began to drive off. I pulled out my phone and dialed Rose's number.
"Hello?" She answered.
"Hey Rose, were on our way home." I said to her.
"Thank god. Jasper has been here all day and won't leave. He says he has to talk to you." She said with an annoyed sigh.
"Alright, I really don't want to talk today but it seems as if that is going to be the only way to get him away for the night." I said.
"Yes, so please hurry before I end up in jail today for murder." She said. I giggled and we hung up.
"What do you think he wants to talk about?" I asked Alice.
"I don't know, probably what he did to Edward at the police station." She said.
"But I still don't get it, what is there to talk about?" I asked.
"Maybe why he did it. He most likely just wants to explain himself." She said.
"You're probably right, Let's just get this over with." I said. She laughed at my comment. We drove for another 5 minutes before arriving at our dorm. Jasper was waiting outside on the porch. I got out of the car.
"Did Rose get too annoyed and kick you out?" I asked with a laugh. He chuckled and walked over to me. I smiled at him and walked to the trunk of the car to grab my bags. He helped me bring them in and set them on my bed. I began to unpack them and take off the tags as he started the conversation.
"So how are you?" He asked.
"I'm fine right now. I mean it was a rough day but I realized a lot of things." I told him.
"Like what?" He asked.
"First I realized that I'm over Edward, second I saw that I need to gain my self confidence back, which is why i went shopping, and lastly that you are one of my best friends and I will always remember what you did for me and be thankful that you were there. If you weren't I wouldn't have been able to get over this." I told him. He sat next to me on the bed.
"Really?" He asked. I nodded my head.
"Yeah, you are there for me and I love that. Thank you so much Jasper. But there is a problem, if you don't mind I think I'm going to see another therapist. This is just to personal for you because we are friends." I said.
"Okay, I guess that would be a good idea. Just promise me that you will still come to me if you need something?" He asked. I nodded my head. I began to yawn from my long and eventful day. Jasper laughed at me. He gave me a hug and stood up.
"I'll leave so you can get some sleep." He said. I nodded as I yawned again. He chuckled and left the room closing the door behind him. I put all of my new clothes away and slipped into a pair of pajamas. It didn't take long for me fall asleep.
When I woke up the next day it was already 10 in the morning. It felt good to sleep that long. I sighed as I sat up and streched. I got out of bed and went through my normal morning routine. When I was done I went to my closet and picked out a new outfit. It was a low cut, deep blue shirt and a pair of capri's. It was getting warmer out due to the fact that it was spring now. In fact spring break would be coming up in almost 3 weeks. I wonder what we would do for spring break. I cleared the thought from my mind as I walked out of my bedroom. Rose was sitting at the kitchen table eating a bowl of cereal. I sat down next to her. She smiled.
"Hey Rose, What are we going to do today?" I asked.
"I don't know, what do you want to do?" She asked.
"I was thinking a little bit ago about spring break, how about we plan it out today?" I asked. A huge smile crept up her face.
"That would be awesome!" She said. I laughed.
"Alright, I'll make sure I tell everyone to keep that week free." I told her as I got out my phone to send a txt to everyone.
"Who exactly is everyone?"She asked.
"Well, Alice, Jasper, Emmett, Victoria, you, me." I listed.
"Well I just got word that Demetri will be coming in this weekend instead of later in the month." She said with a smile.
"Okay then, if things pick up with you two then he will come two, I'll make it so we have an extra ticket anyway." I said to her.
"Ticket?" She asked.
"Well duh! I am not spending my spring break in Washington. We are going somewhere with a beach and warm weather." I said. Rose was happy beyond belief.
The rest of the day was spent with me on the computer figuring out where we are going and how much it's going to cost us. In the end I decided on going to Hawaii. No one has been there yet and we would have an awesome time. If we all split the cost it wouldn't be to much. We had enough money to do it so why not? I couldn't wait to tell everyone!
Okay this chapter was like uber boring. But I have the whole story figured out and I know exactly what I want to do with it. I promise that this was the last boring chapter. I've got everything written down just not typed and posted yet. Sorry for the bad chapter 8(
-C