A/N: Ugh, I'm so sorry I'm updating now... but maybe you'll read it anyway, even through it's too late. The chapter's kinda short, but I hope you like it. I'm trying to keep you intrigued. I promise something interesting will happen at last in the next chapter. Aaaaand... I think I'll start Zim's diary as well.

Some good old romance will happen next chapter, I swear. Cookies of doom for everyone!=)

March 5.

I was preparing my love speech all night. Thought of thousand different versions of my phrases, his answers and my answers on his answers. Drew myself a PLAN OF SPEECH, but it was about two and half meteres long and too heavy to carry. Spent the remaining hours before skool learning the PLAN by heart.

I was waiting for the launch break to talk to Zim, but the lessons were too long, boring and exhausting to bear, so I accidentally fell asleep at the table, with my face right in the cafeteria "something" we got for dinner. I smelled horribly and has totally forgot my speech about love. Gaz looked at me and giggled. That was terrifying.

Crap.

March 6.

I decided I need an advice.

Thought about Gaz. Looked at her drawing some bloody monstrous stuff and decided to never think about her again.

Thought about dad. Phoned him, but he got something exploded in the middle of our speech. Thought - what kind of advice he could give me anyway? He'll definitely say something about "poor insane" me.

Thought about my friends. Thought about my friends a lot. Added a point about making some friends to my "to-do in future list".

Searched for an advice in internet. Only found a lot of naughty pictures. Had to go to the bathroom for three times.

That was one stupid day.

March 7.

I was dead, dead nervous when I walked to Zim's table at launch (thanks god he's too alien to have friends and sits alone). He told me to get lost - he was making his to-do list. "I heard that sometimes it helps thinking. Of course I'm too awesome and smart, but - why not?" - he said, scratching his cheek with a pencil. I collected all the strength I got and told him: "I think I love you, Zim". Zim was so surprised he accidentally pocked himself in the eye with that pensil. I patiently waited until his screaming and cursing was over. Zim asked me, what's this supposed to mean. "Is that some kind of a... curse or something? Don't you try treatening fearless ZIM?". I told him love is actually a good and useful thing. He scratched his cheek again and made a note to his to-do list: "Make some great doomy love of unspeakable horrible doom to this planet".

Then, before I could ask him about his feelings to me, he threw a fork into my face and was gone.

I wonder if it's a good sight.

March 8.

Wondered what it feels like - to kiss an alien. Zim's got such a long tongue. Thought of it so hard I had to go to the bathroom again.

Felt guilty and perverted, especially after touching myself. Decided that I'll never do it again.

March 9.

Was anxious and restless all the time until lunch. Noticed that I live from lunch to lunch, even dreamed about never ending lunch break to talk to Zim. Maybe I'm really crazy after thoughts like that?

Sat with Zim and tried to start a normal (ha. ha. ha.) conversation, but couldn't think of a proper beginning. He didn't notice me up until I coughed.

- You! You... You! I hate you! - he yelled.

I couldn't help it but drawl:

- Oh, how original.

- You! Um... I'm not listening to you.

He turned away and stared at the opposite wall demonstratively. I decided I can still tell him something.

- Zim... Did you think about the... The stuff I told you?

- I'm not listening! What stuff?

- Well, about my... feelings.

- I'm not listening to your feelings and I'm not listening to you, and I'm not listening... At all! - he yelled so hard he got everybody's attention. Someone threw a cupcake into his head. I've completely lost the whole love mood and decided to talk to Zim in private as soon as I get a chance.

Waiting for a chance.

March 12.

Still waiting for a chance.

March 13.

Was waiting for a chance all morning. Zim stared at me suspiciously, and then spoke to me at the launch break. I was so happy when I saw him approaching me with such a determined expression on his face! When I turned to him with a smile he even got scared and gasped.

- Why are you so quiet, horrible human monster? Why don't you speak to Zim? I know you're planning some horrible human monster-stuff! - he said, waving his hands.

Told him I'm not planning anything right now.

- You lie! Filthy lies! Don't you try ruining my great doom plans! - he screamed in horror and ran away before I got the damn chance.

Started to think that he's acting crazy not because he's an alien, but just because he's crazy. Or because he's a crazy alien.

This is lame.

March 14.

Zim didn't come to skool. Worried all day. Worried so much that even decided to talk to Gaz about it. Asked her if she has ever been ignored by the object of her sympathy. She called me a "stupid faggot reject" and told me to go get lost.

Then was ignored in the cafeteria and didn't get any food. Then was ignored by mrs. Bitters and didn't get a chance to show my new presentation. Then was ignored by Gaz again, and then was ignored by dad who was too busy to even say how poor and insane I am.

Why is everybody ignoring me?

March 15.

Decided to go visit Zim. Thought about some kind of a present for him, but didn't have any ideas. Decided not to ask Gaz or dad again and just wait for the ideas to come to me.

Waited the whole day. Ideas are ignoring me as well.

Decided to just go and see what'll happen.