[Author's Note: Yay! I finally finished chapter 2! You have no idea how stressed i've been lately with all of the crap in my school and in my life...Thank whatever god is up or down there for the weekends! So this chapter is pretty much the exact opposite of what i wrote and im debating on whether posting the other version of this one as a bonus chapter thingy or just leaving it like this. I'll think about it, comment or send me a message on your opinions. I did think I did okay with this version though and I hope all of you beautiful people like it! Even if you don't review anyway and for the people that did I will give you a cookie! Alright now on with the story!]
Disclaimer: If I owned any of these characters, do you honestly think I'd be on fanfiction right now?
Chapter 2: Bloody Sheets and Ranting Blonde's
"Beep! Beep! Beep! Be-" The alarm clock's annoying tone was cut short by Soubi's hand hitting the snore button.
"Ugghh….morning already?" I muttered sleepily. With some reluctance I tried to sit up only to fall back down on the bed. A certain area of mine was hurting like hell. Seimei had practically killed me last night, but I guessed I deserved it. I didn't get back home on time so this was what I get. Simple right? More hesitantly this time, I scooted myself slowly to the edge of the bed and carefully swung my legs over on the floor so I could stand. The pain still shot through my body as I stood straight up but I ignored it as best as I could. Moaning with pain, I headed to the door of the room but then I noticed the bed.
The one white sheets now had spots of blood all over them.
My blood.
I held back a sob and slowly turned to the mirror behind me. Who was that person staring back at me? Surely that look of utter despair and pain wasn't in my eyes…Right? And why was that person so pale…so weak looking? That can't be me…It can't.
"I don't pay that much attention to my physical appearance but how could I miss this? When did I first start looking this horrible? Does Kio notice? Will that doctor notice? Will…" A million questions started popping my head as I just stood there staring at myself. At this weak, empty, disgusting excuse of me. What am I going to do? Then I remembered that there is a place to go to. I picked my phone up from the dresser and dialed Kio's number.
I think it's time for me to change now.
"Are you serious?" Kio practically yelled back at me. I had just told him that I wanted to go through with the doctor idea and his reaction told me that he was more than happy at the news.
"No I'm kidding Kio. Of course I'm serious!" I said back sarcastically.
"Stop joking around! So when did you decide to go through with this? And what made you?" He asked.
With those questions I took a long breath of my cigarette before replying. I don't think he'll like this response as much as the others.
"Well I decided just this morning and as to what caused it I guess I just started to really look at myself and my surroundings and…make a decision. I just couldn't take living with myself knowing that I was becoming farther and farther distanced from everything around me. It's such a horrible feeling…" I answered with the push of tears trying to escape my eyes.
"I'm sure it is…I wish I could've been there for you Soubi, I really do…" Kio said sadly with a bit of anger evident in his voice.
"Don't get all worked up over it Kio. You were always there for me even if you didn't know it! You're here for me now right?" I said. Why would he think that he wasn't there for me? Hell he was the only out there who actually gave a shit about me! I remember when I told my parents about this whole situation and they said that it was my fault for being a faggot in the first place. [a/n: I'd just like to say that I hate that word with all of my heart and if I always get extremely pissed at my dad when he says that. I also hate typing it but I had to DX sorry for interrupting!]
I heard a sigh on the other end of the phone before Kio finally answered. "I guess…Hey sorry if I'm prying too much in this but what exactly happened this morning?" He asked with a curious tone.
"Well I umm…I woke up this morning surrounded with sheets that had my blood on them and when I looked in the mirror I-I didn't even recognize myself. It was like I had never seen myself before and I didn't like what I saw…I-I hated how I looked and I guess that shock helped make my decision." I answered while trying to hide the pain from my voice. I took a long breath of my cigarette again while waiting for Kio's response. It took quite a bit of time. I had finished my cigarette and was about to start another when Kio's whispered response stopped me.
"…I think we should go to the doctor's today." Kio said slowly. Even though his voice was so low I could definitely hear the anger and hatred with each word. I also knew that there wouldn't be any room for complaining or rescheduling.
"T-Today? Alright, that sounds good. Do you want me to pick you up or d-"
"I'll pick you up in a couple minutes." Kio then hung up and I started to feel a little scared for my friend. Normally he was a funny easy-going guy that made jokes often. Even his serious side was a little light and his very presence seemed to make people happy but whenever he got really really angry, things didn't turn out good for the people he was angry at. They usually turned up in a hospital somewhere with a concussion and then woke up a few months later mumbling things about not trusting anyone anymore. Kio always said that they deserved it, which they did but it was still a bit disturbing to hear about on the news.
Putting the still unlit cigarette down and getting up off the couch, I headed back to my room to get my jacket and other things before Kio got here. A few minutes later the sound of knocking caught my attention. I quickly looked through the peephole to see Kio standing there with his arms crossed and a frown on his face. I opened the door and invited my frustrated friend inside.
"Hey Kio, have a seat. I'm almost done getting ready." He walked over to the couch and sat with the same posture and facial expression as before. I merely sighed and went back to my room to finish my hair. After a couple minutes of brushing, tying, and gelling, I was done.
"Alright Kio, I'm done. What time does this-" I stopped myself as I fully registered what I was looking at. Kio was still on the couch but he was holding one of the sheets that was being washed of the blood from the bed. His head was bent and I could make out tears running down his face. The sheet itself was still wet and was dripping slightly on the floor. The blood was mostly washed out but faint red blotches were still there.
The sight was absolutely heart-breaking. I walked over to my weeping friend and silently put my arms around him in a hug. We stayed like this for about half an hour before Kio stirred beneath me. I took my arms away from him and waited for him to speak.
"I-I didn't mean to-to take out the sheets…its just I heard the machine going and I-I don't really know why but I took them out and started crying…Your blood Soubi…y-your blood! That bastard made you bleed!" Kio yelled. The sheet that he was previously holding gently was now being shredded to pieces as Kio's anger was being unleashed. Since I didn't want to end up like the sheet I just remained seated and stared on. When the sheet was nothing more than a pile of fabric and Kio was back to himself, I spoke up.
"I really liked those sheets…Are you okay now?" I asked.
"Doing better…" He responded with a chuckle at the mention of the poor sheets.
"Okay then do you mind explaining the sudden mood swings?" I asked again.
"Well…you know me by now that if I don't let out my anger then it bottles inside me until I attack anything that has a pulse. I was almost that angry but then I realized in the back of mind that you were right there and I didn't want to hurt you so I destroyed your sheets instead and pictured it was Seimei…And when I decided that enough was enough, I started to think more rationally and sat back down." He explained in a bit of a rush.
"Alright then…now here's the dumb but necessary question: why were you so mad?" I asked while looking him straight in the eyes.
"Wow that was a dumb question…Soubi, I'm mad because of what you said about waking up with your blood surrounding you on the sheets and then about looking in the mirror and hating yourself. It just made me so mad because everything is all his fault! Everything! You hating yourself, the blood, us even going to this doctor in the first place! He is to blame for everything bad that has happened to you! You can't even argue that your parents share the blame because he basically made you gay after all of that flirting and then forcing himself on you that one time! Do you remember that? He's taken advantage of you from the start and I only found out after 2 years of that pain! 2 Years! And I'm so stupid for not even noticing everything that was happening in those 2 goddamn years! I Hate him and every single thing he has done to you and your life would've been so much better if you had never met that disgusting selfish son of a bitch!" Kio yelled now fully standing.
Words couldn't describe how shocked I was. I had never, in all my years of knowing Kio, seen him this angry. I could practically feel the fury and hatred coming off of him.
After a few minutes of merely staring at my irritated friend, I thought it was time to say something.
"Umm…Kio?"
"How original…" I thought sarcastically.
He turned his eyes to me for the first time since his rant. The fire in them was enough to scare a person to death but I guess I was used to his crazy emotions by now.
"…What is it Soubi?" He asked after calming down a bit.
"Just…sit down for a little bit, okay?" I asked. Again, my creativity is outstanding…
Kio slowly sat down and put his face in his hands. He let out a sigh of supposed frustration and shook his head back and forth slowly.
"I-I'm sorry about that Soubi…I-I can't even explain what that was, I'm sorry…" He apologized with his face still in his hand.
"It's okay, you were just answering my question…" I said with a shrug of my shoulders. I slowly put my hand on his back and rubbed it a little before pulling Kio's head out of his hands.
"Hey, it really is okay. You just had to let out your anger and now was a pretty good time, right?" I said trying to convince him that it really was okay.
"I guess…OH CRAP! WE'RE LATE FOR THE APPOINTMENT!" Kio yelled suddenly.
"What? Wait, how do you know?" I asked frantically.
"THE CLOCK IS BEHIND YOUR HEAD! HURRY HURRY! Oh my god, if we're late for this thing who knows when we'll be able to get another! Stop being so slow Soubi!" Kio yelled again while pulling on my hand and then racing to his car.
"K-Kio! Slow down! Oww! My foot, dammit Ki-OWW! Why did you hit me?" As I was being dragged to his car, a lot of things seemed to happen at once. First I hit my foot on the end of the coffee table in the house then Kio hit me on my head since I was complaining. Now the seat belt just hit my shoulder when Kio shut the door.
"Shut up! We are now 3 minutes late!" Kio shouted while climbing into his seat, buckling his seat belt, then racing out of the driveway in one fluid motion. In just a few minutes we were already on the street of the doctor's. Thank whatever god is protecting for some reason that the police officers are so useless or we would in jail right now.
"We're here! Get out get out HURRY!" Kio yelled while racing to the buildings front door.
I half ran half limped after him and finally caught up with him as the elevator doors opened. Before I even got the chance to catch my breath, I was pushed through with Kio close behind.
As the doors slowly shut behind us, I collapsed on the floor.
"Get up! We're almost there!" Kio nagged while pulling on my arm.
I mustered up all of strength to give him one of my rare but powerful death glares. That shut him up.
After a few seconds of silence, a ping went off signaling we were there.
The doors slowly opened to reveal a short hall way with a door at the end that said (in fancy letters I might add)
'Jizabel Disraeli-sensei
Medical Doctor
Abusive Relationship Therapist
Appointments can be made inside'
Before I could even comment on anything, Kio dragged me once again to the office. The door opened to reveal a plain looking office with a desk off to the side. Sitting at the desk was a middle aged looking woman with light brown hair pulled back in a bun. A small pair of glasses were perched on her nose as she stared with a frown at the computer in front of her until she noticed the people who had just arrived. Her face immediately brightened and she smiled while standing up and walking over to us.
"Hello! Welcome to Disraeli-sensei's office! I am Nanako but you can call me Nana-chan, that's what everyone calls me. Do you two have an appointment? I'm sorry but couples aren't allowed together while in session." She stated firmly but kindly. So far she seemed very nice and a little talkative. Looks like Kio going to have a new friend.
"No we're not a couple but I am here for an appointment. We're a little late…" I ignored the scoff Kio made as she went back to her computer.
"Let's see…Are you Soubi Agatsuma-san?" She asked while looking back over at me.
"Yes, that's me." I answered while moving over to the waiting area.
"Oh, well Disraeli-sensei is ready to see you right now! Follow me please!" She commanded with a smile. With one last look and a small wave to Kio, I followed the one called Nana-chan to the doctor that would hopefully help me be the person Kio and I have been waiting for.
Thanks for reading! If you spotted any mistakes im sorry and if a nice and kind beta would like to help me out that would be wonderful! No? sad face...well please comment on this story. I ask you please tell me if I described Jizabel correctly and is Kio's rant was good. And just one last thing before you click that review button (cookies...) is Jizabel's name spelt Jizabel or Jezebel because I keep seeing it differently and its annoying me! Okay now click that button! I'll even point to it for you! oh wait theres no down arrow...oops...