Keep dreaming of him. I'll send a letter to that boy asking him to be my own
JUSTIN P.O.V.
It was strange in the beginning, to be back here. I didn't have anyone but Debbie in Pittsburgh, and I've thought about being back one day but when Seth did… well… what he did, this was the only place where I knew I'd be ok. It was absurd, but I thought that home was the best place to make a new start. When I left, I was barely seventeen, and I didn't have any friends except Debbie, so when I bought the ticket to come back here, I did it because I knew that no one knew who I was. It was a nice thought. So here I am, once again. Twenty one years old, and alone. Fuck.
It's been almost a month since I moved back to Pittsburgh and thanks to Deb, it's not as strange as it was in the beginning and the afternoon spent with Michael at his comics shop and the job at the Diner, helped me to feel great in a small amount of time.
I glance at the clock. My last shift is almost over. Sighing I come back to clean the counter and when I look up, Brian is sitting on the stool in front of me. I take a deep breath ready for what I know is coming.
"Hey there Sunshine".
"Stop it, Brian".
"Your always nice to everyone but me. How is that?" he asks smirking.
Fuck. I can't stand him.
"Because I can't stand you".
"That's a rude thing to say".
"I told you before, I'm not interested".
"And I told you that you were but…".
"I didn't know it. Yeah I know" I tell him rolling my eyes.
I turn my back to him, trying to ignore him but just like always, he doesn't seem to care if I want to talk to him or not.
"You should be more friendly".
"Not with you".
"Why?".
"Because you want to fuck me and I don't want to fuck you. So we can't be friends".
"That's great because I don't fuck friends".
"You're an asshole, I did tell you that, didn't I?" I say turning around to face him. "You're hot when you're angry" he answers, ignoring my question.
"Then you must think that I'm always hot since I'm always angry with you around".
"My point exactly. You're hot".
"Brian, look, it was nice to have some good looking guy thinking that I was hot at the beginning, but please, leave me alone. After two weeks, I don't like it anymore".
"No can do, Sunshine. I want you".
"Go to Babylon and find some nice ass to fuck. Mine isn't available".
"To me or in general?".
"To everyone".
"It's a shame. You have a great ass".
"Brian…".
"I know, "leave me alone, Brian. It's not funny". I'll have a cup of coffee then".
I sigh and turn to grab the coffee pot to fill his cup. He's been doing this shit everyday for the last two weeks.
"When are you going to stop with this stupid thing?".
"When I have you naked and moaning in my bed".
"I'm going to start ignoring you from now on".
"Whatever you like, Sunshine".
"Could you please call me Justin if you have to talk to me?".
"I like Sunshine better".
"I don't like it".
"You like it when is Deb using it".
"That's because I like Deb but kind of hate you".
Brian put his elbow on the counter and rest his chin on his palm. "You know, if you weren't as hot as you are, I'll just tell you to fuck off because you're a rude little shit, but since you're hot, I'll forgive you".
"Just go away" I tell him and look at clock.
Thank God my shift is over. I take away my apron and grab my jacket and my bag from under the counter and look at Brian. "You can stay. I'll go".
"See you tomorrow, Sunshine".
"Fuck you Brian" I answer him before going out of the diner.
He's such an asshole.
The first time I met him, I thought that he was hot, than he asked me if places like Babylon weren't my kind of places, which ones were and when I told him that I don't like random sex, he just gave me this look like if I was crazy. That's the exact moment when I decided that I didn't like him one bit but he doesn't want to understand this. He keeps on hitting on me. Well, fuck him. I'm not going to fuck an asshole like him.
The first time that he tried to hit on me, was two days after I was working at the Diner.
I was outside dumping the garbage and it was late so I guessed that him and the guys were at Babylon, and he came behind me and said "Hey there Sunshine" and I jumped because he scared the shit out of me and the asshole started to laugh.
So I told him to fuck off and he came close to me and said "What about me fucking you?" and I pushed him away and he looked at me smirking.
And he didn't stop one day after that time. And I just can't stand him. There are times when I'd love to punch him in the face.
I feel my phone vibrating in my pocket so I take it out and see that it's Dean calling.
"Hey Bitch".
"What a nice way to answer your phone baby".
I laugh. "To what do I owe the honor of this call?".
"I'll be in town on Monday. I'm going to stay with you".
"Hey Jus, can I ask you to stay at your place while I'm in town?" I say imitating his voice and Dean starts to laugh.
"You're always so funny".
"I know. So, thanks for being so polite to ask me about staying at my place. I'd be happy to have you for a couple of days".
"Actually…".
I sigh. "What happened this time with Jason that you have to come all the way over here?".
"He said that he was tired of having an open relationship".
"I'm with him on this one, Dean".
"Yeah I know what you think about this kind of thing but he knows who I am, and when we got together, he knew it, I haven't changed so…".
"And why do you have to come here?".
"Because he wants time to think and I don't have any other place to stay".
"Ok you can stay with me but you're going to find a job".
"I'm rich".
"Whatever".
"Hey, is Brian still trying to fuck you?".
"Yep".
"And you…".
"You know what I think. He's just like you, so I don't want to be anywhere near him".
"Well, thanks a lot asshole".
"Hey, you didn't try to fuck me, we can be friends, but with him it's different".
"Yeah but I fucked you a couple of times when you and Seth broke up".
"I was drunk and so were you".
"Yeah but still. You're kind of hot baby, you can't expect that someone like me doesn't want to fuck with you. Did you take a look at your ass?".
"I can't believe that I'm talking with you about this. Just let me know when you're coming and I'll come and pick you up at the airport. Now I'll go to bed and sleep".
"It's just 11pm".
"Yeah and I'm tired so I'm going to bed".
"Ok. I'll call you tomorrow".
"Night".
I hang up and grab the keys in my pocket to open the door to my apartment. It's not far from the Diner and it's a nice place. Maybe it isn't big but I like it and I have a little study with a perfect light to paint and a great bedroom. When I'll find Mr. Right, it'd be great to live here. I sigh at that thought. Maybe it's true that there's no such thing as love.
BRIAN P.O.V.
"So?" Emmett asks me.
"He said that he hates me" I answer him without looking up from my beer.
Michael laughs. "I can totally see why. C'mon Brian. He said that he doesn't like random sex and you don't do boyfriends, dates, love, relationships, and all that stuff. You'll never be what he wants. You should just forget about all of this".
"He's hot and I want him" I tell him and I know that I must sound like some kid that wants a new toy, but I can't fucking help it.
"I think that it's because he doesn't want you that you can't leave him alone".
"Thanks Prof" I say to Ben.
I take a sip of my beer and look around to find someone to fuck. We should have gone straight to Babylon and not stop at Woody's.
"He's not going to give in, Brian" Michael says. "Not after what happened to him. I don't think that he trusts men all that much. I think that you should back off".
"Nope".
"He's going to hate you" Ted says.
"He already hates me".
"Then leave him alone".
"No Theodore. I'm going to have him".
"And then what, Brian? You'll fuck him and kick him out right after you had your orgasm and that's not what he needs and that's not what he deserves. If you're not willing to change your fucked up lifestyle, then you shouldn't try to have him. He's not some nameless trick from the backroom. He's a great man, and you know him".
"Barely, Mickey".
"It doesn't matter. Just leave him alone".
Fuck. That's the tenth time that I have to hear this story of how great Justin is and how he doesn't deserve what I want to do to him, and I'm tired of this shit but I'm not going to stop trying to have him. I want him and I'll have him. End of the story. It's not like I'm going to kill him. I just want to fuck him.
"I'm going home".
"We just got here" Emmett says.
"Doesn't matter" I tell him and then grab my jacket and head outside Woody's. There are times when thinking of Justin, just kills the mood and I don't want to fuck anymore. It's just so fucked up. One day I was fine and then he had to come back from fucking Seattle and now every time I try to fuck, I keep on seeing his face with those delicious lips. Fuck. And the worst thing it's that every one thinks to have the right to say something.
I don't understand why the fact that I want to fuck Justin is any of their business. It's just bad enough that every time I want to talk to him, he's pissed at me, I don't need my friends telling me how good it is that Justin doesn't want me. Fuck 'em all.
JUSTIN P.O.V.
When I open the door to the Diner on Sunday, I immediately see Brian sitting at his usual stool at the counter, reading the newspaper. I take a deep breath and head his way.
"Hey there Sunshine".
"You could find a new way to greet me" I say while I grab my apron from under the counter and tie it around my waist.
He looks up from the newspaper and smiles at me. "It's a good way and anyway, didn't you tell me just yesterday that you would just ignore me?".
"Whatever. It's just that it's boring after three weeks".
"I'll think of something else".
"Great. What can I get you?".
"Just a coffee".
I turn up his cup and fill it.
He's awkwardly quiet this morning, but fuck if I'm going to say anything.
"How was your week end, Sunshine?".
"Boring. You were the last person I saw yesterday".
"That's because you never go out".
"I go out when I want to go out and I work in a public place, you know".
"If you say so".
Ah. I knew it. He isn't capable to go for more than five minutes without being on my nerves.
"Leave me alone" I tell him for the millionth time.
"Don't you have table to clean?" he asks me. "You can go and just pretend like I'm not here".
I ignore him after that and start to clean the vacant booths.
After a while, Michael, Ben, Ted and Emmett come to have breakfast but even after they sit in one of the booths, Brian doesn't move form his stool at the counter.
"Hey boys".
"Hey Justin" Michael says smiling. I really like him. Deb always told me how great he was, but now that I've actually met him, I really like him. He's a great friend.
"Got plans for today?" Emmett asks me.
"Nope".
"Why don't you come for dinner tonight? Then we could go somewhere" Michael says.
"You know that I don't like…".
"What about you come with us to Babylon and dance with me or Ben?".
"I can use some dancing".
"Then come have dinner at Deb's and then we'll go to Babylon together. I have a class tomorrow so we're not going to be out late" Ben says and I smile at him. He's a great guy.
"Ok".
"Great" Emmett says clapping his hands. "You have to dance with me".
I laugh. "Ok, Em".
"Then you can leave me all the men that will come to drool all over your hot and young body".
"Sure".
When I leave their booth to take their orders to the kitchen and then go behind the counters to take the coffee, Brian looks at me.
"What now?".
"So, if I ask you to go out to Babylon, you say no, but if it's one of them you say yes".
"Yeah" I simply say.
"That's because they don't want to fuck you?".
"Yep".
"Well, I'm sure that Emmett won't mind a bit if you fuck him and the same goes for Ted. You know, I'm not the only one that wants to fuck the shit out of you".
"You always say the nicest things" I tell him sarcastically.
"Can't help it. You bring the best out of me".
I bend over the counter so I can talk with a low tone. "The difference between them and you, it's that maybe they think that I'm hot but they respect me enough to think of me as their friend and not some piece of great ass. That's why I go out with them but I'll never go out with you".
"Never say never, Sunshine".
"Think what you want. I don't care".
"The point is that I want to fuck you and I can fuck you because I'm hot. They're not hot enough to have you so they can have your friendship".
"More I know you, and more I hate you. You know that right?".
He shrugs and smiles. "Think what you want. I don't care".
I grab the coffee pot and go over Michael, Ted, Emmett and Ben.
Fuck Brian Kinney. Who the fuck does he thinks he is?