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Bella

"So I take it that Alice convinced you to come here?" he spoke it less as a question and more as a statement.

"No, I told you that I had already decided to find you." I wanted this point to be clear. He looked surprised at my words. "All Alice did was point me in the right direction. I didn't know where you were or how to find you and she did."

"So if it wasn't Alice, what really propelled you to find me? You said it was the accident"-he choked on the word-"but how did that make you finally decide to come here after all this time?"

I couldn't help it, I blushed. I had thought it would be embarrassing to tell Alice about my coma "dream" but having to tell Edward was a hundred times worse. Would he think I was an idiot? An obsessed idiot? I guess there was no way to know unless I told him. I took a deep breath.

"Well, it is kind of embarrassing really." I could not look at him as I spoke. "While I was unconscious I had a strange dream, or vision I guess you could call it." I felt the blood rush to my cheeks again and pushed on.

"It was a replay of all of out time together. I saw every moment we'd had together and watching it I knew that I had to find you again. I knew that with my horrible luck that any moment might be my last and that I wanted to spend every moment I had with you. We have not had enough time with each other; time might cease to exist before we have had enough of it."

I knew the last part sounded very melodramatic but there was no other way for me to describe it. I wanted to spend every second with Edward. There could never be enough time.

He was quiet for a long time. So long that I was worried that I had finally said the words to drive him away again. Did he think I was crazy?

He spoke. "You're right, we haven't had enough time, there is no such thing as enough time." My heart swelled and beat faster in response to his words. Hope blossomed in me. "I was the biggest kind of fool, leaving you, thinking that was what was best for you. And it only ended up hurting us both." He shook his head sadly.

He had left me because he thought it was best for me? That it would somehow be better for me not to be around him? He had told me that he didn't want me, was that a lie? Had I been tormenting myself with my inadequacies for the last six months for nothing?

I was abruptly angry. He had broken my heart for my own good?

"Is that why you left, you thought it was what was best for me?" I could not believe that he would do such a thing!. Didn't he know that no matter where I was or who I was with I attracted danger?

"Bella, just being around me is dangerous enough for you, especially with as potent as your scent is to me. But when I saw the danger you were in from others of my kind-James, Victoria, even Jasper for a moment-I knew I could not allow you to be hurt by what I am."

I had always known that he was worried about my safety, obsessively so really, but I had no idea that it would lead him to do something so drastic. His words in the forest came crashing down onto me again. They had been so devastating.

"But-in the forest-you said…you said you were leaving because you didn't want me. That I wasn't good enough for you." The pain of the words he had said choked me and my throat was tight with tears. I willed them away so I could hear his answer.

"My love, I had to tell you those things. I could see that there was no way you were going to give in, to let me leave without you. I knew I had to convince you that I didn't want you anymore, to make you believe that I was moving on. It was the only way I could think of to make sure you went on with your life after I had gone. But every word I said to you was a lie. When I told you I didn't want you," he shook his head sadly, "I can't believe that I was even able to say it. The words were choking me, tormenting me the entire time. But I knew I had to say them, to make sure you were safe, that you had the chance to have a full and happy life."

I couldn't believe it. Everything he had said to me in the forest had been a lie? He had been acting to keep me safe? He wanted me after all? Really? Could I believe that? My heart screamed Yes! But how could he have let me hurt so much? Did he even know how much pain I had been in?

"Edward, the only time I can be happy is when I am with you. All the time you have been gone I have been drowning, sinking farther and farther below the surface, into despair. Thinking of you, of seeing your face again, it is the only thing that pulled me up out of it, back into my life again. Whatever danger I might be in from your company can never be as bad as the emptiness when I am not with you."

He pulled me up against his chest and cradled my head beneath his chin.

"I love you Bella." He said. I gasped and started to tremble. It was the first time he had said the words to me in so long and my heart felt like it would burst with happiness.

"I told you that you were not good enough for me but the truth is, I can never be good enough to deserve you. I will try every day of my existence to be the man that you deserve."

He pulled my face up to his and wiped away the tears that were coursing down my face. Then he kissed me so gently, so sweetly and I knew that no matter what else happened, no matter what life and fate chose to throw at us, we would be together. We were two sides of the same coin; neither was complete without the other. We sat there staring at each other for a long moment, his eyes filled with such joy I could not speak. For the first time in months I felt completely and truly happy.