Hey guys! I managed to upload this before I've gone away on holiday tonight. The next few chaps will be from all the characters POV's with a different emotion and their thoughts about Rikki's death.

Once again, I'd like to say I'm so sorry for killing her off, but it's like in real life, accidents don't always have a happy ending.

Thank you to: Blood-Garra-Blood, ZaneandRikki4life95, PaCmAn feVeR, zikki, h2ofan1, CloudGazer15, majobloem & WALIXELA for reviewing the last chapter! :D :D :D

Anyway, can I ask for 1 more review for 'When I Grow Up' and 2 more for 'The Girl With Everything'? Thank you! :D

So the first part of the 'Felt' series for the next few chaps is from Bella's POV. I'll be doing a 'Felt' chapter for Cleo, Lewis, Emma, Rikki's Dad & Zane, so let me know if I should do anyone else and I'll add them to my list. After the 'Felt' chaps, the last chap will be Rikki's funeral. But I have plans for a sequel! :D

Enjoy the chap! :D Can I get to 100 reviews by the next chapter? (10 more!) If I do, then I'll upload all the other characters felt chaps into one big one for you as a thank you! :D :D

Enjoy & Review! :)

**PREVIOUSLY ON TAKEN AWAY:

**I'd lost my best friend and I found out her boyfriend was going to propose to her. It was like something off a movie, but there was no stop button and life wasn't going to go back to normal at the end of the credits

Chapter Twenty Three: Felt pt 1 - Saddness

Bella Hartley felt sad.

Sad didn't cover it actually. Sad feels like a huge understatement. Sad is a recognizable emotion. This, what I'm feeling right was like sickness, sadness, guilt, grief and feeling shattered all at the one time.

I was lying on my bed, in my room, that was dark from the closed blinds and lack of light.

I didn't feel like moving.

I didn't feel the urge to get up.

I didn't feel anything except the overwhelming sadness and pain.

I don't know how much time had passed since I had woken up, but at a guess it would've been around half an hour.

I saw light creeping in through my door and heard a small squeak. I turned by head to the right on the pillow and saw my Mum standing in the doorway.

"Bella, you awake?" she asked me, whispered very quietly. Although her voice was lowered, t compared to the lack of noise my ears had been adapted to from since I'd arrived home from the hospital, it sounded like a loudspeaker.

I made some sort of noise that even I don't know what is was, and my Mum walked over to my bed.

She softly sat down on my bed and gently rubbed circles on my back.

I could feel fresh tears slide down my face and my stomach dropped as I remembered turning around for that last time, seeing Rikki for the last time.

My tears were now audible and Mum furthered the gesture. She put her arms around my shoulders and I sat up a bit. She held me close, protectively.

"I'm so sorry" she said as I cried into her shoulder and she grasped the back of my neck.

Sitting on my bed crying into my Mum, reminded me of when I was 7 and I broke my arm after I fell off of the monkey bars on the playground. I'd been crying the next morning because of the agony in my arm. I hadn't realized I'd slept on my arm over the night and the pain felt unbearable when I woke up.

That was petty tears & pain, nothing compared to the pain I was feeling right now.

But how do you get on with life when you know that you're never going to see your best friend again?

You don't have that mental frame of mind or the ability to move on and to be able to say, "That's okay. I'll see her soon."

We have to get on with our life without Rikki and I just wasn't sure how that was going to happen.

My thoughts turned into tears, and my tears turned into a wet shoulder for Mum.

It felt like the sadness and tears were never ending….

Sad :( How are the others feeling?

So remember, if I get to the big 1-0-0, not only will I be very happy, but then I'll reward you with a 5 in 1 chapter! (What would be 5 chaps becomes 1!)

Have a good day & review :)