Chapter 6

Alex walked sadly through the hospital. As he turned slowly into the next hallway he heard Meredith and a nurse speaking.

"She what?" Meredith gasped.

Alex jumped back behind the wall and listened to their conversation.

"She woke up," the nurse said. "She woke up and tried to pull her breathing tube out of her throat. But we knocked her out immediately because we needed to get in and try to remove the tumor. Chief Shepherd sent me out to tell you.

"She woke up?" Meredith asked, still not comprehending.

"Do I really need to say it again?" the nurse asked.

Meredith's eyes were huge with surprise. "Did he say anything else?"

"He only said not to tell Dr. Karev. He doesn't want him to get his hopes up. But he wanted you to know."

"Alright," Meredith whispered. "I won't tell him."

Alex couldn't believe it. How could she agree to that?

He suddenly stomped out from behind the wall and grabbed Meredith's shoulder roughly. "Meredith!"

Meredith jumped and gasped and turned around. "A-Alex? How much of that did you hear?"

"Plenty!" Alex growled. "I can't believe that you weren't going to tell me about this!"

"Alex-

"I trusted you Meredith! I trusted you and you betrayed me!"

"You know why I would have had to do it Alex!"

"Do I Meredith? I'm not so sure I do!"

"Alex-

"Imagine if it was Derek!" Alex yelled. "How would you feel if it was Derek who had two tumors? Wouldn't you want to know if he woke up from something like that?"

"Imagine if Izzie was doing that surgery on Derek!" Meredith fought back. "Imagine if she told you not to tell me! Would you betray her?"

"Oh cut it out Meredith! You know you would want to know! You would want that little bit of hope!"

"Not if it was just going to be crushed!"

"You know what!" Alex yelled. "Screw this!"

He turned and stomped away furiously.

As Owen walked through the hospital he caught a glimpse of Cristina working on a patient with a far away glance.

"Dr. Yang," Owen said. Cristina didn't turn around. "Dr. Yang," he repeated. Cristina still didn't seem to hear him. "Cristina!"

She turned around quickly, dropping the bandage that she was holding. Owen noticed how angry the patient looked.

"Huh? W-what?" Cristina stuttered.

"Are you an attending?" the woman asked.

"Yes I am. My name is Dr. Hunt."

"Well Dr. Hunt, the residents at this hospital must not be very focused, because Dr. Yang here is spacing out and yelling at me."

"Yelling?" Owen questioned, narrowing his eyes.

"I was not yelling I was… I mean… and she…

"There is no excuse," the woman said, crossing her arms.

"She wouldn't shut up!" Cristina snapped.

The woman huffed a breath and Owen shook his head. "Dr. Yang please apologize to Mrs. ..." she check the chart. "To Ms. Genefren."

"Dr. Hunt can we talk in the hallway please?" Cristina asked.

"Apologize to the patient," Owen said.

"I'm sorry," Cristina said quickly then turned to Owen.

"Dr. Yang-

Cristina sighed and then plastered a fake smile onto her face. "I am so sorry," she said, almost sarcastically. "Now Owen, let's talk in the hallway."

Cristina grabbed his arm and pulled him into the hallway.

"What is it?" he demanded. He then took a look at Cristina's face. "Wait, are you crying?"

"No," she lied, her voice cracking. "I'm not… crying." Her voice broke again and she clenched her teeth together.

"Why are you crying?" Owen asked softly.

"Because George O'Malley died," she whispered.

"Why are you crying about that now?" Owen asked, confusion toning his voice.

"Because Izzie might die too."

"Don't think about that now. They will do the surgery on her eventually when she agrees-

"Owen!" Cristina cut him off. "She passed out in the bathtub! She wasn't breathing! She is in surgery now! So I was going to ask you if you could please go see how she I doing before another part of my life breaks!" she was sobbing now.

Owen was at a loss for words. He slowly reached towards Cristina and touched her cheek. "I'll go see how she's doing," Owen said.

Cristina nodded. "Thank you," she said.

Owen reached toward Cristina to pull her into a hug but she inched away. She wiped her tears off of her face with her lab coat sleeve and shook her head. "I um… I have to check on my patient."

With that Cristina turned and walked back into the room.

Derek stared into Izzie's brain, trying to figure out how to get the tumor off of the pituitary gland without harming it. The only way to get all of the tumor out, it seemed, was to remove nearly all of the pituitary gland.

Suddenly Owen walked into the OR holding a surgical mask over his face.

"I've been sent to check on her," Owen said.

"Yeah, well it's not looking so good," Derek said, looking up and nodding his head towards Owen. "You can tell whoever wants to know that… I don't know."

"Cristina," Owen said.

"W-what?"

"Cristina wants to know."

With that he turned and left the OR.

Mark was incredibly confused. Why was Lexie crying? Why was she hugging him? And why wasn't he pulling away?

He couldn't.

He had already lost Lexie once and he was afraid to lose her again.

"Lex," he finally whispered. "Why are you crying?"

Lexie slowly looked up at Mark. "Because Alex yelled at me… and you hate me… and… I don't know!" she sobbed.

"Why did Karev yell at you?" Mark asked.

"Because Izzie has two more tumors. That's what made her leave him in the first place. He said that it was my fault for getting him to sleep with me!"

Mark cringed at that and slowly pulled her away. "Lex," he whispered. "Karev is in a dark place. I wouldn't be hanging around him right now if I were you."

Lexie slowly ran her fingers through her hair. "Mark," she croaked. "I'm in a dark place too!"

"Lexie, we all are. I mean Sloan came back. She's having the baby. She's in surgery right now and I came into here to wait it out. I-

Lexie ignored what he was going to say next and pulled him to her, crashing her lips to his.

Mark was frozen in surprise and slowly pushed her away back onto the bed.

"Lexie," he whispered. "I'm going out with Teddy Altman right now. You broke up with me. You can't do this now. You can't do this after you broke up with me."

Mark turned and left the room quickly without looking back, trying to keep up his strength.

But as he left he heard Lexie whimpering and his heart nearly broke.

Izzie slowly found herself in the middle of darkness.

She didn't like it there. She wanted to get out of it.

She began to become aware that she wasn't in darkness, but something was blocking her vision.

All I need to do, she thought. is get the blackness out of my vision.

She began to wonder how to do that. She thought about how she would usually do it. That's when she realized that her eyes were closed.

She moved her head and felt a wave of dizziness rush over her.

She groaned slightly and blinked her eyes to refocus them.

And when she did she found a pair of blue eyes staring back at her.

Those blue eyes belonged to Derek Shepherd.

Izzie tried to open her mouth and speak but found that something was stuck in her throat. She moved her hand to reach for it but Derek's hand beat her to it and landed on top of hers.

"Izzie," he said. "If you can hear me blink twice." He spoke loudly and slowly and Izzie understood him and blinked twice.

"Good," Derek said. "Now we are about to take you into surgery and try to remove the tumor on you pituitary gland. Okay?"

Izzie tried to comprehend this for a second. More surgery? She didn't want more surgery! She would rather die!

She tried to shake her head but felt another rush of dizziness.

"This surgery is very important," Derek said. "Alex is outside waiting for an update and when I finally give him one I hope it is a good one."

Izzie gave in and blinked twice.

And then a thought occurred to her. She smiled internally. She had signed the DNR. They couldn't keep her like a vegetable if she didn't make it.

She wanted to make it, especially for Alex. But being a vegetable did not sound like fun.

"Alright. Now I need you to count back from ten in your head for me," a nurse said, placing a mask over Izzie's nose and mouth.

She closed her eyes and did as she was told.

Ten, nine… eight…… seven……… six……………

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