Chapter 12

Sloan smiled as Mark entered the room holding something wrapped in a blanket.

She knew exactly what that something was and a tear cascaded down her face.

"Oh my… it's like a real baby," she said.

Mark chuckled and handed the baby towards Sloan who accepted her son gratefully.

She looked into his eyes and smiled as widely as she could.

"He looks just like someone who I love," Sloan said. "So I think I'll name him after them."

"Who?" Mark asked, tilting his head to the side.

"You," Sloan whispered. "I'm naming him Mark Junior. But we can call him MJ."

Now it was Mark's turn to start crying. He reached for Sloan and pulled her into a hug.

"I love you," he whispered.

Her eyes widened for a moment but then they shined with new tears.

"I love you too daddy."

Meredith walked into the OR that Izzie was in, holding a mask over her face.

"Derek," she said.

"Meredith, you can't be in here," Derek told her.

"Alex wanted an update," Meredith said.

She felt her throat get heavy as she looked at Izzie. She looked so lifeless on the table. Her skin was pale and the top part of her head was missing. Derek had his hand in her head.

"I don't have an update for you just yet," Derek said. "Sorry."

Meredith kept her eyes on Izzie though and she seemed to be frozen in her spot.

"Meredith, you need to leave now," Derek said, nodding towards the door.

Meredith slowly moved her hand and felt for the door and exited without taking her eyes off of Izzie.

"I-I-I'm… alright I'm leaving."

Meredith slowly turned and ran out of the room. She glided through the hallway and right past Alex who grabbed her arm and stopped her in her tracks.

"Well… what did you find out?"

"They know nothing yet," Meredith breathed and then turned and ran for the nearest on-call room.

When she found one she ran in and dropped onto the nearest bed and shut her eyes.

She needed to dream this away, somehow.

But it was impossible to sleep with what was on her mind. She nearly gave up when she finally found enough peace to sleep.

Meredith found herself in her house, sitting in the living room. She slowly stood up. "Derek!" she called.

But there was no answer.

"Alex?" she called. "Lexie? Izzie? Is anyone home?"

"Well they aren't, but I am," a voice said from the doorway.

Meredith spun around and gasped at what she saw. Her eyes went wide as tears filled them.

"George?" she choked out.

"I heard you needed someone to talk to," he said.

"I do," Meredith responded, walking over to him and wrapping her arms around him.

George hugged her for a moment before pulling her back. "What do you need to talk about?" George asked.

"It's Izzie. She could die. She could freaking die George. And I can't talk to Derek because he's in surgery. And I can't talk to Alex because he is a mess. Cristina is too busy to talk and she doesn't really understand. Lexie is too over sensitive. You were the only other one who I would ever be able to talk to George. And I can't talk to you because you are dead."

George smiled a half smile and shook his head. "You can always find me when you need to talk. I'm always right here," George said. Touching his finger to Meredith's heart. "And right here," he touched his hand to Meredith's head and she giggled slightly.

"I miss you," she whispered. "I miss you so much it hurts."

"You think that hurts? Then you clearly haven't seen what pain is. You haven't been hit and dragged by a bus for a few blocks," George chuckled.

"Not funny!" Meredith scolded, pushing George's arm.

"It's called bitter sweet humor," George said.

"No it's not," Meredith said.

"Well that's what I'm calling it."

Meredith laughed as she heard a door open. She looked around George towards the front door but didn't see it open.

When she looked back to George he was gone.

"Meredith!" someone called. "Mer!"

Meredith jerked up right and felt her head collide with something hard.

"Ah," she groaned and looked up to see Alex holding his head to.

Then she realized that that's what she had hit.

"Damn Mer, what's wrong?" Alex asked, rubbing his head.

"Weird dream," Meredith said. "But a very good dream."

"Why were you running away before?" Alex asked.

"I just needed some time to think," Meredith said. She looked up and saw dark shadows under Alex's eyes.

"When's the last time you've slept?" Meredith asked.

Alex shrugged his shoulders. "Not since like… two nights ago."

"That's not healthy!" Meredith told him.

Alex just shrugged again and sat on the side of the bed. Meredith sat up and sat next to him.

"You should get some sleep," Meredith murmured.

"I'm fine," Alex said.

"Alex," Meredith said, standing up. "Get some rest and I'll go check on Izzie, okay?"

"I'm not tired," Alex said.

But then he yawned a huge yawn and he knew he couldn't trick Meredith.

"Alright," he gave in.

Meredith smiled in triumphant. "Good," she said. She put an arm around Alex's shoulder. "It'll all work out," Meredith said.

"I hope so," Alex said.

Meredith stood up and left the on-call room.

Alex closed his eyes and let sleep take him over. He was gone in almost seconds.

"Izzie!" Alex called, knocking on her door. "Izzie!"

He opened the door to her room and barged in.

There was a lump under her comforter and Alex walked over and pulled the comforter up so he could wake up Izzie.

But she couldn't be woken up.

Izzie was on her bed, but she was pale and lifeless. She was soaking wet and wore no cloths just like she was when he fished her out of the bath.

Except this time her eyes were open and staring at the ceiling.

She was dead.

Alex jerked up and shouted loudly, feeling sweaty and numb.

The door to the on-call room opened up and Meredith walked in with concern painted onto her face.

"Are you okay? Why were you screaming?" she asked.

"Bad dream," Alex sighed.

He sat up and leaned against the wall. Meredith walked over to him. "Izzie just got out of surgery," she said.

Alex's eyes went wide and his body became numb again. He feared what he might find out.

"So…" he said. "What happened?"

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