AN: I must gappologise to you all, I have just so surprisingly been busy over the holidays!!!
So yeah, I'll keep this Author note short.
Just a few thanks; to all those who have been reading and reviewing this fic - thank you! You are my motivation to continue writing!!!
And to all those participating in my forum the most; PhoenixPandora, Sareanae and Tuliharja - you have all helped my forum go up to 7th place out of over 100 - so a great thank you to you all.
And to all those who like my writing - I am planning on having the forum being posted as a story, so If you want your names mentioned in it - then go right ahead and jopin; all those who are participating seem to enjoy the forum ^_^
Thank you again.
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Hatsuyuki Shinderera
Yuki's POV
As he raised the dagger I felt my world go blank, and I screwed up my eyes in fear…
But no thudding came.
No blood left my body…
There wasn't even any real pain…
… Because I hadn't been his intended target…
… At least not at that moment…
The computer had been…
"Now, little Yuki-chan, get up!" He whispered threateningly, grabbing me from under my arm and marching me out of the room…
***
As Akito dragged me through the corridors, barging past the occasional maid, fear began to take over me, causing me to think irrationally… I couldn't help but feel completely petrified by that fear, and as my feet began to stop moving he just growled and continued dragging me towards wherever he was taking me, his hand gripping tighter upon my wrist, binding me more to him… and causing me to squeal in pain…
"Will you just keep quiet…? God! It's like you've never experience anything like this before…!" He bitched to himself as I put my other hand over my mouth to stop any more unintentional sound coming out of it.
… But the pain of his sharp nails digging into my delicate skin was still unbearable, and I couldn't help but beg him to stop…
"A… Akito-sama… p… please… It hurts…" I whimpered as he dug his nails even harder into my flesh, drawing out blood.
"Why?" He smirked at my expression… at my pleading eyes… "You deserve this, and what's more; you know it! So why should I give mercy, after all; it's no fun that way!"
At those words I knew all hope was gone, so I just slumped and let him drag me away, his bony hand always gripped painfully against my wrist, even when he unlocked that dreaded door…
… The door to the room that was reserved…
Just.
For.
Me…
"Don't cry now Yuki-chan…" Akito whispered strangely as he shoved me across the room, causing me to slam against the opposite wall, an action that gave him plenty of time to lock the door behind him firmly. "You know this is all your fault… why resist…?"
"Now…" He smirked to himself as he walked up to my huddled figure. "Who were you talking to?"
At his words my eyes widened – how could he expect me to betray the one I loved – for Akito defiantly knew that I loved someone, even if the person's name was unknown – If I didn't love him then I would never have risked denying Akito's law… we both knew that…
And yet here he was, standing above me waiting for me to betray him, out of fear of my god…
But Akito underestimated my sheer will power considerably…
He underestimated my love for Kyo…
He underestimated my sense of loyalty, not to him, but to myself…
Of course, my silence made Akito angry, but then again, whatever I had said would have made him angry, so I had been willing to take the risk…
"Now, little Yuki-chan…" He came up closer to me, and I couldn't help but edge backwards nervously, completely scared of his strangely fierce gaze… a gaze that had something almost inhuman in them… "You are going to tell me who you have been talking to for the last few weeks, who this person who knows about you is, because if you don't I'll have to resort to being… unkind…"
As he spoke I shivered again and found myself against the wall to my private room, terrified and in danger…
"I… I d… I don't know his… his name…" I stuttered weakly, knowing even as I spoke, he saw through my act… just like he always did…
"Of course you do little Yuki… but I'm not concerned about that as much as something else… does he know your name?" The urgency in his eyes was even more terrifying than when the anger had been in them, he actually really wanted to know this… he was almost insane in his need to know that one thing…
Thankfully for me, I didn't need to lie… he would know for certain that the dirty little secret was contained… for now…
"No, he… he doesn't know who I really am, and he never will…" I spoke those words because I knew they were exactly what Akito wanted to hear, even though the wrenched open my heart to speak the words that betrayed what little hope I had…
"Good…" Akito stroked my cheek delicately, and I shuddered away from his touch, hating him at that moment almost as much as I did when he let his temper out on me…
… Because I was the great Akito-sama's human punch bag…
How absolutely brilliant…
"I suppose now I will just have to make sure you refrain from keeping in contact with this boy… and make sure you don't go to wherever you had planned to meet…" He whispered, causing my eyes to widen in shock. "Oh yes, I saw enough to know that you planned to meet with him, to tell him you loved him… to tell him what you truly are… don't think me stupid my little Nezumi… even though I'm ill, and frail, I can still work a computer! So don't think you can deceive me girl!"
As he spoke he raised his fist; the fist with the knuckle-duster upon it and punched me in the face, causing my deep crimson blood to trickle down my face slowly, like a stream…
"No! I… I'm s… sorry A… Akito-sama… I… I don't think that you are s… stupid… I… it was me that d… did wrong…" I stuttered the words, trying to make them sound like something Akito would want me to say… but for once it wasn't what Akito wanted from me – and I never found out what he actually wanted… maybe he just wanted to hurt me, no matter what I said or did…
*slap*
I covered my face instinctively and as I withdrew it from my face I caught the lingering scent of blood again…
Oh dear…
"Wrong answer Yuki…" He whispered menacingly as he pulled out the rope…
The rope…
***
I opened my eyes to complete darkness. Rubbing them, I looked around, trying to decipher why it was so dark…
…Then it hit me…
… My heart started pounding as I realised where I was…
… Which room I was in…
"Let me out…" I whimpered to the people who were not there, who wouldn't come even if they did hear me…
Now why would he do that Yuki…? You know he will never let us be until we are tamed…
'But I don't want to be tamed! I'm a free person!'
No, you're not. We're not… We are just here to be Akito's little pet…
'Stop it! Stop saying stuff like that!' I screamed at the spirit within me, terrified that her words would actually become true…
Fine, but don't blame me when my words become the truth…
And with that the voice left me alone… alone in the dark…
… And terrified…
It was strange, I had been in this room so often, you would almost think that I would get used to being there…
… But of course I never got used to this room… no matter how long I spent there, how much I got 'used' to spending time in the room…
… No matter what, I was always terrified of this place…
… And now was no different…
And still… when I was finally freed from the room, and the light was blazed into my eyes, I would still shrink back into the corner…
… Because for me the darkness was safer for me; at least in that room I knew what would happen…
In the light, I was lost.
"Yuki-san…" The door opened slightly and a maid came in, taking care not to look at me – as she was ordered not to, especially when I was like this… "It is time for school… your belongings are in the room next door… and make sure you cover that black eye… okay…?"
Great… even when I was half-dead from his beatings Akito still believed I should make an appearance in school…
… But never before had he made me go into school with a visible mark…
Did he even know…?
Did he even care about me…?
Why did I even have to ask myself that…?