"We're home" Adam said as he parked my car in the garage.
I walked out of the car once he shut off the ignition. I looked over to Morty, put my hand on his hood, and walked leaving my hand glide over his hood.
"Adam can you drive Morty sometimes so he doesn't break down or anything?"
"Sure Clare"
I felt arms come around my waist and I looked over to see Alli.
"I'm here for you Clare" Alli said
"I know"
"Well let's go inside." Adam said
I unlocked the door and headed inside. Everything was the same. I drug myself upstairs and looked in the nurseries. I stopped in Andie's first.
"Eli I can help you put everything away just tell me what bags go in Danni's room"
"Clare I got it just go relax"
"Eli you're putting the clothes away at least let me put Danni's clothes away or something I'm tired of relaxing and the babies aren't going to be here for another month"
"Well my dear I wanted to stock up on baby clothes just incase"
"So you used the time I spent with your mom to go shopping for baby clothes without me and then you expect me to do nothing while you put them away?"
"Well I went without you because I know you'd get mad at me for buying so much especially since I bought them some toys too and now I don't have to worry"
"Eli you're such a wonderful dad and husband"
"You're the most amazing wife a man could find I love you to death Clare"
"I love you just the same Eli"
Eli put his hands on my belly and all three babies started to kick rapidly.
"Don't worry daddy loves you three just as much as he loves mommy" Eli said to my belly
Eli stood up and kissed me sweetly and passionately.
"Hey Eli how did I let you talk me into having Andrea's room black and baby blue?"
"Because while you were at the baby shower I did the other nurseries with black trimmed walls"
"Ok"
I laid my head on Eli as I started to get tired.
"They're all complete now all three nurseries you did so I didn't have to."
"Clare why is there a whole ton of baby formula stocked in the cabinets?" Adam yelled
I laughed
"Eli wanted to make sure we had enough" I yelled back
"Didn't he know they expired?"
"Yea they last for like three years before they expire(1)"
"But there's like three or so cupboards full of nothing, but baby formula"
"I know there's more than that though there's some in closet" I yelled back
"Why so much?"
"Eli was afraid of not having any when we needed it you should see the nurseries they're all stocked with diapers, wipes, clothes, shoes, socks, if the babies need it we've got it" I yelled
I walked into my room after looking in all three baby rooms.
"Eli I miss you so much" I said as I rubbed my locket.
I stood up and walked out on the balcony which over looked the entire back yard.
"Eli, Eli put me down" I giggled as Eli carried me
"Come on Clare lets have fun while we still can"
"What do you mean while we still can we're only twenty one and twenty two"
"I know, but what if I want to start a family soon"
"Ok we will"
"Oh I'll put you down now hold your breath"
"Eli that's not funny I didn't mean for you to throw me in the pool"
"I think it's funny plus you look amazing in that bikini"
"Eli how about you join me"
Eli jumped in and we swam in the pool together.
I walked into my closet as tears started to fall and I changed out of my black dress into some sweats and sneakers. I walked downstairs and opened the ginormous freezer and took out some ice cream and then walked to get a spoon.
"If you're hungry I can make you food" Alli stated
"I'm fine"
I walked over to the couch and sat down putting my feet beside me I put the carton of ice cream on my belly and turned on the TV. I remember watching something with Eli and I turned on the DVD player to whatever was inside. I began to eat my ice cream as I watched the screen tentatively.
"Eli I'm getting weird looks from your fans I can't believe I let you drag me here" I said
"Eli's first book signing that I was forced to tag along to" I chuckled
"Clare don't worry about it you're my wife I love you plus you're three months pregnant with triplets I don't want you home alone all day plus Alli and Adam aren't home on top of that you still have morning sickness a lot"
"I love you too Eli and my belly is showing"
A teenage girl walked up to the table and put her book down Eli opened her book, then his marker, sat his hands on the book and looked at her.
"Who should I make this out to?"
"Can you sign 'To Stacy love always Eli Goldsworthy'?" she asked
"I'm sorry I cannot sign that the only book I sign that says love always or something similar to that are my wife's books or the ones for my triplets when I start to write children books for them."
"Oh I'm sorry can you just sign 'To Stacy from Eli Goldsworthy'?"
"Sure"
Eli signed the book.
"Oh by the way this is my lovely wife Clare" Eli said as he handed the girl her book.
"What are we watching?" Alli asked as she sat next to me
"The first book signing Eli drug me to"
Another girl came up to the table and I covered my mouth and ran. Eli motioned a worker to him.
"Why did you just run away from the table?"
"Morning sickness"
The worker stood by Eli.
"Follow her please and make sure she's ok, she's got morning sickness" Eli stated to the female worker
Eli again got everything ready before he signed
"That woman that ran away is she ok?"
Eli chuckled
"That's my wife she's fine she just has a case of morning sickness" Eli stated
The girl's face turned from happy to sad
"Who should I make this out to?" Eli asked
"Claire"
"That's the same name as my wife do you spell it C-l-a-r-e too?"
"No it's C-l-a-i-r-e"
"Ok Clare with an 'i'." Eli chuckled
I walked back to my seat next to Eli and he kissed my forehead.
"Feeling any better"
I nodded and laid my head down on his shoulder.
"Tired?" Eli asked me
I nodded
"Excuse me" Eli called to a worker
"What can I do for you" the worker replied
"My wife is tired can I get a pillow?"
The worker nodded then left, moments later he came back with a pillow.
"Thank you" Eli said as he took the pillow
Eli put the pillow on his lap and move my chair closer to his.
"Here Clare now you can lie on my lap and sleep"
I put my head down on Eli's lap and put my feet on the chair and fell asleep.
"You seriously fell asleep in front of tons of people at Eli's book signing didn't you?" Alli laughed
"Yea it's funny to watch now when we look back."
A woman about Eli's age arrived at the table.
"Hi Mr. Goldsworthy I am such a big fan of yours and I was so surprised to find out we're the same age. I love your books are you doing a biography yet?"
"Yes I've already written it" Eli stated
"Do you mind if I get a picture with you after you sing my book"
The woman put her book on the counter
"Not at all, but my wife was really tired so I got a pillow and told her to rest her head on my lap. She's out cold" Eli chuckled "I guess that's what I get for making her come with me"
"Why did you make her come?"
"We just found out she's pregnant with triplets and I don't want to leave her home alone. So who should I make this out to?"
"No one you can just sign it"
"Ok"
Eli signed the woman's book and took a picture with her.
"The things that you and Eli have been though together" Alli stated
"Hey some of them were his fault for instance the book signing"
"Remember the time when you were four month pregnant and Eli told you he had a surprise for you and it was dinner on a boat"
"Yea that didn't go over well I got sea sick due to the pregnancy, but he did make an effort and it was really sweet of him."
"Remember the time at your wedding when Eli decided to dance with you and the chicken dance came on and we all made the two of you do the dance"
"I pulled you in as I recall and we looked like idiots"
"We used to do that dance all the time Clare-bear"
"Yea Alli when we were like 5"
"I still can't believe Eli got Dead Hands to play at the wedding"
"Well it was the one thing he wanted so I couldn't say no"
I finished the last bit of ice cream and went to throw out the container, then got a new one.
"Remind me to thank Eli when he comes home for stocking up on the ice cream"
"Clare are you sure you're ok?"
I looked down at my huge belly and rubbed it.
"I'm afraid Alli I keep telling myself Eli's at work or another signing and when reality hits I don't know what to do"
"Clare, Adam and I are here for you we're not letting you go through this alone."
"I know" I cried as I sat on the couch
"Clare-bear it's going to be ok"
Alli pulled me into her.
"No it's not Alli, Eli's gone it's not going to be ok, nothing's going to be all right again."
"Shh Clare I'm here" Alli whispered as she cried with me.
"Alli what do I tell the kids? Do I just say daddy and mommy were very much in love, but God took daddy away from us?"
"I'm not sure, but we'll talk about that when the time comes."
"Alli what about when kids play with their father or something they'll be left out"
"I'm pretty sure Adam will be there for them"
"I wish nothing ever happened to my Eli, why does God have to be so cruel? There's a saying that everything happens for a reason, but what reason does God have to take Eli?"
I hate my new reality.
1) my mom bought baby formula the other day and the experation date is Dec 03, 2013
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