I woke up to babies crying. I looked over to see my little angels. Alli and Adam each had one. I picked up Danni and she was so cute. I looked over their charts as I got a bottle for Danni. Little Eli was the biggest he's 21inches and 6 pounds even both girls were 19 inches and 5.9 pounds.
"Are you ok?" Alli asked as I held Danni
"Yes I'm fine I'm just going to make her a bottle." I stated
"Here why don't you take little Eli and I'll take Danni" Adam stated
I gladly obliged after not being able to hold my son at all for who knows how long it's been since I gave birth.
"Hi Eli" I cooed
"Alli what time did I go to sleep?" I asked as I noticed the IV was no longer in my arm
"A few hours ago why?"
"Because the clock says it's midnight and I don't know what today is"
"Today's Saturday we're going home tomorrow." Alli said gently
"What did I do today?" I asked
Adam and Alli looked at each other
"Well today you took pain medications that make you really drowsy so that's why you couldn't remember anything, we talked to KC and Jenna, you took care of all three babies just not at the same time, you ate all meals, showered, talked to Dr. Borne" Alli said sweetly
I nodded and looked to Eli, he looked up to me his eyes dark blue, his father's face, his gentle touch as he grabbed my finger. I looked at him and saw only Eli my Eli who is now gone.
"Eli can we sleep now?" I said begging for Eli to shut out the lights
"Just a minute I'm almost done this page" Eli said back as he gently rubbed circles on my shoulder
"You've been reading for hours what are you reading exactly"
"Your pregnancy book I want to know exactly what you're going through" Eli stated
"I'll get you a pregnancy belly tomorrow can we just go to sleep?"
Eli chuckled "I don't think I'd like walking around as a pregnant guy, but I might just take you up on that offer"
"Eli I was joking"
"I know, but when I told you I want to be here for you throughout everything I meant I want to know what you're going through and possibly experience some of them"
"Eli you don't need to wear a pregnancy belly" I stated
"I finished the page we'll go to bed"
Eli kissed my forehead, shut his book, turned off the light, got situated causing me to get comfortable again, then we relaxed and went to sleep.
"I'm here to take out your IV Mrs. Goldsworthy" a nurse stated
I put Eli on my lap and held his bottle in his mouth with my free hand as my IV was being taken out.
"You'll be released tomorrow" the nurse stated before she left.
I picked up my son and looked him over, he's now sleeping, he looks so peaceful. I burped him and laid him back in his hospital crib.
"Eli looks so much like Eli minus the hair and the eyes" I stated
"All of the girls are going to fawn over him" Alli said
"I think the nurses already are" Adam chuckled.
"I'm tired I'm going to go back to sleep"
"We are too once we lay down these sleeping angels"
"Hi Eli I missed you and your son looks just like you minus the eyes and the hair" I said walking over to him
"I know"
"Eli can't I just stay here with you forever?"
"No my dear you cannot"
"What about my dreams will I be able to dream about you everyday like this"
"I'm sorry, you won't be able to I'm here because you need me to help you let go of me, you will move on soon and shortly this world you've created will sadly come to an end" Eli said sadly as he kissed my head
"But Eli I won't move on I refuse to let someone else become the father of my kids, I refuse to let you go" I cried
"Clare it's ok, though your dreams may stop once you leave tomorrow, remember I'll always be in your heart no matter what"
"I love you Eli"
"I love you too Clare"
"Eli, I don't want to move on with someone new"
"Don't worry Clare I don't know much about your future, but I do know you'll definitely get over me as for you moving on with someone else, that's your choice."
I nodded into Eli's chest
"I'll always be watching over you"
"Promise?"
"Promise even when you think I'm not there I will be"
"You better be so does this mean that this is my last night with you?"
"I'm afraid so my dear"
I turned around and gripped Eli's waist.
"I will never forget you and I love you so damn much it hurts Eli"
"I know I love you just the same and you're my everything you always were"
I nodded into Eli's chest as I started to cry.
"Clare remember the times that we've shared the good and the bad I'm everywhere"
I nodded "How will I know"
"I'm the sun in your hair, I'm the shadow on the ground, I'm the whisper in the wind, I'll be there till the end, I'm in your heart, I'm not leaving you"
I kissed Eli and we cuddled together for one last time. I know now this is the last dream I will have of him holding me.
"I love you" I said, I couldn't say it enought I'd shout it to the moon if it meant bringing my Eli back, but I know nothing will bring him back
"I love you too Clare forever and ever"
"Forever and ever then more"
Eli nodded and placed a kiss upon my head.
Please Review and the lines that Eli told Clare "I'm the sun in your hair..." came from a country song my mom had on which isn't my cup of tea, but it made me think of this story so I used it. If you want information about the song let me know.