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Warnings: Swearing ( Eh, it's not a big deal but just to be on the safe side I'll mention it.)

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Suzaku's P.O.V.

"That bastard! How dare he try to talk to me. It's too late for that" I scoffed and tightened my hold on the letter I'd just received. The pressure I added bent the paper around where my fingers were. He didn't deserve my presence. I didn't have to read the letter to know what it said. Surely it said the exact same thing the first two did. I burned all four I received. I didn't bother to read the last two he'd sent, his notes were pointless. I can't risk people thinking I actually associate with scum like Zero.

I only hope whatever hell he's facing now is a suitable punishment. I know he won't get what he deserves though. Only a few people know his actual identity, and now that the black knights have discarded him like the piece of trash he is I'm sure he'll take the opportunity to try to cover his tracks. Still though, I can't help but hope he does something stupid and gets himself killed. That would put an end to all my problems…

That demon killed Euphie, my dearest Euphie. I loved her like a sister, and her own brother had murdered her without giving her so much as a second glance! He just shot her at point blank and marched on like nothing had ever happened! How could he do that to her? Did he have no conscious? Had that stupid witch, C.C., morphed him that much?! Damn the black knights, and damn Lelouch most of all!

I slammed my fists against the smooth oak wood of my writing desk and glared at the now crumpled letter in my left hand. I couldn't stand to look it anymore, so I threw it on my desk. I turned around and paced around my room. It was pretty spacious here at the military academy. The Knights of the Round members got their own rooms away from the rest, and each were elaborately decorated. My room was no exception despite me being an eleven. It's ironic, I never thought I'd end up this high ranked so soon. Sure I planned on climbing my way up, but even I had to admit this was pretty soon. I disgracefully owe this position to Lelouch, my supposedly best friend.

I think back for a bit. Back at Ashford Academy he'd always been so happy. Now we're fighting on opposite sides and I don't even recognize him anymore. I doubt he thinks of us as best friends anymore, it's strange though…despite everything he's done I still consider him mine. It's odd, I know, but I feel nostalgic when I remember him. If he'd never murdered Euphemia, If he showed remorse instead of indifference then maybe, just maybe I'd forgive him. I laugh bitterly. That's never going to happen, Lelouch is a selfish beast who prefers to wage war than find peace. I honestly have no idea what he wants to tell me by sending me these letters, but I highly doubt it's worth my time. He's pathetic if he needs me around just to feel in control again. I won't fall for anymore of your bullshit Lelouch! Sometimes I wonder if we were ever really friends.

I shake my head. I'm sure at some point he was the caring loving brother he always was around Nunnally, and I'm sure his intentions use to be pure. It must've been C.C. that poisoned him, or at least persuaded him to feed off his hatred. Wait…why the hell am I defending him? Sure, I consider him my best friend, but that's probably because he was the first friend I ever made. I doubt anything could ever justify his actions.

Nunnally doesn't know what's happened to him. She still cares for him though. It's easy to tell. Sometimes, when I pass by her room heading to mine, I can hear her praying for him. If only she knew what he's done. If she knew everything, would she still pray for him? Hope he's alive and well?

I'd kill him myself if I could, but the bond between us isn't completely severed. I know I'd feel guilty after. I sighed dejectedly. I'm sorry Euphie, I can't avenge you. Killing him would be like killing my childhood. I sit down on one of the couches in my room and lean back a bit. I close my eyes and imagine Euphie again. Her cheerfulness was enough to brighten any room. I smile happily and let myself drift into my memories of her.

"God Euphie, you're nothing like your brother" I whisper lovingly to no one in particular. You truly we're amazing Euphie.

Suddenly my door bursts open and I snap out of my reverie. I quickly turn around and see Gino and Anya come waltzing in as if they owned the place. I thought I locked the door after the messenger left…

"Hey Suzaku" Gino chirped gleefully. "How have you been, did you get the message?" he said glancing around.

"We've all been summoned for an emergency meeting" Anya said emotionlessly not looking up from her phone.

"What's going on?" I asked unsure.

"We don't know yet" answered Gino. He slowly walked over to my desk and picked up Lelouch's note. "Why did you crumble up the note they sent Suzaku?" He smoothed the note out as much as he could. "Oh! This isn't the note" he said teasingly.

Dammit! What if they find out who it's really from?! I stand up quickly and rush over to where Gino is.

He laughs heartily. "Your girlfriend has really pretty handwriting Suzaku."

I snatch it out of his hand before he can unfold the note and read anymore. "Don't touch my stuff Gino!" I yell angrily.

"Geez Suzaku relax a little. It's not like I'm going to try and steal your girlfriend away from you or something. That is…unless you don't like her anymore, I'll be glad to take her off your hands if that's the case" Gino says wiggling his eyebrows suggestively.

As if anyone could really give Lulu away. He's always done as he fucking pleased, and look just how well that's worked out for him.

I glare furiously at him, and blush slightly at his implications. 'As if Lelouch would ever settle for anyone like me' I think coldly. He probably thinks himself to be better than the world. My silence must've caused some serious tension because Anya spoke up.

"Calm down guys. Gino! Leave Suzaku alone, if he wants to keep his love letters to himself then just let him do what he wants" she scolded him. He frowned a bit and apologized.

I rubbed my temples and sighed. "Why don't you guys wait outside? I'll be out in a sec."

"Sure Suzaku, just don't keep us waiting like last time or we'll come back and drag you there ourselves" Gino stated playfully, although I knew he was fully capable of doing such a thing.

They both walked out of the room, and once I made sure the door was closed I fumbled in my pocket for my desk keys. I unlocked the top drawer and stuffed Lelouch's letter in there. I couldn't afford anyone finding it. I'll read it later. If Lulu keeps insisting on sending notes I'll have to see what he wants.

Once I made sure the drawer was sealed shut, I walked out of my room to join Gino and Anya.

The meeting wasn't as urgent as they tried to make it seem. The black knights were still around trying to ruin Britannia's plans. They're not much of a threat now a days. They're nothing without Lelouch. Li Xingke, leader of the coup d'état in china, and Ohgi are the new leaders of the black knights, but Xingke will probably succumb to his illness one of these days. He's the only one in the black knights who even comes close to matching Lulu's intelligence, so I have no doubt that once he's gone for good there will be absolutely nothing to stop us from crushing those terrorists once and for all.

I smile victoriously. It doesn't matter what they do, Britannia will eventually put a stop to all their plans. Once I become the Knight of One I'll make sure to free Area 11 the proper way. The black knights don't offer the best solutions, yet still people insist on rooting for them and defend Zero's name. I honestly don't understand.

"The black knights should quit while they still can" I heard Anya say from behind me. I turn around and see her debating something with Gino. I Slowed down and waited until my friends caught up with me to continue walking.

"They can't help it Anya. The black knights will fight tooth and nail to defend what they believe is justice. Honestly…I have to say, I admire their courage" Gino said contently. His silly smile made me angry. Why was he defending those terrorists?

"Those vigilantes should stay out of the way. All they're causing is grief and more war. If they just give in to Britannia, maybe not as many people will have to die" I say confident that my reasoning is flawless.

Gino looks at me in disbelief. "How could you deny them their right to defend themselves Suzaku? Yes, it's bad that people have to die, but it's better to die with dignity fighting for what you believe in. Dying like a coward or bowing down to your oppressors doesn't sound right to me." I gave him an annoyed look and he continued. "Look, don't get me wrong, I love my country, but sometimes I disagree with their methods. Remember Suzaku, not even laws are perfect."

"Well this is where we part ways, Suzaku" Anya said, effectively cutting me off. "Unless you want to come with us. Gino and I are going down to eat" she said evenly.

I sighed tiredly. "No, Anya don't worry about me. I think I'm going to take a nap."

"Oh, I get it! A "nap" huh? I bet your going to write to your girlfriend" Gino laughed lightly.

"Shut up, it's just a note from a friend" I yell.

"Mhmm, sure it is" he says sounding totally unconvinced.

"Whatever" I respond defeated. If he wants to believe that Lelouch is my girlfriend then I won't stop him. There's no reasoning with him anyway.

They leave and I head to my room. I should go take a nap. I think I'll head into town tomorrow. I don't have anything to do anyways, and I've been given two weeks off. The black knights are losing their steam. I smile cynically to myself. I knew it, they're going to be caught now. Soon all this fighting will be over, and those vigilantes will be paying for their crimes in jail.

A small hand grabs my arm and I turn around immediately. Nunnally was there, looking up at me innocently from her wheel chair. She's such a sweet little girl. I'm glad she's free from Lelouch. He would taint her for sure. I smile and bring my other arm around to gently embrace her.

"Suzaku!" she chirps sweetly. A beautiful smile lights her features and I ruffle her hair a little. She laughs and I kneel down beside her.

"Hey there Nunnally. How are you today?"

"I'm great! Please Suzaku" she glanced around for a bit before continuing, "I want to ask you something, and I want you to be completely honest with me."

"Umm, I guess so…What do you want to know Nunnally?" I ask dreading her next words. How can I deny her a simple question?

Her smile grows and she clasps her hands in front of her happily. Her eyes and posture change to show relief at my response. I still wasn't use to seeing her eyes. She recently learned to see again. It was strange since she had been blinded for so long…I'm glad she's regained her vision though.

"Thank you, Suzaku. I know you know where Lelouch is" she whispers. Her blue eyes shining with hope.

I gasp. How could she possibly know that? I stutter a bit, trying to come up with something to say.

She holds up a hand, signaling me to stop. "I know because my big brother loves you too much Suzaku" she looks away and laughs lightly. "He can't lie to me…I know him too well. You're his best friend Suzaku, no matter how cruel he seems, I know you still hold some importance to him. Besides, you just proved it yourself" she said smiling up at me again.

I started at her in disbelief. Nunnally…you're more perceptive than I thought. Without a doubt, you truly are Lelouch's sister.

"I wanted to ask…can you tell me where he is or…take me to him? I need to speak with him, Suzaku" she said sadly. "Please…ever since I was a little girl I knew I didn't need to see or walk, because my big brother was always there to protect me. He didn't care about himself, he always thought of me first. He even lied to me the first time we met with you…do you remember?" She had tears in her eyes.

"Of course I remember Nunnally…"

-------------------Flashback----------------------------------------------------------------------------

My father had just informed me that two Britannian brats were going to be staying with us for awhile. And I was furious. How could he allow them to stay with us?! I ran out to the storage room and started taking out my frustration on the junk there. I heard footsteps so I climbed the ladder and hid behind some boxes.

"Are we there yet brother?" I heard a young girl say.

"Uhh…yeah" said a distraught boy.

"What kind of a room is our new home like?" said the little girl innocently.

"It's a really nice place," lied the boy. "It's got walls as white as snow, and it has flowers on the windowsill."

"It sounds a lot like Euphie's room."

"Yeah, it's a little small, but it's just for you and me Nunnally, so…" he paused for a bit. "Who's there?" he yelled. He took a step forward and yelled again. "You there, show yourself! Who the hell are you?"

I stepped forward, "This was my place to begin with," I said angrily. I can't believe that boy would dare to speak to me in such a way. Didn't he understand that he was in my house now?!

"Your place?" the boy said confused.

"You damned impudent Britannians. Do you think you can make Japan into one of your colonies?" I said condescendingly. Damn those Britannians. They're all scum, every last one of them!

"Japan has a share of colonies as well. Though your method of control is economic rather than military" he finished coldly.

"What?" How dare this kid try to make us look like them. We'll never be anything like them.

"Japan and Britannia really aren't that different."

"You're lying!" I said vehemently.

"I am not! Just ask your father."

"You're a liar, there are no white walls here" the young girl gasped "and there's no windowsills filled with flowers either!" I cried.

"Shut up!" he yelled.

Before I knew it I was charging at the boy in a blind rage, but then…I kicked him and he fell down. I was kneeling at his feet before I could even catch my breath

*punch* "How do you like that *punch* you damned *punch* Brit." *punch* Don't *punch* mess *punch* with *punch* Japan! *punch*

"Stop it! Ugh…" he cried out in pain. I punched him again. "You barbarian!"

"Stop it please! I don't know who you are" she panted "I'll do anything I can to help you!" the little girl yelled out terrified.

"You-you aren't blind are you?" I looked at her now, she had tears in her eyes and she shook a little.

"Yes, so please…calm down. I can do nothing to hurt you. I can't fight, or run…so please.."

"Then…" I looked around sheepishly. "Sorry!" I yelled and dashed out of the room.

Dammit, why did I scare her? If her brother hadn't provoked me, no, it's not his fault. I started the fight, and I knew full well he was weaker than me. Britannian or not, I should know better.

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"He lied to make me feel better. Even when the situation was grim, he didn't hesitate to put aside his grief to cheer me up." She was holding on to my hand tightly. "Please Suzaku," she said sadly "now he needs my help. I have to be there for him, just like he was always there for me. Even if, if he's changed for the worse…I have to try. I at least owe him that…if he doesn't want me around though…I guess…I'll have to leave him…"

She sounded so lost. "Don't worry Nunnally. I'll go see him, and I'll tell him how much you want to spend time with him." I smiled at her determined. I promise Nunnally, I'll make sure your request is granted, even if I have to beg…

"Thank you so much Suzaku," she sniffled and embraced me tightly. I hugged her back gently, and pushed her chair back into her room. I knew she was tired, so I picked her up and laid her down in her bed. She smiled and fell asleep almost instantly. Poor Nunnally, this has been bothering you for awhile huh? I let myself out quietly and head back to my room.

I enter my room and can't resist laying down myself. It's been a long day and I missed some sleep last night, a little nap won't hurt. I yawned and made myself comfortable.

I stretched and rubbed the sleep out of my eyes. Hmm, I wonder what time it is. I glanced around and saw it was starting to get dark out. It was raining outside too. I got up and glared in the mirror. I left my uniform on when I slept, now it was wrinkled. I guess I could just change into another one, but it was still annoying. I looked down at my vanity and stared at the framed picture I had of me and Euphemia. I had just been knighted and we were celebrating. I caressed the frame lightly. Euphie, I miss you so much. I sigh and look down at my hands. I can't avenge you, Lulu means too much to me. If he died it would have to be someone else that killed him. You wouldn't even want me to kill him though would you? You're too nice.

I smile and walk over to my desk. I take the key out of my pocket and open the drawer. I pull out Lelouch's letter and a small picture I keep buried at the very bottom of the drawer. It's one of me and Lelouch back when we still lived in the Kururugi Estate. We were smiling up at the camera and Lelouch was holding some Sunflowers. He was going to surprise Nunnally with them.

"I can't hate you, Lulu," I say tiredly. I guess I just wanted someone to pin the blame on. I've been responsible for so many things…I really hope you haven't turned into a demon, because even then…I don't think I can bring myself to kill you. At least, not without hating myself for the rest of my life.

I carefully put the picture back inside my drawer. This is all I've allowed myself to keep of you Lelouch. I hope you don't make me regret it later. I closed the drawer again and locket it. I open his letter and start reading it.

Dear Suzaku,

I know you hate me, but still I want to know if you'll come see me. Please, I need to speak with you. This is a matter of urgency. I guess I shouldn't demand it, but I can't stand it anymore! As you know by now, I no longer lead the black knights. You're the only person, the only one that I trust enough to get in touch with. I know you can easily lead me into a trap and it's ok. I'll let them capture me if that's what you really want, but please, please allow me to speak with you first. I'll be waiting on the bridge a week from today. I'm sure you know which one by now…don't worry Suzaku. I promise I'll leave you alone forever after this, all you have to do is ask, and I'll disappear. If you don't show up, I understand. This is the last letter I'll be sending to you. If you don't wish to see me I guess this will make you happy…please come though…I'll wait until it the sun goes down.

Yours Truly,

Lelouch

Hmm, I wonder when he wrote this. I look around and see the date. Dread fills me instantly. This note was written a week ago! I'm suppose to meet him today. I look out and see that it's already dark out. Dammit! Why the hell did I take that nap?

His words unnerved me. Is he alright? He seemed a bit…depressed. I have to get some answers, and tell him about Nunnally. Without a second thought I shove the letter in my pocket and rush out the door. Luckily the bridge he wanted to meet on is only an hour away. I just hope he waits for me…I'm so sorry Lelouch…

I get out of the cab I hired to bring me here and pay him quickly. I rush out into the heavy storm and sigh in despair. There's no way in hell Lelouch would wait out here in a storm like this. I'm stupid, I didn't even bring an Umbrella. I run to the bridge as fast as I can.

I smile a bit. I wonder how he is, he might feel guilty for what he's done. He's willing to get captured…something's definitely up. I might have to be the one who apologizes though, I'm like two hours passed the time he said he'd stop waiting. God I hope he's here. I don't want him to disappear…

I near the bridge but something catches my attention. Near the spot Lelouch wanted to meet. I walk over there curiously. Why is there a crowd of people out here in this storm? I shiver and curse my luck. This cape isn't meant to keep me warm. I get close and hear some people talking. It's all jumbled, I only hear bits and pieces of different conversations.

"I can't believe it"

"What happened"

"I heard the wind pushed him off."

"Oh, poor thing!"

"I saw him jump!"

"Really?!"

"Someone pushed him off! I saw it."

I pushed past some people there and make my way towards the center. When I reached it I felt my heart drop. There in the center of everyone, lay Lelouch...motionless. I can't move, I feel petrified. My eyes widen and I stare horrified. Lelouch, he looks so, so…unnatural. His limbs shouldn't bend that way…

There's some people trying to help him, but he just lays there, lifeless like a doll. His face is twisted in pain, and then I see hope. I see him breathe! It's very weak but I see his chest rise and drop slowly! I quickly shove the people off of him and hold him tightly.

"Lelouch…" I whisper. I don't care that my knees are completely soaked in his blood, and that the rain and cold air are making me shiver. I move the hair from his face…he shouldn't be like this. He should never look this vulnerable! Guilt creeps into me, It's my fault…please don't let it be too late. Please god, don't let me be too late again. Euphie flashes into my mind. Her smiling face and the kind words she whispered as she lay there dying in front of me resurfaced.

No! You're not leaving me Lelouch, I won't allow it! I can hear ambulance sirens approaching, and I hold him closer. I caress his face. Lulu…you're not going to leave me right? We said we'd be there for each other no matter what remember? I sob loudly. I don't care who sees me.

The paramedics come out and tear him away from me. I stare helpless as they tie him to the stretcher. They let me go with them, because I know him. I watch as they fight to keep him alive. How could I allow this? It's all my fault…

Please, please don't leave me, Lelouch…

Author's Note: I apologize if there's any errors in this one. Hope you guys enjoyed, review if you have time please~

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