Author's Notes: Here you go, a nice early chapter this week :3 I'm going away for a few days so I'll post it now seeing as the day I usually upload stuff (Saturday) I'm away over.

I'd just like to warn you this chapter is a little trippy...besides that, enjoy! (The pieces of text that are centered are memories by the way...)

Disclaimer: I can tell you what I own: Violet, Keiko and this plot.

Chapter 11: Lost in the Past

The upside: No cage this time!

The downside: I'm practically not allowed to do anything!

I was suspended from training by Splinters once he found out, I can't go out at all, I have to rest as much as possible so not to stress the mutation more…the list goes on!

As they continue to work quickly on fixing this, I can't say I've felt alright. At first my nerves made me feel sick, but when I calmed down I realised I wasn't feeling so good as it was.

My temperature has been doing back flips; One minute I'm hot, the next I'm cold. At the moment, one hand is hot and the other cold…how confusing! I feel both temperatures fighting each other. On my face, my skin seems hot but the cold laces it giving the weirdest of sensations. It probably doesn't help my body seems to refuse to sweat at the moment.

I've heard Don and Cody talking quietly to one another, trying not to worry me. My family visit me now and then, unsure what to say or how to react.

"Hold still," Don whispers as he comes with a syringe that contains some clear looking liquid.

I look questioningly at it. "What is that stuff?"

"It will help ease the effects this is having on you," he explains.

I don't respond and let him inject me with the contents. I feel it go into me, travelling quickly round my body. I shiver slightly at the odd sensation, but it soon leaves.

I close my eyes and exhale slowly, "Anything?"

"Not much," he admits.

They continue working while I sit there, unsure what's going on. The lab seems to be…moving? Areas going from big to small and vice versa… I don't even notice when Mikey comes in because I'm so distracted by it all.

"Violet?" I shake my head and look at him, trying to snap myself out of it.

I immediately grin and hug into him, nuzzling him with my cheek, "I missed you so much!"

"Um…okay…" his tone is uneasy, "I thought it had only been ten minutes…"

"It seemed like forever!" I giggle happily.

Cody approaches slowly. "Sorry to interrupt, but we need to know if Violet did any strenuous exercise today?"

"Oh yeah, of course," I roll my eyes playfully, laughing as I speak. "Especially if you include-"

Mikey covers my mouth, "Uh…we went out for a run," he lies.

I move round his hand, "Was that before we-"

He cuts me off again, "Played Helix 2? Yes!"

I find three sets of eyes on me as I lay down on the table I'd been sitting on and roll onto my plastron. "Why don't you give me some more game then?"

"Is she high?" Mikey asks uncertainly as he moves his gaze to the other two.

I get up happily, bounding over to my smarter brother. "Or perhaps Donny needs some action?"

He blushes as I drape my arms over his shoulders, caressing his cheek with my hand. "It must be the drugs I gave her…" After receiving an odd look he adds, "Drugs as in medicine Mikey"

"You're boring!" I chortle and push away from him, "All of you are dull, I'm outta here" I dance towards the exit only to find myself crash into my oldest brother.

"Problem?" Leo asks as he helps me back up.

I continue to snicker, "Not any more!" I force him closer to myself, making him feel uncomfortable. "It's what Storm wants, right?"

"Storm?" he asks confusedly, but I don't let him say anything else, quickly kissing him and moving away happily.

Mikey's trying to keep himself cool at the moment, not annoyed at Leo though. "She doesn't mean it" he sighs, "She's not quite herself right now…"

I spin on the spot, "I'll prove it's me…cause…I can fly! Watch!"

I run for the window, still full of glee. Alarm fills the air quickly; I hear them all coming for me as I stand looking down at the city through the now open window.

"I believe it's you Violet…just come here" Leo's snapped out of the shock I just gave him and is now approaching me.

"You're lying!" I sing happily as I turn to face them again.

He curses under his breath because I can read his emotions to tell if he's telling the truth.

I catch Don desperately talking into his gauntlet to someone, but it's all boring to me.

Suddenly, a funny feeling hits me, making me dizzy…making me tired…I feel myself wobble on my feet, stumbling backwards, further towards the edge. My eyes roll back as I feel myself blacking out. And, with a shout from everyone, I fall backwards into the air, chuckling to myself as everything disappears and all I can feel is the rush of air on my skin.

"Violet!" A feminine voice shouts at me. "What did I tell you about letting the temperature do this to you?"

My eyes snap open; I still feel a sudden rush washing over me, but now it feels like water. I am sitting in the lotus position on a rock, under what I believe to be a waterfall.

"Sorry Master!" I quickly bow and sit back up straight.

My Master Keiko sits opposite in the dry, not wanting to get her fur wet. She looks calm though, "If you can't control this, how will you ever control your empathy?" she asks me.

I shiver due to the coldness of the water falling on me, "I'm trying!" I moan as I try to remain still.

"Trying isn't good enough, you have to try and succeed for it to be worth it, and you do that by not falling asleep on me". She gives me a stern look.

"Hai" I close my eyes again to control my breathing. After a little while, I open them again to stop myself from falling asleep once more. "Master?" I ask slowly, "I think I saw the future"

She raises an eyebrow, "It is entirely possible child, but sometimes it is best kept concealed from those it could affect"

"Why show one it could affect then?"

She closes her eyes as if about to meditate, then sighs. "Fate is a mischievous thing, it likes to cause havoc for those susceptible to it's endless possibilities…one should not make their decisions around what future is believed to be theirs, but on how they want to live"

I smile, "I understand"

I also close my eyes again and try to meditate under the drastic temperature I'm in, fighting the sleep as best I can.

I feel myself caught heavily out the air and held carefully in someone's strong arms. I sleepily look up at them, the lights around blinding me slightly, so I have to squint to try and make them out.

"Mikey?" I ask, feeling increasingly tired.

"Yeah right," I recognize the gruff voice…Raph.

I frown to myself, refusing to look at him, "Great save job Hothead! You almost dislocated my shoulder again!"

He doesn't sound too pleased by my accusations. "Me? Who threw herself out a window claiming she could fly?"

"So just drop me again! Anything would be better than having to listen to you!"

He sighs as I shut my eyes and turn my head away in protest. But soon I find him taking me back into the lab where the others wait anxiously.

"Babe!" Mikey runs over and tries to hug me.

I push him away roughly, "Stay away from me Bonehead!" He looks upset but says nothing.

"Great, now she's on a down" Don sighs.

"Of course, blame what you did to me Braniac, it's not like I could get like this myself, right?" I fold my arms angrily, throwing a glare at Donny.

He cowers under it, scared of how I've gone.

Leo walks over and grabs my shoulders, trying to lead me to where he wants to go. "Perhaps you should get some sleep imouto"

"Don't 'imouto' me Fearless! You aren't the boss of me!" I try to shrug him off but his grip remains firm.

"Come on," he forces me towards the exit; I continue to struggle even once out of the lab, as he guides me towards my room. But as we come into the living room, I burst into tears, shocking him immediately.

"What's wrong?" he asks desperately, trying to get me to look at him.

I continue to sob. "I'm just so worthless!" I wail out sorrowfully, letting myself fall to my knees in my grief. "I'm such a messed up bitch! Why do you all do so much for me when I'm so broken?"

"We've been through this," he sighs, "You're not broken, you're perfect just the way you are"

"You're too kind Leo" I shake my head, tears still escaping. "I'm not…I'm not worth it!" I curl up into a ball to try to create myself a safe haven from such emotions. "I bet no one would even miss me if I just disappeared!"

"Don't think like that," he strokes my head lightly, "I'm sure you'll feel better after you've rested" He picks me up in his arms and continues our journey.

"But I am so messed up…my mutation isn't even stable…" I whimper quietly as I hug into him, crying into his shoulder.

He soothes me, "I'm sure we'll be able to cure you soon"

I gaze up at him uncertainly, feeling his heart beat from where I am; it makes me feel safe. I choose not to say anything else; remorse still forcing it's way out of me. But I can't help but realize all the time I've known him, he's been strong for me and always true. He's so much more than a friend; he's my brother. He looks out for me when the others don't. He's always been there and he always will be.

Eventually he places me in my bed, giving me a smile.

I turn over so I'm not facing him, "Why do you always try to make me feel better?" I ask scornfully.

He doesn't answer; I merely feel his fingers touch my shoulder. I glance back at him sourly, but even in my moody state I can't stay like this towards my older brother.

"Look…I'm sorry," I huff quietly.

"It's fine," he moves towards the door, "Just get some sleep and I'll be happy"

I close my eyes with a sigh and feel myself going back under.

"Your final test" Keiko nods to me as we stand in a clearing in a jungle. I am confused but say nothing. "You will have to put everything you have learnt together to succeed in this challenge"

I fiddle with one of my pink mask tassels as I listen, thinking carefully about it as she explains.

"Just outside of this jungle is a port with a boat going back to New York," she gives a small grin, "It leaves in about ten minutes, but you have over half a mile to travel"

I roll my eyes, "In other words: run fast!"

She chuckles, "Yes, but there are obstacles throughout which you must overcome"

"Piece of cake" I smirk.

"Be careful, and don't be rash!"

She moves closer to me and hugs me tenderly. I hug her back, sadness overcoming me as I realise I won't be seeing her again.

"Goodbye, daughter"

"Bye mum" I grin at her, breaking the formality of the situation.

She smiles back, "Go then, and send my blessings to Splinters"

I bow to her; she bows back. Then, giving her one final glance, I bolt into the jungle, hiding the fact my eyes are watering slightly.

As I run, I find I have to leap over several pits and evade many booby traps Keiko probably set up. The other 'big' test was part of it passed by a village so she could test if I was in control of my emotions.

After all of it, I sit in the cargo hold of the boat, my chest rising and falling quickly thanks to my work out. But even now, I can't help but let a small smile come across my face.

"I'm coming Mikey…"

I open my eyes to find I'm facing the other side of the bed where Mikey would usually be, but it's empty right now.

As I sit up, dizziness as well as a terrible headache surface quickly. I still feel awfully tired and groggy, but I'll live. All I can say is that's the last time I let Don give me that stuff!

After getting out of bed and making it, I head to the bathroom and wash up. I look at myself in the mirror, slowly taking in my appearance. My skin tone is about four times lighter than it normally is, and my muscles seem to be getting smaller in my arms and legs.

With a yawn, I walk out and head for the kitchen to get some coffee. As I go past the lab, I hear everyone in there talking. I stop outside so I can listen in on what's going on.

"…I guess she was just sensitive to the medicine" Don explains.

"How is it going besides that?" Leo asks.

Don feels nervous about his answer; I don't even have to hear the rest of the conversation to know how it's going.

I sigh and continue slowly and get the hot brew I would like. I lean against the wall, sipping at it when I hear someone approaching.

I look round as the footsteps come closer, keeping as close to the shadows as I can. A security guard is checking the cargo again, possibly worried about stowaways.

As he comes nearer and threatens to catch my presence with the flashlight, I jump near silently out the way to the opposite side of him.

"Hello?" he asks nervously.

I stay silent and he eventually leaves. I still have a long journey ahead of me, I must be careful…

I shake my head violently, getting such memories out of my head. Damn drug!

I place the cup down and head towards the entrance to the kitchen, stopping abruptly as I find myself facing Donny.

"Hey," I mutter as I try to get around him.

He stops me. "I'm sorry, I didn't realise the drug would react with you like that"

"It's okay," I murmur.

"How are you feeling?" he asks me slowly.

I resist rolling my eyes for once, "Retro"

"Huh?"

I explain what's been happening since my…episode. He frowns in thought but says nothing.

I turn my gaze up for a moment as dust falls from the ceiling, more precisely, an air vent…

"Leo?" I gasp as my brother picks me up from my sanctuary.

I must look a right state; all dirty and bruised after Karai attacked us at our home. We were forced to split up; Raph took the Battle Shell, Don and Splinter escaped in the Shell Sub, and Mikey in the Turtle Tunneler.

Me? My route wasn't nearly as dignified! I had to use the air vents again, which is neither fast nor quiet in our lair. I had to climb up the one in the bathroom after barricading the door as best I could. I then had to then follow it round to where Don kept the Shell Sleds and get on one so I could speed down the sewers.

A large portion of the Foot Ninjas followed me and as I got to the end of the tunnel, they fired some sort of missile at me. Just before it hit, I forced myself into the water and swam as far down into the muck as I could, trying to hold my breath by staying calm.

After a while, they left, reporting I was dead like my brothers. I didn't want to believe it, but I had no way of telling. In my sorrow, I forced myself to hide in a small crevice further into the uninhabited area of the sewers.

It was then when my brother appeared.

"But…how?" I ask slowly as he helps me stand.

He smirks, "You weren't so stealthy after they left, I found your trail easily"

"The others…"

"Are safe!" I look up at him suddenly, he's telling the truth. We start walking slowly together. "How was your journey?" he asks.

"Can't complain, you?"

He smiles, "Same here"

I feel myself shaken slightly, "Violet?"

"Huh? What?" I close my eyes tightly to try to get my bearings.

"You just kind of zoned out, are you alright?"

I re-open them to find Don quite close to me. "See what I mean? Another flashback! As soon as anything related happens, I get lost in my past!"

"I'm sure it will stop when the drug is fully out of your system," he adds desperately.

I exhale slowly, "I hope so Don"

I catch his gaze…

"He looks so sad" I place my hand against the containment unit Leatherhead put Don in.

Some virus that Bishop released into the world mutated him…and for me. I lower my gaze as I think about it. As we fought that mutated construction worker, its stinger went for me, but Don got me out the way only for it to catch him.

I continue to try making a link with him through my empathy. "Rage…sadness…but no Don" I tell the others as I close my eyes. "All he has is negative emotions"

"Don't worry, we'll cure him" Leo promises me as he places a hand on my shoulder.

Wow! A promise kept…does that mean I'll be cured? We only cured Don because of…

…Bishop…Wait! That's it!

I shake myself out of this new daze. "Don! I think I have an answer to our problems!" He looks confused, "Bishop! He knew so much about me back in our time, I'm sure he saw this coming, so if he's here in the future…"

"…He can tell us what he knows! Brilliant! But how did you come up with that?"

"Lets just say you triggered a useful memory Don"