"So, you think you're big tough men?" Rose says to Tommy and the other guys around our table, I think she's a bit tipsy from the alcohol! Her and Jack have just come back from dancing. She took one blow of her cigarette and then asked Jack to hold up the bottom of her dress a bit, what's she gonna do? I smile as I watch Rose, with Jack looking confused, his expression makes me almost laugh. She begins to go up on her feet, like ballet dancers do, and- wait, no way, she can't really do-wow! She's standing on her toes! Only ballet dancers do that when they have special shoes on, and the wooden blocks stop their feet from hurting, how is she doing that!! Tommy and everyone else is staring at her open mouthed, Jack looks completely amazed, she is amazing! I wish I could do that, she's gotta have special powers to so that.
I gasp slightly as she stumbles over after not been able to stay on her toes any longer; it looked like it really hurt! Luckily Jack catches her in his arms, they're both laughing now.
"You alright?" Jack asks her, Rose is still laughing.
"I haven't done that in years!" She manages to reply in between breathes. She still stays in Jacks arms, laughing and looking at him, he's smiling down at her, it's like they've forgotten that other people are here, and it's just them in the room. Just then I shiver, god it's cold! It wasn't a minute ago, ah; someone must have just come in and left the door open. If they've forgotten to close it, I'll go and shut it for them, Jack and Rose are still laughing and smiling and staring. I turn around and look to the stairway. No one's there... just then I see a pair of black trousers come down the stairs, and then I see someone properly.
You know when someone just by entering a room can make you shiver, have that sick feeling? Well, this guy did exactly that. He had a suit on, with sandy coloured hair, and a fierce expression, he looked around the room, and then fixed his dark eyes on something. I turned to see what it was-it was Rose, he was looking at Rose and Jack. Why-Oh god. I turned back round to him, he must know Rose, she's not supposed to be here! He must have come to take her back! Suddenly he sees me looking at him, and he fixes his eyes in a deadly stare before I can look away. If looks could kill, I'd be on the floor. I feel sick, my palms are sweating, oh god, what's gonna happen. After about ten seconds of death staring he turns away, takes one look at Rose, as if in disgust, and goes back up the stairs, staring at her until he reaches the top.
I let out a sigh of relief; suddenly the room seems brighter to me, now the dark clouds moved away. I turn to Jack and Rose, what should I do, should I tell her? If I did, then maybe she can go back now, and her mommy won't be so angry...no, it's not gonna work like that, her mom seems mean. At least they know she's safe here. No, she might as well have a good time now, maybe by morning her family won't be so mad at her, people say that things always seem better in the morning. ..
The rooms spinning again, I've been dancing with Rose and Jack for ages now and now I've stopped the rooms sliding around again. I can hear Rose laughing and Jack holding onto my arm so I don't tip over, he's laughing too. Eventually the rooms back to normal. The clock says its 11 now, way past the time I go to bed normally! I feel sleepy now, I wish I didn't, I wish I could dance all night! My eyes start dropping, even though I beg them to stay open.
"Looks like someone's tired now." Tommy says. Whoa! I'm not on the ground anymore, I got sweeped up into the air and I'm in someone's arms, I think its Jacks.
"We can take her back now while you and Tommy stay here, I've gotta take Rose back anyway." Jack says to my daddy.
"If you don't mind, she's tired off her feet bless her, here." My eyes are closed, so I can only hear the music and what people are saying. Daddy hands something to Jack, it jingles, oh, it must be our room key. Just then I feel a soft hand brush my cheek and smooth my hair.
"Oh Cora, you're so tired." Rose whispers as she plays with my hair.
"Thanks, I'll take care of her, see you later, keep havin a good night." Jack say's to Tommy and daddy, I know that he's walking with me then, but soon the music fades out and I drift off...
"Come Josephine in my flying machine going up, she goes, up she goes." I hear Jack and Rose sing, we must be out on deck. I can feel the night breeze on my face and hear the sea waves breaking. My eyes are still closed; I drift in and out of sleep...
"You know, there's been a mistake, you got mailed to the wrong address." Jack jokes with Rose when I wake up again; we're still on the deck. Rose laughs at Jack's comment, it takes me a while to get what he meant, cos I've just woke up again. If I wasn't sleepy I would have laughed, like rose is doing now. It's true, she did get mailed to the wrong address, she should have been born into third class, where she could dance and drink and be herself and people would love her for it, instead of having to act all ladylike, with so many rules.
"I did didn't I." Rose replies.
"Look a shooting star!" Rose exclaims. I've seen a shooting star before, when I was ill once, I couldn't sleep, mommy stayed p with me and we saw a shooting star from the window. She told me to wish, I wished I'd get better. The next day I was outside playing again, feeling fine, I think the star helped me.
"You know my pops used to say, that every time you saw one, it was a soul going to heaven." Jack told Rose. I'm glad now that they think I'm asleep, and that I have my eyes closed, so they can't see the tears that are close to spilling over my eyes. That's one of the most moving things I ever heard.
"I like that... are we supposed to wish on it?" Rose asks.
"What'd you wish for?" There's care in Jacks voice, I smile to myself. Rose doesn't reply straight away, for a moment I wonder if I've gone back to sleep. Then finally...
"Something I can't have..." She says in just over a whisper. More tears come to my eyes at that, and I can't stop a few from spilling silently onto my cheeks.
"Goodnight Jack..." I can hear her heels click as she walks away, and then a door open and close. I feel so sad, Jack must be heartbroken! I hope he's okay. He doesn't move for a few seconds, just stands there with me in his arms.
"C'mon Cora, let's go." He whispers and carries me back down the deck and into our entrance, why can't she be with him! She should just tell her mommy that she doesn't want to marry her fiancée and then she can be with Jack, and...then maybe she can...marry him. This might sound strange but I'm a lil bit sad, cos I wanted to marry Jack when I'm older... but he's still my best friend, cos I'm his best girl, but he loves Rose, and she loves him, that's what I realized, there's no doubt, and I like Rose, she's my friend too, so I don't mind. I don't understand! God, why are grown-ups so complicated! She can be with him, she can! He loves her and she loves him, so what's the problem? Money shouldn't matter.
Jack opens the door and then carries me into our room. He puts me on my bed and then takes off my shoes, puts them on the floor and covers the blanket over me. I want to say something to him before he goes. I open my eyes, the bright light hits them but eventually they adjust. I see jack tucking a corner of the blanket in, he looks so broken hearted! I hate seeing him like this, if only I could make it better, I wish I could, no, I wish Rose would run in here right now and hug Jack and tell him that she doesn't care if her mom likes it or not, she's gonna be with him. I shut my eyes quickly ad wish for that to happen, I wish and pray. I open my eyes again, no; it's not worked this time. Jack still looks unhappy as he folds the blanket over.
"Jack..." I say in a tired voice.
"Hmm, Cora?" He looks at me as if he feels guilty for been miserable around me, and still sad about Rose.
"Why did Rose say something I can't have, why can't she be with you?" Jack looked surprised, a bit taken aback by the fact that I'd been awake, and also that I'd figured out the meaning behind her sentence.
"I don't know Cora, just how things are." He whispered the last part, he's tearing up inside I can tell. If only I could make it better.
"Night Cora, sweet dreams." He kissed the top of my hair and turned out the light, he paused at the door, smiling what he could manage, and then went. The room turning a midnight blue colour now.
Tonight had started out so happy, why did it have to end like this? This world doesn't make sense any more, I used to think that love is all that matters, well, it does in third class, I didn't realize that the upper class has all these rules that you have to follow, who you can be friends with, who you can marry. Why does it matter, we're all people, a whole world, and somehow we've got split up into sections. I wish it wasn't like this; there's gotta be a better way, a way that makes more sense!
All my thinking and stress is making me more tired. Maybe, maybe Jack and Rose can find a way, can be together. She loves him, so surely she's bound to come round, he'll make her see that she doesn't have to marry someone she doesn't want to., that, that she can be with him. They both love each other... and for them, that could be all they need. And if her mom doesn't like Jack, they can run away! Stay with me and daddy and mommy. My eyes are getting heavier, I know I'm gonna drift off soon, so I'll say this quickly.
Dear God,
Please, please, please let Jack and Rose be together, make her see that she can be with Jack. Please, they need to be together, please find a way for them.
Amen.
I hope it works, I hope god can hear me, and will find a way for them to be together, to help them both. They will be together now, they have to be. Slowly the room becomes darker, and I drift off to sleep...