"And then she just went?" I asked Jack the following morning.
"Yeah, she just went." Jack replied sadly. We were walking out on deck now, when me and daddy had finished breakfast and were walking back to our room we saw Jack coming down the corridor, he wasn't at breakfast so I wondered where he'd been. He talked to me and daddy and now daddy's in the seating area with Tommy while me and Jack are out here on deck, because he promised to tell me everything that had happened so far. He told me about Rose, I was right, she really doesn't wanna get married to him, cal or whatever his stupid name is. He told me other stuff about her, the things she said, like how if she could, she'd be an actress. He hadn't told me about the first class diner yet, cos we were busy talking about rose now, but we'd get to that part later.
"I don't understand! Why can't she just be with you." I moaned as we walked, jack managed a weak smile at me.
"I dunno, way of the world I guess, things are different where she's from, most of them lot judge a person on how much they've got in their pocket." I sighed, it was true, most of them were all money obsessed.
"She obviously likes you." I said matter of factly.
"Oh yeah, how can you be so sure?" Jack laughed and smiled at me. I was right, she did like him, so I was a tiny bit annoyed that he didn't believe me, but at least I cheered him up.
"Because, you're handsome and smart and you can draw and you're kind..." He laughed as I drew up this big list of reasons which were all very true. " And she said so."
Jack looked a lil confused "When did she say that?"
"Y'know, when she said "something I can't have." She wants you!" I said the last part with emphasis, which made Jack laugh.
"You pick up on lotta things for your age." It was my turn to smile.
"Mom says I'm mature for my age." He laughed again at that. It was nice to hear Jack laugh, he'd been so upset ever since last night, and I was glad that I was the person cheering him up. He only smiled when he saw me and daddy in the corridor, before he saw us he looked really depressed, and annoyed about something, which reminded me....
" Oh yeah, where were you this morning, you weren't at breakfast, and why were you walking down the corridor, we already passed your room on the way, where were you coming from?" I suddenly realized I asked a lot of questions at once, when that dawned on me I got a bit embarrassed, which Jack could probably tell because he laughed again.
"I ask a lot of questions don't I?" I said.
"No no, questions are good." He smiled down at me. "Alright I'll tell you why.....
"And then he kicked me out, with two doormen grabbing each of my arms until the third class entrance." Jack finished telling me what had happened. I was shocked, they'd treated him so un-fairly, he only wanted to talk to Rose and he got kicked out for it! I don't believe that the doorman wouldn't recognize Jack from the night before, he wouldn't look completely different in a tux to normal clothes. And then the scary sandy haired body guard of cal-Jack told me, had tried to pay him off so he wouldn't see rose anymore! Doesn't he get it, Jack's not interested in the money!
"I can't believe they kicked you out..." I really couldn't, I mean, all he wanted to do was talk to rose, just talk to her, I mean, that's hardly a crime.
"Neither can I, I knew that most of them would disapprove of me but I didn't think they'd go that far." Jack said with misery and a bit of bitterness, though I couldn't blame him.
"You should have just...punched that body guard and got rose and then ran with her all the way down to here so you could talk to her, and then she'd admit that she does love you, and then we'd hide her somewhere, in my room, or yours, and then she'd never have to go back there again and she could be with you forever!" I said in one big rush theatrically, Jack laughing. I was messing around of course, I knew now that it wasn't all that easy, but I still think that Jack should have punched that guy...
"Yeah, I really should have done that shouldn't I? Why is it always you Cora with all the good ideas?" Jack joked back
"I dunno, because I'm just amazing ." I joked, turning around twirling.
"You really are." He said smiling, I smiled at that too. "Yeah...I wish it was all that easy." Jack had stopped laughing now and was starting to look miserable again. No, he can't be upset, we'll find a way, they will end up together, they have to...
"So what was the dinner like, were they all in posh dresses and suits and saying things like "Oh pass me the caviar..." I put on a posh voice, which made Jack laugh and be happy again, well as much as he could be, sensing that I wanted to cheer him up.
"Pretty much, Roses' mom gave me a grilling, asking about where I lived and about down here in steerage, making me out to be some sort of lowlife."
"What did she say?"
Jack smiled remembering "Well at one point she said, "Tell us about the accommodation in steerage, I hear there quite good on this ship." She said it politely enough but there was an underline tone to it, I just replied, politely back though, I wasn't gonna be rude, after all she hadn't done anything to me, and well, she's roses' mom, I said "The best I've seen m'am, hardly any rats."
We both laughed after he told me that. He told me how everyone else apart from Cal and Roses' mother seemed to like him, they hadn't been rude to him like Roses' mom had-who name was Ruth jack said, anyway. He told me about how he told them what he lived for, how to make each day count.
"I don't know if anybody'l listen to that but it felt good to tell them, maybe it'll change the way they think about life, a little bit a least." Jack told me.
He told me about the dinner area, and the stair case. He said that the stair case is really big, with polished wooden banisters and beams, and the dinner area was huge, and everyone was dressed up. Lucky he did get given that tux then, otherwise I really don't think they'd let him in! Me and Jack joked and talked while leaning on the railing on the back of the ship. We joked for a while, both of us putting on posh voices pretending to be first class, until we were laughing so much that we had to stop. But after we'd finished joking, we talked more about Rose.
"You can tell me how you feel about her, I don't mind." It was true, I wanted him to tell me how he felt, okay, so I was a lil jealous at first, but I'm not anymore, I'm still his best friend, and he loves rose, why won't he talk to me about it?"
" Nah, it wouldn't be fair, unloading all that on you." He replied and stared back into the ocean, what does he even mean by that? Unloading what? I want to hear this!"
"You won't be "Unloading" anything, tell me! I'm a good listener, and that's what friends do, listen to each other's problems, please Jack?...." He laughed a bit when I'd finished
"You're not gonna give up are you?"
I shook my head, he laughed and smiled at that. He turned back to the ocean, I did the same, leaning on the railing sting down, like he was, and he began to talk.
"I never expected it, to fall for someone now, especially someone like her." He meant of high class I think. I closed my eyes while he told me, feeling the breeze and sunlight shine on my face .
"I was happy travelling around with Fabrizio, selling my art, or just drawing for fun, but now...I can't really imagine how I was happy before compared to the way I feel when I'm with her. " I opened my eyes then and turned to look at Jack, he was still staring at the water, as if he wasn't looking at the blue ocean, but looking at her instead.
"I've never felt that way about anyone before, she completes me, it's like, there was a piece of me missing and I never even realized until she found it, like when you get a paper cut and it only hurts when you realize you've got it. She's so unique and spirited, she deserves to be free to do what she likes and not be controlled like the way she's been. She's got fire, and them lot are gonna slowly burn it out if I don't stop them somehow. And when she's upset, like she was about cal, all I wanted to do was wrap my arms around her and tell her it'll be okay, I'll make it okay and take her somewhere safe. I know I've only known her a few days but this is real, I love her so much, I know I do. I wanna do that now and just tell her I love her cos...I do, I love her."
By the time he'd finished I had a lump in my throat, and I was trying to stop the tears in my eyes from welling over. I knew he loved her, but I had no idea it was that much! God, he'd die for rose if he had to, I was sure of it. He looked up at me, and from his expression, I wasn't doing a good job of hiding my tears.
"Aw Cora, I'm sorry." He said pulling me into a hug, I let a few tears escape and then wiped the rest away. Why was I crying? I guess I'd just never heard anything that moving before. Jack broke away and put both hands on my shoulders , looking me in the eye
"Hey, I'm the one that's meant to be upset, if you are too then who's gonna cheer me up hmm?" I giggled and jack smiled at making me laugh
"I'm not upset, their good tears." Jack laughed
"Well bad tears or good tears let's wipe them away, don't try and steel my limelight." I laughed and he gave me a clean handkerchief to dry my eyes on.
"Better now?" He asked
"Mmmhmm." I nodded, I was fine now, god, I must learn not to cry in front of people, it makes them worried.
"Good, come on now, let's go find Tommy and your dad." He held out his hand and I took it, and we began to walk across the deck, suddenly his walking slowed down. I looked up at him, he was looking at the railing that lead to first class. He looked like he was thinking hard about something. The railing was the same one I...I climbed over...was he gonna do that, was he gonna sneak in? A few seconds later he turned to me.
"Cora, you go back and find your dad and Tommy and Fabrizio, I just need to do something okay?" I nodded and said okay and then watched what he was going to do next. Was he gonna climb over? I really hope he does, then he can find Rose and tell her that he loves her! Jack looked over his shoulder once, nobody was looking, and they wouldn't care if he did sneak in anyway. Yes! He's sneaking in! He climbed onto the whit rails, pausing to see if any guards were patrolling in first class, that's the last thing he needed, to get caught by them. Daddy doesn't mind if I'm not back till six today... and I did say I'd see Ella again....
Quickly, in my spy mission mode, I climb up and over the railing, on the right side instead of the left this time, so I'd have to walk to the left to get to the swings. When I swung myself over I smiled to myself, mission completed. Out the corner of my eye I could see Jack, I turned to him, he looked confused.
"What are you doing up here?"
"You're going to find Rose, so I'm going to find my friend, Ella, the girl who I was with yesterday up here." Then Jack remembered, he smiled at me, that I figured out why he's here.
"Alright, I'll see you later." He said, I hugged him before he went, then I watched him leave. He picked up a man's coat and hat when he wasn't looking, so that he would look first class, and wouldn't be discovered. I giggled at that. It wasn't stealing, I knew he'd give it back when he was done. I sighed as he turned the corner and left, I really hoped he'd find Rose, they both needed him to tell her how he felt. I really hope she tells him that she loves him too, just as much as he loves her. I know she does, from the way she looked at him in the bar last night, and everything else that's happened, I just hope that she admits it, and isn't scared of what her mom will say or think. They are perfect for each other, there exactly what the other was looking for, and now they've found each other, they can't part, they deserve to be together. I pray that everything works out, that this time tomorrow, they'll be together for definite. I look out at the sea and clear blue sky as I pray for this, that they'll be happy, and be with each other. I sigh, there's nothing more I can do now, I just hope everything works out, and it will, it has to, they will be together. I smile as I think this and then walk to the swings to find Ella....
