I took in a breath and gasped in the cold air as I saw the velvet black midnight sky. It's so cold and sharp up here, like everything's come more into focus. I look up and down the deck, people are calling to each other, crying, shouting, rushing in all directions, to get to the boats, god I hope there are some left, there must be some boats left, they would have made sure there were enough... i hope they did. Rose still has my hand, i can feel her tight grip, I'm really scared, but knowing that she's got my hand makes me feel a bit safer. I don't look up at anyone I'm with, not even Jack; I'm too occupied with the sky. The thousands of stars in the sky look so gold and silver, they're even more beautiful tonight than I've ever seen them. I'm in my own world again, i know what's happening around me, but just for a second it's great to forget everything, and get hypnotized by the stars....

Suddenly i get snapped out of my thoughts and feel been pulled along by Roses' hand, I'm defiantly back in the real world now; the shouting from the other side of the boat seems even louder now. I run with everyone else and stop when we get to the railing, Jack get's there first and looks towards the other half of the ship, me and rose are there now too, what are we looking for? Is it...

"The boats are gone." Rose shouts, no, what?! The boats, no, the boats can't be all gone! They just can't be, didn't they make enough? Were we too late? I feel hot and cold and the same time, everything's slowing down in my mind. Oh god please let there be boats left, please let them, there has to be some left...

I get pulled along again, further up the first class part of the ship we're at, i can't think straight, I've got so many thoughts going off at once, and none of them make any sense, the boats, there has to be some left,

DADDY!!! What about him?! Is he here now? If he doesn't get here soon then they're might not be any left.!! Oh god please let him okay, he has to get to a boat soon, he has to be okay, he has to get through this...

"Cornel , are there any boats here?" Rose asks the man in front of us that she's just run to, he's wearing a suit and top hat, she must know him from first class...

"No miss but there are a couple of boats all the way forward, this way I'll lead you." He replies, but before he gets a chance to we're running to the other side, there are boats left! Yes, , we can all get on a boat! Happiness surges through me, as long as we run fast to get there, we can make it, we can they must have let them out now, either that or they escaped like we did. Me, Rose, Jack, Tommy, fabrizio, Helga, daddy, all of us can get rescued! Finally things get better, i guess someone is looking out for us all....

We must have been running for am minuet now, it's tiring having to run so fast, but i won't stop, no way, we have to get to the boats. I just realize now that there's music playing, and as we run we get closer to the musicians, i see them now, all playing, trying to keep everyone calm probably. That's go brave and generous of them, they're not even trying to get on a boat, and they don't even look scared, they're just playing, trying to keep people calm.

"Music to drown by, now I know I'm in first class." Tommy joked behind me, i hadn't heard his voice for a while, it was good to hear it. He was running behind us with Fabrizio and Helga, with me rose and jack at the front. I hope Helga isn't scared anymore, or at least that she's not as frightened as she was, she looked so terrified when they knocked down the gate, i hope she's okay now.

A few seconds later we get to the boats, and a huge crowd of people huddled around them. I can't see much, and the crowds so big that if i weren't holding onto Roses' hand, i feel I'd get hurt in here. I can hear officers shouting, people crying, but, why are they crying, it's okay, the boats are here, we can get on one...

"Cora, come here." Jack's arms reach out and pick me up so i can get through the crowd easier. I cling to him tightly as we somehow made our way through the crowd, i always feel safe with Jack, it's good to feel the warmth of his body when it's freezing out here...

A few seconds later we find a space, Tommy, Fabrizio and Helga follow behind us. Some people step aside to let us in. When there's a space that we can move in Jack put's me down, but he holds my hand with one arm. I look up at him, he's got rose in front of him, he's holding onto her, making sure she doesn't get pushed by the crowd. Fabizio's holding onto Helga in the same way, she still looks frightened but not as scared as before.

I turn back to the lifeboats, people are crying, shouting, everyone looks so scared. People are hugging, couples saying they don't want to leave. Why are they saying that? We're going on the boats, everyone is, everyone who's here, why-

"For the time being i shall be requiring women and children only, Gentlemen please..." I didn't even hear what the officer had gone on to stay, only women and children, why? Why couldn't everyone get on? Wasn't there-there's not enough room. It dawned on me just then, and that horrible sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, and feeling hot and cold, the world speeding up and slowing down at the same time happened all over again. Oh god, that means Jack! And Fabrizio and Tommy, and daddy! No, there has to be another way, they have to let them on! They have to be rescued, they have to be safe, otherwise, i don't know! But they have to be safe, to get off of here, they have to live! Oh god, this is not happening, why did this have to happen, no...

I turn to Jack and rose, her face has gone completely pale. I can see her breathing's quickened, just as mine has. Jack doesn't look scared much, but i think deep down he is, he just won't let it show, for roses' sake. I turn to Fabrizio and Helga, Fabrizio explaining to her that the boats just for women and children, she looks panicked now. He's trying to reassure her that he will be okay, he'll get on a boat later. After a moment or two she nods tearfully.

"You better check the other side, go." Jack say's to Tommy and Fabrizio, i think he means to check if they're boats that they can get on. Fabrizio turns to Helga, they really don't want to leave each other, they share a long kiss and then Fabrizio and Tommy run to the other side, Tommy nods at me before he leaves. I hope I'll see them again soon...

"I'm not going without you." Rose suddenly turns to Jack, she looks so scared, it's tearing her apart that she might have to leave him.

"No you have you have to go, now." Jack replies, he really wants her to get on the boat, i know he wants to make sure that she's safe, when we were sat beside the rail in third class and he was telling me about her i could tell that he loves her so much, he'll do anything to keep her safe.

"No Jack."

"Get on the boat Rose."

"No jack." Rose shakes her head in protest, she defiantly won't go without i fight, i won't leave either without them both, i care about them both so much and i can't just leave without-

"Yes get on the boat Rose!" I jump startled at the harsh male voice, all three of us turn to look at him. He's tall with black hair and dark cold eyes, the kind that make you shudder. He's wearing a suit and a stern expression on his face. Who's he? How does he know-is he...yes, he must be, her fiancé! Well, ex-fiancé now. No wonder Rose didn't like him, he looks so cold inside, not nice at all. I look up at Rose, she looks shocked and scared at seeing him. He must have been really horrible to her.

"My god, y-you look a fright, here." He-i think his name was Cal, says to rose and throws the blanket that Rose was wearing at Jack and gives his coat to her, placing it on her shoulders, she looks very uncomfortable when he does this, god, why doesn't he just go away, he must know that Rose doesn't want him, she loves Jack. He's clearly not got the message because after he's placed the coat on her shoulders he starts stroking her hair. She quickly turns away and Jack blocks him from her, pulling and protecting me too, i know he cares about us both.

"Go on, I'll get the next one." Jack tells rose looking deep into her eyes, trying to make her get on.

"No, not without you..."

"I'll be alright, listen I'll be fine, I'm a survivor alright, don't worry about me, now go on, get on with Cora." Jack says to rose, he really wants her-needs her to be safe, but it's obvious she won't leave unless he will be too. She's clinging to him, not wanting to be apart even for a second. While Jack is saying this i glance around, and find Cal glaring at me with them dark piercing eyes, as if this is all my fault. It's clear he thinks I'm worth nothing, with my third class cloths, and my slightly darker skin doesn't help. I just stare back, scared to even look away, i feel cold inside now. A few seconds later he

"I have an arrangement with an officer on the other side of the ship, me and Jack can get off safely, both of us." Cal interrupts. That's weird, i thought Cal didn't like Jack, after all he was rude to him at the dinner and he sent his servant to find Rose when she was with us in third class, that couldn't have made him happy, so why was he been nice?

"See, got my own boat to catch, go." Jack says to her, but he looks sad as he says it, why is he upset, he'll only be without her for a while.

"Go on hurry, there almost full." Cal say's light-heartedly to her-

Whoa! Suddenly I'm in the air, feeling arms around me that feel uncomfortable, before i even have time to think I'm back on wooden surface again, only this time I'm not with Rose and Jack, I'm looking at them. I'm on the lifeboat, i can feel it gentle swaying slightly with the movement. Suddenly another officer grabs roses' arm, and another takes Helga's arm-Helga! I feel so bad, i forgot she was here! We will look after her, me and rose, we'll make sure she's okay.

"Step aboard miss." The officer who takes roses' arm says to her and steers her towards the boat that me and Helga are now in. Other officers take her hands and help her into the boat, she turns round to Jack and reaches out for his hand, he grabs it but then the officer on the ship breaks them apart.

"AND, LOWER AWAY." The officer commands and the boat suddenly jilts into life and starts moving downwards towards the sea below. I should feel safe here, but i don't, not when i know that Jack and daddy and Fabrizio and Tommy are still on the ship-at least i know that Jack can get on a boat, and that means that Tommy and Fabrizio might too, and daddy, or they might already be on one-

I look up at the sky again, the stars are so bright, i really hope everything will be okay, that we will see them again, and we will, won't we? We have to...

I look to Rose, she looks as if she's going to burst into tears any moment. I feel scared too, i thought everything was going to be okay now, but it's not. I feel a grip on my hand, i know it's roses' grip on mine. I look up at her and she looks at me, we're both scared, and then we look up at jack again. Cal's saying something to Jack, and he says something back, but i can't make out what they're saying. Jack stars at Rose the whole time, he looks really, really upset, like he might cry too. But he's going to be okay, the boat, he can get on the boat that cal said he could, they'll only be apart for tonight, why are they.....

There's no boat. It hit me like a ton of bricks just then, crashing my mind. It makes sense now, it's suddenly clicked, he only said that so Rose would get on the boat, so he could have her back, and Jack-oh god jack, what's he going to do. I want to scream out but I'm too chocked up. I look at Rose, panicked and worried, she turns to me, and then realization hit's her too. She looks back up at him, more tears clouding over her emerald green eyes.

She can't be without him, i know she can't, and he can't be without her, they belong together, they always have, they were just waiting for the other one to find them. Their love is so strong, you can feel it between the two of them, and for them to be without it would be like to be without air. Neither of them can survive without each other, not properly, they need each other, they belong together.

Quickly Rose looks to Helga, i look to, she's un-aware of the scene happening now, she's talking in Norwegian to another woman with a two year old girl. She looks relaxed, almost happy. Seeing this rose turns to me.

"Cora promise me you'll stay here." Rose said quickly to me, holding both of my arms, what? Stay here? Where else can i go, it's a boat.

"Wha-" I start to say, confused, but then Rose interrupts me.

"Please just stay here." She says firmly, what does she mean, none of this makes any sense. Before i get a chance to ask her what she means she glances back up at Jack quickly, and then, wha-what is she-

"ROSE!!" I shout as she leans forward and jumps back onto the ship, people on the lifeboat gasp. Oh my god, she jumped back on! He means that much to her, that she's risking her life!

"ROSE, WHAT ARE YOU DOING!" I heard Jack shout from above.

"STOP HER!" Cal shouted. Officers ran to help pull her in and then she ran, ran so fast that i barely saw her go...

I have to jump, i don't care what she told me i have to jump to, i can't be without them both! I'm not really thinking, i don't even feel like I'm in my own body, suddenly I'm moving and then I'm in the air, then clinging for life onto the side of the ship, oh god, oh no, i can't fall! Please don't let me fall! I scream as my legs kick against the side of the ship, a second later i feel pairs of arms roughly pull me in, and then I'm running, tears streaming down my face, where are they!? I need to find them! Lots of people are here, on the deck, how am i meant to find them!?

I ran to the end and went into another corridor, but that went on for ages, no, there not her, breathing hard i ran back the other way, i ran and found a stair way, i ran and looked over the rail, they were there! In each other's arms. Rose was crying, said something to Jack and then he kissed her quickly and hugged her tight.

I flew down the stairs, racing to get to them,

"Cora!" Jack called to me with relief and picked me up and help me tightly in-between him and rose. I cried silently onto his shoulder, i wasn't sure what for, but this was really emotional, i felt drained.

"Why didn't you stay on the boat!? Jack made me face him and shook me once gently.

"I couldn't just leave without wither of you!" I protested. I looked to him and Rose, she smiled at me and placed her hand on my hair, Jack looked at me too, he understood and hugged me again.

"I'm just glad you're alright, both of you, don't worry, we'll think of something." He said to both of us, hugging me and rose.

"At least I'm with you both." Rose said gladly through the last of her tears.

"We'll think of something..." Jack repeated, and him and rose began to talk but i heard none of it, i completely froze, i could feel my blood beat in my head, my palms became sweaty. My blood ran cold, i wanted to scream but i couldn't move, my eyes were fixed on the Cal, above the stairs, pointing a gun.

And then it went off....