Chapter 5
Hey guys and most def welcome new readers! Just to let know i am sorry it has taken me so long to update, I'm hoping to get better! Once again i will tell you, grammar and all that isn't my thing, True! I am more of a visual person, i see it all in this noggin of mine. Soo anyways I hope you enjoy.
My body felt on fire at his touch, it instantly calmed me down, almost taming this beast, as if that was possible. Leave it to My Blaylock to calm me down after doing something really, really fuckin stupid. Hell i don't know why i attacked the cop. OK so maybe that is a lie, but the cop shouldn't have taunted me, but i guess right now i shouldn't be bothered with that thought, because i am looking into the most gorgeous eyes the Scribe Virgin ever open. Its moments like this when i look into that beautiful face, that i wish i could see just the shade of his eyes, to know the depth of them, i could swim in them all day. MY fucked up defect, to know what exactly the shade of his hair, the slight freckles on his elegant face. Is that even the right word for it, i can think of so many...well maybe when he isn't looking at me like that.
"Yeah I'm coming" I finally answer. I hear a collective sigh, and look around the room. FUCK MY LIFE, i forgot the entire brotherhood, Shellans, Fritz and the Blind King was here, starring at us. Maybe they are just waiting to see if i attack anyone again. How easy it is to forget them all when he is around, I turn my gaze back to BLaylock, did i just call him Blaylock again? Smiling at myself, i cock my eyebrow at him, "you going to get me outta here, before V sees the damage i did to his girlfriend or what?"
"Yo, Red, get Rainbow Not Too Fuckin Bright, outta here, before i take my glove off, True?" V laughed followed by small chuckles all around. Butch put his arm around V's shoulders, "I am YOUR girlfriend! You don't even bring me flowers anymore, and i cant even remember the last time you got me outta the house." V blushed then slugged the cop. "Maybe if you dress up for me every once in awhile, I would."
Well how about that, all the attention is on the original BRomance in the house and off of me. Thank you Scribe Virgin!
"Lets get out of here," BLay just whispered in my ear, his hot sweet breath caressing my neck, making me shiver, hell making everything that can 'pop' outta me, stand in attention. I inhale him, remembering his clean yet spicy scent, that is all him. HE is delicious.
My voice cracked because my throat just became really, really dry, breathing him in again, what the fuck can i say, i cant help it. "Yeah, lets," looking over his body, he is wearing nice fitted jeans, with a lighter shade wash, his button up seems to be around the same shade. He is completely heartbreakingly beautiful. Can men be beautiful? Looking at BLay again, and how he looks a bit uncomfortable, with my intense gaze on him, then his cheeks darken, the answer is yes, they most def can be. Smiling crookedly at him, i offer my left elbow, and wait for him to take it.
OK, OK, OK, Blaylock, calm your nerves. It is inappropriate to have an erection with everyone present, even if they are not paying the least bit attention to me. Royalty is feet away,for effin sakes, my mother would kick my ass! Back to the task at hand, Qhuinn. It will always come back to him wouldn't it. I tried to stay away from him, i really did. One of the toughest challenges i have ever put myself through. WE haven't been separated since, well since never after he walked into my life, and i couldn't let go. Thinking if i stayed away, things might get better, i might be able to control myself. Keeping myself away from Qhuinn, was a moot point. Now that he is calm and not about to do something stupid, i can finally take him in, well his black clad body. Ripping muscle under too tight of a tshirt, slightly spiky hair, not even a fight could push those spikes down, that mix-matched stare bore into me. I can not help but to start blushing, and thank the scribe Virgin i put on extra cologne, i can feel my bonding scent trickling out of my skin. Its been doing it since his transition, so i know just what to put on to neutralize it, well as much as one can. It's biology. WE are getting nowhere me just staring at his offered elbow so i take it, locking mine in his. WE fit so perfectly. The thought ran through my mind before i could stop it, and the pain in my chest is present all over again.
I escort him up the stairs to his room. A place i haven't ventured too since, goodness i am not sure how long. We both stand outside the door and he looks kind of uncomfortable. His free hand is now running up the back of his head, and he seems to be sweating as he fidgets.
"UMM Blay...yeah..umm, my room...umm"
The pain deepens as i realize what he is saying, he doesn't even want me here, Great Job BLaylock. Letting go of his elbow, i take a step back. "It is fine Qhuinn, i would not trespass on you anymore." Turning from him i close my eyes and start striding off, pushing back the tears, goodness i am not this weak. I feel a strong hand on my right bicep that pivots me around into a set of strong arm. MY reaction is to take a step back, bracing myself, before i look up at him. His gaze is just as intense as they were downstairs, it takes my breath away and allow myself this moment to feel as if he WOULD want me. Knowing the pain will hurt 10 folds i just allow this.
"BLaylock," i close my eyes at him saying my name, savoring it. HE continues to stammer on "i wasn't umm meaning...i mean you don't have too, I, well, i cant seem to do anything right."
Opening my eyes i see him rubbing his right thump in between his eyes. "WHAT are you trying to say, you have never been good filtering." I offered to help him along. HE looks up at me again. "Please come in, i haven't talked to you in what seems like forever, and i miss you, and i am embarrassed that my room is a mess." Now Qhuinn is the one blushing. I Allow myself another moment replaying the words 'i miss you', than i remember his other words and bust out laughing.
"You, have always been a slob, i know these things," I smile as i brush past him and open his door. HIS scent is everywhere, and i do mean everywhere as i step in. There are clothes covering every bit of his flooring. Well not just clothes i see the bottles and the crumbled up papers. I recognize his bed as just a larger pile of clothes. I Feel him standing behind me, we are a mere inch away from each other, his breathing is deep and when he inhales i feel his nipple ring on my back.
Here he is Qhuinn, go for it, stop looking at the back of his head, he is right here standing in your dirty clothes, just open your mouth and speak to him. Alrighty why the fuck am i talking to myself. Without thinking i place my hand on his shoulder, that he attempts to pivot out again. BUT this time BLays legs are wrapped around a bunch of clothes and he starts to fall. SHIT! I Am seeing this all in slow motion, grabbing his hand is a natural reaction that i also don't think about but loosing my balance as well i fuckin tumbling right after and i cant stop it. SO naturally where do i land? Right on top of him, my chest is touching his torso, my junk is right up against him, and oh yeah i am stiff again, something he has to have noticed. My hands are supporting my weight as i am spellbound by those deep eyes again. My brain cant even catch up, as i take my right hand and start stroking his side that is exposed due to his shirt rising because of the fall. i am cradled between his legs, caressing his body, staring in his eyes and i know this is where i need to be.
DO IT! Don't think QHuinn, kiss him. Just do it, you have been thinking nonstop about this for the last two months. Leaning down i feel BLAylocks chest rising rapidly, his face is looking panicky. WELL Shit, good going. HE isn't aroused, he is scared. i stop caressing his side and run my hand through his hair. "I AM sorry BLaylock," Than i spring up, and offer him my hand.