An: okay so... this chapter is just kinda what happens before everybody loves a clown which will be the nxt chapter...DISCLAIMER: I DONT OWN SUPERNATURAL OR ANYTHING YOU RECOGNIZE... PLEASE REVIEW:)

Trina watched from her bedroom window as Sam and Dean burned their fathers body. She had tears in her eyes and was on the verge of sobbing. John had died yesterday morning. She wanted to be down there with the boys but she felt that they needed to do it themselves. Just then her father walked in and saw her. Bobby put his arms around his daughter. Trina hugged her father and cried harder. John had been like a second father to her, just as Bobby had been to the boys.

"Shh… it's gonna be okay baby." Bobby soothed. Trina shook her head and wiped her eyes. She had to be strong. She knew what was gonna come. Sam be silent and when she asked if he wanted to talk he would. But Dean would sit out and work on the car. When someone would ask if he was okay he would say he was fine. Then finally one day Sam would push to hard to get him to open up and he would snap.

That's exactly what happened. The boys had been at Bobby's for about five days now and Sam had talked with Trina but when she had tried talking to Dean, just like she knew he would he told her he was fine. Then finally she had enough. It started the sixth day they had been there. Mary was sad because everyone else was. She was just trying to be helpful. She was pulling a Sam and trying to get Dean to talk.

"Daddy will you tell me what's wrong?" she asked him. Dean shook his head.

"No." he snapped. "Go away. I don't want to talk right now." he snapped again. Mary held in her tears and walked upstairs. Trina had watched the whole exchange and was furious. It was one thing for him to act like that towards her or Sam but Mary was just a little girl trying to help. Trina walked upstairs to check on her daughter. What she found broke her heart. Mary walked over to her dolls she grabed her favorite one-Sammy- and threw it across the room. Then she sat down on her floor and started crying. Trina walked over to her daughter and scooped her up into her arms. Sam had heard the crash and come to investigate. Trina sat down on the bed with Mary and rocked back and forth.

"M-m-mommy w-why doesn't D-dean like me anymore?" mary asked sobbing. Trina's heart broke more.

"Honey he's going through a hard time right now… you just gotta give him a little time. Why don't you see if Uncle Sammy want's to play. I need to go take care of something." Trina told Mary. Mary nodded sniffling. Sam took Mary from Trina and watched through the window as she stalked out to Dean who was working on the impala.

Trina slammed the door as she walked out of the house and over to Dean. He was fixing something under the impala and was on one of those rolling things. Trina grabbed his leg and pulled him out from under the car. He looked up at her a mixture of shock and anger on his face.

"What the hell, Trina?" he asked standing up. She glared at him.

"I have a question. Do you have to try to be a dick or does it just happen naturally?" she asked him.

"What the hell do you mean?" he asked back.

"I mean that there is a little girl in that house that is crying her eyes out because of you. You know it's one thing for you to get all pissy with Sam and I, but to snap at Mary is a completely other thing. Do you wanna know what she asked me? She asked "Mommy why doesn't Dean like me anymore". Look I know that what happened is really hard on you but don't take it out on my daughter, do you understand?" Trina told him.

"You know I'm pretty sure she's my daughter too." Dean said.

"Dean you've known her what almost two weeks. Most of those two weeks you were either not conscious not anywhere near her or out here working on your damn car. So maybe after things settle down and you aren't gonna snap at her just because she's trying to help. Then you can call yourself her father. But you weren't the one that's been with her for four years. And your not gonna be the one that's here after you leave. We all know it's gonna happen 'cause that's what you do Dean you leave." Trina told him angrily.

"I wasn't here for those four god damn years because you didn't tell me about her. All you had to do was pick up the phone and say "hey dean, yeah I'm pregnant.", it would've been nice to know I had a daughter." Dean shot back.

"You're such an ass! I tried to tell you. Hell I called you everyday for two weeks straight. I called Sam and told him to have you call me. Hell I even called John. But you never called back. So me I'm sitting there pregnant wondering what the hell it is that I did wrong that pissed you off so bad that you decided to leave and break things off and not even answer or fucking call me back!" Trina exclaimed and walked back into the house. Sam and Mary were playing go fish. For the rest of the day Mary was trying to avoid Dean. Everyone could see it. He felt bad he hadn't meant to snap at her, but Trina's rant didn't make anything better. Mary was on her way to the bathroom to wash her hands before dinner when it happened. When Dean realized Trina was right. Dean wasn't paying attention to where he was going and Mary was skipping down the hall. She ran into him and looked up. Her face saddened.

"Sorry Dean." she said quietly and walked glumly to the bathroom. Dean felt horrible. He knew Trina was right. So later that night after everyone was sleeping he walked to her room to see if she was awake. He knocked and then walked in. She was sitting on her bed in Batman boxers and a black tank top. To someone else that might be weird but to Dean it was beautiful. It amazed him that she looked so good after having a kid.

"Hey." he said as he shut the door.

"What do you want?" Trina asked. Dean sighed.

"To talk." he answered. Trina patted the spot on the bed next to her. Dean walked over and sat down.

"What do you want to talk about?" she asked.

"Okay well…uh.. I uh just wanted to say that you were right. I shouldn't have snapped at Mary. But I also wanted to apologize for the way I've been towards you." he said. Trina smiled slightly.

"It's okay. I wasn't expecting anything different. And I'm sorry for how much I flipped earlier." Trina said. Dean nodded. They were silent for a few minutes.

"Was there anything else you wanted to talk about?" Trina asked.

"I'm sorry." Dean blurted out.

"For what?" Trina asked confused.

"For leaving you, for not returning your calls." he answered.

"It's okay. I was never mad at you. I was more mad at myself." Trina told him.

"Why? It wasn't your fault. That one was completely on me." Dean said.

"If it wasn't my fault, then why did you leave?" Trina asked. He sighed.

"Okay so you know how we told you Sam had a twin sister that died in the fire that killed my mom?" Dean asked. She nodded. "Well it turns out that she didn't. The demon took her and seventeen years later we find this out. She had escaped and didn't know who she was. Dad found out and we had to rush out to her." Dean said.

"So why didn't you just tell me instead of breaking things off?" Trina asked.

"Because we knew tons of demon's were gonna come looking for her and I didn't think I was gonna make it. And that was just easier then telling you. I don't Trin, you know me I have a hard time saying things." Dean said. "But I can tell you one thing."

"What?" Trina asked.

"I've regretted it ever since." he said. Trina couldn't take it anymore. She grabbed the back of Dean's neck and pulled his mouth down to hers. He didn't hesitate he immediately responded. The kiss was full of passion. They pulled away breathing heavily. Dean stood up.

"Well uh I'll let you get to sleep I just wanted you to know." Dean said. Then he walked out. Trina stood up and closed the door behind him. She rested her forehead against it and sighed. The things that man did to her. Then there was a knock on the door she opened it to find Dean standing there.

"Wha-" she was cut off by his lips on hers. She wrapped her arms around his neck. He picked her up and shut the door with his foot. He pinned her between the wall and himself and started kissing down her neck. She ran her hands through his hair. They had both missed this. There had been so much sexual tension whenever they were around one another and it was all being released now. Trina slid her hands down to the bottom of Dean's shirt and pulled it off over his head. She ran her hands down his incredibly toned abs. Dean pulled her shirt off and carried her over to the bed never breaking the kiss. He climbed on top of her and started kissing and nipping his way down her neck. Trina moaned loudly. He continued kissing his was down her body. It had been a while but Dean knew exactly what she liked and planned on giving it to her and Trina felt the same. Dean kissed his way down to her breast then took her nipple in his mouth and started sucking on it.

"Dean.." Trina moaned. Then there was a knock on the door.

"Mommy? I had a nightmare." Mary said through the door. Trina could hear her sniffling. Dean climbed off her and tossed Trina her shirt. She put it on quickly and opened the door. Dean grabbed his shirt off the floor and walked out. Sam was walking down the hall to go to the bathroom when he saw Dean walk out of Trina's room shirtless. He looked to Trina who's hair was messed up.

"And you wonder why people say you go at it like bunnies." Sam said to Trina.

"Oh come on we didn't get that far." Trina said picking Mary up and shutting the door.