Chapter 4: Future Shift

Author's Note: First off, I just want to say I'm sorry I broke my promise, but believe it or not, that cliff hanger I left off at gave me a lot of trouble for some reason. I wasn't really sure where I would go in this chapter because there were so many things I could have explored. I also might have gotten absorbed into a Criminal Minds story so I apologize. Anyways, I really was happy to see some of you guys saying where you want this to go and I'm nearly positive on my decision now. By the way, this chapter will be an emotional fuck because these past few days have been emotional rollercoaster and I feel more empty than usual. As always, I'm extremely appreciative of the support and any criticism that you think would be helpful.I still don't own twilight and that belongs to Stephanie Meyer. I hope you enjoy the fourth installment of Undeniable, and it's inspired by something but not really sure what.

Edward's POV:

How did I get here? I kept replaying the day's events as I sat on the roof of the house like a statue. I was a Gargoyle in every sense of the word. I was a disgusting monster, a fiend meant to hurt anything that came in its path. I hurt everyone that tried to get close to me. The events that seemed to fall like dominoes after the vision Alice saw were the most haunting thing on my mind. It just seemed to be the turning point in everything.

~~Ten Hours Earlier—11:20AM~~

It was no more than a few minutes since the incident between me and Jacob happened and here I was, only one emotion masking all of them. Fear; I felt only that among the variety of others. Bella's questionable future, the now hazy view of my own, Jacob kissing me all contributed to this emotion, but none of them paled in comparison to the biggest one of them all. I had let him kiss me.

"Hmmm" Alice whispered. Her interest peaked, but her concern still plastered across her face. I looked into her mind and saw the replaying of one vision. Bella was there (it was a vision of her future) with a melancholy smile, it was forced almost, as if with regret. She stood with Alice, their arms wound around each other's shoulders, and Alice had a brilliant smile that seemed to shine "best friends". I was there too, although I was not where I thought I would be. I was not next to Bella, but rather I was next to Alice. I was upset, angry with myself mostly, but I projected it towards Bella.

What made it even more shocking was that it was somewhat similar to the first vision Alice had of Bella after I met her last year. My heart sunk a little bit at this new vision. I was still full of fear for two reasons. The first one inevitably was that I wanted to know what had made this change between Bella and me. I had a theory on this one.

The second was that it was unquestionable that whatever it was changing us I already felt its affects a few days ago. Honestly, since I came back from Italy, Bella was not the same. She was too fragile for this world and now she was nothing more than broken beyond repair. Without a doubt, it was obvious that she was worked on to put back together but she wasn't all there. She was still missing a piece of herself but who is that missing piece?

Maybe she really did belong with Jacob and I wasn't enough to fill the emptiness but part of my mind disagreed with this. I tried to rationalize with myself that he might be the one for her. After all, he did put her back together when I was gone. He put so much of his own life into her. It was as if he was a god that could breathe the very essence of life into clay bodies. Even as I thought about this, my mind still clicked at the easy given 'no'.

"Edward." I didn't even register that Alice was even talking to me. My mind was too preoccupied. "Edward" She said again, this time I was able to pull myself from my thoughts. "What did you do just now?" Alice kept her eyes on me, scrutinizing as if I had committed murder (well I had many times before but that was not what was meant). The worst part was that I might as well have in her eyes.

"I didn't do anything." I lied putting too much emphasis on certain words as I said it.

"Don't give me that bullshit Edward." Alice said harshly. She got up from my bed and began to strut toward me but not with her usual grace. Her walk was fueled with anger. This wasn't going to end well.

"Listen here," She Jabbed my chest with her index finder. "I know my visions are subjective to decisions but you and I both know that actions affect them too. Whether or not you've made a decision on something a few minutes ago doesn't matter because you don't have to make it. This future I saw is already setting itself in place."

"What? That made no sense at all." I furrowed my brows together as I thought about.

"Basically, you might not have decided now, but you will, just not yet." Oh. All of this was happening too fast and I couldn't help but to keep silent. I could only think about two things, the pain growing in my chest and how bad I felt for Bella. This world was going to kill her soon and it would be my fault in the end. "Edward, what happened?"

"Well…" I hesitated for a minute to think how to say it. "This might seem bizarre but..." I had to start from the beginning. "There was this scent, and it smelled so different that it brought me outside. Jacob Black was outside as well…"

"I thought I had heard a mutt moving outside." Alice interrupted almost as bitter as Rosalie would have been and I was in a dumb-founded shock at her annoyance.

"Anyways, I hid in the trees hoping he would go away because I was not in the mood to end up fighting with him. As I watched him, he just stood staring at the house but then I noticed the scent again. It was stronger, more potent and was purely amazing, then I realized why. Jacob scent had changed somehow and for some reason everything blanked out until I realized I was only a few feet away from him. That's when it got weird."

"Weird? Just tell me what happened."

"I was getting to that Alice now shut up." I muttered annoyed as I was rubbing my temples from the assault of all the thoughts I could hear. One stood out among the others, "What did I do".

"Anyways, Jacob and I were very close and talking about Bella's future, the changing I mean. Well, it was that scent that did everything now that I think about it. I stepped a foot closer to him and he did the same. Next thing I knew he kissed me." I wasn't looking at Alice as I said the last sentence. Instead I continued to stare out the windows of the balcony door at the forest not too far from the house.

Alice stopped for a moment to gather all her rambling thoughts (which I couldn't even read because they were flying so fast). "He…kissed you?" Her eyes weren't angry anymore, but rather filled with concern. I nodded slowly but firmly. "I'm confused Edward"

"I'm not really surprised by that." I murmured as I walked over to my bed. I sat down and pulled my legs up so that my head could rest on my knees. I placed my arms around my legs and watched Alice as her expressions changed rapidly.

"What I don't understand is why you didn't stop him."

"Well I tried to…but well…" This was going to sound strange. I doubt Alice would understand because I hardly understood it myself. "I…um…to some extent let him." For the first time in my life I heard dead silence. I didn't hear anything from Alice, her mind, the thoughts of my peeping family who were listening to every word of this conversation, and it was frightening.

I didn't have to be Jasper to know that Alice's emotions were changing at rapid paces. It was written all over her face as it twisted around. I saw her going from concern, to angry, to confusion, to being lost, to being upset and landing back on anger. "Edward, what the fuck is wrong with you!" The pixie swore! 'Fuck' I thought to myself, if she's swearing I'm in trouble now.

"Let me explain…." I tried to say but I was cut off.

"No! You fucking listen to me right now. You HAVE Bella! Don't you think before you act?" Alice shouted nearly at the top of her lungs. We're lucky we have no neighbors nearby.

"Alice I know, that is why I'm upset." I tried to get through to her.

"No Edward you don't know. Bella wants to give up everything and its all for you! She's willing to throw away her education, her family, her friends, and her very soul just to be with you. The slightest upset to her now no doubt will make her commit suicide for real this time."

I flinched as I heard the last thing she said. "Alice, I'm not leaving her. I do love her and I don't want to hurt her."

"Say that all you like Edward, but we both know it's a lie." She moved toward the door and opened it. Alice stood there in the doorway, half in and half out, and stared right at me. There was no emotion glued to her face now. 'It's a lie because you saw it for yourself just now." She thought while leaving the room and left me to fall apart into pieces.

Gripped my legs to me more tightly, trying to keep everything together. I tried to not break down and dry sob at the pain. My heart was searching for a place to hide from the pain, the same pain that lay in my chest. It was no longer a dormant bear; it was now awake and aggravated. It was licking my heart with an icy breath. I missed the warmth that had kept the pain sleeping. This desperate need to be with someone was the only thought that occupied my mind. I decided it then. I had to see Bella.

I flew out of the house with inhuman speed as I raced toward her house. On the way there I could help but to feel followed for some reason, and as I stopped to listen I heard the shuffle of something heavy. I waited a moment but it stopped before it reached near me. Something was there but it didn't matter who it was because I only had this need to be with Bella in my mind. I ran now, faster than before and in a few minutes I was at the destination.

Charlie's cruiser was gone from the driveway and I could only conclude that he went fishing due to it being a Saturday. Luckily though, the red monster was parked in the driveway so I strolled up to the front door. Before I had a chance to knock on the door however, it opened and she stood in the doorway. "Edward" She seemed really happy to see me as she slide both her arms around my waist. "I'm so happy to see you. Why didn't you come home with me yesterday?" She asked as she snuggled into my shoulder.

I contemplated on lying at that moment and just tell her that I went hunting but she would notice that. My eyes were nearly black with thirst so I decided I might as well tell her the truth. "I just needed to think on all the things that were happening recently. That is all." She looked up at me and I met her gaze. She leaned forward and put her lips to mine trying to be forceful to open my lips but that didn't really work with being a vampire and all. I allowed her entrance and that's when it struck me.

It was different from the last time we had kissed in her bedroom two nights ago. That kiss was still warm and loving despite the small feeling of emptiness that had crept into me. That was still a nice kiss but I could feel there was something off, not whole about it. As I kissed Bella now however, it didn't even feel like that. It didn't feel like the kiss we had in the car either. This kiss felt wrong.

I pulled away from her quickly and abrupt. She seemed somewhat pissed off now and stared at me with a confused face. "Edward! What the hell?" Bella said with growing loudness.

"I'm sorry Bella, but don't you feel that?" She stared at me incredulously and I sighed at how stupid that sounded. She was obviously pissed now.

"No, I wasn't the only thing I was feeling was all the love I felt for you but you can't even return the favor?" She yelled at me. Her face was flushed and I could see that she could ripe my head off if it was possible. I sighed.

"I apologize, Bella, truly I am sorry, but I can't do this right now. I need to think some more."
"Edward, wait. I'm sorry I didn't mean to lose my temper that much. Just stay with me. I don't want you to go." She held onto my hand now trying to bring me into the house.
"It is okay, the fault was never yours." I said as I kissed her forehead and began to walk away. When I had kissed Bella before it had felt like I was kissing my sister, this chaste kiss was better. It didn't feel as erroneous. I felt the ache in my chest increase more at the mere concept of this. I sighed and went back home.

~Thirty-eight hours later: Monday, 1:27 AM~

The air was brimming with despair, no more than a miserable haze that was encompassing my whole being. My heart was colder than the rest of my body and was so icy that it was now an impossibility that it was ever warmer than what it is now. The worst part was the sharpness of the pain that resided there. It was not from the usual sadness or anger, but it was from a more problematic feeling. I was empty, incomplete. I wasn't lacking a puzzle piece, but rather half of the puzzle.

My family member's thoughts from below me ranged from confused, upset, worried, disappointed and angry. I was shocked to see that Alice was the angriest one and Rosalie was more worried about how I felt more than anybody in the house. Despite being a total bitch, I guess she did have some instinct to love others somewhere there. Emmett was disappointed mostly because he did like Bella and her wavering future brought him down a peg. Jasper was upset because of the emotional climate that surrounded everyone. It wasn't that he didn't care about me, but the emotions were overwhelmingly strong. Carlisle was just confused to see my regression to a similar state before I had met Bella.

Esme was the only who's feelings were not bothering me. "Edward." She whispered to me as she took a seat next to me on the rooftop. "I know you are really self-reflecting and you're hurt deeply. You have to understand that whatever you do is your decision and yours alone." She said rubbing circles on my back with her palm. It would have been relaxing under normal circumstances, but now it seemed almost useless. She began to have "tears" in her eyes and used her other hand to wipe them away before speaking. "Edward, honey, I just want you to be happy." With that she just kissed my cheek and left.

I was now alone again. I have been sitting on this roof for hours, maybe a day or two and to be honest, I just wasn't sure anymore. I wasn't sure about anything anymore and at that thought my heart had doubled the pain it carried. What was it that brought me to this emptiness? It was all insecure, breakable, I never felt more human in the century of my existence.

It was then that I recognized the strange need I had before I went to Bella and the pain that lingered in my chest. The conclusion was that my heart was not in pain because I felt bad, worried or upset about Bella and me. I did not have to need to see Bella, but I thought I wanted to see her. No, this was different.

I had needed to see Jacob.

Author's Ending Note: Yes indeed, mind-blowing isn't it? lol. Also, I bet some of you who aren't an obsessive twilight reader like me are like "what vision did Alice see when Edward first met Bella?" Well you see in Midnight Sun which is Twilight in Edward's perspective (the vision is 'mentioned' in twilight but we don't know exactly what she saw in the vision from twilight) Alice has a vision that Bella will be changed, her and Edward are together and Alice is there being her best friend so I kind of played off of that a bit. If you don't believe me you can check it out for yourself at Stephanie Meyers Website (just Google it). It's a shame that book was never continued; If it did then it would definitely be my favorite just because you wouldn't have to reread the first book. In my opinion, the first book isn't bad but it always makes me angry to read it because I can only think "what is the point of this if she just summarizes ALL of the plotline in one page of all the other books anyways".

Whatever, back to the topic, I hoped you liked that chapter, the next one will be up soon but I can't promise you when. I've been into someone for a while now and it's hurting me to see how much of a tease he is. The worst part is that I feel happy when I'm with him but I feel emptier than I ever felt without him and I feel like it gets worse every day. Well, despite emotional complications, they might be beneficial because it somewhat was a major factor of writing this chapter and most likely the next (I think it will be in Jacob's POV but I'm not sure. I do want to explore how he's feeling right now and I need to do that whole telling his dad thing which might work out good or bad—how will the pack react too, just because Sam is okay with it doesn't mean that everyone is! Dun dun duh!). The next chapter will be up anytime from today to Wednesday so keep your eyes peeled. Yes, I'm aware that this is a long author's note and I am sorry for that.