Tommy's POV

Well... I'm Tommy Joe Ratliff. Let's see the pathetic disasters and heart aches of my life right now...I'm 30 years old with a 2 year old baby girl Michele Joe Lambert and another one on the way... my husband has been in a coma for 3 months now and yes I am a MALE. Bisexual, well...actually I was straight, But yea then i fell in love with another man...wouldn't have it any other way!

Well I guess you can go run the other way now. Most people do, it's not every day you see a pregnant man walking around with a child in his arms. Let alone married to a person of the same gender. Fuck you homophobic assholes Pfft I should even waste my breath.

It's just been so hard lately; the stares and whispers I get from some people are DEADLY... I normally put up with and don't care or even think twice about them. But not now... I can't Adam is no longer by my side, to keep me going...well he is but he isn't, if you get what I mean.

I wait by his bed every morning, everyday, all day, all night...hoping for just the slightest movement or noise from Adam. But Silence. I hate that word; it's taken over my life.

My heart is slowing breaking bit by bit...I feel all alone. I don't know how much longer I can take it, but I have to be strong for Michele and our soon to be born child.

All I have left is my kids, what's left of Adam and the band. My parents and family disowned me long time ago...when they found out I was gay. I was on the verge of suicide, but a sweet soul helped me through it all... Adam Lambert.

I know I sound so negative right now and angry but I am just really tired I haven't slept in a week. The doctors told me that the chances of Adam waking up and making a full recovery are VERY slim.

In fact they tell me this everyday... What bastards... Do they honestly think I am just going to give up on my baby boy?

No! Never could I ever let that happen we have been to hell together and back. I Love Adam way too much, to just let him slip away or without at least giving him a chance.

"Tom-Tom is Addy going to wake up today...?" my baby girl innocently asked with a hopeful smile smeared across her face...along with some peanut butter and jam. Haha my cheeky little girl eats just like I did when I was a dike.

Haha Michele likes to call us by our nicknames from time to time. It's so adorable she calls me Tom-Tom, Adam Addy and we call her glitters.

Michele asks me this very same question every day. It breaks my heart even more than it already is. But I keep myself together just for her sake and simply pick
her up in my arms, smiling back, "I don't know glitters, maybe."

We were all so happy together it's not fair. Just when you think everything is fine and your enjoying life, it can all turn around just within a few moments.

I still remember the day this whole
nightmare started...How can I forget it? It's like I keep living a never ending nightmare. If only someone could let me out of this dream. Too bad it isn't a dream.