The Reason-Shatter your illusions of love

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"You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel" Author Unknown

"Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship never" Charles Caleb Cotton

KH

By the time he found his dad, the groceries were sacked . He watches as the bags are placed into the cart, suspicions start to form about their contents. Is that a box of Twinkies? As Finn and Kurt are loading the bags into the car, Dave walks out. What is wrong with you get a grip. Quit looking at him. It's Karofsky. You already made a fool of yourself chasing after him. Why the hell did I ask him if he wanted to keep in touch? I should be free from him. I saw for myself that he's fine. A little worn around the edges. Not in a bad way, kind of rugged. Wait, I really need to get control of myself . Dave goes back to the front of the store grabbing two 40LB bags of softener salt, Kurt watches as he throws them in the bed of his truck. Then he's caught. Dave looks right at him, lifting an eyebrow nods, gets into his truck and drives off. I was not just oogling Karofsky of all people, so what if he looks lean, toned and Haunted. That's the real difference, his eyes.

Burt comes around the back of the car, " You okay Kiddo?"

Snapping back to reality, Kurt realizes he was still looking in the direction Dave went. "Fine." His tone slightly higher than normal betraying him.

Burt steps in front of him, eye to eye, " That meat head didn't say anything to upset you ?"

It would be easier if he did, " Huh, uh no. He was just different, not in a bad way."

Burt nods satisfied, " Good, he better keep it that way."

The ride home is quiet, too quiet. Why am I in the back, I thought I called shotgun earlier. His smile is really nice when it's genuine. Okay really need to derail this train of thought. Kurt Elizabeth Hummel this is very unbecoming of you. Your boyfriend is gone one week, with his family on vacation, and your checking out another guy and giving him your number. Oh gaga what did Dave, I mean Karofsky think? Did he think I was picking him up? Kurt stifles a groan and places his head on the back of Finns seat. Why can't I stop thinking about him. Maybe because you let him sing you to sleep every night. He was horrible to you, and just because he has a bad couple of months your ready to throw out the welcome mat. Not wise. Blaine,Blaine, Blaine. I need to stop this. He already thinks your hiding something, not letting him in. Just because I want to take things slowly, doesn't mean I'm not letting him in. He'll be back in three days, everything will be fine.

One week Earlier

Blaine

He watches as Kurt shivers, pulling his sweater tight. The night air is still slightly chilly in northern Ohio. Its the first week of June and summer vacation has just started. Blaine is sitting on the porch bench outside his parents house. They will be leaving in the morning for the drive to their condo in South Carolina. He wants to wrap his arms around him, and keep him warm. He stays where he is. Things have felt off for a while now. When he had asked Kurt to be his boyfriend right before regionals, he was sure of their connection. Now everything just felt wrong. Something about them was broken. If I knew what it was, I could fix it. It wasn't like they fought, or were mean. The relationship progressed slowly, and that was fine. Blaine was okay on waiting on physical intimacy. It's the emotional intimacy, he's shut me out. Closed and bolted the damn door, while I wasn't paying attention. I cant even get up the courage to call him on it. Too afraid of the answer. We were in love. We are in love. Why wont he talk to me? What did I do?

Kurt shivers again, turning to smile at Blaine, " I'm not really ready for the muggy summer heat, but I wish it would warm up a little sooner."

There he goes, always talking about something trivial. Just skimming the surface of life's waters with his toes and staying away from the deep in. Dammit Kurt can't you see how your tearing me apart. Blaine smiles, " I for one, can't wait to smell the salty sea air. I usually sleep out on the deck the first night were there. The sound of the ocean just relaxes me."

Kurt leans on the railing of the porch and stares at Blaine, " I'm going to miss you."

" Are you?" It was out before he could catch himself.

Kurt, " Of course, why wouldn't I?"

Blaine, tries to keep his voice from cracking and fails, " You've been distant lately. " sighing, "Did I do something wrong Kurt?"

Kurt, feels a ball of panic growing in his chest. If I acknowledge were having problems it makes it real. I don't even know what's wrong. Yes you do somethings missing. You finally got what you wanted, only to find out it wasn't meant to be. He wants to cry, but his eyes wont obey for once. If we cant work this out, we lose it all. I cant lose him. Whats wrong with me. Why do I feel so cold inside. " There's nothing wrong. I've just been tired lately. Things have just seemed weird since I went back to Mckinley. " He moves and sits beside Blaine. He would have went back to Mckinley even if Dave had still been there. He had come home early one day to find his dad and Carole having a heated argument about money and the lack of it. Deciding right there and then, he wasn't going to let anything else be taken from his family. He would stand his ground. That was the Friday Dave disappeared.

Kurt holds his hand, " Were fine."

Blaine nods letting the lie go. Willing to stay a resident in the land of denial a little while longer.

A/N: Sorry for so little Dave in this chapter. Trying to build layers for the characters.