Santana's POV...
The days pasted and I didn't know what I was going to do on Saturday. It was difficult to comprehend what went on that night. Brittany just came out with it and I just really wasn't ready. I should have done something, anything else. It was one long wait till Saturday. I was on 'autopilot' as Brittany liked to say. I just walked where I had to and did the bare minimum.
I had Glee on Friday; it was fun but awkward as hell. I walked in alone and I was assaulted by Rachel; bombarded with questions about Brittany. Why we weren't together? How she was? I just stood there and gave her a look that could kill. I took a stance that even the football team would fear. Berry then scuttled back to where ever she came from. Quinn and I shared glances, her eyes more concerned then I was expecting. I broke the stare and nodded at Puck he winked back. I went to sit up in the further reaches of the choir room. As I made it to a seat Brittany walked in. She illuminated the room like an angel or something. I didn't meet her eyes even though I know they were staring at me. She went to sit with Tina and Wheelchair Kid. Her smile was beaming everywhere. I called Puck over, keeping one eye on Brittany. I grabbed Puck and starting flirting, nothing major just some touching. I watched Brittany's smile fade. Her eyes mist over. I pushed Puck away and he shot me a disappointed look. She really did love me... We sang some random classic pop songs which I just mouthed the words to. I wasn't into doing anything, and normally Fridays were great. Britt and I would party or just stay over at each other's houses. Tomorrow could not come fast enough.
It was Saturday morning, and I was already nervous. Fuck. What am I to do? Brittany's going to come over later and we're going to have to talk and I know I'm going to fail at telling her what I need to. I have weird feelings for her recently, after seeing her looking so down in Glee after I was messing with Puck, I didn't think she'd react that way. I want to care for Brittany, I mean I loved the way she said she needed me. I needed her too. I was so stupid to only realise this now. Brittany was so different to everyone else, she loved anyone who showed her any sort of affection and even those who didn't she still loved them. If I didn't have her I probably wouldn't have any real friends at all. Even though one of the first things I said to her was "Go Away!" She still resided in the fact that we were friends. Bestfriends.
The clock ticked ever slower, and then five o clock rolled around. The doorbell chimed, I was alone so I was forced to answer the door. I thought I was having a mini heart attack. I took some deep breathes and opened the door.
"Hey... Umm come in." I ushered her through the door.
"Hi, thanks for having me over Santana." She walked past me and then waited for me to close the door.
"You can just go up to my room, I'll be up in a minute." She nodded and made her way upstairs.
I have only two minutes to calm and compose myself. I look in the mirror in the hallway and tell myself I can do it. I then make a start up the stairs. I get up to the second floor; adrenaline now kicks in. We needed to talk, this needed to happen. Brittany is sitting on my bed as I make it to the doorway. She looks up and smiles, her feet dangling idly off the side. I sit down beside her.
"B, you've just got to hear me out first ok?" She nodded and I continue.
"Well firstly, I'm so sorry for the other day; I should have never done that to you. I know it must have hurt you but you've got to understand that it was really sudden and I didn't expect it. I'm completely flattered; but at that moment I didn't know how to answer you. I freaked out Britt, you know what I'm like sometimes. And you know the one thing I can't stand is you being upset."
"Why didn't you just say all this then?"
"Because I needed time to think."
"About what?" She looked deep into my eyes.
"About whether or not I could return the feelings you have."
Her eyes brightened instantly. I smiled but still wasn't sure whether I could actually return the feelings and I didn't want to break her heart again, I just couldn't.
"So... can you?" she looked away and wringed her hands nervously.
I cupped her face and pulled her eyes to look at me once more. "Are you sure you love me?"
"Of course S, you help me with everything. My whole life is just you helping me get through it and I wouldn't want it to be anyone else but you. Not to mention your hot which is a total bonus." I scoffed and she continued.
"You don't call me names like everyone else does and you stick up for me. You're always so warm when I hug you. There's no guys out there who would do what you do San and that's why I love you." I breathed in, I think I had my answer.
"So please Santana, just tell me how you feel?
"Brittany, I'm really confused right now but I do know some things. I love how you keep me tamed and calm, if it wasn't for you I'd be expelled from school by now. I love caring about you because in return I get to see your smile which could probably do a better job than the sun of lighting up the world. You're probably the prettiest girl I've ever met. You don't even have to try and you look stunning. I love cuddling with you as well, that's fun. Hell Britt, I think I love you."
There I said it. I'm not sure if I meant to but it seemed to just flow; like I was going to say it no matter what. Brittany's eyes twinkled, and a smile broke over her whole face.
"SAN!" She screeched. "Are you sure?" she restrained herself once more.
I thought for a moment. "Positive" I beamed.
We turned to each other and I held out my hands. She took them gently and intertwined our fingers. We sat there just looking each other in the eye. It was a beautiful moment. I then leaned towards Brittany. She met me halfway. Our lips touched in an outburst of butterflies in my stomach. Brittany lay me down and straddled my hips. She repeatedly kissed me and then begun planting kisses on my neck, as she brushed my hair out of the way. This was much better the then Puck, in every way. She pushed herself back up to breath.
"Want to stay over tonight?"
"Sure." She smirked.
We didn't go any further then making out because I said I wanted every moment to last. She understood and agreed. That was another thing I loved about her, she would agree with everything without pointless fights. It was about one when we got to sleep nuzzled into one another. What would happen at school? Shit. I didn't think of that. Brittany tossed so I kissed her forehead and cooed her back to sleep. I'll worry about that some other time.