I KNOCKED AT PARADISE DOORS Chapter 2, a wolf's rain fanfic

I knocked At Paradise Door

Chapter Two: A song, No One will sing

We were not that far from the city but we were far enough to rest a while. Toboe was watching the whole time we traveled and I have to say, his staring annoyed me a little. I know he do not mean it but still though. We placed Tsume against a wall. Tsume was the one that needed the most rest. Hige held his stomach as a growl came from it. I looked at him with a raised eyebrow, "Are, you always hungry?" Hige chuckled and scooted over near me. "You know I won't be hungry if-"I slammed my foot into his face. Hige stumbled back and Toboe started to snicker. Hige rubbed his nose and glared at Toboe, "It's not funny! How would you like to get kicked in the face with a boot?" Toboe was still snicker, "I wouldn't like it but you brought that onto yourself." Kiba was sitting on the other side of me. He just simply shook his head from side to side. I rolled my eyes and scooted away from him.

Tsume growled lowly and glared at me with one eye open. "Just because I'm not attacking doesn't mean I won't get you back! You low life bitch!" Toboe winced at Tsume's harshness, "Tsume stop calling her that. She has a name you know. Polar, is her name." I smiled softly at Toboe and glared at Tsume. "Toboe, you have to know that most old dogs can't think straight when a female beats them." "Shut your damn mouth!" Tsume barked at me. I smiled at him and burst out laughing. It was funny how one wolf could hold so much anger. Hige looked at me with a raised eyebrow. Kiba had a little smug smirk on his face. Toboe was laughing with me.

A place to crash
I Got You
No need to ask
I Got You
Just get on the phone
I Got You
Come and pick you up
If I have to

Kiba eyes got a little wide, Hige looked at me with a smile, Toboe blushed, and Tsume was looking at me with a soft glare. I smiled even more and hummed before standing up and twirling lightly.

Whats weird about it
Cause were right at the end
Mad about it
Just figured it out in my head
Im proud to say
I Got U

I grabbed Kiba's hand and pulled him to his feet. I reached for Hige to lean off the wall. Toboe came to me before I reached him. I slowly grabbed Tsume's hand and he got up slowly.

Go ahead and say goodbye
I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
I'll be alright
And when you need a place
To run to
For better or worse
I Got You

I twirled around in a circle in my human form. As Kiba, Toboe, Hige, and Tsume sat in their wolf form, sitting in a circle around me. I looked up into the sky with tears in my eyes.

In falling apart
Of
Lets be bigger than that
And remember
The colding outdoor
We were both alone
Both surviving
No drama no need for a show
Just wanna say;
I Got You

I fell to my knees singing still. The words flowing out my mouth like a river go down stream in the moon light. I saw Toboe walk over to my left side and pressed his head against my shoulder. I moved my arms to hug him lightly.

Go ahead and say goodbye
I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
I'll be alright
And when you need a place
To run to
For better or worse
I Got You

Kiba walked up to me and licked my face. I touched my cheek and I could feel wetness. I was crying, I didn't want to cry. I didn't even know I was crying. I felt Tsume press his head on my shoulders. I touched his snout and rocked back and forth. Hige walked up on my right and licked my shoulder tenderly. I hiccupped lightly and patted all of them in some kind of way with my body part.

Cause this is love that I
And nothing we can both control
And if it don't feel right
You're not losing me by letting me know

I begin to rock back and forth lightly and hum the tune when there was a long pause. I kissed all their foreheads and smiled lightly to myself.

So,
Go ahead and say goodbye
I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
I'll be alright
And when you need a place
To run to
For better or worse
I Got You

Go ahead and say goodbye
I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry
I'll be alright
And when you need a place
To run to
For better or worse
I Got You

I tighten my grip on them and I could feel Tsume wince from me leaning on him. I moved a little bit so all my weight wasn't on him. Toboe whimpered in comfort and Hige was nipping my shoulder still. Kiba was pressing his nose to me cheek lightly licking my cheek time to time.

A place to crash
I Got You
No need to ask
I Got You

I hummed out the last word until my light hiccup interrupted it. "You have been hurt haven't you Polar." Toboe light whimper came to my ears. I turned into my wolf form and my ears were down, flat against my head. I sat in the middle of them look at all of them. My eyes still quivered with unseen tears. "It'll be ok Polar; you don't have to cry no more." Hige low bark came to my ears as well.

I looked up at the moon and I howled. My painful, lonely, sorrow howl reached their ears. The song that a wolf of should never sing but listen to. A song that shouldn't be heard but told. A tale that you are lucky you are not in…Yet here I was howling the night away at the big round moon of the night. I howled so long that my lungs felt like they were going to burst. The other looked up at the moon, also. They all had a memory showing in their eyes. That is when I heard Toboe join me in my howling. Then Hige and Tsume, I stopped howling getting air into my lungs. I looked in front of me to see Kiba looking me dead in my face. "What happen to you Polar? What makes you think, you cannot reach paradise? Who ever told you this, lied? I must know what happen so bad that you are like this." Kiba soft growl touched my ears lightly.

I leaned forward and nuzzled him a little roughly. "You ask too much questions, you know that right. I'll tell you this Kiba… Only a wolf can reach paradise and only a wolf will be forced out. I was that wolf and I'll always be that wolf. I cannot change faint…" That's when I could feel one name on the tip of my tongue. I whimpered and lowered my head. Kiba looked at me and leaned forward to nuzzle my neck. It didn't help I just whimpered some more.

"I-Iris"

"I-I-Iris…." I couldn't stop whimpering the name out. Toboe watched in teary eyes, as I laid down curled up into a ball. I was shaking with sadness and hurt. I felt Hige curl up beside Toboe and me as well. "A tough female, will always have a weak spot." Tsume growled lightly before curling up as well. I did not have time to argue with him. Kiba curled up to me, placing his head over my neck. "You know, for a wolf that is in a pack…you howl so sadly, lonely….Polar, you sing beautifully. I don't know who Iris is….but I wish you wouldn't think about them if they get you depressed…I don't want to see this out of my pack member…..Polar." I whimpered at the mention of Iris's name. Kiba may have been right but he didn't understand. Those were just words with no feeling behind them. Even if he did know, he barely knew the feeling. He wasn't in my paws and he doesn't want to be, no matter how much he tries to act like it.

My lungs felt tight. I shivered in coldness, even if everyone is curled up against me. I still felt cold. I felt empty, lonely and…..lost. I thought I was strong enough to sing another sing. Yet all it did brought back painful memories that shot right into my heart. My heart wasn't prepared for this, the whole was too big and I was dying slowly. I would rather die…..Yet, there is something I have to do now. That is to take this pack to paradise….I even promised the pup that'll I'll stay outside paradise doors waiting for them… Did I lie to Toboe? I never lie…No, I will wait for them as long as possible… I just hope they understand when the ending is coming.

When I woken up I was surprised to find only Toboe lying agaisnt me. I stood slowly and Toboe open his eyes slwoly. "What happen...Oh, thats right Polar! Are you alright? You from last night..." Toboe whimpered lightly at me. I looked at him with a warm expression. I yawned and stretched. I jumped when I felt something bite m backside. I turned aorund to Tsme sinking his teeth into me lightly yet hard. I growled at him, "I dare you, at least ask to bite my ass!" "Now thats the girl I know. Whatever happen last night, I'll forget it...if you apolgize." Tsume growled in victory to himself. I know if I don't say sorry he'll hold that emotional thing against for the rest of my life. I gave a light snicker, "Tsume, you little bitch! What wolf use bribe to win their battles!" Tsume growled and was about to reach for me when Kiba jumped in front of him. He tackeld Tsume to the ground and growled lightly. "Both of you stop! We need to get moving...Humans aren't too far from here. They found a trail-" "Tsumes blood" I barked in lightly. Tsume growled at me. Hige ran to us in human form. He was brearthing heavy, "Guys! They are close by! I got us some bread but it won't last us long." While he was talking everyone else shifted to our human forms.

"Lets go then, Hige put that in your jacket. Come on hurry!" Kiba yelled as he dashed down the side of the wall. We was almost near the outskirts of the wall. I began running, I was trully sprinting. I passed Kiba and kept running. I was built to run and buil to hunt...I turned to look over my shoudler to see Toboe and Tsume beginning the slowlest. Hige was a couple of feet behind Kiba. Toboe was trying to help Tsume since he was still weak but the bleeding stopped. I turned back and ran past Kiba and Hige. Hige turned over is shoulder to see me helping Tsume.

"Toboe, run ahead, I got this big gray log." I told him with a smirk on my face. Toboe laughed and ran up with Hige.

I felt Tsume growl, "Oh, I'm a log now! Why aren't you just the superhero bitch!"

I glared at him with my hard teal eyes, "I'm not super and will never be...I was just raised to survive on my own...because all I had was mom, dad...but even they was splitting apart...Then the pack...enough about that, lets get a move before Kiba and them leaves us behind."

I felt Tsume scuff at me but he knew I was right. I rolled my eyes, he was so annoying, I can't see how Kiba can put up with him...Kiba...What he said the night before...I should thank him later. That made me realize that I shouldnt think about someone close if they only going to bring me pain and sorrow in the end. Kiba...What have you been through to know this? What story are your eyes trying to hide from me? I want to know...Kiba...Tsume...Toboe...Hige...My pack

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