I Knocked At Paradise Doors

Chapter Six: Owned

After about a couple of days we eventually left the small little town that cherished wolves. The funny thing is that Moonlet and Starffire didn't stay. They wanted to join the group and travel to paradise with us.

"Starffire will you stop acting so hype!" Tsume growled out as he nipped at Starffire hind legs.

Starffire yelped and growled defensively at Tsume. "You are always messing with me! Leave me alone, old dog!" Starffire barked out aggressively.

I tried to hold my snicker but I couldn't. I watched as Tsume eyes cut sharp into mines. I never knew Tsume would be so worried about age. I turned my head to Kiba; he was staring at Moonlet ever since she joins the group. Did he like her? I felt this pang of jealousy come over.

Moonlet was a very attractive wolf but for her to be leader. That was impossible; she can't be an alpha female. I felt a growl escape my lips but jumped when I felt a nip at my hind legs. I turned to see Toboe and he saw the look on my face. He was wondering what was wrong with me.

I shook my head from side to side. I didn't want to tell him. He wouldn't understand because he was too young. I barked out a laugh when I watched as Tsume grab Starffire from the cuff of her neck and carry her.

She growled weakly, "I'm not a pup no more! Let me go, Tsume!"

"Not until you behave and calm down!" Tsume growled out. I snickered and slowly walked up beside him.

I snickered again; my row of k-9's showing. "You look so fatherly carrying her. How sweet, Tsume has grown up!" I barked lightly. I felt Tsume stiffen beside me, I started to snicker again.

"Moonlet, so tell us about yourself." Hige barked out lowly. I knew what he was trying to do.

Moonlet looked at him and gave him a light glare. "I'm mixed breed. I am part husky, from my mother side. I mean she was half husky and I'm like ¼ husky. My dad was a pure wolf. The only thing I got from my husky side was my tail and fur color. Other than that Hige I'm your average wolf."

Kiba walked up on the other side of her. "That means if you breed with another wolf then that husky side will not really affect the next generation."

I froze when Kiba barked those words lightly. Was he thinking about making Moonlet a mate? I growled lightly again. Why was I being so jealous? I only wanted to see Kiba as the leader….But I don't very much like when there's another female higher than me.

I turned to look over to my right to only see Tsume fur. I didn't even know he let go of Starffire and moved beside me. I looked into his golden eyes. I felt a wave of emotions tear out of me. I tried to hold down my whimpers but they surfaced. I felt my head become low and I pressed myself against Tsume's side as we walked. That gray fur of his was so welcoming. I felt my fur become on edge when I felt a tongue lick over my fur. I looked up at Tsume giving me a calming look. That's when he licked behind my ear, lightly nipping at the fur.

"Tsume what are you doing?" I barked out lightly. No one seemed to notice Tsume and me. They were wrapped up in each other. Kiba, Hige and Moonlet were talking. Toboe and Starffire were playing. We were one big happy pack.

I felt Tsume growl lightly, "Mating season is starting at midnight…" Tsume pulled from me and walked ahead of me.

I stood there frozen, absorbing the information. If that is so, then all of us will be mated too. Moonlet has to choose between Kiba and Hige. Toboe don't have to choose because he got Starffire. Starffire maybe small but that is because she is part fox. Starffire's mother was the wolf and her father was fox. So in the making of her, she is a little bigger then a fox but smaller then a wolf. I think her size is adorable. I guess her size is what made her keep her inner pup.

I started to walk again but then I came to a slow stop. I just realized that I'm the only wolf that hasn't mated up. My only option is Tsume! I mean I can choose who ever Moonlet turn down right. I shook my fur lightly. I can't see myself mating with Tsume.

He is more like a brother to me then a lover. I shivered as I started to walk. I hate this wolf process. I wanted to be single for a while longer. I didn't have a mate in so many years. I didn't want to have one now. I'll just have to play it by the books.

I sighed and ran up to catch the group.

It was 10 minutes before midnight and I was having a panic attack. I don't know why but my lungs were racing and I wasn't feeling well. I was surprise no one else knew I was having this mini panic attack.

Moonlet barked and rolled against the cave wall. We found a cave in our travels and Kiba decided we stay here for the night. I was sitting at the entrance of the cave looking at the moon.

"Hige, you are a funny wolf!" Moonlet barked out as she kept rolling back and forth. Hige gave a light playful growl. Kiba sat a little down from Moonlet, looking at her.

I sighed and felt my ears lean back some. I didn't want anything to happen tonight. I looked up to my right to see Starffire curling up to Toboe for the night. I didn't want to disturb them.

I looked to my left to see Moonlet curling against Kiba and Hige. I just sat there near the entrance. I didn't want to move from this spot. I just wanted to be wide awake. I whimpered lightly and lied down. I was still in the entrance.

I jumped lightly when I felt Tsume glaring at me. I turned my head to face him and was kind of surprise to see him sitting right beside me.

"What's the matter with you, Polarisa?" Tsume growled out as he lied down diagonal from me. I glared at him lightly, "Nothing is wrong with me! I just don't want to be bothered by other wolves…I'm not ready for a mate, Tsume."

I watched as Tsume's fur become more on edge. "What is preventing from being claimed as a mate? Where you mated before? Then what's the problem Polarisa? What can you be so afraid of! You're just one selfish bitch that-" Tsume growls came to a quick stop when I stood growling back.

"Shut the hell up Tsume! You know nothing of my past! I'm going to go through living a life where my pups die! I don't want to go through the pain of putting that through my body! I was mad at him! I was mad that he left me to take care of those pups by myself! Either he thought I would be able to do it or either he just didn't care! I still had to put my body through that damaging thing! He left me Tsume…..He left me…" I took a step back as I growled still. My growls grew low as I sat there murmuring the end part over and over.

FlashBack

I ran into the den that I once loved and called home. Now it was like a vacant place and I never wnated to return. Why did this happen to me? Why did everything bad happen to me. I just wanted to crawl in a whole and die. I felt the pups stir in my stomach...I looked down at my round black stomach.

If he wanted to kill himself and destroy me. I'll kill...them...and destroy what he ever gave me. I'll destroy the thing that he loved the most. Iris you may have beat me to death but I will make you stir in your damn grave for killing me inside.

I slowly walked to the river where everything happen. I looked down at the water and slowly made my way into it. I felt the rocks under me. I stopped on the edge of the shallow part, right where it become deep. I looked down in the deep abyss of the water. That's when I took one step forward and sunk to the bottom.

I fought back the intinct to swim up for...No...I had to kill what he loved the most! I must kill what he loved the most...I don't want no memory of him.

I felt the water rushing into my lungs. My stomach filling with water as well. Everything was becoming dark...I couldn't see no more...Iris...Pups...Will you still accept me with love in the end...

..."Polarisa! WAKE UP! Guys she coming back!" Nurse barked out to me harshly.

It felt wierd...I felt lighter...I sat up quikcly, making myself dizzy. I shook my head and looked at everyone that was sitting around me. They all gave a look of sorrow...What was wrong?

"Polarisa...we couldn't save them...I'm sorry...we tried our all to save them..." Nurse whimpered to me as she lowered her head.

My eyes got wide when i looked down at my slip stomach. I felt my whimpers coming. I wanted my pups back...I regretted ever saying I wanted to get rid of them. I realize how much I loved having them in me. I loved knowing I was making a life out of someone I loved...But out of my own selffish needs I killed the life i was creating. I wanted to kill myself now...

I didn't want to tell them the I killed the pupies on purpose...I wanted them to believe that I was swimming and I fell into the deep part.

"Let me be by myself...please Nurse...I'll be fine...just give me some time to myself..." I whimpered to her. She nodded her head and turned to make everyone leave...

I sat there in the darkness of the forest. I wanted to be left alone to feel depress in my own thoughts. Forgive me Iris...Pups...

I felt my markings glowing and I had to let out a howl. I howled to the moon, that night none stop. I wasn't going to stop till every drop of my energy was gone...Til every breathe was out my lungs...Til every tear I cried was dried up...

I stopped quickly and jumped when I heard gun shots...!

"NO! Hunters!" I barked out aggressively as my markings burned with energy.

I jumped and ran throught the forest back to the main group. I had to help my pack!

Funny...how things are taken from you...and when there gone you just realize how much every single wolf meant to you...how much each everyone had made an impact on you...interesting how my turn of events happen to me...

End Of Flashback

I felt myself shivering and that's when the wave of whimpers came. Tsume slowly lifted himself up and walk over to me. He brushed his fur against me and pushed me against the wall entrance.

I stumbled over and sat down lightly. Tsume then slowly made his way behind me.

Everything that happens next was almost a blur of my time.

Tsume bit the cuff of my neck and he growled lightly. I lied down in front of him. I growled back in return and felt my entrance open lightly. He hopped on top of my and entered me. I barked lightly at the intrusion. I looked up as best as I can and realized his pushed me on the other side of the wall. No one could see what we we're doing. I felt safe for some reason, Tsume's under belly touching my back. I whimpered as he kept pounding into me. It felt so good doing this. I felt Tsume stiffen on top of me as he ejaculated in me.

I barked and licked his muzzle lightly. He hopped off me but we were still locked. I didn't mind, I didn't put a fuss that we were still lock. I just got annoyed when he kept pulling me in a different direction.

Tsume was done and pulled out of me. I turned my back on him and started to lick myself clean.

"I won't leave you Polarisa…I won't let you down." Tsume barked softly as bit into the cuff of my neck again. I knew he wanted to start the routine all over again.

After about 30 minutes of breeding, we walked back to the others. They didn't wake up from my barking and whimpers. I walked over to the far left corner and lied down. Tsume joined me in the corner and curled up behind me.

"What will we tell the others later on?" I barked lightly to him.

"Nothing, they will know enough information without us saying anything. I don't even feel like hearing their mouths anyway." Tsume growled out fiercely.

I couldn't help but giggle. How can someone be so mean and cold, yet at times like this you realize everyone got a soft side? I rolled my eyes and leaned some weight back on Tsume.

Tsume bit my ear lightly, "Now get some rest…I saw you limping!" I felt my fur heat up from his comment.

"If you were gentler I wouldn't be limping! You asshole! Damn, I know what my body is doing!" I growled back in defense.

Tsume bit my shoulder with a little bit of force but nothing damaging. "I was gentle but you're just too damn fragile! I mean who keep whimper after the ejaculation! So don't get salty with me bitch!" Tsume growled out as he bit a little harder.

I burst out laughing. Tsume was so easily mad. It was almost cute if you pushed him the right way. I closed my eyes and sighed into Tsume's fur. It felt nice to be waned again. I guess I did play by the books and everything came out just fine.

I just hope it goes smooth when everyone wakes up…Kiba…for some reason it felt like I betrayed you but at the same time… It feels like you betrayed me…. I just got back at you quicker…sorry.

I thought before closing my eyes and drifting off to sleep.

TBC