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A/N: Thank you all for all the wonderful reviews! They really help keep my creative muses flowing! I'm going to try and stay as in character as I can with Brennan but she can be a tough one to crack and I have always felt that what we see really isn't so much what we get with her if that makes any sense.
Chapter 2: I'm Pregnant…You're the father
I…I'm pregnant. You're the father.
Brennan had been going over this scenario in her mind what felt like a million different ways and times over the past week and a half but she could never muster up the courage to tell him. She could not find the right way to bring it up. They had only just decided to be in a relationship a little over two months ago after six years of buildup and now what was she supposed to say?
Oh hey Booth, I'm excited about our eighth date this week and by the way, I know this may be a little bit fast but we are going to have a baby.
She had been to the doctor a few days earlier to confirm her suspicions on her pregnancy. The doctor had commended Brennan for picking up on it so early as she was barely 8 weeks pregnant and most women didn't notice for a few more weeks but gave her the official word that yes, she was indeed pregnant. Brennan didn't quite know what made her just blurt it out the way she did when she had been rehearsing this clichéd, overly-dramatic scenarios of how to do it in her head but seeing how happy Angela and Hodgins were after the birth of their son she couldn't wait any longer to tell Booth that in a few short months they would be in the same position.
"What?" he asked her clearly sensing that something wasn't right with her. Brennan quickly tried to put together some elegant way to tell the man she was pretty sure she was in love with that she was having his child but as he stared at her intensely with his warm brown eyes all she could think was that she hoped their child would inherit that gaze she knew and loved so much and blurted it out.
"I'm…I'm pregnant. You're the father." There. It was out. He knew. And now all that was left was to wait for his reaction. At first she was worried because he face remained tense but after a few seconds the corners of his lips started to curl up and a giant smile spread across his handsome face causing her to smile in return.
"No…Bones…you're preg…I'm the…we're going to have a baby?" Booth seemed unable to form a complete thought and the smile that was spread across his face seemed to be getting even bigger.
"Yes," She laughed at his reaction. "We are going to have a baby Booth. Is this…ok?" Brennan started shifting her weight back and forth between her legs nervously waiting for his reply.
"Is this ok? No Bones this is not ok." Booth said causing Brennan's heart to skip a beat.
Oh no! He's doesn't want this baby. He doesn't want to help me raise this child. I'm going to have to do this alone. I knew this would happen. Why was I so irrational to think that everything would work out like a fairytale?
"I don't understand…you are smiling and seem to be acting excited so how can this not be ok? You do understand that I will not in any way hold you finically responsible and you don't have to worry about…"
"Woah woah woah! Bones calm down! If you would give me a chance to talk I could tell you that I don't think this is ok, I think this is amazing!" Booth said taking her head in his hands and pulling her close to him so that their noses were touching.
"Booth it's not logical to…wait, you think this is amazing?" Brennan asked her smile returning and her heart starting to return to normal.
"Yes Bones I think this is amazing! Do you have any idea how long I have wanted to have a family with you? Bones, you have no idea how deep my feelings are for you. I…I want you to know that I am going to be there for you every step of the way! I'm going to be there for all of the doctor's appointments, all of the late night cravings, the morning sickness, I'll be there for the birthing classes, to coach you through the birth, to be there to hold your hand and let you scream at me during labor, and be there with you to bring this life we created into the world. I'm going to be there with you to raise this child. There is never going to be a single moment where you are going to have to do this alone do you understand me?" Booth pulled Brennan's head toward him and kissed her lightly on the forehead. Brennan's eyes had filled with tears at this point.
"Yes Booth I understand. Sorry, must just be the hormones coursing through my body as it adjusts to the pregnancy." Brennan said wiping the tears away from her eyes.
"You have nothing to apologize about Bones there are some very whacky things going on inside your body right now that you have to get used to. Now we have a lot we have talk about but I would rather not do it here on this street corner if that is alright with you?" Booth asked leading her upstairs to his apartment.
"I had so many different scenarios in my head of how to tell you that were much…nicer then this but I just couldn't keep it a secret anymore." Brennan said.
"I'm glad you didn't" Booth said as he opened up the door to his apartment. "Do you need anything?"
"No Booth I'm great thanks! I'm just going to go and put one of your old t-shirts on and get ready for bed." Bones said heading for the bedroom.
"Ok Bones, I'll be there in a minute so we can talk." Booth went through all the motions of getting ready for bed but was too full of emotion to really get anything done properly so he just decided to head into bed and start talking things over with Brennan.
"Hey Bones, so I think the first thing we need to work out is…" Booth opened the door to his bedroom and found that Brennan was already on his bed in nothing but her underwear and one of his t-shirts with a look of angelic peace on her face. He stood and took her in for a minute. She was the most beautiful woman he had seen and something about her lying there in his bed in one of his old hockey t-shirts combined with the knowledge that she was carrying his child made him fall even more in love with her then he already was and he didn't even think that was possible.
He had almost slipped and confessed his love for her tonight after she told him but quickly thought better of it. He was pretty sure she knew how he felt about her but still it had never been verbalized and he knew that there was special meaning in that. Confessing your love for someone was such a big step in a relationship and he didn't want it to get lost in the excitement of finding out they were going to be parents. Also, he didn't want to scare her. He knew she was still getting used to the idea of opening up enough to be in a real relationship with him and while she was doing amazing at it everything was just small baby steps.
"What are you doing?" She asked.
"Looking at you," Booth said with a smile.
"Why?" Brennan said laughing trying to understand his actions.
"Because you are the most beautiful woman in the world," Booth said taking his shirt and pants off and getting into bed next to her and turning on his side to face her.
"There is no way that you could possibly come to that conclusion because you would have to see every woman alive on the Earth and then compare me to each one individually and that would be impos…you were simply making a complimentary statement weren't you?" Brennan said. She was getting so much better with her social skills but sometimes things still eluded her.
"Yes Bones. I was giving you a compliment." And he leaned over and kissed her gently on the lips and wrapped his arm around her pulling her close to him and they lay there in silence for awhile while he stroked her back. Brennan was the first to speak.
"Do you think this is too fast? I man we only just got our relationship going and we are already going to bring a baby into it. Do you think we are ready?"
"No I don't. I would have liked for it to happen a little farther down the road when we were more settled with each other but we have what? Eight, nine months to work on sorting that out. The way I see it, our relationship isn't exactly new, we have been in it for six years now and it's just progressing to the next step. And clearly right now, the next step for us is a baby. I think that the universe knows what it's doing clearly it wanted us to bring this life into the world so it set about a chain reaction to see to it that that happened." Brennan didn't usually agree with Booth's musings about fate and its relation to the universe but his argument seemed valid to her.
"Do you think it's too soon?" Booth asked her. He knew where he stood on all of this. He was a family man through and through and the chance to have that with the woman he was head over heels for was like a dream come true but he knew that a family hadn't always been on her agenda so he was curious to see where she stood on the matter.
"I really wish it would have happened later. That we could have had more time together with just the two of us but you are right, we still have about eight months left for that if my calculations are correct and it's not like we don't know each other extremely well so I think it will all be ok."
"But…are you happy about this? I mean, you are going to be a mom now. That's…huge." Booth asked her. The last thing he wanted was for her to just enter into this because she thought it was something that he would want. Brennan stopped to think about that for a minute. She had never once second guessed herself that she was going to have this baby but she never stopped and thought about the actual motherhood aspect of it very much. She could already feel an attachment and love for the child forming and of course she had thought about the practical things such as this small person being dependent upon her for everything but now she was seeing other parts to it. The hugs, the kisses and smiles, pictures on the refrigerator, the I love you's and she felt her heart melt. She moved her hand down to her stomach and looked up into Booth's eyes.
"Yes, I am very happy about this. You know that I have been wanting a child of my own for a while now but then things between us got complicated and it just didn't seem like the best time and emotional environment to bring a child into but yes, I am very much looking forward to being a mother."
"I'm glad because I wouldn't want you to do this just for me. Wow…I still can't believe we are going to have a baby." Booth said and suddenly wished he could hold their child now. He would have to settle for the next best thing.
"Can I…?" Booth asked with his hand hovering close to her stomach.
"Of course!" Brennan grabbed his hand and placed it on her belly. "You won't be able to feel anything yet of course but yes anytime!" Booth rubbed his hand gently over Brennan's stomach.
"Wow Bones. A baby." Booth said still smiling at the thought.
"Yea Booooth…a baby" Brennan said through a yawn.
"You need to sleep. We can finish talking in the morning." Booth said kissing her forehead.
"Ok. Good night Booth." Brennan said reaching up to kiss his lips one last time then curling into him.
"Goodnight Bones." Booth said tightening her arms around her and within minutes he could tell that she was asleep. His mind was reeling and his emotions felt like they were about to explode but he knew he needed to get some sleep to be ready for tomorrow and to figure out exactly where they were going to go from here.
"Goodnight Baby." Booth whispered before he let sleep find him as well.
