Ahhh the time has finally come! What really happened between Li and Jake :D I hope you guys are excited about this as I am lol :D I hope I get more reviews I would really like to know what you guys think of the story so far…..

Btw this chapter is all in Li's point of view….

Li's point of view

"I'm ready to tell you everything now." I breathed as I looked at Rose in the eyes. She looked at me with concern as I sighed.

"I am sure he didn't regret saving you, Li" She whispered as she grabbed my hand in comfort. I smiled at her.

"He did at first, but when….let me start from the beginning," I said as I prepared myself inwardly. I know I can do this. I can tell her. She is my sister. I want to. "I am going to tell you from what I know and remember because with everything my memory is kinda fuzzy about my past."

"Because of Noah and the memories I have," I nodded in agreement.

"For as long as I could remember I have always had a crush….sometimes obsession with Jake. I would follow him places. I would never have the courage to talk to him. I would also beat the shit or threaten any girl that would go near him. At first I thought he didn't notice, but he did and he grew angry about it. He would yell at me and pull pranks on me to get me to hate him, but I never did. I never will. See I fell in love with him and I fell hard…harder than anything." I smiled sadly as I remembered all the little things I would do to get him to notice me. From actually fixing my hair in the morning to purposefully walk to his classes so he could see me. I would always think that he was in love with me to, but he didn't want to ruin his reputation. "Then a family member of mine invited me to go to some outing with her family, her best friends family, Nick, and me. I was so excited that day" I chuckled softly as I felt the tear fall down my cheek.

"I even did my hair, make up, and put on nice clothing. I didn't know that the family also invited Jake because they were doing me a favor of setting me up with him." I chuckled. "but it ended up going horribly wrong. The whole way Jake ignored me and he was sitting next to me. He didn't pay attention to me and when I tried to get his attention he turned his head away or tell me a nasty comment."

"Asshole!" Rose muttered as she looked down to the side. I couldn't help but laugh at her. "Why did you even fall for him! You could have done better." I raised an eyebrow at her knowing that it pisses her off.

"Why did you fall for Dimitri?" I retorted as I looked at her serious.

"That's different!" Rose pointed out. I looked at her.

"Oh really? How?"

"Dimitri wasn't an ass like you Jake!" Rose hissed in anger for Jake. I felt the need to defend him.

"He wasn't an ass…I was just clingy I guess!" I said as my voice drifted towards the end. "He wasn't always an ass to me. He was just at first then…."

"Then what…"

"Well that car ride was when the accident happened and I died, but Jake brought me back to life without knowing. I remember I the way I felt. I felt to so near to him. So in tune so happy, but I also felt him blocking certain things from me. I would always get sucked into his head when he is on dates because of his hormones. I hated it and I would run to ruin the dates no matter what."

"What he do?" Rose asked interested. I can tell that she already hates Jake by the murderous look she is doing. I don't think she will feel the same way though at the end.

"Same as always…..I remember the exact words he said on the last time I ruined his date with a girl he was trying to bang for months." I immediately felt the memory come into as I described everything to Rose.

Flashback

"Wait! Jake! I'm Sorr…" I cried as I ran grabbing his hand. Jake turned around and glared at me snatching his hand away. His blonde hair whipped angrily in the wind as his gray eyes showed nothing, but anger to me. This isn't the first time this happened, but for some reason I feel like this time he is angrier than ever.

"DON'T TOUCH ME, ADALIA!" I flinched as he yelled at me. I felt horrible. All I wanted to do was for him to notice me. For him to love me back. "YOU KNOW WHAT DON'T EVEN GO NEAR! GOD I AM SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF YOU! HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU! I DON'T LIKE YOU!" He yelled at me as he threw his muscular hands up in exasperation. Man if my friends saw me they would be so shocked to see that I am not yelling or doing anything back to him like I normally do to other people. The difference with him is that I love him to much and I am bonded with him. " I HATE THAT YOU CAN READ MY THOUGHTS! I HATE THAT YOU GO IN MY HEAD! I HATE THAT YOU ALWAYS RUIN MY DATES BECAUSE OF YOUR OBSESSION WITH ME! DAMN IT WAS BAD BEFORE THE ACCIDENT, BUT NOW THIS IS JUST PLAIN MESSED UP! HOW MANY TIMES DO YOU HAVE TO SEE THAT WE DON'T BELONG TOGETHER! WE NEVER WILL!" He yelled. I flinched back at his words feeling guilty and sad at the same time.

"Jake I.." I couldn't finish because he had more to say.

"YOU KNOW I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU APPRICATE THAT I SAVED YOU, BUT THE TRUTH IS I regret saving you! I didn't even want to! It just happened! I mean we were never friends before and I never liked you because of the way you acted. So why do you think it will change now?" He said as he looked at me in the eyes. I felt my tears go down. He regrets saving me? But why? I thought….

"I tt thought…" I stuttered as my tears kept coming down. Jake looked at me with concern. I felt the wave of concern come from the bond and something else. Regret? But then Jake immediately blocked his emotions from me and gave me his guardian mask.

"You thought wrong! Now please just leave me alone!" He sighed as he turned around and walked away from me. Leaving me in the cold looking at his back while he walked my tears still coming down.

End of flashback

"After that I just did what he asked me. I left him alone. I didn't even interrupt him on his dates. I acted like he was just some other guy that I didn't want to know. Even though it hurt me so much all I thought was how happy was he? I just wanted him happy and if me hurting myself did it then I would do it." I said. I felt a tear go down my cheek and land on my hand as I looked down. Rose grabbed my hand and squeezed it again. I looked up at her to see her smiling at me weakly. I can she her grief towards me and anger to Jake also I can also see that she can understand the pain I went through a little.

"He was lying you know that right?" Rose said as she looked at me. I smiled weakly at her. I know.

"Yeah I know, but it still hurt me so much. It was like when Dimitri told you the love fades thing. You knew he was lying, but you still felt the pain in your heart. But you would do anything to keep him happy, right? That is why you ran away!" Rose simply nodded in agreement at me, but I can see the pain in her eyes as she remembers what Dimitri did to her.

"What happened after? Did you find some else?" Rose asked as she looked at me with sad curious eyes. I nodded.

"Yeah, he was my best friend and he had a crush on me for the longest time. So I decided to finally give him a chance since I knew I would never be with Jake. Well his name was Alex and he was the sweetest guy. He was funny, smart, dumbass sometimes, and he and I would flirt a lot. We would joke and laugh so I thought why not give him a chance. When I finally accepted to be his girlfriend he was so happy and I admit I was happy to with him. But throughout the time with him I couldn't help, but want to be with Jake. Jake was the one that captured my heart and stayed with it." I chuckled as I ran my hand through my bright red hair.

"I know what you mean!" Rose sighed. "I did the same with Mason! I gave him a shot, but the whole time I wanted it to be Dimitri." I nodded in agreement.

"It isn't easy. To fall out of love with your soulmate!" I said I sounded like a damn teenager in love, but I don't care.

"Did Jake find out!"

"Yeah! That day when he grabbed me to talk to me was my best and worst day of my life."

Flashback…

"Jake! What the hell! Let go of me!" I hissed as I tried to snatch my hand away from his grip, but he didn't care he just kept dragging me towards the woods away from the wards.

"No I said I needed to talk to you! You should have paid attention!" Jake growled as he continued to drag me. I ignored the happy feeling about being touched by him and huffed in frustration.

"Whatever!" I simply said as I let him drag me. Jake continued to drag me in silence until we got to a clearing. I looked in shock to see a river running through the middle as fireflies swarmed around. It was beautiful there was even a fallen tree to sit on in front of the water. Jake led me to the tree and sat down. I sat down next to him. "Fine! What did you want to say?" I sighed in defeat as I looked at him.

"Do you love him?" He asked me. I looked at him in shock not believing what he just asked me. I felt my anger rise as I saw his eyes glitter under the moonlight.

"What!" I said as I narrowed my eyes at him. Jake just looked at me without flinching or anything.

"Do you love him?" He repeated as he went to go grab my hands. I immediately pulled away and stood up.

"Why the hell you care!" I hissed ignoring the pain in my chest. "You don't give a shit about me!"

"Don't say that! I do care about you!" Jake said raising his voice as he got up to. He took a step towards me, but I just backed up a step.

"No you don't! You said it yourself not so long ago! You said that you regret saving me!" I said. I felt a wave of regret pass through the bond to me as he stared at me with grief.

"I didn't mean that!" Jake said looking down at the grass.

"Then why did you say it!" I hissed getting angrier as I stepped closer to him.

"I just….I….I don't know anymore!" Jake sighed in frustration. I stood right in front of him looking at him. Studying him through the bond.

"Jake! What do you want? Did you run out of girls and decided to make me your new goal for you to bang then dump me." I said. Jake immediately snapped his head up and looked at me angrily.

"IS THAT SERIOUSLY HOW LOW YOU THINK I AM! I WOULD NEVER DO THAT TO YOU! I ….I….I…DAMN IT WHY CAN'T I SAY IT! WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR ME TO BE NEAR YOU! WHY IS IT THAT I CAN'T FORCUS WHEN I AM WITH YOU? WHY IS THAT WHEN YOU ARE NOT NEAR ME THAT I CAN'T CONCENTRATE! I CAN'T THINK OF ANYONE….YOU INVADE MY MIND!" Jake yelled in frustration as he killed a rock into the water. I continue to look at him in shock. Did he just…

"Jake…." I whispered. I felt my heart beat faster.

"Why is it you! And what makes it worse is that I feel like you just always knew no matter what. And all the horrible things I said and did to you….you forgive me everytime..you were always there.. Why?" Jake whispered as he came closer to me. My breath quickened as he cupped my cheek making me look into his gray eyes. All I saw all I feel is Love. Just Love.

Jake leaned closer to me as he brought my face closer to him. Our lips only inches apart.

"Why do I love you so much?" He whispered. My eyes widened as his lips collided into mine. I couldn't….I can't believe he is kissing me… I kissed him back. I never felt anything like it. Not even when I kissed Alex. I felt like my whole body was on fire. Like a dragon is inside of me and is so excited that it is finally free. Our lips moved in sync. I felt Jake wrap his arms around my waist and he pulled me closer to his muscular body. I let my hand go around his neck as I pulled in closer deepening the kiss.

We finally broke apart panting for air. Our foreheads resting against each other as he continued to hold each other closer.

"I don't regret saving you!" Jake whispered as he kissed me again then pulled away. I smiled at him. My body feels so weird I just want to burst.

Then I felt it the nausea. I clutched my stomach and bent down in pain. Jake looked at me concerned.

"Li? What's wrong? Are you okay!" Jake asked worriedly. I quickly scanned around the trees to see two sets of red eyes look at me back. NO!

"We need to leave!" I hissed as I grabbed Jake's hand. I know there are more. Jake looked at me confused then followed my gaze. I felt his hand tighten around my hand. We saw more red eyes appear.

"Listen to me, Li! I need you to run!" He said as he looked at me in the eyes.

"No! I won't leave you!" I gasped as my tears came down.

"Don't worry I got my stake, but you need to go warn the guardians that there are Strigoi here!" He said. I looked behind me to see the river. We were right at the edge.

"But Jake the river! We are trapped!" I said as I grabbed my two stakes. I keep two because my Aunt Roxy trained me to use two for combat.

"Fuck!" Jake cursed under his breath as he remembered the water. I felt him panic through the bond. He is deciding what to do. "We are going to need to fight our way back. So five for you and five for me. Because from what I see there are only ten, am I right?"

"Yeah I only sense ten." I said. I looked up at him for some reason I couldn't help, but feel this is the last time I will see him. "Be careful!"

"I should tell you that!" Jake said as he kissed me. Once we pulled apart we both ran at full speed to the Strigoi. Immediately we broke into battle.

Five Strigoi surrounded me and Five surrounded him like we planned. I immediately took down the first two with my stakes on each hand. I felt through the bond that Jake is still fighting so I went back. A male Strigoi tried to jump at me from behind, but I just move to the side and slammed my stake through his chest killing him. Three down. Two to go. The two that were left were girls. One had brown curly hair and she looked Spanish. The other had straight red hair with freckles. I am guessing Irish for her.

The Spanish girl immediately launched at me, but I easy slashed her across the face with my stake on my right hand and my left hand I slashed the stake to her stomach. She backed up screaming in pain. I was going to finish her until I felt the bond break. Jake…No…

I turned my head to see two of the Strigoi that attacked Jake bite his neck. I saw how his beautiful gray eyes turned to red. I saw how the when the two Strigoi finished they dragged him deeper in the woods. I tried to run after him, but the Irish bitch tackled me down. I grunted in frustration as I rolled over so that I was on top. I lifted both of my hands in the air and repeatedly stabbed the Strigoi under me. She screamed in pain then it wasn't her no longer screaming. It is me I continued to scream as I continued to stab her. I cried and cried. How can they take him right after he finally confessed to me? Why does the universe hate me?

End of Flashback..

Rose looked at me with sorrow in her eyes. I cried.

"After that is when I gave up..and got emotionally stressed….also after that is when the shadows appeared." I said as I sniffed. Rose didn't say anything she just looked at me. "Please say something!" I begged as I continued to cry.

"I am sorry, Li!" Rose whispered as she hugged me. I cried on her shoulder as she stroked my hair comfortingly. "It's ok, Li!"

"It's not fair! Right when I got him…..I lose him!" I continued to sob. I remember how when I saw his Strigoi I froze and he took advantage of it and killed me.

No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear the whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark

You feel so lonely and ragged
You lay here broken and naked
My love is
Just waiting
To clothe you in crimson roses

I will be the one that's gonna find you
I will be the one that's gonna guide you
My love is
A burning, consuming fire

That was so sad :'( poor Li no wonder she didn't want anyone to know her past...its so sad...so plz review and tell me wat you think of this chapter..Li will have the courage to face Jake again? Will Rose have another memory? WIll they ever get out of Shadowland?