The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on.
The Climb - Miley Cyrus
Last Time: (In Jasper's POV)
School again, and it was boring. Boring as hell. Alice hung all over me, and Edward did the same. I watched Bella walking in the hallway. Her eyes grey once again. Some blonde skank walked in to her. The skank was nearly a foot taller than Bella.
"Sorry." Bella muttered politely and carried on talking to Rose.
"You should be." The skank glared, towering over her.
"On second thought. I'm not. And you're a fucking jerk." Bella glared. Blonde skank looked scared and I laughed. Fucker should be.
"Uh.. I-I.. Sorry." Blondie said and ran down the hall. It was so funny to see someone as tall as that be afraid of some one so small.
But, that was just Bella.
Now..
Bella Point of View.
I laughed watching this blonde nearly six feet tall bimbo run down the halls away from me. It was truly hilarious. She was that scared of me. Me. Tiny little Bella Hale. It made me laugh.
Rose was gasping for un needed air laughing and clutching her stomach.
"Oh my fuck, Bells you really scared the shit out of her!" Emmett laughed, slinging an arm around my shoulders and doing the same with Rose.
"I'll never understand why people are so afraid of me." I dead panned. Rose tried to keep a straight face before the smile broke out across her features. I loved seeing my sister smile. It made me smile.
"Wow, I don't know. Maybe it's because you're a five foot midget," I glared as the words left her mouth. My smile now gone. "And you're extremely young. You have this stone cold heart that makes people fear you. You are fucking hot as hell and have a mouth like a fucking sailor. You -"
"Rose, I get it." I told her, holding my head up high. Fuck all of those ugly fuckers if they thought I was going to bow to them and their shit. Did they have another thing coming.
Yeah, I had shit self esteem. About as much as a rock actually. Maybe less. But that didn't mean that I couldn't fake it. I would keep my chin up and eyes forward. It worked every time. Shoulders never hunched, walking like I owned everything in my sight. People would part frantically, pushing themselves up against the the lockers and walls. All watching as I would walk past.
Sick fuckers, had they never seen some one like me? Like us?
Not like it mattered anyway.
As soon as this stupid fucking mission was over and we over took the Volturi, we would have complete control of the vampire world. And I would have Jasper back.
For now, I had to put up with this.. This thing. This Edward Cullen that made me want to rips my eyes out of my fucking skull so I'd never have to see that again.
The look in his eyes was vile, every subtle touch he made I wanted to throw up. If I could. Actually, with Edward Cullen here, that was probably possible right now. But what would I throw up? Venom? The blood from my hunt a few days ago had almost completely dissolved into my dead organs. I'd need to hunt again today.
"Hello, Bella." Edward smiled as he sat down next to me in class. I forced that smile back on my face and turned to face him.
"Hey Edward." I grinned. I kept my thoughts on what the look on his face would be when I got to crush his entire world. That fueled my smile as he started talking about some nonsense.
"- I know that you are probably busy.. But what do you say?" He smiled shyly. Virgin vampire say what?
"About what?" I asked, running a hand through my inky black hair and fluffing it a little. I loved my layered hair. Edward's eyes followed my hand as it made it's way through my hair, his pupils dilated and eyes darkening. I could practically smell pre-cum.
Who the hell gets off on me running a hand through my hair? Seriously! This loser was pathetic.
I kept a look of boredem on my face. If he thought he was getting me, he'd have to work for it, wouldn't he?
"I.. Er. I erm-" Ever heard a vampire stutter before? Sure I did it from time to time, but this was like.. Like a fucking.. There weren't an words for it. This was just an Edward Cullen.
"Gonna spit it out any time soon, Eddie?" I teased. He looked flustered even though he couldn't blush. I knew he hated the nick name 'Eddie', so I called him that. Fuck, I could get away with murder in his books.
"I uh, yeah.. Yeah." He stammered. I turned back to my book and started drawing. I didn't quite know what I was drawing yet, but Edward was starting to get boring.
"If you can't talk to me properly, then don't fucking bother." I said in a very calm voice. Now I actually smelled it. Pre-cum. I wrinkled my nose in disgust. He smelled foul.
"Excuse me." He said and abruptly left the class room. I held in my laugh the whole time and continued drawing. I couldn't resist the temptation as I pulled out my black cell phone and slid it open. I opened my inbox, the last message I got was from Rose.
Edward spilled something in his pants.
x.
I waited silently for her reply, bobbing my left leg up and down before crossing my right leg over the left and tapping my pencil against my desk.
"Ms. Hale. If you could please stop that noise." The teacher that I didn't bother learning the name of glared at me.
I put my iPod plugs in my ears, flipping him the middle finger, ignoring the gasps going around.
"Did she just pull the finger to the teacher?" Some one whispered and I fought back the laugh.
"Yeah.. She did. What an attention whore. I mean seriously.." I recognized that voice as the nearly six feet tall bimbo that tried to knock me down in the hallways. I turned sharply and glared at her.
"You better watch you're fucking mouth if you want to keep it on your ugly little face, Darlin'." I told her, a slight Texan accent coming through, but I masked it pretty well. She paled visibly and turned around.
"Hale, get out of my class room." The teacher fumed. I looked at him blankly.
"Hale?" I questioned, raising a delicate eye brow. He stammered over his words for a few seconds before inhaling a huge breath.
"Your last name suit's you well. Small, cold as ice, and hurtful." He said as politely as possible. I was openly laughing at him now. That was it?
"That was pathetic." I got out between laughs. He glared at me, I glared back. He shifted uncomfortably. My phone vibrated in my pocket. I pulled it out and slid it open.
"Ms. Hale, there is no texting in class. If you would please hand your phone in-"
"Buy your own fucking phone. You aren't getting mine you fucking dinosaur." Actually, I was older than him. Oh well, he looked like he'd been around since before me.
"Get. Out. Of. My. Classroom." He gritted between his obviously false teeth. With my vampire sight, I saw them jiggling around and hardly staying in his mouth with each angry jagged breath he inhaled sharply and breathed out forcefully. He looked like an angry as fuck lion that just got his ass handed to him by a butterfly.
It was an Oh So Edward moment.
Stupid teacher. Was any one in this town not fucked up?
I picked up my black and grey plaid bag an slung the one strap it had over my shoulder, picking my books up in my hand. I picked up my cell and started reading Rosie's message as I walked out.
Ew. Fucking disgusting.
I don't think I'll be able to look at him.
It was all ready hard to do.
He can't help it you're sexy as fuck.
Wanna go?
xxx
I laughed. That was sooo Emmett texting from Rose's phone.
"Hale, cell phone please." The teacher demanded. One hand on my shoulder, the other holding out, palm facing upward, expectantly waiting for my phone to be placed in it. I gritted my teeth, it took all I had not to possess him in front of all the humans in the class.
"Get your fucking hands off of me." My eyes never leaving his, as his shifted uncomfortably. He removed his hand but his hand stayed out. "You aren't getting my fucking phone. Go buy your own." I whirled around and stormed out of the class room hearing the whispers.
"She's so hot. Think I can get her?" "No way, she is out of your league, Letterman." "Aw come on Crowley, don't be like that."
Ugh, I hated this school. I smiled as Paramore started blaring through my ear phones. I typed my reply to Rose. Well, Emmett.
Oh don't you know it, Em.
I got kicked out of class, hows now?
xx
I knew he'd get my sarcasm. Em was good like that.
Sweet, I'll bring Rosie. :)
xxx
I laughed quickly typing my reply as I sat by the fountain. I noticed Jasper walking toward me, Alice hanging from his arm. I felt a huge pang of sadness hit me. A tinge of fear, hurt. It sounded fucking stupid being scared of losing him to something like that. But it was still there. His eyes met mine immediately, I saw the sadness and hurt in his, even from the distance. He also questioned my fear. I shook my head slightly.
"You know, I wish that I had Jasper's girl. I wish that I had Jasper's girl. Where can I find a woman like that? I play along with the charade, there doesn't seem to be a reason to change. You know, I feel so dirty when they start talking cute."Emmett started singing his version of Jesse's girl. I smiled, but glared as I heard Alice giggling, obviously thinking it was about her.
"So, we gonna go?" Em waggled his eye brows suggestively. I laughed.
"Where's Rose?"
"Dude, you would do that?"
"Em.. Brain out of the gutter now babe." I smiled. He sighed.
"I knew it was too good to be true. Damn, we don't have to have a threesome.."
"Em.."
"I know. Hey, how come Rosie hasn't-" There was a loud smack. "OW! - Hit me in the head yet.." He finished his sentence.
"Hey Rose." I smiled. She smiled back.
"He just wants to make you feel loved, honey." She smiled at me, and glared at her husband. "Unfortunately, not the right kind. We are not having an open relationship like Petey and Char." She folded her arms. Emmett whined and reached for my hand, pulling me toward them.
"But it's Bella.." He defended sarcastically. We all started laughing. Trust Emmett to break out in his jokes.
"Hi Bella." Edward's voice cut through. His eyes only on my, and the pure obsession was back.
Fuck, here we go.