Four months later

Flashback

"How are you holding up Carlos?"

"I don't know"

"I know how much you wanted a baby and I'm sorry we can't have one but maybe we could adopt."

"No it's not the same"

"What do you mean?"

"It wont be ours, I want to experience the miracle and the pain of bring another life in this world. I want a baby"

"That will never happen Carlos because neither of us can have one. The doctor said it was very rare for a guy to get pregnant and it was a miracle that James did."

"It's not fare"

"Carlos"

"I want one"

"What do you want to do?"

"Keep trying I mean we can't stop"

"Carlos it's impossible. I'm sorry but it will never happen."

Carlos looks down "This sucks"

Logan takes Carlos hand "I know but you can't let this get to you. I know we will never have a baby but we can still be a family. You, me, Kendall, James and their baby. I know you'll make an awesome uncle"

"You think so?"

"Yeah and who knows maybe one day we can have a family of our own. We just got to keep trying and I promise I'll never give up."

"Thanks Logan"

"I love you Carlos"

"I love you too and I'm sorry for shutting you out like that. I'm really glad I have you in my life."

"Me too"

Present

Carlos was walking down the street. His conversation with Logan still fresh on his mind. He could stop thinking about one day having a baby of his own. He and Logan tried and tried and tried but it never happened. Logan finally gave up all hope and stopped trying and that broke Carlos heart. Over the last four months they got farther and farther apart from each other and Carlos feared that their relationship was over.

James was also lying on his bed rubbing his belly. He was only four months old and Kendall was already driving himself crazy with the baby stuff. He nearly broke his neck trying to heave everything up the stars and he was currently out getting more stuff. A couple weeks ago they found out that they were having a girl and James couldn't be happier. Although Kendall wanted a boy he couldn't wait until she got here.

James was jogged out of his thoughts when the door opened and Kendall walked in with more bags. James slowly sat up with his back resting against the head board.

"Kendall"

"Hey Babe you wont believe what I got for our baby girl."

"Kendall"

"I found the cutest clothes and shoes and toys and-"

"Kendall!"

Kendall looks up "Yeah"

"Do you remember our bet?"

"Yeah it were having a girl so I have to do whatever you say"

"Yes and I'm collecting now"

"What do you mean?"

"Starting now you have to do anything I say and I want you to lay with me"

"What?"

"Lay with me Kendall." Kendall puts the bags down and sat on the bed next to James. "I said lay not sit Kendall"

Kendall smiles and lies on James legs. "I'm kind of going overboard with the baby's things aren't I?"

James smiles "You think her room is so packed you can't even get in there anymore that's why you bring everything in here now. Sooner or later we wont be able to fit in here anymore either."

"Sorry I'm just so excited"

"I know but you gone all the time now."

Kendall rubs James belly "I'm sorry"

"It's ok"

James closed his eyes and enjoyed the touch of Kendall warm hands. All of a sudden he tensed and his eyes shot open. He looked down at Kendall who was just as shocked as he was. "Kendall did you feel that?"

"Yean I did she kicked"

James started to laugh "Oh my god she finally kicked I can't believe it. Kendall you see what you almost missed"

"Yes I have more than enough stuff for her I not going anywhere."

Kendall got up and was about to kiss James but there was a knock at the door. "Yean come on in"

Logan comes in "Hey guys I didn't mean to disturb you"

James smiles "That's ok guess what she kicked"

Logan's hand was in his pockets "Oh um that's great"

Kendall sits up "What is it Logan?"

"I can't find Carlos. He didn't sleep with me last night"

"Where did he sleep?" Said James

"Downstairs I went down there around six and he was nowhere to be found and I'm starting to get worried. I've been calling him all day but he's not answering."

Kendall gets up "I'm sure he's ok"

"No you don't understand he's not ok. Ever since we found out it was impossible for us to have a baby he's been down and I really think he's going to do something stupid. Kendall will you please help me find him."

Kendall grabs his jacket "Yeah I'm coming" James tries to get up but Kendall stops him "No you stay here"

"But Kendall-"

"Stay here in case he comes back ok and call me if he does"

James sits back down "Ok"

Kendall kisses James "I love you and I wont be back to late I promise." Kendall and Logan then leave.

James waited a minute then got dressed. He knew where Carlos went when he was upset and he was sure he was there now.