Ever fallen in love chapter 6: new love and a big mistake, a vampire academy fanfic

So here is the next chapter as promised and I would like to thank Ami Ivashkov-Belikov-Hathaway,Ravyn913, And Pigeons Flie314, queen vanity and Panky95 you are all awesome oh sorry and 8freya8, but I have decided not to add lemons sorry this story is going to stay rated T. Enjoy :) xoxo

I kept going over the letter over and over again:I
Dear Roza,
I love you and I'm sorry to do this but I have to leave with Tasha we will be happy together I Don't have a future with you. We can never have kids but Tasha cane give me that please try to understand.

Love you forever
Dimitri Belikov

my heart was shattering into a million tiny pieces, how could he, how could he do this to me he said he loved me and then left me broken, what should I do?
go to Christian, that annoying voice in my head kept telling me.

Christian POV

After my short conversation with Rose I headed to Lissa's room to surprise her. God pretending to be her boyfriend is really hard, she doesn't even care about me. I have looked at Rose so many times and yet she dent take notice, I really can't do this anymore. I have to break up with her, she doesn't love me and she deserves somebody better, more... royal. I am royal, but let's face it I don't have a Christian fan club (A.N. Yes he does! Everybody loves Christian!) . I was walking to Lissa's room when I saw Jesse come out and he looked kinda flustered. that was a bit weird.
" Hey Jesse" I said with a fake smile plastered on my face.
" Yo dude what's up?" he asked me with a smirk.
"nothing just going to see Liss, why were you coming out of her room a minute ago?" well I can't help it curiosity got the better of me.
"Oh nothing I was just helping her with her homework" he said with that annoying smirk still on his face. Strange kid, I didn't care though because I had a heart to break. I can't believe I'm about to do this to Lissa.
I was just about to knock when I heard a scream, it was faint but a scream nonetheless. I recognized it as Roses, no, not when I was so close to getting her please let nothing be wrong.

Rose POV

I screamed and screamed until my voice hurt. I then realized I was thirsty so I went for the alcohol. I was just about to drink my third bottle of beer when I heard a knock. I walked to the door slightly shakily because although I said this was my third beer I never said I didn't have drinks in-between haha I make myself laugh.
"come innn" I said in a sing song voice. Christian walked in looking as good as ever.
"Chrissssyyyyy hiiiiii what's up" I said popping the 'p' Hehehe I'm so funny.
But, it was weird because part of my body was telling me I really shouldn't be drinking, huh who cares.
"Rose are you drunk? Why?" he asked, that's when it happened, I told him everything the note, how Dimitri left me and I didn't let out a single tear. Huh I still have the feeling I'm missing something never mind.
"oh god rose I'm so sorry, he was an idiot for doing that to you" he told me, wow pyro is being really ... Nice? Yes nice wow maybe he likes me back, well there is only one way to find out. I leaned in and so did he, I saw his lips part and smiled and then started laughing hysterically. I saw hurt on his face, but it soon changed to understanding.
"God Rose your really drunk" he said letting out a long sigh.
"uh hu sure am hehehe" Darn it, I had ruined our almost kiss, well fuck me.
"Rose come on drink some water and have some food, it will help with the hangover tomorrow" awww he is so caring, I love him so much.
" I love you Chrissy" I said with a huge grin on my face.
"I love you to Rose" he told me with that amazing smile I love so much.
"Nooooooo, not as a friend as more, I want us to be more" I slid down to sit next to him on the couch, he looked happy, but also confused. What's so confusing, I like him end of story. I lent in for another kiss, but he pushed me away.
" I love you to Rose and that's why we can't do this now, I want our first kiss to be something special, not a drunken mistake" he said although his face told me a while different story.
" A drunken mistake? Oh like you? Haha just kidding"
We started laughing and talked about random things for a while, until he brought the subject up again.
"Rose, I was actually a mistake you know, they didn't want me, my mom and dad got drunk and a week later they found out she was pregnant" he said with a small frown on his face, I didn't mean to hurt him.

"I'm sorry I didn't know" I couldn't keep the pity out of my voice.

"Don't pity me Rose,I'm fine as you can see" yea he said that but the hurt was evident in his voice. I realized I had sobered up quite a bit so I said " I really do love you Christian, it's not because I'm hurt or because your nice, there is this pull I feel towards you. I try to figure it out, but I can't seem to. I'm a mess inside and my brain is desperately trying to sum up these feelings. I really think I love you. Do you feel the same?" I asked, my heart was beating so fast, I found my chest started to hurt.

"yes, I love you Rose, I love you more than you can ever imagine. Please tell me this isn't just because you are drunk because it would kill me" his eyes were looking into my soul and I could feel that the hole that Dimitri left open when he left was closed. I have found my lover, my friend, my soul mate all in one perfect package. This is it I love him and I'm never going to let him go.

"No, I am saying this because I love love you, I promise" I looked at him and saw he had the biggest grin on his face. He leaned in and I did to, the static was already building and we weren't even touching. His lips brushed against mine and that's all he did before he pulled away. He was teasing me.

"Sleep now" he smiled and placed a kiss a on my forehead.

"ok" I said and went to the bathroom to change. I changed into my hottest PJ's: a blood red night gown coming to just above mid thigh. The look on his face was indescribable, but I could sum it up with lust and lots of it.

I lay down, whilst Christian was still on the couch obviously thinking he was sleeping there.

"Christian you can't..." he didn't let me finish.

"yes sorry, we aren't that far along, I can't sleep in your room on your couch, stupid,stupid,stupid" he said frustrated whilst hitting hitting his forehead with his hand.

"actually I was going to say come here the couch causes terrible back pains" I said with a cheeky grin.

"Ok" he said smiling. He looked so cute.

Jesse POV:

I was making out with Mia wishing it was Lissa. I never thought I'd say this, but I was in love and with a nice girl. Lissa Dragomir. Suddenly a song blasted on the radio that reminded me of my situation when I told Lissa that I wanted Mia. A lie. But, I never really wanted anyone to know I wasn't really that much of a player. I could just imagine Lissa singing this to me:

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch his skin.
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?
(Let's pick up, pick up)

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I'd really let you kill this chorus?

Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
And hold a lover close
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

Rose POV:

I woke up to Christian holding my waist. I needed to wash up, so I got the clothes I would be wearing today and brought them into the bathroom. I turned on the radio and a song I liked came on it reminded me of what Christian has done for me:

[Verse 1]
To find this love of mine
I'd walk through wind and fire
Forever and always

These hollow hands reach out
For you to touch me now
Forever and always

[Chorus]
Dead inside
My heart and soul flatlines
Put your mouth on mine
And bring me back to life
Dead inside
No other satisfies
My blood runs dry
Take my life
Save me from this death inside

[Verse 2]
I can't escape this love
I want it the way it was
Forever and always
Don't you leave me here
Alone in all this fear
Forever and always

[Bridge]
I can't escape this love
I want it the way it was
You remind me of a time
When I felt alive

I got out of the shower and got dressed. Christian was already up.

"hey" I said " wow why do I have such a bad headache?" I asked him

"You got really drunk last night" he said with a grin. Oh no, it all came back to me Dimirti the screaming, he left me. Wait I was drinking. No, the baby...

So guys watcha think I liked this chapter, but its all up to you guys please review and tell me what you think, the songs are:

.Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes of by Panic at the disco and dead inside by skillet. Love ya guys xoxo :) update tomorrow.