DGM

More Than This

Chapter 19

Desperation

So the science divsion fixed the new training room and Kumari's leg healed and so did a few cuts she got. So the exorcists have been training in there and their skills seemed to improve a little and they got a few new moves. Fighting skills at least. So far only Kumari has unlocked something new. Kumari has also been training with Sunshine a lot and Sunshine has been listening and as warmed up a little, but she didn't liked to be called Sunshine. SO Kumari called her Sun for short. "Hello Yuu." Kumari greeted as she sat beside Kanda.

Kanda grumbled something and Kumari took that as a hi and began eating her lunch. "Soooo, what are you going to do after you're done eating?" Kumari asked.

"Training." Kanda answered.

"In the new or old training room?" Kumari asked.

"What do you think?" Kanda said snidely.

Kumari smiled. "The old one?"

"It's the only place to get away from the-"

"Hey Mari, Yuu!" Lavi cheered, sitting in front of them.

Kumari's smile went down a little and she greeted Lavi and ate. She ignored most of the foolishness from Lavi because Kanda kept threatening him with mugen and had once taken it out, but Sun came and so did Allen then Lenalee. Until most of the table was full of their friends. Kumari half smiled, but wasn't too pleased at all. Kanda finally had enough and left. "What's his problem?" Allen asked.

Kumari looked at her food and ate silently. She looked at the door and watched Kanda leave without giving it a second thought or looking back. She got out of her seat and left. Not bothering to take care of her food for once. She wanted to spend quality time with Kanda and she's been trying for awhile, but someone always came in and got inbetween that. Whether it be the Hentaru clan members or finders or someone! It was annoying that she couldn't get any kind of privacy. Not even by herself. And she wasn't sure if Kanda wanted to be alone or if it would be okay for her to go to the training for with him. No one used it anymore since the new one was better, but a scientist had to watch over them.

While walking out she felt eyes on her and she turned around to glare at Ace. He blinked then looked away. What the hell was with him? Destae looked at her with an apologectic look, but Kumari turned around and walked out. "What's her problem?" Lavi asked.

Kumari peered into the training room and stared at Kanda. She snuck in and hid behind a colum and peaked around the corner and watched Kanda. Would he be okay with her joining him? Probably not. Kumari turned around and started to sneak back out. "What do you want?" Kanda asked, agitated.

Kumari turned around and stared at him. He was swinging mugen around and his back was to her. His senses were much better than hers. So were his reflexes. She was just one step behind with them, but when it came to fighting, especially hand to hand combat, she could beat him anyday. Most of the time. "I was just leaving Yuu. I'll see you later." Kumari said.

Kumari turned back around and started walking out, but she turned back around and held one of her sais up to block Kanda's sword from cutting her arm off. Kanda narrowed his eyes and scowled. Kumari took out her other sai and waved it around in front of her and tried to hit him, but he jumped back. Kumari ran after him and they spared. Kumari tried to hit him so many times, but as long as he had mugen she couldn't get close enough. So, she got mugen stuck between the small daggars and pushed mugen to the side and eventually mugen and her sais went flying. They both looked at each other then back to their weapons. Kanda headed for mugen, but Kumari kicked his side and he stumbled away. She used a mix of her martial arts skills from around the world and used it against Kanda to keep him from mugen.

She tried to kick him, but he raised his arm and she hit it instead of his head. He used his other hand to grab her leg and swing her around to the wall. She quickly got up and did a few different flips and stepped on mugen's blade just as Kanda grabbed the bottom. She kicked his hand then his face and he fell backwards. She jumped on the edge and it flipped up in the air and she it went up high, but didn't come back down. Kanda looked at it and jumped into the air and Kumari followed him. He grabbed it and held it to her throat. Kumari kicked his knee and her hands grabbed his wrist. She twisted it behind his back and pushed him into the brick colum. He turned around and she pushed his hand into the corner of the colum which forced him to drop the sword. His free hand grabbed her left hand and twisted it around her front to the right side and did the same with her other hand. She stopped to get some air and pounded her body against his to force him to let go. He didn't.

She leaned her head back and stared up at the ceiling as her heart pounded in her chest and her adrenline started to calm down. Kanda stared at her with his ever lasting frown. He turned her around and she was still trying to breathe normally again. She stared at his shoulder where his tattoo, or since she knows, his curse was. His got bigger because it went on his arm a little. That means he must've used it. She frowned and put her hand on it. "I guess that means Kanda wins Lavi and that means I win the bet." Allen said, smiling devilishly.

Lavi groaned and Lenalee giggled. Kanda and Kumari turned their heads to stare at a few of their friends. Why were they here? "Why are you here?" Kumari asked, immediately moving away from Kanda.

Kanda picked mugen up and put it back in it's sheath. "To train. It is a training room for everyone." Daisyia told her.

Kumari's frown deepened. "What about the other training room?"

"Couldn't get anyone to supervise. And they were making new stages. Then for the rest of the day the generals get it. So we had no choice but to come here." Krowley answered.

"Why? Did we interrupt something?" Lenalee asked.

Sun stared at the two teenagers who were frowning. Kumari went over and picked up her sais and put them away. "No. I was actually about to leave anyways." Kumari said, but she didn't look too happy.

"What? I wanted to train with you." Timothy said as he ran in, Emilia behind him frowning.

Kanda stared at Kumari. She put on a fake smile and played a charade. "Sorry Timothy. I have to. . . Yuu, where you going?" Kumari said and watched Kanda heading to the doors.

He turned back around and looked at her coldly. Kumari knew he was just as mad as she was about not getting any kind of privacy, but she thought he didn't want the privacy to be with her. She thought he wanted to be alone. As himself. No one else. He turned back around and left. "Is there something wrong?" Allen asked.

"No. I have to go." Kumari said and walked out.

"Do you think we bothered them?" Lenalee queried.

"Nonsense." Lavi said.

Kumari laid in her bed where she had been all day since it was where she could get her only privacy. She turned on her side and looked at the clock. Midnight. She put on her silky like pjs. Instead of a nightgown though, it was a pair of shorts and a tang top. She laid back down and put a hand on her pillow and closed her eyes. A few minutes later a knock at the door startled her. She crawled out from under the covers and opened the door. "Yuu? What are you doing here? At this time of night?" Kumari questioned.

Kanda held out a pair of sais and two letters. One of the letters was the one about Sunshine and her family. The other was about the sais. She took the sais and put them on her desk and started reading the letter from the science divsion. Kanda came in and closed the door. Kumari disregarded this fact and continued reading.

Dear Kumari,

The science divsion has been working hard on a new project for most of you exorcists. We are improving your inncoence and weapons. That is why we asked for you're gloves the other day. We're going to see if we can do somethnig with it. To make it easier. For now, here are some new sais. Try them out when you get the chance. They are indestructable and we've tried everything to destroy them to make it they work. They're strong and long lasting. It'll be hard just to scratch the beauties. So we all hope you enjoy them and we'll give you more info tomorrow. Enjoy and good night.

Your friends,

The Science Divsion

She put the letter on top of the sais and studied the sais. The only difference from these sais to her sais was that the new ones were a little smaller and had the Black Order's emblem on the bottom and was black from tip to bottom. Even the blade, uh, daggars. Plus, the long blade in the middle was more pointy, sharp, and cylinder like. While the two one the sides were flat and sharp. There was some silver and on the silver was her name, engraved in beautiful cursive letters. She set them down and yawned. Kanda stared at her with his beady eyes and Kumari met his eyes. "Oh, I did't know you were still here Yuu. Is there something you want?" Kumari asked.

"You've been trying to get me alone with you for days now." Kanda stated.

She stood up and stand two feet in front of him. Kumari felt her cheeks get hot and she smiled. She waved her hands around in front of her nervously. "It's not like that. I just wanted to spend some time together and you won't talk around the others or they make you mad or intrude on the conversation. I just wanted to talk with you. Nothing special." Kumari said.

Kanda took a step forward and looked down at her. "Talk then."

Kumari opened her mouth to say something, but it just hung there. After so long she closed her mouth firmly and her lips formed a straight line. She just wanted to be alone with Kanda. That's what she has been trying so hard for, but now that she has it, what would she do? What would she say? She went to say something, but she croaked. This just had to be Kanda. SHe had to fall for Kanda. He barely talks and you rarely get him to say, in his way, nice words. His actions speak louder than words because he's no good with words and now, she was no good with words. Not when it came to talking to him. "Thanks for bringing me the sais." Kumari said, trying to end the silence.

Minutes went by, but she couldn't find anything to say. She was very content with just gazing up at him, but she wanted to do more than stare like a lovestruck fool, speechless for words. SHe knew him. She knew him better than anyone else did. Her eyes glanced at the clock and it said two am. She had been staring at him for more than measely minutes. Kanda turned around and started heading towards the door. He must've thought it had been minutes too. Otherwise he would've left beforehand. "If you're not goign to say anything thing then I'm going to bed." Kanda grumbled.

Kumari reached her hand out and put it on his shoulder. "Wait!"

He didn't listen. She ran in front of him and their hands landed on the door knob at the same stood in front of him and you could tell she didn't want him to leave at all. She looked at his chest/ shoulder with the curse. Her other hand touched it and she looked up at him again. "Please don''t leave. I. . . . I want you to stay." Kumari said, sounding desperate.

Kanda stared at her pleading eyes. "I want you to stay. Please Yuu." Kumari repeated, gazing into his eyes. She looked down at the floor. She sounded so desperate. It was pathetic. Kanda's hand slid off the knob though which made her look at him again. "Yuu?"

He pushed her into a wall and she ignored the small stinging as Kanda put one hand on one of her shoulders. Her shirt's strap on that shoulder slid down and her shirt fell a little. Her hands went on his shoulders and she let her hands travel to the back of his neck and head. "Under one condition." Kanda said.

"Anything." Kumari responded.

He didn't need to say anything. She understood just by looking into his eyes. She nodded to answer his unspoken words. She slowly got closer to his face until their lips met. Her hands traveled up his neck and softly touched his face. One of her hands pulled out the rope he used for a rubber band from his hair and dropped it on the floor. Her fingers gently brushed his hair and then softly, but barely, touched his face again. She could swear she saw him smirk and his eyes smiled. It was crazy, but that's what it looked like. One o fher legs wrapped around his waist and the other leg soon followed. Her arms encircled his neck and she got rid of the space between them. She closed her eyes and the next thing she knew her hands were pushing everything off her desk as he put her down and took off his shirt. Her eyes opened and she looked at the curse with a frown. Afraid he would leave her legs wrapped around him tighter and it caused him to bend down over top of her.

She put her arms on his shoulders and she kiss his chest and up his neck until their lips met again and their eyes gazed into one another. She could feel his arms hug her body and his hands lay flat against her back. Her arms hugged him and her hand laid flat against his bare back. His skin felt so warm. She thought it would be cold. She felt her hands shiver and her fingers tremble for some unknown reason. The air around them cold really cold and she closed her eyes, afraid this was all a dream and darkness would overcast her. She didn't want him to go anywhere tonight. She wanted to be with him and she was willing to give him everything whenever. She was ready whenever he was. The shivering continued up her arms though and Kanda could feel them shake. He pulled away from the kiss and stared at her. Her lips trembled and she stared back at him. "Nothing is wrong. I just don't want to let you go. Not tonight. Not ever. I'm yours and only yours. What use would I be if I didn't have you?" Kumari said, answering the question in his eyes.

This time she was positive he smiled. Literally smiled. Not evil smirk. No evil smile. It wasn't in his eyes. It was a real smile. On his lips. Her arms stopped shivering and she laid there on the desk, disregarding the spliters in her back she got from when Kanda put her on it. She smiled, but it disappeared when she heard a knnock at the door. She looked at the door and sighed. She got out from under Kanda's body and sat on the desk for a minute. Who would be here at this time of night? What the hell would they want? She stood up and her body got cold as her bare feet walked across the room, but Kanda grabbed her wrist, pushed her around, and forced her to lay down on the bed and she was lucky that he didn't break the bed by how hard he pushed her on the bed. He stripped her of her clothes except her under garments and the person knocked at the door again. He put his hands on each side of her head and stared at her, his hair touching her neck and face a bit. She heard another knock and was about to get up, but Kanda forced her to lay down. "Ignore it." Kanda ordered.

Kumari didn't know if that was a good idea, but it was after two. She would be sleeping and they wouldn't wake her. They'll leave in a few minutes and besides, her door locked automactically. If anyone tried to get in they would have to break the door down and no one was stupid enough to do that. So she nodded and her upper body sat up a bit as her arm wraped around his back and neck and she kissed him again. She ignored the next few minutes of knocking and enjoyed the kiss. Her eyes moved from the door to the back of the room where Chester's bed was. She forgot all about him. She could see Chester's big, brown, curious eyes in the dark and they started to turn a green or red because of being in the dark. It was creepy how the dogs' eyes did that. She gave the dog a look that told him to hide or sleep or turn around. Chester laid down with his front paws in front o f him. He put his head on them and then put a paw over his snout and covered his eyes. Good dog. She looked at her book shelf and noticed the knocking stopped. She moaned as Kanda's tongue entered her mouth and closed her eyes again.

Kanda suddenly stopped and she opened them again. She turned her head to look at the door that was open and where Kanda was glaring. Reever, Lenalee, and Lavi were all red and Kumari's hand loosened and her back fell against the mattress. She couldn't even get privacy in her own room. She blinked her eyes once and she picked her head up an inch then pound it back on the mattress, furious. She was so close to Kanda. She came so close to it. They almost had everything. "Uhhhh, s. . sor . .sorry. K. . Komui wa. . .wants to s. . see.. . .all exorcists in. . in his office. Ex. . excuse us." Lavi stammered and closed the door.

Kanda got on his feet and picked his shirt up to put it back on. He picked up the rope and exited the room, pissed. Kumari quickly dressed into her pjs again. She slipped on some Chinese slippers and walked out of her room. She wasn't far behind Kanda, but said nothing. She half glared at the floor, but she was too sad and disappointed to glare even though she was insanely angry. When Kanda opened the door to Komui's office and entered he stopped in his tracks to glare at the three intruders who were still redder than a tomato. They were in his way and he pushed Lavi and Reever out of the way and his shoulder bumped into Lenalee's. Kumari entered the room and all eyes went on her. Great. Just great. They also told the others or they found out by their looks or something! They all knew and that was enough! She has had enough.

Kumari slammed the door shut and everyone flinched as the wall cracked. Ace sniffed the air and frowned. She was still a virgin. That meant Kanda was too. KUmari glared at Komui and she has had the last straw, but said nothing. She only stood in one corner of the room. She stared at Kanda and hoped her anger would disappear, but Kanda being infuriated more than ever bofore just ticked her off more. She did notice that he didn't put his hair back up though. She looked away from him and stared at Komui, thinking of slow painful deaths for him. Komui gulped and coughed into his hand.

"I'm sorry to disturb all of you at this late of night, but we have an emergency. But first, I would liek to start off with something else because you would most likely be too distracted in your thoughts to listen. We've noticed an increase in the akumas population and several finders' camps have been invaded and most killed. The same goes for towns. They weren't just killed by akuma though. Some were slaughtered by the Noahs as well. As you know they have been targeting our exorcists lately and we've been keeping track of many things to help us find some clues because it seems the Earl is calling us out. We have an idea where they might be hiding for now or where they're heading to next. I can go into many details about this, but not many of you would probably understand completely so we'll give you that tomorrow or sometime later on. A meeting has been called for all supervisors and the generals. That means Leverrier is coming. As of now though, we're in a huge problem. If you look around the room you will discover a lot of missing exorcists from when we started months ago. From this day forth, these are your only comrades. This is all of the exorcists we have left. You might not be sent on a mission for awhile, but knowing Leverrier, I can't guarntee it. But, for now, this is all I can tell you." Komui paused and his seriousness vanished and was replaced with a sad face.

"Allen Walker, from this day forth, you are the fifth General of the five Generals. Now, the Order has been struck with tradegy. Not only have we lost one Supervisor from when Lulubell came and stole back the ark, but Daisyia Barry and General Kevin Yeager were sent on a mission together hours ago and unforunately they came across two Noahs and they killed the two exorcists. Noahs are unknown for now until we inspect the bodies and cremate them." Komui said as he stared at everyone in the room.

Kumari's anger disappeared along with Kanda. Her eyes widened and her heart stung. Yeager was her mentor, more so than Tiedoll, and she was his only living student left. Daisyia was like her brother. A piece of her world shattered just like Lenalee's. She heard a few people sob and cry, but no tears fell from her eyes. Despite the horrible sadness in her. She suddenly forgot how to breathe and she wasn't sure if she was. She fell on her knees and her hands fell in her lap and they dug into her legs. She squeezed her eyes shut and she trembled more than she ever has before. It was like when she lost her father all over again. She didn't know what to think. What to do. She felt like taking a knife and ripping her heart out, but she couldn't. She wouldn't. Instead, she screamed so loud she thought she was going to go deaf her herself and her lugs were going to explode. She pounded on the floor until she crumbled and she hunched over, head touching the floor, hand in a small crater she created and hand bleeding.

She should've been sent on that mission with Yeager. She was his student! Not Daisyia! She was to protect him! Not the other way around. Tiedoll kneeled down in front of her as he wiped the tears away from behind his glasses. He gently touched her shoulder, but she smacked it away and started pounding on him. A few people stood up and a few people came over and was about to stop her, bit Tiedoll held his hand up to stop them and hugged Kumari. Her hands stopped pounding him after so long and they began so weak it would hurt a fly. Her hands landed on his shoulders and then she balled her hands into fists, gribbing his clothes and cried in his chest. Kanda stared at her, but didn't know what to do but watch as the usually strong Kumari broke down again. Tiedoll frowned sadly, but rubbed her head and let her cry. He could try to make her stop, to calm down, but she wouldn't. Not with something like this. So he acted like the father she needed and grew up without and prayed it would be enough for the heartbroken girl.

Kumari sobbed and sobbed for what seemed like forever and with ever lasting tears. Blood stained her vision and memories of people, stranger and friends alike, flashed in her mind. This was exactly why she didn't want to come back. To fight. And yet, this is the same reason why she did come back. She felt like shattered glass and she felt dead. She should've been dead. She should've been in Daisyia's place. So why wasn't she? Tiedoll patted her back and she opened her eyes and looked at him. He was crying too. He lost a student, a son. He lost a good friend. He was going through the same torment as herself. She had to remember that. She wasn't the only one suffering, but she couldn't be strong for anyone else because she couldn't even be strong for herself. She wasn't sure how much time had passed, but it had been a long time because the sun was shining and the exorcists left in the office skipped breakfeast, lunch, and maybe even dinner. It took almost a day for her tears to dry up though. She was still in h er corner and Tiedoll was still with her, but she was curled up into a ball. Her chin on her arms which wrapped around her legs. She stared at Lenalee, Lavi, Marie, Allen, and Kanda. Lavi was hugging Lenalee, comforting her just like Allen did earlier. Kanda sat down and Marie cried every now in then.

She wasn't crying, but she felt like she was. She just stared around the room which only mad her sadder as she remembered everything Yeager had done for her. She may have spent most of her time wit Kanda and a lot of time with Tiedoll's team, but Yeager was more of her teacher and grandfather in her opinon. He was always there for her and he gave her a wonderful education. She was going to miss him so much. So much. She closed her eyes for a minute then looked at everyone again. They all fell asleep. She had stayed up all night and was probably going to be up all night again, but she couldn't just sit around mourning. And yet, she did. "Kevin. . . . . Yeager." Kumari mumbled.