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I've been enjoying this story so far- as in writing it that is. Tell me how you feel about it… I want to know if I could improve in some parts or just you know… add stuff.

~GoGreen52

"Depression is not sobbing and crying and giving vent, it is a plain reduction of feeling… People who keep stiff upper lips and find that it's damn hard to smile." – Judith Guest

Secrets

Chapter 5- Depressed

-Bella POV-

I walked around the cabins. Percy and Annabeth where off doing who knows what, and you know… I just wanted to be alone for awhile.

I soon found myself at the beach; and I have a good feeling my invisible pull towards water has something to do with that.

Memories started to come back to my mind. They all had something to do with him. When we met. Biology with Mr. Banner. The car incident. The way he gave me that crooked smile. James attacking, threatening to take us apart. My birthday party.

I knew that I had to get over it, but I just didn't know how. Trust me on this, if I knew how to get over these lost emotions, I would. But I just can't.

I layed my head back down onto the snow-like sand and sighed. I was home now. After sending those emails, my world from the outside came back and pinched me in the nerve. I have been trying to get over it, yet my mind won't let me. Stupid Aphrodite.

The sky rumbled, but at the moment I could care less.

-Edward POV-

After reading the email Bella had sent to me, I was dry sobbing. At that moment, I knew that I had really screwed up. She had changed. I knew that.

"Edward, you need to get over it," Rosalie insisted, her eyebrows curved in worry. That was new…

"Why would you care?" I asked, covering my face with my apparently cold hands.

"I care about my family. That means, I care about you. Alice had told me how much you've been suffering and saw that Bella hasn't been much better. We should find her." Rose replied, setting her hands on her hips.

"What if I don't want to?" I asked, practically just asking for a swat on the head.

"I could care less. Everyone but you already agreed to go on a search." Rosalie pushed, backing to the door.

"You do that. She'll just send you right back though, I screwed up and she told us never to search for her," I explained, my voice as sharp as nails.

"I honestly doubt that, Edward. There's something going on, though. Ask Alice." Rose said, walking out. Well, that was a conversation. I just got back to thinking of all of those times I have fallen even in more with Bella from. And I still am.

But I don't know if could say the same for her.

-Bella POV-

I got up from my spot on the beach and dove into the water. No need to hurry back. Percy and Annabeth probably have guessed I was off sulking.

"Why did he do this to me?" I asked out into the wind. Nothing answered, as I knew nothing would.

"Love, dear." A melodic voice chimed. I turned around to see Aphrodite lounging on the beach, close to where I was just moments before.

"If he loved me, then why did he leave me? I mean, he even claimed that he never loved me." I insisted, and she just scoffed.

"Trust me on this, Bella." Aphrodite said, fixing her hair.

"Look, go ahead and ruin someone else's life, but right now… I just need to be alone." My voice cracked at the end. Stupid tears.

"See? You defiantly don't want, nor need, to be alone. You're getting over one of the most horrid breakups in history." She explained. I rolled my watery eyes, causing a few tears to escape.

"Just leave me alone!" I cried, sinking to the ground. My life was torturous already. I don't need Aphrodite having fun with my emotions and feelings. She already killed my relationship with… him.

Aphrodite looked at me sadly, then sighed and went away in a poof of dozens of doves.

I was sobbing, and screaming sometimes… I guess.

"BELLA!" I heard someone shout and I felt footsteps next to me. Someone took me into their arms and tried to console me. I looked and saw that it was my little brother. He was rubbing my back and saying some good words to me, but it wouldn't stop.

I, Bella Jackson, was deemed worthless.

-Rosalie POV-

Everyone in our family, besides Edward, where in front of a map. We knew that Bella wasn't in Arizona or Washington. That leaves us with 49 more states to look for her in. We were going to go New York first, considering Alice wanted to shop, and we were thinking of moving there.

"Okay, we don't have to split up, considering we all are going to have to decide on some things together," Esme spoke, and we nodded.

Carlisle said, "We need to search in more non-populated areas, considering how Bella usually works. She would defiantly be in a less populated area."

I nodded again and looked at the map of New York. There was a few different non- populated areas, but I knew with our speed, we'd be done in a day.

"I wanna go shopping, though." Alice said in an earnest voice. I laughed a bit and looked at Emmet, and he looked about as giddy as Alice was. It was good to see them happy again.

"Let's go before the search, then." I said, and everyone spoke and nodded in agreement.

"Well, that settles it. We're going tomorrow." Carlisle said, and we all smiled. We are going to find you, Bella. And bring you to where you belong. With the Cullens.

-Bella POV-

After Percy and Annabeth managed to get me to calm down, Annabeth decided it would be a good idea for the girls to go out and shop in New York tomorrow.

"What? No!" I exclaimed, hopping onto my bunk.

"Why not?" Annabeth asked, and Percy smirked.

"She hates to shop, wise girl." Percy explained for me, "It's really no use."

"But she needs to get away. We can have fun, go to a few museums…" I smiled at Annabeth and knew she would really have fun if I went with her. Plus, Percy and Annabeth do need to learn what it's like to be away from a loved one…

"Okay." I said, and Annabeth gave me a large smile. Her face looked like it was going to explode… a lot like Alice's most of the time.

"Good, its settled. We're going tomorrow."

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