AN: This is the chapter about T and her girls and how they came to be the Trinity, also kind of how and why T became T instead of Tay. No, she doesn't have a personality issues, she just changed when she became the little killer that Koz and Hap created and is having a hard time finding a balance between who she has become and who she wants to be. I am not to happy with the way this story part of the story right now, but let me know if you guys like it. I am trying to give you insight into who T is and why she is the way she is. So bare with me….

As always I don't know own the SOA : ( but I do own my plot and characters.

Hap and the rest of the guys were so wrapped up in the sluts that they didn't hear the car pull away from the club. T had snuck out of Hap's window. T was happy as hell when she passed the Thanks for visiting Charming sign. T called her girls and they all meet their usual bar. A undefined bar, one that didn't belong to or was run by anyone of their families or enemies. Lonnie and Marcy were waiting for T, when she walked in they yelled

"Tay Babe, we missed you!"

She smiled and slide into the booth with her girls. They got around of shots. Once they finished them, they got more. The girls or as they had been dubbed in juvie the trinity, Marcy was the sister of the head of the Mayans, and Lonnie is Leroy's little sister, while T is Jonny's little cousin. This was an interesting find for the girls considering that the three clubs are not always or ever on good times. In juive though, the girls got put in the same cell. Lonnie didn't think she would need protection that was until some of the 9ners decided that wanted to test Lonnie. Tay was pissed when a bunch of black girls come into their cell. Tay wasn't going to just sit by while a girl she had to room with for a year, would get her ass beat. So she jumped in when the all the girls ganged up on her. Soon after Marcy jumped in too, when the guards finally came to brake it up, all three girls were thrown into solitary. They could talk though, the cells were close, Tay leaned close and said.

"Why the hell did a bunch of black girls come up into our cell like that?"

Lonnie, even though it sucked was glad that her cell mates helped her.

"My brother is Leroy, he runs the 9ners and when I was 15, in high school and thinking I was in love, what was better than joining your brothers gang, and banging with your boyfriend? Those girls got caught, a couple months back and are pissed, or I don't know trying to show me that they run this jail. Stupid as hell if you ask me, but I guess they hope jumping the 9ner princess will give them some street cred. Thanks for not just standing there."

"Shit, I just helped a 9ner, wonder when the Spanish girls are going to jump me or us, since my brother is head of the Mayans and we all know that the Mayans and the 9ners don't exactly bang together."

"awe fuck man, at least were going to be in here for a while" Lonnie said then added "what about you white girl?"

T sighed, "I live with my cousin Jonny, he runs the Sons or Anarchy in Tacoma."

"this is just fucking lovely, the three top Cali gangs who don't get along, their princess are all locked in a cell together and helped one getting jumped by her people." Marcy said and sat down on her bunk.

"That's the point though, her own people jumped her, now we got to wait and see if the Spanish bitches want to start shit. I'm lucky there are no girls with the sons, but we got into this mess, I plan on sticking it out. I'm down if you guys are." T said

"I'm in" Lonnie said.

Both girls heard Marcy say something in Spanish then add "me too"

When the girls got out of solitary, they stuck together. Sure some Nord bitches, and some Spanish bitches tried them, but after they showed that they were sticking together, and didn't mind kicking someone's ass or spending time in solitary, they got named the trinity. Nobody fucked with them. When Jonny showed up a couple weeks later and was actually able to visit because for once she wasn't in the hole. He asked if she needed protection Leroy had offered some up, though it was at a high cost to him, Jonny didn't want his baby cousin getting beat all the time. Shit she had already spent almost the last three weeks in the hole, T shook her head,

"Nope I'm good, tell Leroy to ask his girls about the trinity. My girls got my back."

She made eye contact with her girls as she said this. She didn't know that her girls were telling their brothers the same thing. T left Jonny then, as he was walking out so were Leroy and Marcus. All of them mumbling about the trinity, when they noticed they all stopped. Jonny spoke up.

'What the hell is the trinity Leroy?" Leroy shook his head,

"No clue, but if we all got family in there and are mumbling about the same thing it cant be good." He said while eyeing the Mexican biker. "I got one of my other girls coming down, so I'm going to go in and ask her, you can wait if you want."

Jonny and Marcus both nodded. They headed outside and smoked. Leroy came out 15 minutes later and was pissed. He explained that his sister Lonnie, along with a white girl named Tay and a Mexican chick named Marcy were dubbed the trinity after three rounds in the hole, from beating on some black, Mexican and white hate bitches. The men all looked at each other.

"This shit should be interesting" Jonny said. When both of the guys looked at him he added "they got each others backs in here, they are going to have them when they get out. Don't get me wrong I'm not saying that we should all team up or whatever, but I do think that we should make it so all of our girls are safe. No shooting at my girl and I wont shot at yours, make it a three statewide thing. Here, Washington and Nevada. I'll breach it with my guys tonight, if you guys are down."

Even though none of them liked the idea, they knew that if they hurt each other or one of the girls, their sisters wouldn't be speaking to their brothers anymore. Jonny knew T and if some shit happened she would never speak to any of his guys again.

T was broken from her memory as Lonnie tapped her on the shoulder.

"You straight Tay? You been acting funny like since you got here, and your early so we know something went down. Them Charming assholes not so Charming?"

T shook her head

"A bunch of fucking assholes and aside from that got Hap and Koz both still on my ass about the whole crow thing, 'you know what this means T, you belong to the club, blah, blah, blah.' Fucking bastards! I didn't even want that shit they got me drunk let me pass out and then fucking held me down while they did it. At least its only the fucking outline shit still pisses me off I'm not fucking property, I belong to no one but me and well of course you girls. We are the mother fucking trinity but still fucking ass bastards. I snuck out the god damn window and no one even noticed yet. Probably be getting a call soon though."

Both girls nodded. They remembered the night those fuck heads did that shit. T almost fucking killed them. After a couple more drinks the girls headed to a hotel for the night. Marcy and Lonnie shared a look once they got to the hotel, they knew that T was at the end of her rope. Not a lot of people could see it but T was broken inside. She had been since she became the little killer. Tay was still in there, but she was having to hard of a time balancing all the fuckery that is now her everyday life. Her girls just hoped that she could find a balance. They didn't want their best friend to become cold hearted, it didn't look well on her.

They decided they would head back to Washington tomorrow and they were going straight to their house right off campus. As T pulled into the hotel her phone rang. Hap was displayed on the caller ID. T hit the ignore button and called Jonny

"Where the hell are you?" Jonny said into the phone

"On my way home asshole, tell hap to quit fucking calling me. I did what needed to be done, and when he started getting all demanding and shit I bounced. I told you. I don't fucking belong to nobody and they better fucking get that shit soon, I'm done playing games I didn't even want to play in the first fucking place Jonny. This crow tat that they are so damn fucking proud of that shits going, tomorrow first fucking thing seriously get them to quit the shit or come summer once schools over I'm out of this bitch for fucking real."

Jonny sighed, he knew that shit was a bad idea, and he knew it was going to come to this,

'look just come by the shop tomorrow and we'll talk okay baby sis?"

"No" T clipped and hung up. Jonny tried to call back but her phone was off. Jonny called Hap

"she's on her way home, and shes really pissed. Hope you had a good time fuck head because shes getting rid of the crow tomorrow and theres nothing any of us can do about it. She didn't want it in the first place. But for real though she said you guys don't quit the shit she's out of the state once school is done and I aint losing my baby sister because you guys don't fucking listen."

Hap sighed and pushed the crow eater on the floor and told her to get out. He was pissed now.

"Im bout ready to just go find her ass and drag her back kicking and fucking screaming, this shit is old Jonny. I bet she still has the crow the next time you see her. I don't understand why she plays these games. She has had it for a year now and never got it covered. She always threatens to get it covered when she's pissed and she doesn't. She just likes to piss off." Hap told the Tacoma Pres.

Jonny sighed, Koz said almost the same thing

"She's not playing brother, she never fucking was. I wish you guys could understand that, get it through your fucking heads that not all females in this fucking world want you. Let it go."

Jonny hung up. Koz and Hap were driving him fucking crazy. T didn't want them, and she wasn't making a game out of it. She was fucking serious, and after she almost shot and killed all three of them for that tat stunt, he knew they had gone too far.

The trinity pulled up to their favorite tat shop in Seattle. T walked in and saw that Jake was working. He smiled at the woman.

"Hey baby what can I do for you today?" He asked giving her and all the girls a kiss on the cheek. She shot him a smile. T had a huge crush on Jake, but wouldn't take it any further then a crush until this Hap-Koz shit was done for ever. She wouldn't bring drama to one of the best people in her life.

"Do what the hell ever you can to change this into something that is not a fucking crow and tell no one that you did it." Jake nodded, he was used to her and the girls strange requests.

He knew that some of the shit that they did and lived around wasn't all good. He asked T out on a date, and she told him she wanted to go, really fucking badly, she just didn't want any drama to follow him. He agreed and they did hook up a couple times, but that was it. He loved working on her, except for the happy faces on her he did all her work, and well whatever the fuck it was she was now asking him to cover up. He looked at it and then drew up a phoenix that should cover it without looking shitty. She smiled at the design when it was done and they went in the back.

The tat took three hours and once it was done, she was happy as hell with it. She paid him, and tipped him and the girls left the shop. Once they got into their house T turned her phone back on. There were messages from both Koz and Hap telling her she better not get her crow covered up.

"Oh well" she laughed, "too late" and there was a message asking her to call Jonny back.

She decided to head over there instead. Her girls were worried about what the guys would do when they found out, but they knew T could handle herself. They just hoped that having a face off with Koz wouldn't destroy her. She used to talk about Koz all the time when they were in juvie. She had nothing bad to say about the man. She wanted him more then she wanted anything, and that was the reason she gave her girls when she told them about the training. She wanted to be an old lady, to wear a crow and cook and clean and have babies. Now she's always wearing that damn killer mask, the domestic part of her pretty much died when the killer part was born.

"I'm worried about her chicka" Marcy said

Lonnie nodded "Me too girl, me too"

T pulled up to Tacoma auto and got out. Koz came rushing at her. She just looked at him, when Koz went to grab her Jonny called out

"leave my cousin alone Koz. I thought we had a talk about this last night and then again this morning." Koz ignored him and kept coming at her anyways. T threw her arms out and pushed him away, she knew she wouldn't be able to take him in a but she didn't want him anywhere near her. He would weaken her resolve in admitting that she was giving up everything she ever wanted. She sighed loudly

"you know Koz, you used to be one of the favorite people in the whole world, you and Happy both", she didn't notice that Jonny was on the phone and she wouldn't find out until later that Happy was hearing everything she said, "I loved you, both of you so much, then you guys went on this fucking power trip over me, 'Choose T, who do you want to be with' all the fucking time. Well you finally got your fucking wish and I hope it makes you happy, because this is what I choose," she held up her shirt where her freshly tatted phoenix was, the cover up for her crow. "Neither, I am not something to be fucking owned. I would gladly give back all the shit you two taught me if it meant that I could be in the same room with you guys again without feeling like a fucking object. Right now I hate you both. I hope your both fucking happy now"

Jonny hung up the phone as T stood tall in front of one of the men she gave up everything for. She looked at Koz, his face was in a mask but you could see the hurt in his eyes. He raised his hand toward her, she thought for sure he was going to hit her, but instead he touched her face gently and stalked off.

Jonny shook his head. He walked over to his baby cousin, the little sister he never had. Her calm mask showed nothing, not even her eyes, a trick she learned from the guys. He never planned on letting her become the little killer but she had and she was. She smiled at him and gave him a hug. She walked to her car climbed in and drove home.

Marcy and Lonnie turned toward the door when T came storming in the house, but with one look at her they realized that it wasn't T the killer walking in that door, it was Tay and she looked broken. She walked over to the couch and plopped right down between them.

"remember in juive how I was still bad ass and smart and knew how to talk my way out of anything and if that didn't work I fought my way out of it? Remember how I all I wanted was to get out and turn 18 and get a crow and become Koz's old lady?" She asked her girls, the only ones who were ever fucking honest with her.

"Of course we do, I remember making fun of his name. After you told us his name I think we laughed for like five fucking minutes." Lonnie told her, while Marcy nodded both wondering where this way going, and hoping like hell that Tay didn't lose it in the process.

"I really thought that doing all this would bring us closer, make him love me more. I realize now that I was just a stupid little girl. I got what I wanted though, he wants me to be his old lady and give me a crow, but I just gave it all away, threw it right back in his face. I noticed and it took me awhile, but neither Koz or Happy really love me. They are obsessed with me, with the person they created. I hate being her, I hate feeling cold hearted, but I cant shut it off. Its part of me now, Jonny said that I just have to find a balance, like how it is being best friends with you guys and being part of the club, but that's hard too. I made my choice to belong more to you guys then them, but I am afraid. For the first time in a long time I am scared and I don't know what to do. I need to get away from here once schools done. I have to find myself and decide who I really want to be." T finished, but instead of looking at her girls she just stared straight at the wall.

Marcy and Lonnie just looked at her, and then each other before leaning forward and pulling her into a group hug.

"No matter what, we are here for you and we love you. No one will break up the trinity" Marcy told her girls.

It was weird for her, because for once Marcy needed to be the strong one. Her girls needed her to help them get through this. Tay had always been the strong one with them. She was the one who was the advice giver, the protector, the big sister and the shoulder to cry on. Right now though she needed someone else to be the level headed one and Marcy knew that it was her turn to take the place of rock. And that was exactly what she planned on doing. Marcy would make sure that Tay got as far away from this hell as she could after graduation.

Once Tay went to bed Marcy looked to Lonnie.

"I'm thinking that there is a beach in Florida calling that girls name. We need to get her passage down there because you know she will want to drive, she thinks better that way." Lonnie nodded in agreement and they headed off to bed themselves, after all there was still three weeks until graduation.