26.

I woke up and turned around to the empty spot next to me. I stared at the untouched pillow and imagined Danny lying there. His muscled chest going up and down for breathing, the freckles on his face, the slight smile he usually had when he was sleeping. For a second he was actually there but when I reached out my hand he vanished.

I sighed and got up to take a shower. While doing that my mind slipped to Danny again. Is he ok? Did he safe Dougie? When will he be back? I just feel so restless when he's not around me.

After the shower I went downstairs to make some breakfast but when I wanted to cut an apple I couldn't because my hands were shaking. And as hard as I tried I couldn't stop them.

'Morning!' Zena suddenly said. She was bright and shiny this morning. I quickly hid my hands behind my back.

'Oh err.. Morning' I stuttered

'Is everything alright?' she asked. 'You're acting weird'

'Everything is cool'

She frowned and stared at my arms that went behind my back. I couldn't hide it any longer and with a sigh, I showed them to her.

'Are you a drug addict or something?' she asked with narrowed eyes.

'NO! I don't do drugs!'

'Alcohol than?'

'I only drink on occasions'

'Cigarettes?'

I shook my head and she studied me. 'Well, there has to be something' she said

'Why?'

'You're having withdrawal symptoms. You're having a temper, shaking hands, restlessness.. They're all signs'

'But I'm not addicted to anything!' I snapped at her

'Don't bite my nose off, I'm only trying to help'

We looked at each other in silence. Meanwhile I was still trying to control my hands.

'Don't you feel the need to do something?' She asked

I felt like jumping of a bridge because Danny wasn't around me but I couldn't actually say that, can I?

'Not really' I said

She suddenly smiled and that confused me. 'You're really good, if I didn't know any better I would have believed you' She paused to look at me but I was frozen.

'Or maybe you don't know it yourself.. That's possible too' She said more to herself than to me.

'Could you please explain to me what's going on?'

'Do you remember the day you met Danny, you asked him if you will see him again?'

'Yeah'

'And he said he hoped to never see you because if he did it was because you're in danger?'

I nodded.

'That's when it all started. You put your life on the line time and time again, just to see him. You thought you were addicted to danger but you're actually addicted to Danny.'

'I'm not addicted to Danny!' I snapped again.

But she continued as if she hadn't heard me. 'Now Danny's gone, you feel the need again to do something dangerous don't you?'

It was confronting how she knew all these things about me without I even knew them myself. And she wasn't even there! I shook my head.

'I'm out of here' I said and walked out of the door.

'Don't do anything stupid!' Zena yelled after me. 'Danny isn't here to protect you!'

I knew Zena was right about me. Now that Danny's gone I feel again what I felt back then. The desperation to see him and the only way to do so was to be in danger. But it sounded so ridiculous to be addicted to a person. Who the hell is addicted to a person?

I kept my hands in my pocket so people wouldn't stare at me. But they did.. It was like I had a sign on my forehead saying: This loser is addicted to a superhero from another galaxy.

I was glad when the night began to fall and the staring faces disappeared into their homes. I walked on a bridge and stopped in the middle to look down. It was a long way down to the water. I looked around me and found a pebble. I let it fall off the bridge and counted.

It took 10 seconds for the pebble to fall into the water. That's really a long way down. But for some reason I couldn't walk away. I wanted to, I had to.. But I couldn't. My heart was racing for this opportunity.

I climbed over the bars and looked down. This time it would be different. This time Danny won't be here to safe me. But it's only water right? It's not like something bad is going to happen.. Is it? I'm only going to get wet.

I turned around so I would fall with my back down. I didn't want to look how the water would come closer and closer because I knew I would close my eyes. I wanted to look at the sky, how it will be further and further away from me.

I took a deep breath and let go off the bars and let myself fall. I looked at the sky, it was as peaceful as I thought it would be. It actually felt like flying!

I counted so the water wouldn't come as a complete surprise. '1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10'

I imprinted the sky in my head. The stars shining bright against a dark sky and a full moon where you could clearly see the craters. It was a beautiful last sight to have because deep inside me I knew that I wouldn't just get wet..

As I fell I didn't fall into the water but on something hard. Arms were put around my waist and pushed me against the muscled chest I know so well. He turned me around and put an arm under my legs. My head was next to his neck and I smelled his body odor. I smiled and closed my eyes while resting my head in his neck. My hands grabbed his shirt tight, I didn't want to let go of him again.

It was perfect, the wind blowing in my face, his strong arms around me.. I felt peaceful again. Suddenly the tiredness overpowered me and I fell asleep.